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mash a monster blogger mash it was a graveyard smash it did the mash it caught on in a flash it did the mash it did the monster blog mash the zombies and bloggers were having fun the blog party had just begun the scene was rockin we were digging the shares some were commenting well those who dared so add your link and des crypt ion girls and guys then suddenly to your surprise you can mash you can monster blogger mash while i often say the best part of blogging is meeting other bloggers readers etc it s been too long since we hung together so welcome to view original post 423 more words posted by kayuk filed in uncategorized tags blog meet halloween humor scairy 2 comments new life a haiku october 28 2015 photo taken june 2014 in bromont quebec by v kayuk new life by kayuk new essense of life this miracle before us no eye has yet seen posted by kayuk filed in poetry tags eye of the beholder haiku life miracles new life photos poem poetry 9 comments making tomorrow a haiku october 27 2015 photo taken june 2014 in bromont quebed by v kayuk tomorrow by kayuk i dream tomorrow into existence each night i dream carefully posted by kayuk filed in poetry uncategorized tags dreams future haiku planning poem poetry tomorrow 15 comments dreams a haiku october 26 2015 photo taken june 9 2014 in bromont quebec by v kayuk dreams by kayuk with eyes wide open i dream not of what is now but of what will be posted by kayuk filed in poetry tags dreams eyes wide open flower bud future haiku introspective photos poem poetry today 15 comments the grateful book september 21 2015 for several years i was mired in grief as i struggled to come to terms with those feelings of loss we all have when someone close to us dies and we either ignored the signs or felt helpless through the process that in many cases lasts for years as my grief cycle lost some of its hold on me i started reading again in my search for stepping stones to help me rise from a serious depression to a brighter life i also turned to friends and relatives and my new boyfriend and they have all stood by my side as i slowly beat back the viny tendrils of my own mind that were trying to hold me back one of the suggestions i came across was called the grateful book that s not the name of a book but is an exercise to help turn the tables on the mind and it has been of immense help to me the premise is simple buy a brand new spiral notebook and a pen that you can keep by your bed each day either before turning out the light at night or before rising in the morning write down 10 things you are truly grateful for for me this usually takes up most of a page so i just use a new page for each day the page of my book from this morning follows as an example however to give you a better understanding of why i write what i do let me tell you where i live and what i saw yesterday i live in an apartment in a barn the apartment was converted from a farm manager office with the horse stall next to it remodelled into a bedroom and the storage room behind converted to a bath room there are three other 12 x 12 apartments in this facility that do not have bathrooms or windows but there is a common kitchen and a toilet in the office in the second barn the people in the other apartments bathe late at night with a hose outside in the dark there is no hot water in comparison my 700 sq ft apartment is the taj mahal i have two window air conditioners a small window a real stove and refrigerator and a full bathroom with hot water as well as my bedroom yesterday the woman who lives with her husband in one of the rooms proudly showed me their home it was spotless smelled of cleaning products and had a dresser a mattress on the floor and storage bins stacked in one corner there was a coffee pot on the dresser and it must have been over 100 degrees in the windowless room she had a big smile and was so happy to show it to me so here is this morning s page from my grateful book i am grateful every day that i have a boyfriend who is a good man and cares about me i am grateful every day that i have a kitchen with all the appliances i need and extra ones that are convenient i am grateful every day that i have running water and a functional indoor bathroom where i can privately bathe i am grateful every day that i have lots of clothes for any weather condition i am grateful every day that i have boxes and shelves of books to read about a variety of subjects from humor to self improvement and education to science fiction i am grateful every day that i wake up each morning to the sounds of life all around me i am grateful every day that i can watch the sunset from my front door i am grateful every day for the incredible beauty i see in clouds water trees flowers animals and the faces around me i am grateful every day for my functioning brain and the creative thoughts i have as well as all the memories of my life i am grateful every day for the taste of clean water the smell of coffee the sounds of birds the sight of growing things and the touch of others i am grateful every day for the lifetime of hugs i have received and for each one i will get in the future sometimes i have a particular person or event on my mind and what comes to mind is all the things related to that many themes repeat like my boyfriend my sister my friends adventures and travel i have enjoyed moments i remember my animals vehicles that are old but functional my job educational grants i ve recieved at first it was hard to think of a single good thing to be grateful for then as i got into the thought patterns of actually seeing what is around me it became easier and easier to be grateful for everything it s hard to believe as i sit here inside a solid building and type on my computer that is connected to the rest of the world through the internet while a cool breeze from the air conditioner wafts the warm scent of toasting cinnamon english muffin through the air and a little black and white cat stretches in contentment and companionship next to me that there are places in the world where bombs are falling homes are being invaded women are not allowed education or employment and that my very neighbors don t have bathrooms how can i not be grateful for what i have and where i live posted by kayuk filed in comment of the week health journey through esophageal cancer tags apartment brains cats companion education family farm friends grateful life memories perspective water 10 comments september is suicide prevention awareness month september 18 2015 depression is increasing in the us at an alarming rate and i think we all suffer from it to one extent or another from an occasional unfounded sadness to day after day trapped under the water hopelessness none of us want to feel this way it isn t a choice we make thank you for bringing this to the attention of your readers from one who has been there and still visits on occasion coffeegrounded s blog dedicated to prescilla if you re a regular reader of my blog you have most likely heard me refer to depression from time to time namely my personal journey with this heinous and insidious monster many people find it taboo to discuss it openly especially if it hits a bit too close to home shame and stigma are the calling cards of mental illness oh my god what happens if someone i know reads my wife s blog why on earth would my daughter in law publicly embarrass me like this omg how can i distance myself scrub this embarrassment from my social world well maybe they really pay me no mind and all of this is just a figment of my imagination or maybe i m cautiously reminded of words that bounced about the room a finger pressed into my chest as i was taunted over how ridiculously embarrassing and cruel i view original post 384 more words posted by kayuk filed in uncategorized leave a comment the macho syndrome or how i m killing myself september 18 2015 sometimes i write a comment in response to someone else s comment and it has so much content that it really should be a post of its own this is one such comment with hmmm a few modifications photo complements of the body consultants i know i know but being macho is not just a male trait i m female and am just as guilty i don t want to be seen as a wuss or have the label hypochondriac but that s no excuse for dancing all night on a broken foot and boasting about it to the technician putting the cast on at 2 00 am the truth is that the nagging messages we get from our bodies are pleas for help thanks to lotus love for this image years of masking acid reflux with a bottle of tums a lifetime of drinking coke even when it will melt a nail overnight a nagging headache that just won t go away shortness of breath after climbing the stairs each night my body speaks to me constantly begging for mercy but i m so busy i deliberately tune it out i ve become entrenched in the habit of ignoring the messages and it s more comfortable to live in pain than to make an appointment with a doctor my suffering has grown to status symbol importance like macdonald s golden arches and i constantly remind all within hearing that my back is killing me when in truth it is me killing my back complements of ucmp helathbeat and all the while my body has been building a backlog of stress from the pain and is reacting by dumping more acid into my stomach increasing my heart rate and keeping me awake at night so i can t heal then when something breaks and can t be fixed i proudly say such things as i haven t been to the doctor in 30 years never been sick a day in my life how could this happen to me it would be more truthful to say why didn t i pay attention to the signs and take care of this before it reached epic proportions i guess i brought this all on myself the funny thing is although i feel that i can t afford the time or expense for my own medical issues i take my pets to the vet if they don t eat right for a few days or they mope around like they don t feel well but i never consider the owner of the pet what will happen to them if i can t get up at feed time or take them out i know maintenance is necessary for other things so i take my car to the shop if the engine sounds funny or the brakes don t work or the windshield wipers make noise but what about the driver of the car how difficult will repairs be when i have a stroke while driving and what about that family in the minivan next to me why do i always feel that i am invincible posted by kayuk filed in comment of the week health tags acid reflux animals bodies brains health hurt invincible life macho syndrome perspective sensations stress 2 comments asking for help please share and help me find my sister september 9 2015 imagine searching for your lost sister for over 30 years imagine still holding the flame of hope in your heart please pass this message along and reblog if you can posted by kayuk filed in uncategorized 1 comment having the blues june 21 2015 my best writing is done when i m in a blue funk ok maybe that s not exactly true maybe it s not my best writing but it s certainly my most writing why is that why don t i feel inspired to write when i m ecstatic or quiet or bored is it the primordial cry for help as in help i m sinking and i m not sure i can remember how to swim is it a spoiled brat cry for attention as in look at me i m so sad doesn t someone want to pay attention to me or entertain me is it a feeling of separation from the rest of humanity as in why am i over here when everyone else is over there what is my purpose in life is it lonliness kicking in or anxiety over work income school schedule or just one of those phases that comes and goes with the proximity of the moon whatever it is it s making me crazy today yesterday i was fine tonight i ll probably be fine right now i m feeling like dust in the wind with no purpose destination or control maybe that s the answer just go back to my true desire peel the skin off the onion what do i honestly want what is the best plan to get it what is the first step to take me there no it s none of that surface flotsam it s simple really happiness satisfaction contentment joy in fact any and every emotion known to man or woman can only come from inside no outside force or event can ever bring a change in anyone s emotional state unless it is allowed to have an effect i have the blues because i have sought out this emotional state for some reason it is completely and totally my choice and i can as readilly choose another state of mind and so for the balance of this day i choose to be in a positive state of mind to be content with my surroundings and the pace at which they change to fold up the emotions that are less than positive into a tiny piece of nothing and throw them away then have them come back painted happy so i can unfold them and repost them all around me in a different state of light what a difference a shift in perspective can make posted by kayuk filed in uncategorized 18 comments understanding november 11 2014 a friend of mine wrote this i was going to write one myself but i couldn t say it better two on a rant on the battlefield alone alive there stands a battered man with dirt and sweat upon his shirt a weapon in his hand his face etched by sun and sand his hands black with blood he listens to the emptiness and sees the setting sun what was it for he begs a sky still pouring into black i asked the same another man proclaims behind his back the mirror image of his face reflecting in his eyes his enemy now stands with him to contemplate their lives all i want is peace on earth a child a job a life to treat my neighbor as myself and worship as i like a fireplace for winter and a garden in the spring his enemy did say to him not fight this wretched thing but you want to destroy us you want our lands our wives and i was told the view original post 448 more words posted by kayuk filed in uncategorized 1 comment previous entries august 2026 m t w t f s s 1 2 3 4 5 6 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