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st adolph hitler spoke of brainwashing the youth if he could get them to believe his agenda the country would be in his hands he could do what evil he wanted how does a whole country allow a people group the jews to be treated so inhumanely first having curfews and strange laws like wearing a yellow star an identifying badge forced upon them and then eventually being slaughtered by the masses while their countrymen stood by how does this happen maybe slowly silently so i think we have a part to play seek justice love mercy and walk humbly with your god therefore i exhort first of all that supplications prayers intercessions and giving of thanks be made for all men 2 for kings and all who are in authority that we may lead a quiet and peaceable life in all godliness and reverence 1 timothy 2 1 2 and then rest rest in the assurance that he is forevermore on the throne he is sovereign he raises up kings and he takes kings down and he will keep all those entrusted to him and he will avenge those who have been wronged and he will eventually judge the living and the dead and restore the world to perfection ridding it of evil 21 and he changes the times and the seasons he removes kings and raises up kings he gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to those who have understanding daniel 2 21 20 shall the throne of iniquity which devises evil by law have fellowship with you 21 they gather together against the life of the righteous and condemn innocent blood 22 but the lord has been my defense and my god the rock of my refuge 23 he has brought on them their own iniquity and shall cut them off in their own wickedness the lord our god shall cut them off psalm 94 20 23 so regardless of who gets elected tomorrow my jesus reigns supreme whether people want him to or not he will prevail over evil and darkness and our purpose as god s people remains to make much of his name implore souls to be reconciled to him and love with his love 3 do not put your trust in princes nor in a son of man in whom there is no help 4 his spirit departs he returns to his earth in that very day his plans perish psalm 146 3 4 take heart dear friend if you are a child of the king know he holds you secure he holds tomorrow he holds the future if you are unsure of how to process politics and this election know that you can ask god for wisdom and he will give it oh lord god i come before you tonight asking for you to have your hand over your people over this country and the upcoming election thank you that all things are in your mighty hands thank you that we can safely trust in you and that we need not fear because we belong to you you are mighty and good and gracious i pray that your people will seek your face and ask for wisdom because you promise to give it i pray that you will be glorified through your people s actions concerning this election may our hearts yearn to glorify you in everything we do awaken the church to seek justice love mercy and walk humbly with you humble us lord and raise us up to do your work thank you that your plans will prevail father i pray for unity and compassion and deep love among your children for love covers a multitude of sins help us to be diligent about prayer praying for wisdom praying against darkness praying for our leaders praying for the hurting and the lost i pray for your peace that passes understanding to cover those who are fearful or anxious about the election the state of our country and what the future holds comfort their hearts dear lord help them to fix their gaze upon you thank you for your word your truth and your love you are so worthy of our praise our love our trust our complete loyalty thank you that you gave us your spirit to guide us thank you that you will continue to grow us in to the image of christ thank you that we belong to your family through jesus christ s precious blood thank you that we are betrothed to you forever thank you that you have gone into the future to prepare the way keep our eyes on you i pray this all in the holy name of jesus christ amen 7 for god has not given us a spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind 2 timothy 1 7 lady grace even then july 7 2020 july 7 2020 ladygrace19 4 comments hello readers i hope you all have been doing well i feel like it s time for me to give a life update to any of you who still follow me if you ve read my blogs often you ve probably heard me mention anxiety and depression today i just want to talk a little bit about my continued journey with that and what s up in life so back in march i moved out of state away from my family i felt like i had been in a particular season of struggle loneliness and lack of community for a long long time and god was now calling me out of it it all really started when i went to the cross conference back in january of 2019 i started seriously praying about moving i backed out in a decision made in fear but about seven months later the idea of moving was put on my heart again i pretty much made up my mind to go but the time wasn t quite right yet so i waited another seven prayer filled months ensued filled with days of deep faith and also days of deep fear and depression some days i felt like i could hardly keep my head above the water i kept going back to 1 peter 5 6 11 which had long been on my heart i even memorized it amidst the struggle god provided beautifully right where i was at no outward circumstances changed but i truly believed that he was calling me out of those circumstances slowly but surely and into a time of healing where he would more firmly establish his purposes for me 1 peter 5 6 11 6 therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of god that he may exalt you in due time 7 casting all your care upon him for he cares for you 8 be sober be vigilant because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour 9 resist him steadfast in the faith knowing that the same sufferings are experienced by your brotherhood in the world 10 but may the god of all grace who called us to his eternal glory by christ jesus after you have suffered a while perfect establish strengthen and settle you 11 to him be the glory and the dominion forever and ever amen so my tentative plan was to move spring 2020 but as spring drew near my anxiety grew i desperately needed a new car i had no job lined up in my place of destination i wasn t 100 comfortable about a living situation and i didn t want to make this trip alone i m a nervous driver how was i going to do this was i really ready for this was i running away what if my depression overcame me in a new place away from my family and comfort of familiarity i even had a woman tell me that she thought i shouldn t move and god was telling her all these things about my life contradictory to what i was thinking in that moment though as i prayed through fear i felt a boldness rise up in my spirit as if god through his holy spirit was prompting me tell her what god has been telling you how he s been confirming this move through prayer your godly counselors scripture and sermons don t be tossed about by every wind and wave that comes your way be steadfast don t doubt the lord s work in your life don t doubt what he s been growing a pleasing faith for in you so i did and i kept praying and committing this to god and seeking godly counsel and i surrendered this into my father s hands make it happen lord within a couple weeks of really surrendering a cousin offered to drive me and haul all my belongings my living situation was established and i had peace and hope that god was going to provide all that i needed including a car and job matthew 6 25 34 i was officially moving march 17th it felt good to have a set date a day before i was supposed to get on the road all the covid 19 stuff started really blowing up that night people were literally whispering about a national lock down i had my few minutes of freaking out but there was no turning back now did i believe god has opened up the doors for this yes i was going to do this no more wavering and weakness i was taking the leap of faith in obedience and leaving the rest in god s hands so be it hebrews 11 6 6 but without faith it is impossible to please him for he who comes to god must believe that he is and that he is a rewarder of those who diligently seek him so i moved shortly thereafter social distancing and shelter in place happened but god provided so abundantly even through these strange times and by the end of march i had a car april 6th i started a job at a grocery store wow it was so stunning to see god do above and beyond what i expected demolish my fears grow my faith he is my provider an even bigger blessing is the way he has gifted me with incredibly sweet and deep friendships and kind wise spiritual mentors rich faith community in a way that i ve never experienced it before i got a taste of it at the cross conference and now i m here in the midst of it i marvel at the group of godly young people the lord has established here and i nearly weep at the thought of how he in his fatherly love has settled me among them john 15 7 8 7 if you abide in me and my words abide in you you will ask what you desire and it shall be done for you 8 by this my father is glorified that you bear much fruit so you will be my disciples god answers prayers indeed i ve talked often on this blog about how important i believe a tight knit sound loving church and authentic fellowship is how deeply i long for friends who grow my affection for christ how much i need spiritual leadership i ve shared how i ve been petitioning god for such things in my life so let this be a testimony to you my dear readers god answered i am overwhelmed by what he has poured into my life matthew 7 7 11 7 ask and it will be given to you seek and you will find knock and it will be opened to you 8 for everyone who asks receives and he who seeks finds and to him who knocks it will be opened 9 or what man is there among you who if his son asks for bread will give him a stone 10 or if he asks for a fish will he give him a serpent 11 if you then being evil know how to give good gifts to your children how much more will your father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him i have recently been able to actually meet for church on sundays and i already feel at home this small solid loving christ exalting church is what i have prayed for the pastor is such a spiritual leader mentor for me already and again i can only marvel at god s goodness and faithful hand in my life oh how he loves his children i don t believe i have ever felt so loved belonging sheltered and cared for this is faith community this is fellowship this is doing life together this is encouraging each other in the lord this is making much of his name together already i have such an affection for my church family it does my soul good to recount this journey of faith and ponder my god s grace toward me to remember all the prayers he s answered in such a short time and where he s brought me luke 12 32 32 do not fear little flock for it is your father s good pleasure to give you the kingdom in many ways i ve moved out of my season of struggle and into a time of being enfolded into a dear flock of brothers and sisters in christ but in other ways i struggle on this is life depression and anxiety come for me periodically without fail almost always they linger in the dark back corners of my heart and mind and some weeks even here amidst a dear church family i feel near hopeless and my thoughts scream for me to escape myself for days i try to get away from the dark cloud but it lingers and heavily oppresses today i am perhaps coming out of one such week glimpsing the light i spent all afternoon at a park walking and talking with god and yesterday evening i was out on the water kayaking which seems to be very good for my soul the darkness that plagues me is every bit as black even after moving as i knew it would be but still it makes a tremendous impact on me when my pastor pulls me aside sunday morning after church and listens to my heart and prays over me and when several others express care and concern and also pray see life is full of troubles but to have a community of believers to walk alongside you and bear your burdens with you brings deeper hope we are his and christ is ours forevermore so i fight on through depression anxiety and i pray for victory and i know i already have victory i will not be overcome because of christ i claim the joy that is mine because i am his the joy of the lord is my strength i do not can not give up because of the holy spirit within me and the eternal joy and goodness that awaits me christ is mine and i am his and nothing can change that no matter how numb and feeling less i feel no matter how the darkness and questioning press now matter how the hopelessness and panic squeeze my soul i cling to truth and i lift my hands and worship god for him and praise him for putting me here and giving me these people this week i ve been blessed to have trusted friends who listen to me talk and process and agonize and talk some more over this thing i face they empathize and pray and turn my gaze to my precious jesus i ve been blessed to be out on the water it is soothing and still i ve been blessed to go alone to a park and spend hours talking aloud to god pouring out my heart reading scripture quoting memorized passages doing devotions writing calling my mom and sister and practicing disc golf in the midst of depression i often feel like i m never going to find my way out i know that s not true i always do come out but yet it always comes back i get so sick of it i become panicky at the thought of fighting one wave after another for the rest of my life in the darkness i oftentimes feel like a really bad christian a failure spiritually immature i wonder if i ve been doing something wrong and this is god turning his back i fear i am too much of a burden for people 2 corinthians 12 7 10 7 and lest i should be exalted above measure by the abundance of the revelations a thorn in the flesh was given to me a messenger of satan to buffet me lest i be exalted above measure 8 concerning this thing i pleaded with the lord three times that it might depart from me 9 and he said to me my grace is sufficient for you for my strength is made perfect in weakness therefore most gladly i will rather boast in my infirmities that the power of christ may rest upon me 10 therefore i take pleasure in infirmities in reproaches in needs in persecutions in distresses for christ s sake for when i am weak then i am strong and yet god brings me through again and again and i find my joy again and i see his work in my life and i see the purposes he has for me and i feel his face shine upon me and my heart is filled with passion and love and i rest in his embrace he is my desire i still pray for victory over this healing but in the meantime may my lord s power be on 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