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xas heat we have got to adjust my meds so i m not always in imminent danger of overheating dehydration i was also going to ask about my flu and pneumonia vaccines so throwing in another covid 19 test just made the list i ll have to telemed from the parking lot in case i need tests or shots or anything i m doing the best i can with what i ve got to work with i knew it was inevitable that i would be exposed i just didn t know when where or how thankfully my exposure to joey is minimal and i generally wear my mask around him and the boss generally just became definitely and i guess i m going to have to make friends with the taste of hand soap and hand sanitizer don t tell my mom please i ll figure out how to tell her after i talk to my doctor on monday until then i m going to let her remain blissfully ignorant posted on august 28 2020 by walkercynthia posted in fuckery misadventures tagged coronacooties coronapocalypse covid 19 recovery 16 comments mummy is boring mollie thinks mummy is boring pouting because mummy is boring she s right most of the time here lately i seem to be stuck in the whole lather rinse repeat cycle of work sleep repeat thanks to the coronapocalypse the produce stand has extended hours and is open 7 days a week this summer because demand is through the fucking roof so last week when i had mollie over to hang out with me we got out and about a little bit not too much because fuck the stupid heat we went to a park which apparently made miss mollie happy she kept stopping to roll in the grass the next day we explored the rv park a few times and we went to the cemetery behind the rv park the cemetery people don t mind us walking our dogs there as long as we pick up their poop i figured mollie s big poop earlier that afternoon had eliminated a need to take poopy bags with me wrong i had to make note of where it was so i could go back with a bag later the cemetery is fenced in except for the gates for the driveways so i let her wander off leash i let her lead the way we spent quite a while exploring the boundaries of the cemetery letting miss mollie smell all the things she wanted to sniff she even decided when we wandered back home luckily she found me an empty plastic ice bag that had blown into the cemetery during the last storm so i used that to scoop up her poop on the way out i think she had a good time exploring at her own pace because i got lots of puppy kisses after we got home posted on august 27 2020 by walkercynthia posted in mollie tagged dogs good things mollie 18 comments who knew i finally found a decent laundromat with very fair prices it is in a little town a few minutes from my rv and my journey to and from this laundromat takes me past the most wonderful thing this solar farm makes my heart almost as happy as wind farms there just might be some hope for texas after all posted on august 25 2020 by walkercynthia posted in sustainability tagged eco friendly sustainability 10 comments socialism vs capitalism when the governor issues an executive order requiring face coverings in public spaces that s not socialism that s state s rights which is a basic principle espoused by the conservative end of the political spectrum smaller federal government with states deciding how to do things for themselves so what is socialism so the government bailouts after the great economic collapse of 2008 socialism when the federal government owns shares in american automobile manufacturers that s textbook socialism or maybe even communism another example of socialism the winstar casino and all of the other businesses owned by the chickasaw nation which is a sovereign nation with its own constitution and government and other official shit that constitutes a sovereign nation like tobacco stores and travel stops and bedrè fine chocolatier provide the revenue that the chickasaw nation uses to provide free healthcare free storm shelters grants and scholarships for higher education and all the other gifts the chickasaw nation gives its citizens what is not socialism when a privately owned company says no shirt no shoes no mask no service that s fucking capitalism if the bakery can discriminate against lgbtq couples then tjmaxx can damn well discriminate against non mask wearing covidiots because capitalism rant over posted on august 21 2020 by walkercynthia posted in random tagged capitalism capitalism run amok life lessons socialism words matter 9 comments how did i miss that almost directly behind my rv is a shed that used to be a fireworks stand how i missed this is beyond me it got blown over onto its side in the storm the other night i m done posting about the storm i ve got other things to write about but this was just so random and weird that it merited a share posted on august 19 2020 by walkercynthia posted in random tagged random severe weather texas weather wind damage 6 comments i got lucky i posted yesterday about the hail and wind that tormented me on sunday i didn t know how lucky i was until i heard some news yesterday afternoon news that had me shook a small town between my work and home got hit by a tornado sunday night this town is literally just a few minutes from the gas station where i huddled in my car listening to sunshine talk me through the storm which means i was most likely sitting in the inflow or outflow of the tornado that hit that small town when i think about the temperature change i m totally not surprised that there was a tornado sunday s temperatures were in excess of 100f after the hail relented enough for me to hit the road heading in the direction sunshine said would lead to safety i finally noticed the readings presented by my gauge idiot light display 69f that s a temperature difference of at least 31f in about 20 or 30 minutes that is prime conditions for severely nasty weather like hail and thunder and lightning and rotation i got fucking lucky y all also that kind of weather this time of year a little bit bizarre mother nature is definitely over humanity posted on august 18 2020 by walkercynthia posted in misadventures tagged dallas weather extreme weather hail lucky misadventures severe weather tornado 18 comments weather and the coronapocalypse it s like mother nature has had her fill of us dumbass humans we are in the middle of a nightmare pandemic outbreak and the weather has gone buck stupid we had august like temperatures in july and august is looking more like our secondary severe weather season here in texas as i was getting ready to receive what little produce the boss had left over from the market he does each weekend storm clouds started gathering i didn t think much of it since we had some very mild thunderstorms last month and we could use some rain my first clue that this was more than just a mild thunderstorm showed up when the wind kicked up we had us a good ole dust storm going on i didn t get pics because we were rushing to deal with the stuff the boss brought back with him a few drops of rain splattered us as we got the shop ready to close up for the night but still nothing more than a bunch of wind until i got in the car to head home the boss called and told me i might want to pull over and wait it out stupid me thought it s just rain i ll take my chances i should have listened to the boss next thing i know i m on the road in a fucking hailstorm and the parking lots of all the fast food and gas stations were filling up fast i got to a gas station but couldn t get under the awning so i sat there on the phone with sunshine sunshine knew exactly what to do to calm me down he got my exact location and pulled up his radar app and told me which way to drive as soon as the hail slowed down enough i listened to him in spite of the panic that said don t drive in this shit he was right and i got through it quickly i started to relax and made my way home if only that were the end of my tale i might not be writing this post as i got ready to turn into my rv park i noticed the wind direction was right to bring the storm clouds to my left right at my rv park i battened down the hatches and heated up my dinner i was enjoying the hell out of my cheese tortellini and lovera s meatballs in a killer arrabiata sauce when the power started getting all wonky i got up and turned off the roof unit unplugged the microwave portable a c and laptop and plugged my phone in to charge when the storm hit i was unprepared for what was coming major winds started rocking the bus and i started texting my sponsor so i could talk myself out of my panic attack this rv was designed for highway speeds this rv has survived being hit by 80 mph winds broadside blah blah blah i convinced myself it was nothing and i got in the shower which was cold as fuck because the electricity gave up on being wonky and just said fuck it i turned the roof unit back on and turned off the overhead lights and went to sleep on the couch with my phone charging off of a battery backup as i left for work this morning i was shocked all of that was nothing i was on the road for about 10 seconds when i figured out why the power went out i was doing 80 so don t blink or you ll miss it work was not too much of a mess so it s been a nice easy day it s only 93 right now only in texas does one say it s only 93 today mother nature is over the human race i say good for her posted on august 17 2020 by walkercynthia posted in misadventures tagged endofdays adventures climate change coronapocalypse dallas weather go rving misadventures mother nature severe weather weather 7 comments casualties this past week has been kind of miserable for me i have had a cash flow crisis thanks to that missed week of work when i was so sick recently i ve had to really sit my ass at home and not spend any money not even on groceries good thing i had a hoard of food and that i work for a guy who lets me run a tab on fresh produce side note he also gave me a bunch of eggs for free and lets me do what i want with the ugly bruised stuff i have not gone hungry even during my worst cash flow crisis since i got clean sober 15 years ago thank you bossman since i haven t been able to shop there has been a mass casualty event with my hoard i ll start with food cornbread mix soup frozen breakfast items like bagels and pancakes and waffles and most of the family pack of smoked sausage all gone i also got rid of some canned green peas during the marathon mollie meal making that went on here side note sunshine said miss mollie loves her mollie meals and she is even eating the dry food i got from mike at petwants yaya mollie yay mummy yay petwants and yay sunshine we are doing a decent job of getting miss mollie healthier i ripped through quite a bit of paper towels during that marathon mollie meal making that went on but i still have far more paper towels than i really need i have no defense for this heinous act of hoarding insanity so i m going to change the subject now i trashed some fish sticks out of the freezer they had a strange texture like if i wanted to eat rubber i d munch on a sneaker bye bye fish sticks speaking of sneakers i trashed my adidas when i got home from work took off my shoes and almost yarfed those shoes had to go i ve had my feet smell a bit funny once or twice but it s always been a mild weird pickle sort of smell the stench coming from those adidas was so horrific that i took them straight to the dumpster that taught me to avoid outlet shoes for the rest of my days they were made of pleather which doesn t allow any air circulation at all from now on only leather or breathable fabric shoes for me pickled feet smell i can cope with stinky pleather adidas i cannot i have also had mass casualties in the makeup and toiletry hoard i finished off a gigantic bottle of hair conditioner after several months of trying to use that fucker up it smelled good and worked well but the bottle was huge and my shower is microscopic so i m glad it s gone i trashed an eyeliner pencil because it was too pencilly it also wore off far too easily i have gotten addicted to e l f retractable eyeliner because it has a nice soft gel like feel to it and it mostly stays in place with the exception of extremely sweaty days which truly have to be extreme to make thus stuff go away i trashed a couple of eyeshadow crayons too one just would not stay in place the other was just plain past its use by date and had to go i m slowly using up the toilet paper hoard and i ve found a use for the adult butt wipes that irritate my skin now a peek into my closet i had to trash a linen tshirt because it had blackberries smashed all over my left boob and there is no getting that stain out so bye bye purple shirt i had to get rid of a pink shirt for much the same reason i trashed a pair of linen joggers because the elastic in the waistband got all twisted up like a moebius strip in between the layers of knit fabric and it would not cooperate with my efforts to unfuck it so bye bye stupid pants i feel good about the progress i m making working through the hoard it sucks using mint flavored toothpaste but it has saved me from having to buy toothpaste during the last couple of weeks while i ve been broke as fuck the eyeliner sucked too but i was ok with trashing that because it was too pencilly and kind of hurt my eyelids as i applied it using up my hoard is definitely supposed to be uncomfortable mint toothpaste but it shouldn t be painful pencilly eyeliner i haven t been using up as much of the pantry hoard as i feel i should but i also know that i will be using up a lot of that stuff when the weather is cooler and firing up the stove and oven won t suck i ve given myself a pass on some of this stuff pain may be necessary suffering is optional and i m not suffering because of this hoarding i ve been doing i ve even been crocheting stuff to sell at work so i can destash some yarn and keep myself occupied so i don t go out and spend money if it puts some cash back in my bank account all the better while this past few weeks of financial difficulties have certainly been unfun they have also been necessary i truly needed to stop shopping and stop buying shit not being able to has been a learning experience for me and learning is good posted on august 9 2020 august 9 2020 by walkercynthia posted in dead soldiers tagged accountability adulting character defects destash first world problems hoarding learning experiences life lessons living living tiny misery progress 12 comments posts navigation older posts blog at wordpress com making peace with the wrong side of 40 blog at wordpress com subscribe subscribed making peace with the wrong side of 40 join 433 other subscribers sign me up already have a wordpress com account log in now privacy making peace with the wrong side of 40 subscribe subscribed sign up log in report this content view site in reader manage subscriptions collapse this bar loading comments write a comment email required name required 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