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not the primrose path wednesday 12 october 2016 no 42 filey street 6 years later i touched the cold iron wrought gate that opened to the small yard leading to no 42 filey street i was not sure whether it was the sleet rain or tears that rolled down my cheeks that day but i felt a big lump in my chest that got stuck in my throat and my eyes got very misty it was the 27th of april 2016 summer in sheffield yet the rain that fell brought sleet n snow instead of water the last time afzal crossed these gates was in february 2010 when he said goodbye to his friends and left to come home for good it was an unplanned trip to the united kingdom to accompany jep and his family but when i purchased the air tickets to london it was clear in my mind that i would like to revisit no 42 filey street sheffield the journey from london to sheffield brought back waves of memories with familiar sights greeting me all along the way i felt like i m going home i toured yafai the grocery store opposite no 42 filey street and chatted with the new owner whose cousin manned the store back in 2010 but the new owner has heard of afzal there were containers filled with nasi kerabu and beriani on the cashier s counter which i was told was placed there by malaysian students i bought one nasi kerabu and one beriani and left to get ready to visit eymen kaya a dear friend whose family took afzal under their wings when he was sick i walked the streets of the city tracing the tramp route from the sheffield university station had dinner at popeye s on west street and bought chocolates from thorntons in downtown sheffield although it has been 6 years since i was last there nothing much has changed it really felt like i m visiting home today you would have turned 32 i still miss you so much that it hurts being able to go back to where you spent many years studying made friends and enjoyed life meant so much thank you allah for making it happen mama afzal posted by mas afzal masarudin at 05 08 23 comments tuesday 26 january 2016 the drs in my house let s see who gets to become dr first i want to get my doctorate before turning 30 i still remember this conversation between afzal and jep in 2009 when jep got accepted to pursue his phd in melbourne australia today eventhough i qualify to claim there are two drs in my family only one now grace my life 26th january marks the 33rd birthday of dr mas jaffri who is now a lecturer at the department of cell and molecular biology faculty of biotechnology and biomolecular sciences university putra malaysia he may not be a medical doctor like afzal but i suppose the field he is lecturing in can be considered a close relative of medicine as a matter of fact his thesis titled chitosan nanoparticles as a delivery vehicle for 14c doxorubicin and the formaldehyde releasing prodrug an 250 sounded very medicine to me life can be a mystery at times because it sometimes unfold in a manner quite illogical to our mere human mind for instance my husband did economics in the university and i did creative and descriptive writing a relative of mass communications however all of my five children pursued their tertiary education in science subjects food science biotechnology mathematics and animal science alas allah is so fair and all knowing nevertheless i m glad all of them retain their creative gene they all love music to all parents whose children are medical doctors i share your pride in them i also pray allah gives them the strength and perseverence to endure the many challenges that come with being a medical doctor i remember on his graduation day in july 2009 when i asked him right after the ceremony if being a doctor has now sinked into his mind afzal said not yet wait till the first day of work well jep you may be a father first and a phd holder aka dr second plus your daughter sometimes says papa why are you so crazy but to me you will always be just my lovely son may you continue life under allah s guidance and always strive for his acceptance and rewards happy birthday mama afzal posted by mas afzal masarudin at 18 20 9 comments monday 12 october 2015 thank you allah for choosing me to be his mother today is your birthday you would have been 31 years old not one day has passed without you in my thoughts your smile your words your actions your love i miss them all people say time heals you will learn to forget it will get better with time but that is not so when it comes to your child i seek solace with al mighty allah every time missing you becomes too painful to bear but i also claim the priviledge of being your mother to miss you forever i keep seeing your beautiful life stories in my mind reminding me that your place in my heart cannot be replaced when the still night arrives and everyone else is fast asleep that s when you come back to my dreams smiling loving and always my sweet afzal may allah look after you embracing you with his love and acceptance as one of those chosen to enjoy his garden mama afzal al fatihah posted by mas afzal masarudin at 02 41 6 comments sunday 11 may 2014 the wind beneath my wings these are the winds beneath my wings children who continue to live with parents after they are married be it their own or their in laws is a normal phenomenon amongst asian families in general and malaysian families in particular i am one such person whose children are still the wind beneath my wings to me it does not matter if my children decide to not fly the coop even after they are married i welcome them with open arms everyday comings and goings can bring about a lot of challenges with so many levels of generation living together a simple matter of deciding what to have for meals can turn into a battle of words and end up with flare up of tempers waking up to a kitchen full of unwashed dishes when you distinctly remember leaving the kitchen spotless the night before is another challenging scenario but these are the least of my concern my real worry is how to make them feel at home without taking away their opportunity to be independent often children of all ages tend to hide their real feelings and pretend all is well for the sake of maintaining harmony in the household after all they are living in a house that s not theirs and to top it all mom and dad are paying for all subsistance bills though this does not bother me or my husband at all however i do believe that everyone on this earth should honor their roles and responsibilities as a parent it is their duty to protect educate and guide their children carrying out that duty does not stop when their children grow up are working or get married parents however should be wise enough to balance between encouraging their children to flourish as an adult by letting them make decisions and allowing them to be themselves giving them their space and their time outs i do not worry too much about whether my children are going to grow up and pay me back for what i have done for them personally i think that is a very selfish hope if i have done my part in providing the neccessary basis for churning out sound human beings then that is payment enough what is more disturbing is whether by keeping the wind beneath my wings i am denying my children the opportunity to learn to live their lives as their own family entity they are deprived of the real challenge of making their own decisions without me clouding their judgement or influencing their choices how can they learn if they do not make mistakes but then i am a firm believer in allah s beautiful plannings there must be a reason for me to be granted the pleasure of having all my children around me even as i am planning my retirement well in 4 years when i compare other parents who long for visits from their children who live away from home i consider myself blessed for i get to be with them 24 hours a day and 7 days a week it is my greatest pleasure to have all my children stay with me till forever but i would also like to remind my children that papa and me will not be around forever and as such all of you need to be prepared to make all decisions on your own one day mama afzal p s i would have loved to experience being taken care of by afzal had allah not decided he loved him more he would be the one giving me advices in his signature gentle but firm voice posted by mas afzal masarudin at 09 40 11 comments saturday 12 october 2013 12th october 1984 memories 29 years ago on 12th october 1984 afzal came to us as a bouncing 8lbs 12ozs baby crying his lungs out with a big husky voice filling the still and quiet bentong night as though making sure his arrival is not missed by december 1984 afzal s details and picture was already in my international passport getting ready to depart for the united states of america to join papa who was doing his masters in eugene oregon he was 11 days shy of 3 months old when we set foot in the land of uncle sam and the star spangled banner afzal at 1 and 1 2 months at subang international airport ready to depart for the us afzal is the only child among my five children who enjoyed the priviledge of having me by his side 24 hours a day 7 days a week for 2 years and as fate would have it he is also the only one who lived away from home the longest and furthest he went to lembah beringin to do his a levels at the age of 18 then proceeded to sheffield u k when he was 20 to pursue his first degree and only came back when he was 26 this is by no means my effort to establish some sort of record it is just my way of going down memory lane reliving my life with afzal 1st month in the us afzal started primary one at sk tanjung aru 1 in kota kinabalu sabah both his brothers went to school there too i remember his first day at school the classroom was in a mess there were broken tables and chairs around and afzal ended up with a good chair but a broken table i found him a good table from the class next door during recess i was shocked looking at the height of grass in the yard surrounding the canteen and most green areas around the school it was even higher than the shortest student i bet if this is anaconda country one could easily be lurking in those tall grass nevertheless the school had some of the best and coolest teachers i remember one day seeing afzal sharing his water bottle with a teacher and when i asked him about it he said that s normal ma he drinks from my water bottle many times i tell my husband that i do not mind if the school building is a bit dilapidated and not as modern as long as my children can learn in it afzal was awarded the half colour award for best student at la salle secondary school kota kinabalu in 1994 with brother andi and teacher juliana after upsr primary school accessment examination despite scoring 5as afzal was not offered boarding school anywhere and he was placed in sm la salle to start his form 1 actually all of my children only attended day school but they still fared well in their studies and all finally ended up in university and i credit all that to allah s beautiful plannings off course andi and jep were already seniors there ironically in primary school afzal could wear long pants but in form 1 at la salle he had to wear short pants he was not comfortable at all wearing the short school pants being sold in the market because they were about 2 inches above his knees he kept telling me that the school s ustaz was fighting for muslim boys to be allowed to wear long pants meanwhile until that finally happened i had to resort to buying long pants and cutting them off to the length that afzal is comfortable all siblings day out at crocodile farm tuaran my beautiful children as i look back at those years when my children were growing up i could not help but thank allah for the beautiful enriching experience i would not trade it for a different one afzal like his other siblings went through humble beginnings where schooling is concerned but managed to succeed and fulfilled his dream to become a doctor today would have been his 29th birthday on this day i pray allah place him amongst those promised jannah till we meet again my dearest son i have memories of my beautiful life with you posted by mas afzal masarudin at 00 00 14 comments older posts home subscribe to posts atom who i am mas afzal masarudin kuala lumpur a muslim malaysian doctor trying hard to comprehend the beautiful plans allah has in offer for him the owner of this humble blog passed away on december 18 2010 this blog is now managed by his mother i would like to appologize if my words are not as wise as my son s for more often than not i am writing from my heart view my complete profile quote you ll never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have left mas afzal masarudin create your badge please briefly give an introduction of yourself when requesting to add as a friend that will be very helpful blog archive 2016 2 october 1 no 42 filey street 6 years later january 1 2015 1 october 1 2014 1 may 1 2013 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