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and determination i was able to graduate on time i attended my first year of college on time and was able to finish my first year successfully immediately following that year i needed more surgery so they installed a shunt to make the next surgery safer after a month of draining fluid i had another major resection in june 2009 they were able to get the entire tumor but i had a hell of a time recovering from the surgery i decided to forgo school in the fall because i didn t think my body could handle it it s a good thing i didn t because at a follow up appointment in september 2009 they found bleeding on my brain apparently the shunt had over drained the fluid in my skull causing air pockets to form which in turn lead to bleeding to fix this they drilled four holes into my skull and placed drainage tubes in my head to get the blood for a week thankfully that worked and i ve been slowly getting better ever since prior to discovering you had cancer what was your experience with it and how did you feel about it what is your perception of it now prior to my diagnosis i was sort of indifferent towards cancer my mother had breast cancer when i was in 5th grade and i didn t like it but i m ashamed to say it didn t make that much of an impact on me i was pretty self centered and always thought about how her cancer would affect me after that i ignored it pretty much now i hate it with a fiery passion i am involved in the american cancer society raising money to fight this disease and fund research i just didn t realize how big of a deal it was until it happened to me it disappoints me that it took me having a brain tumor to realize this what were your initial thoughts after the diagnosis as idiotic as it sounds i was a little excited this would make me special i would miss a few days of school and get to kick it in the hospital little did i know how very wrong i was now this sounds like the dumbest thinking ever you were an active high school senior when the tumor was found how did your life as a high school student change as soon as the tumor was found i was taken out of school because it required immediate surgery when i finally did return about a month and a half later i had to use a wheelchair as i mentioned earlier people treated me differently guys socialize by giving each other shit now i would dish it but nobody would give me shit back even though that s what i expected i was in golf and tennis all my high school years but i couldn t do that anymore i couldn t do any of the things i would normally do i was confined to my house due to my limited mobility my senior year was a failure to me i didn t go on dates i didn t have fun i was miserable i wish i could do it over again you had a considerable number of surgeries to remove the tumor from your brain stem what was the hardest part of going through treatment and recovering the hardest part was my lack of mobility when i went from normal functioning to being confined to a bed it was horrible sometimes you don t value things until they are gone having to lie down all day and rely on others for everything sucks what was your biggest hurdle during recovery my biggest hurdle during recovery was this tailbone pain i got from lying in bed all day i was in bed for so long that made it excruciating to sit up the only comfortable position for me was lying down but recovery requires movement the tailbone pain made movement very hard what was your biggest success my biggest success was regaining my independence after months of depending on my family for everything when i was able to go get a snack by myself i thought that was a huge deal how did your perspective change throughout the whole process i don t know if it was just part of the whole growing up process but i appreciate my parents a hell of a lot more now they are amazing and i took that for granted before along with that i think i became much less self centered whether this was because of my experience or natural maturity i ll never know naturally everyone was extremely worried for you during the series of surgeries and offered a lot of encouragement were there any sentiments or support from your family and friends that stuck out to you while i was in the hospital i received countless balloons and visitors wishing me well i guess i never knew just how loved i was there was a boy from my high school who came and visited me in the hospital we weren t even friends when i asked him why he came to visit me he said it s no trouble i just wanted to visit i was so impressed that this kid who barely knew me took the time to drive out to blank children s hospital in the middle of winter i just hope that someday i am that good of a person during some of the darkest times in your experience what kept you motivated what helped you cope my darkest time was when they found that bleeding on my brain in sept 2009 i thought i was done with surgery and now they were telling me i had to have another maybe even several more that was the worst day of my life i thought when will this end luckily my parents were there for me to hold a strong front i can imagine that they didn t like it any more than i did but they were there for me geez i have good parents is there anything about your experience with cancer that you are grateful for i like to think that my experience has made me a better person and that i can now go through life with a little more empathy this experience also showed me what amazing family and friends i have they are amazing i didn t really have friends abandon me and that s good what perspective did you gain from your experience with a brain tumor do you think it has changed your life course such as what you want do study or do after graduation i don t party as many of my peers do i often see my cohorts being stupid and engaging in malfeasant behavior i just realized that some of that nonsense was stupid so i don t do it as for my future goals i cannot tell you for certain whether or not my journey has affected them i would love to find a cure for cancer but i m just not smart enough i d like to think that i d be a genius had this not happened to me but that just leads down a bad path honestly i feel like my current major gerontology does reflect my experience a little bit i want to work with older adults and make their lives better in whatever capacity i can your humor is dry and sometimes delightfully dark do you have a story from the experience that made you laugh after my second surgery i was lying in my bed when a young lady appeared by my bedside she was roughly my age and i think she was doing some sort of nursing training she stuck by my bedside for quite a while talking to me i thought she was cute so i was trying to throw some game at her but it didn t end up working it must have looked pretty funny to have a guy try and flirt while being hooked up to tubes and passing out mid conversation you have been a great fundraiser for relay for life to benefit the american cancer society why do you feel compelled to be involved with advocacy and fundraising efforts around fighting cancer i signed onto the organization initially to try and make friends you see it was my first year of college and i was trying so hard to make good friends like my sister had i was at an organization fair held by uni when i came across a booth manned by three ladies after speaking with them for a few minutes and me trying to flirt i ended up signing up for the organization and getting zero numbers yeah i m just that smooth i started going to the meetings and fell in love with the organization i know and see the impact cancer has on others and i m just trying to do my best to fight it what kind of support would you give with someone who is newly diagnosed or fighting cancer or facing a substantial recovery period just stick with it at times things are going to be shitty but just keep fighting it s not how many times you get knocked down it s how many times you can keep getting up i d like to thank paul for being my first interviewee for the series he has continued to wow his family and friends with his recovery despite some very difficult and painful moments his perseverance has paid off as he will finish school and necessary internships in 2013 he hopes to translate his passion for helping others in to a career in gerontology working with the baby boomer generation as they retire he is cautiously optimistic about the future categories the people we know are amazing tags the people we know are amazing 1 comment flirting with freeganism and failing posted on march 22 2012 by messytessy it all started because of mint com if you don t know about mint com let me elaborate it s freaking awesome it tracks your spending and makes budgeting awesome it does this by providing a read only view of your accounts and categorizes your transactions it also provides metrics to track trends it is my obsession despite the fact that i frequently go over budget in certain monthly categories like faberge eggs my love for the service probably has something to do with my need to control everything i can as well as my penchant for planning and charts the husband hates it damn you tawdry sirien anyway i began downloading spreadsheets regarding my utility costs and calculating averages and variances and decided that it was time to develop a plan the husband and i had a plan previously to reduce the heat bill it was called it s free to put on a coat but thanks to mint com i now realize that strategy was perhaps ineffective i needed to figure out different austerity measures especially since operation mittens in the house isn t appropriate this time of year i turned my attention to the water bill i knew this could be a hard sell to the husband considering anytime i start breakin it down mint com style he gives me a resistant eye roll you want me to do what my primary strategy i decided was to not let the water run the entire duration of a shower instead i would do the ol in and out water loofah water that is actually harder than it sounds its deceptively easy to be lured in to an extra minute or seven of cascading warmth instead of standing there shivering as you loofah your elbow husband accepted that attempt at frugality my next strategy was inspired by an idea i got from a woman who was a freegan now i get that most people would not be inspired by people who eat the less moldy stuff from the trash but the lifestyle appeals to my total aversion to waste as well as my passing interest adhering to an ideology freegans are essentially nightmare fuel for the people who use the term dirty hippie without irony proto freegan the she freegan detailed how she keeps a bucket in the shower to collect the water and then uses said contents of the bucket to flush the toilet i think she had gotten the idea from spending time somewhere in africa i was immediately down husband did not feel similarly he refusal is absolute and furthermore he s concerned i might be a crazy person i told him that we should be preparing for world war iii over water shortages but he was not persuaded alas i ve stepped down on this one husband 1 me 0 categories uncategorized 2 comments an open love letter to my friends posted on march 13 2012 by messytessy so i m going to get a little sentimental on this post but i haven t felt like posting for awhile so i think this is a good way to start back up this week has been a great week for catching up with old friends i miss dearly and it s got me thinking i want to say first of all thank you to all my friends and tell you how lucky i am to have you you guys listen to me hang out with me come visit me and put up with me shucks you even post on my facebook wall as a pathological extrovert you literally keep me going i hope that i can be as essential in your life as you are in mine i ve maintained for quite awhile now that everyone should just live in gypsy caravans we can all just travel around together trust me everyone would benefit hey it s you and me lately i ve been working on being grateful since my problems are miniscule compared to for example the refugees i worked with last year or people who are in ill health or any other assortment of serious issues people actually have lately i have lamented that me and the hubby have not ever really taken a long vacation together and as we attempt to build a fledgling household sometimes a vacation seems impossibly costly or an impractical use of money you can thank my father for that sentiment as our summer schedule has begun to fill up i realize that although i do want to try to squeeze in a vacation i should focus more on the fact that we will have so many visitors coming and i am so excited and grateful i realized all it takes to go on vacation is money but visitors come because of friendship that being said i m also not laboring under any illusions that people aren t also coming to see atlanta thank you to my friends near and far despite any actual distance i keep you close to my heart categories favorites myfriendsareawesome 2 comments crazy cat lady v2 0 posted on february 26 2012 by messytessy i promised pictures of my cats and today i m delivering some of these are older but aloysius hasn t had his chance in the sun without much more ado i present you orenthal james and aloysius biscuit enjoy categories cats in drag 4 comments 5 horror films posted on february 20 2012 by messytessy you should see right now so not everyone loves horror films so some people will avoid these suggestions i have a love hate relationship with them i love to be scared yet most scary movies are simply just bad movies so the pickin s is sometimes slim if you love being scared as much as i do i present to you some films that walk that fine line between being scary and being a watchable my rule of thumb is if i would watch the horror movie more than once then it was worth my time exception being paranormal activity which for some reason i watched twice some of these movies are not your typical horror films and some are totally well known classics so hopefully this list does not simultaneously confuse and bore you rec i saw rec with no idea of what to expect or any idea what it would be about this is kind of how i want you to watch it as well but i suppose by even writing about it i m giving you some preconceived notions about the film hopefully you have not seen the american re make quarantine because i m sure it s not as good i ve never seen it and that s my inner movie snob talking but c mon rarely does the american remake surpass the foreign original i digress i watched this movie with 2 other people and we were all delightfully terrified throughout and came to a breathless consensus when it was over that we had just witnessed something awesome don t want to give too much away just trust me when i say this is my favorite horror film ever other horror films with subtitles the orphanage a tale of two sisters 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