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i am undone without you i am undone without you zilver 24 she her sheep lover extraordinaire knitter i like to bake bread and think extensively about storytelling i make gifs of things i m watching sometimes i write home ask creations ao3 twitter 19 dec station eleven 2021 episode one wheel of fire hey kirsten your your parents just messaged me i messaged them earlier i think they just got it turns out their car got stuck in lake forest so yeah they want you to come with me and stay the night at frank s it turns out they know frank from work so they re cool with it also i was wrong the world s not ending so that s cool 662 notes like reblog station eleven stationelevenedit tvedit tvgifs my gifs mine im here and ready to spruce up the sad lonely quiet station eleven tag you re all welcome 3 also read the book 33333 20 may linusbenjamin lost out of context 3 442 notes like reblog my faves 3333 lost 18 mar pookieshane you re looking very pretty today different maybe someone take you shopping 9 054 notes like reblog i really like that shane tries to play it off as serious you can t tell anyone serious face and then once ilya laughs anyway he immediately breaks too and can t help but smile because actually he knew that would happen and actually he loves to see ilya laugh even if it s at him because he knows ilya is only laughing because he knows him and he s only laughing because he knows like shane knows this is such a shane thing to do and he likes loves everything about shane heated rivalry 14 mar thisisnotenuff mama s boy and his mama chen chen sue zhao bethany webster heather havrilesky lady bird 2017 margarita karapanou franz kafka franz kafka again haruki murakami supernatural 2005 nora lange anis mojgani ernest hemingway natalie wee 1 295 notes like reblog yes the complexity of trying to live up to your mothers dream which is also your dream but it s also your dream because it is her dream and it also became your dream because of her and you love it and you love her and she loves you but that doesn t make any of it any easier i actually think it s a much more compelling thing to have shane parents love him and support him and it still messing him up we know you pretty well shane but you didn t notice the life changing love he was experiencing for 10 years shane immediately forgiving his mum when she asks for it it s all much more complicated and i love it heated rivalry 11 mar phantom threaded so what do i sacrifice everything andor 2022 2025 rogue on e 2016 7 911 notes like reblog andor just finished it 09 mar mouseleygraham i know when characters are bisexual even when it s not explicitly said 14 488 notes like reblog me about kevin day aftg 08 mar idontwikeit i think ghosts are memory memory haunts bodies haunts places haunts the narratives that hold our minor and miraculous lives together ghosts are that which return and return and return the body has its own hauntings too phantom limb sensation organ transfer memory the traumatic self and others shastra deo interviewed in liminal mag 2 415 notes like reblog black sails 03 mar glubby i would like a hug just kidding i would like two hugs suddenly becomes cold and standoffish i don t need anything or anyone and i don t want to talk about it 72 779 notes like reblog haha maybe 18 feb on my 7th reread of aftg and i think this is actually the first time i ve noticed that neil at least sort of consciously considers liking andrew in the raven king and then actively pushes that thought away i d always thought it was all happening subconsciously and it s not until it s explicated by andrew himself that neil considers how he feels himself and i m not there yet but maybe that is still the moment he reopens that line of inquiry but it s not the first time he s just chosen to suppress it for practicality reasons neil you are truly the character of all time 2 notes like reblog and sooooo me vibes i too like to actively not think about things zilver reads aftg aftg 18 feb medievalthymes rote social media posts 5 265 notes like reblog the last oneeeee he literally said that rote 17 feb emziess when did this happen wait the all star game you two had so much chemistry heated rivalry s01e05 1 528 notes like reblog the way shane s eyes go from proud happy to shocked ecstatic at the helmet kiss heated rivalry 14 feb urie hayden what did he say to you shane fuck off hayden jesus what a dick shane bristling idk why you d say that he s literally fine you dont even know him actually so mind your business he has a rich inner world 5 240 notes like reblog pls he literally said that heated rivalry 07 feb slaygentford it s so insane to me that if the narrative hadn t been pushed from day one it would have been so obvious that they were playing like they were playing in the simplest sense of the word like kids and that s why i can t even be too mad that this isn t a show for sickos where their competition is a source of immense interpersonal angst which is what i expected it to be bc there really is something about them being so proud of each other s wins shane expecting genuine congratulations and sexy ribbing when he gets rookie of the year bc that s the precedent and then when he thinks ilya s pissed about the award he s like god i can t believe you care this much about a stupid award and ilya s instantly like well obviously it isn t about the stupid award if i didn t have other shit going on of course i d be ribbing you and congratulating you in increasingly inventive and flexible ways because i love competing against you and i love how only one of us can win because it means that our ongoing silent conversation a joke that we re both in on is never ever over and they spend the rest of their lives excited to get out there together playing like kids that line in the book where shane s like hayden is my best friend and ilya s like i m your best friend and shane s like well yes obviously 2 913 notes like reblog our ongoing silent conversation is never over no but so true heated rivalry 01 feb ilya rozanova episode 1 shane looking at ilya 2 282 notes like reblog second to last gif ohhhhh he s sooooo fond of ilya already he thinks that man is so silly and clever and he s so hurt in the last one cant believe he let himself think he was right anout this but still can t help himself but try to get one more touch i in heated rivalry 31 jan ilya rozanova episode 1 ilya looking at shane 2 309 notes like reblog i truly truly don t understand how people can say ilya is just stringing shane along for the first couple of episodes as if that last look there isn t the look of a man who s in way too deep already and i do think they are falling for each other so early on already but the difference between shane and ilya is that ilya knows he knows that s what s happening and he s there at the end of ep1 and he s trying to build up his walls because he s going home in three days and then shane is looking for him and finds him and is trying to connect with him but ilya s walls are up and he cannot let them down because that will be ruinous he cannot go back to russia with his heart wide open but shane is chipping at him away anyway and then he s hurt because of ilya and isn t that the truth and then he s walking away and then he s standing there with his hand outstretched again and ilya despite all his best efforts can t let him leave like this can t let him leave thinking ilya doesn t care because ilya has his walls up right now but seeing shane put them back up too is like looking in a mirror so he has to try doesn t quite work the way he wants but it s the only way he knows how to get across that they are something they are something anyway anyway heated rivalry 26 jan therozanov heated rivalry 1 02 saffrondawn this was a fucking rooooomaaaaaaance moment one of those moments when i knew jacob tierney got the genre bc this look of conflict and desire and the fact that shane cannot see it it s that and the big spiel in russian where it s like this is why dual pov in a romance is so important and 9 10 times the better choic w exceptions if you re a perceptive audience member and not everyone is lol you can tell that shane is not getting the full picture you know that ilya s feelings are real and intense but shane not knowing and you knowing makes the tension even better tags via mermaidsirennikita 26 827 notes like reblog we do need to talk about shane hollanders big beautiful wet eyes every day but we also need to talk so much about ilya rozanovs big beautiful wet eyes right now heated rivalry 1 1737 currently currently black sails station eleven critical role our flag means death station eleven 911 critical role yellowjackets severance more