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misspiggyilya on tumblr explore communities change palette sign up log in i barely even like you misspiggyilya ️ prev dykenav ️ mary 27 she her main is thriftdyke this used to be a fandom blog for many things but its all heated rivalry now sorry ao3 antifever ask me anything follow posts comments pinned misspiggyilya mary s pinned post hi i m mary this is my fandom blog for heated rivalry that once upon a time was a fandom blog for other things that may be returned to again at some point i gave up tagging things that are not original posts only reblogs i tag now are for fandom posts that are not heated rivalry e g my dead wives the raven cycle the dreamer trilogy the locked tomb my hr fics ao3 antifever where you go i m going suicidal shane oneshot rating t words 1 168 running up that hill hollanov body swap au rating e words 18 596 sad sap laying on the surface shane svetlana qpr part of my ilya dies au rating m words 4 430 wip as soft as you can bear it schizophrenic irina age regression ilya hurt comfort onsehot rating m words 4 815 original fics ficlets snippets headcanons meta under my writing wips under wip i love angsty aus and taboo kinks hit up my askbox be a freak wit me this is a sideblog likes follows come from thriftdyke url thesis blinkies courtesy of ilyasmole pinned post 10 misspiggyilya reblogged ilyapasta follow it s hozier but is it hollanov a ranking of hozier songs based on how hollanov they are we know hozier s music is often used for blorbo feelings fodder but i find some of the traditional shipping songs don t actually work for hollanov s vibe this is both an excuse to re listen to all of hozier s mainline albums and whatever singles i choose to interact with and rank them based on how relevant they are to hollanov s love story and characterizations crucially i m not ranking how much i like these songs or how good they are as music just how much they make me think of hollanov as a couple or individual characters at different points of the story also i m going to stick to canon narrative book and show for this but that is subjective to my interpretation you can disagree though i ll probably enjoy reading your thoughts the ranking system i m coming to the cottage this song is them in every possible way in every possible time period and era and describes an aspect of their love story is just a plan to fuck the song fits them but just in a horny way shanalysis this song is a shane understander ilyanalysis this song is an ilya understander don t worry it will fit there are elements of this song that could connect with aspects of hollanov s story but i m probably stretching it what s youtube this song is irrelevant to hollanov s journey still hozier though so you should listen alright here we go part 1 hozier the self titled album keep reading op i m obsessed w ur mind it will come back being ilyanalysis ooooof i need a minute 4 5 18 misspiggyilya reblogged tinylilhollander misspiggyilya follow if u don t see the religious coded undertones in shane s devotion to hockey then idk what to tell u misspiggyilya prev tinylilhollander ️ 2 16 63 misspiggyilya reblogged bipolar4autistic lexicanons follow vampire shane feeding off ilya one night and almost immediately pulling back and giving ilya a disappointing look ilya asks what s wrong and shane asks why he hasn t taken his antidepressants would the antidepressants make his blood taste better or worse is the question 96 338 misspiggyilya reblogged comingatthecottage argillaforma follow a scene that really gets me is in episode 6 is where they re all sat at the table and yuna says oh but that s sad when they tell her they re gonna keep their relationship secret until they retire and shane responds yeah we know like that just sums up the queer experience a lot of the queer experience is people being like wait it s actually crazy you have to deal with that and queer people just going ️ because it s always been like that it s sad but it s not shocking to shane and ilya that they have to hide because there is no other option it s acceptance by defeat because it feels like there is no alternative yeah we know because we have been living in that reality for the last almost 10 years we know 1 259 1 059 misspiggyilya reblogged dykehollanova ilya rozanova follow shane x ilya s curls shane be gripping ilya be bobbing what else is there to say 4 885 2 866 misspiggyilya reblogged ilyapasta ineptshieldmaid follow i say again there is no actual evidence that shane takes a humiliating pay cut to go to ottawa he s clear that he wants to be paid what he s worth and in the same section of the book where he s done being a voyageur he s open to considering teams other than ottawa it is reasonable to assume that he is being paid in the same ballpark as before perhaps his agent offers ottawa a slight hometown discount in exchange for a bulletproof no trade clause something he probably had in montreal as a franchise player but which wouldn t be guaranteed anywhere else logically given how expensive the shane ilya combo is shane s contract is unlikely to be as long as he would have got in montreal though they re both 30 at this point by 34 they might be slowing down they might be an expensive part of an aging core but they might still be formidable if ottawa can find cap space for shane then they can pay him what he s worth in return for a superpowered offensive core for a couple of years the real question will come in their mid 30s are they still a combo asset are they both worth keeping at that cost at the expense of not being able to keep say troy barrett or luca haas that s a question that would affect both of their contract renewals wait prev i love that concept so much pls someone write it 5 16 51 misspiggyilya reblogged comingatthecottage saints3angels follow obsessed with this poor guy who gets dragged away from his takeout menu so his evil bisexual roommate can go have the worst club experience of his life 42 3 763 13 000 misspiggyilya reblogged shanebug follow me a lesbian trying to explain how i love my favourite male characters he s like my close friend who i worry about but he s also me in some ways but sometimes he s also my son and i carried him inside of me and gave birth to him but im also psychosexually obsessed with him but mostly he s my doll i play with and a bug i keep in a jar on my shelf and i shake the jar and i shake it and i shake it and i shake it and i shake it me except i also want to fuck them in a way that makes me question if i wanna be a gay man sometimes but i just don t look too closely at that 2 175 428 misspiggyilya reblogged hollanderthoughts follow i look for you in everything and i find you wherever i look see even hollanderthoughts is making shane religious coded like are these not the lyrics to a hillsong united song or whatever okay i ll stop lol 43 64 misspiggyilya reblogged dirtypuzzlewrites follow it s easier for me to write shane bc shane s problems are things i ve been trying to articulate in writing since the moment i learned to write ilya s problems are things so ingrained into me that i struggle to dig them out the reason i read more about shane is bc even the really really good ilya fics completely whiff it on the grigori of it all that fucking man is a cop and i have yet to see a single fic in this fandom portray what that means in any real way grigori being mvd is so integral to how ilya would have grown up that leaving it out feels like leaving half of ilya s character on the table i could write an abusive cop and how it feels to grow up in a panopticon constructed for you personally but if i pull that out of myself gore is coming with it and i got work tomorrow yk dirtypuzzlewrites fwiw shane is also in a panopticon but like the autism version what if you were in a panopticon but not bc anyone built one and actually all the eyes of the panopticon aren t aware they re watching even tho they always are and at any point they could become aware and ruin you you can t leave bc there s nothing to leave everyone you meet is an eye in the walls of the thing watching you waiting for you to slip up so every twitch of muscle is made with the assumption that it s being seen and evaluated and eventually to hopefully anticipate what the panopticon is filtering for you become another eye in its wall so even your own internal thoughts and feelings are analytically critical of yourself you are your own voyeur and you never do manage to figure out what the eyes are looking for ilya is in a brick and mortar panopticon constructed the ol fashioned way made for him specifically by his father who is a member of a literal surveillance state very yummy thoughts here 14 37 misspiggyilya i also think someone being likely to be religious or not has very little to do with whether they make sense of things with logic or mysticism the thing is all religions use logic very well actually it s just a type of logic that binds u in traps and keeps u from thinking outside of it i actually think ppl more likely to break out of religions are people who have more tolerance for mysticism mystery cuz that at least frees u from one rigid way of thinking idk i just have a lot of feelings abt this as a former religious bitch this is not even abt anything anymore i m just rambling 1 misspiggyilya like one of the primary defining traits of religiousity is the desire to be submissive so jot that one down and yes you can hate the fact that you want to be submissive just like u can hate that u need god doesn t change the fact that that need is something u can t escape even if u try to doesn t that sound familiar to someone we know 3 misspiggyilya if u don t see the religious coded undertones in shane s devotion to hockey then idk what to tell u like its all there 2 16 63 misspiggyilya reblogged twirlingfreckles probablily follow okay i dont care u can t say x thing is fundamentally out of character for literally anything ever because that not how writing characters works even for things that i dont enjoy u could write an sub bottom ilya thesis and i wouldnt read it and it would be incompatible with my understanding of the character but u could write it in a way thats believeable enough to his character if ur a skilled enough writer thats literally the whole point of fanfiction 10 62 misspiggyilya reblogged clotpolesonly amnesiaguy follow so ummm welcome to my jar lemme show you around theres some holes poked in the top so i can breathe theres some leaves to munch on and ive even got a twig mytwig amnesiaguy weird as hell thank you for asking wait u know what i just realized this post feels like the same cadence as shane welcoming ilya to the cottage i ve even got a well u can see it hashtag mywell sorry 2 114 439 108 276 misspiggyilya reblogged moonlightsonatah tothecottage follow im nornal i want this fit hudson williams 1 127 316 you are using an unsupported browser and things might not work as intended please make sure 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