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heese i m shocked at how much i m eating weight watchers brand makes a smoked mozzarella string cheese and they are pretty stinkin good the plain ones were really hard to get down ok so if you ve kept up with the blog you ve seen the restrictions i ve worked to darn hard to screw this up what do you think would be the most difficult thing for you i know i ve offered up plenty of opinions and shared a lot of my story but how would you handle this i venture to say that you d be able to do more than you ever thought possible don t for one minute though ever tell anyone who is considering or has had bariatric surgery that it s the easy way out there s no cheating if you want to succeed no one skinny cow candy bar is fine i can have just one chip and it ll be ok because i can stop there or one bowl of pasta won t hurt no wrong this is hard work just ask anyone who has been around me and sees what i eat and how i eat hard work i know there are some reading this blog who are considering the surgery i do not discuss the difficult things to dissuade you from having the operation whichever one you and your doctor deem appropriate with the greatest opportunity for success i just want you to go into it with your eyes open it is one of the major reasons i m putting myself out there also maybe you know someone who is going to have one of the bariatric surgeries you need to know what they ll be going through you need to know how to support and encourage them you will be a vital part of their success on an unrelated note this year i have begun a very small business as an independent consultant for a direct sales company i have gained some confidence both with the ability to wear something that doesn t look like a tent and having positive feedback from what i ve done with this being on disability i m not able to do a lot but this allows me to set my own schedule and have parties when i feel well enough do facebook parties and even have hostesses who opt for catalog parties it can be really stressful sometimes and that s hard on me emotionally but when something goes well and i can help someone achieve one of her goals it s certainly heart warming how can i help you what questions can i answer what support can i offer you or a friend please don t hesitate for one minute to ask i mean if i ve posted that awful 310 lb picture i m willing to discuss almost anything i want to help encourage support and celebrate your experience posted by jen b at 11 54 am 8 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels bariatric surgery bathing suit eating gastric sleeve obesity responsibility restrictions shopping sleeve gastrectomy surgery travel vacation water aerobics sunday july 10 2016 new experiences 46 days out this number has changed many times as i continue to write and write and write wow this has been a crazy time i m sorry i ve neglected this for so long i started to write a couple of weeks ago but then well life just got in the way where to start part of the delay was some pain i m having it s all along the left side of my abdomen and the lrnp said that it wasn t pain i should be having at this stage so i had an unexpected visit downtown thankfully hubby was able to take off she the lrnp said that it s unlikely the pain is surgery related but they ordered a few tests just to see if they can determine what is causing it i m waiting on the results of one the other required a pre cert and i didn t get the info to schedule until it was too late so i ll be calling for that appointment on monday i do hope they figure this out actually just today saturday hubby and i were out running some errands and wandering the mall i haven t been able to walk the mall in years i realized i could go to chick fil a and get grilled nuggets i got the 8 piece but could only finish 5 i ll know to get the children s portion next time then i had to wait 30 minutes to drink which about killed me on top of that i had my ongoing clothing frustrations more about that below and i was having some arthritis pain you don t spend much time being morbidly obese before your body rebels we left to head to our main destination and one of my absolute favorite stores the container store unfortunately the abdominal pain increased dramatically almost out of the blue so hubby knew something was wrong when i wanted to leave there and not even stop at target on the way home so here i sit protein shake in next to me typing away now i had my first experience at a restaurant i was super anxious a few days prior i had a hamburger and it didn t sit well dinner was planned for hubby s birthday and my parents were taking us to a steak and seafood restaurant i called the dietitian in a hurry she pulled up the menu on her computer and we went through the menu over the phone did i mention how wonderful she is i assumed i d get the scallop appetizer but the menu didn t make it as straight forward as it used to be i also never paid attention before and it is a sauteed dish therefore cooked in butter a big no no we worked together to figure out a plan and a few days later we headed down to my folks the day came and i felt somewhat not at all prepared i have a letter from my surgeon saying that i ve had an operation and that i should be permitted to order a lesser amount of food off the children s menu if need be for a proportionate cost i was armed going into the restaurant my parents go here often so they have a favorite server and asked for her while we were being seated my father graciously took the server aside and advised her of my situation she was wonderful and told me to order what i want need from the menu and the chef would make it work i did get the scallops grilled along with some asparagus i wasn t able to finish the 4 scallops so by bariatric law of my program i didn t have any of the veggie i love vegetables so this is killing me but rules dictate that i eat my 3 oz of protein before i have my ounce of veggie and i held firm to the rules major eating lifestyle changes stop drinking 15 minutes before eating take at a minimum 30 minutes to eat preferably more with the amount of nausea i ve had because of this i ve gotten used to finishing my meals cold eat 4 oz meals getting 60 80 oz of protein in daily historically people in my specific program have had a higher rate of success with having a protein shake bar for one meal per day it may not be logical but different doctors programs have different rules both pre op and post op it s not like removing a gall bladder or fixing a torn ligament as i mentioned before i am now permitted 1 oz of veggies and 3 oz of protein but the protein must must must come first greek yogurt is an excellent source of protein so a number of the bariatric recipes i have include that as an ingredient or i ll just have a cup of cherry or whatever and it has 12 grams of protein meals should be between 3 4 hours apart do not drink until 30 minutes after eating this one has been the most difficult i think we re all so used to drinking throughout our meals so to not pick up my glass until 30 minutes after i m through is an enormous change try it it s hard it is absolutely necessary to get in 64 oz at the very least 50 oz of water crystal light something with no caffeine no sugar and non carbonated daily dehydration is the number one reason for people to be re admitted following surgery so yes there are restrictions and some of them are more difficult than one who hasn t been through the process can understand it s a matter of priorities it s also a matter of being incredibly strict in following my dietary requirements i had my first session with my food eating therapist since surgery she s a real cheerleader for me and my journey and reminds me all the time how far i ve come and how much i m doing to follow the strict rules i don t take compliments terribly well so it s a bit like water off a duck s back but she knows that i had the same experience with my psychiatrist earlier this week i ve always been hard on myself so it s not something new the only person on my mental health team who has supported me throughout the entire process is my psychologist the food therapist is new the psychiatrists i ve seen in the past especially the one i saw for the longest time 9 years i think would have just set up another appointment and said they d see me after surgery all 3 of these people wanted to know as soon as possible how surgery went my psychiatrist was really happy surprised even that hubby emailed her not long after the surgery was over she thanked me him for that and i thanked her for caring enough to ask i haven t even been seeing her a year and she s done everything to encourage me and support this process when i talked of the financial hardship of seeing a second therapist she didn t think twice and told me to see her less often if that would help she s there by email and phone if i need her i had an appt at the neurologist s office and talked with her about decreasing doses on some of the meds they have me on for my migraines because they can also be used for psych purposes they are older meds and have a greater chance to cause weight gain working against what i m working to do in conjunction with my psychiatrist i am cutting one of the biggest offenders in half to start and the other i take 1200 mg 3x day and that is being cut to 900 mg 3x day i hope to be off my cholesterol med by the fall and even though my psychiatrist added back in one med i went off it due to a variety of screw ups i can just pray that she will take me off the one i currently take once i m up to a therapeutic dose clothes i m finally starting to find myself shrinking out of clothes i was so frustrated being stuck in the same size clothes as 50 lbs ago but just within the past 1 2 weeks i ve noticed that my shirts are sliding down my shoulders and my bra straps are showing that hasn t been the case in nearly forever my old body had a fairly basic pound to size ratio when i was 310 lbs i wore a 30 32 i m under 250 oh right did i mention that i m under 250 i don t remember the last time that was the case so my mind keeps saying that i should be in a 24 26 but that s not totally the case it wasn t a science before but now it s all over the place i did go this afternoon to a catherine s outlet store i don t want to spend a ton of money on clothes since i just don t know what size to buy and i ll say it again i definitely do not want to spend a lot of money so i left empty handed but have become friendly with one of the employees so we chatted for a bit and that was nice the same has been true for all of my shopping escapades of late it turns into one big frustrating mess i m going to wind up naked before i know it and nobody wants to see that i had a appointment in the town where i grew up so met some friends for lunch afterwards in talking with one of my friends she asked where i wanted to go i haven t lived there in over 20 years so i m not entirely sure what the options were in talking with her i said that breakfast is easy for me since i can just order eggs we decided on a place when i walked in all i saw were booths in the past this was fear inducing will i fit will i be able to breathe will my belly wind up hanging onto the table will people stare last week though no problem plus inches to spare for anyone who s struggled with obesity that s a huge accomplishment no pun intended part of me can t wait to go to our local diner i haven t been there in many months and i m eager to just sit down and not have to request a table that s awfully embarrassing or even more embarrassing is them asking if a booth is ok this is one check in the win box another great thing about that lunch is that i haven t seen these women in over 2 years it was wonderful catching up in person and not just via facebook posts and messages or texts but while they know this is the path i m on now i haven t posted any recent photographs so i was almost giddy at their reactions i know it still falls under the water off a duck s back concept but it was still really nice to hear like my doctor surgeon says i m with me everyday it s only those who don t see me for a long stretch who will really notice i d been slacking a bit with exercise but also found myself unhappy with my weight loss numbers i m the only one who can change that so i sucked up the pain to a certain level i still have to listen to my body and hopped back on that bike with having a tv in that room i can stream shows and movies through amazon prime and not have to pay for an additional fios box at this point i m doing about 7 miles in between 23 26 minutes i have yet to put on that bathing suit and jump into the pool for water aerobics with my mood all over the place i am not finding the energy to get up and at em in time hence my time on the bike plus i don t have to leave the house huge bonus some days jewelry is also an issue for larger or obese women it s not something i d considered before it became an issue necklaces don t fit properly and if they do they become chokers when they re not meant to be i also kept having to get a larger and larger band to wear as a wedding ring one christmas hubby got my original rings sized i cried because it was the best gift it made me feel normal again if that makes sense now those rings are getting loose because of the heat they aren t in danger of falling off but i have to keep a eye on them so i don t lose them once the weather cools also out of curiosity i tried on my college ring and wouldn t you know it fit such an amazing feeling i still weigh probably 70 lbs more than i did then but the fact that i could get it on and not have to cut if off was another win i won t be wearing it anytime soon but i moved the infinity ring hubs got me for christmas to another finger so i could get used to it there and be prepared to wear my college ring again woo hoo this may sound really odd to someone who hasn t had the experience of losing significant weight particularly when it s rapid but skin starts to sag it s not pretty but it s all part of the journey well i noticed the other day that my arm flab was less taut than it used to be yes that s right i m having skin sag it s hard to explain it but it s a good feeling i m trying not to think about skin surgery so early in my journey but it s something i may consider down the road depending on the condition of my body when all s said and done insurance doesn t typically pay for it because they see it as cosmetic so it would create a rather sizable financial burden at the same time having this skin issue could create other problems medical problems one thing at a time though it was just exciting that there was some evidence i was able to see now this last one is still a source of anxiety for me in a couple of months we are going on vacation the dietitian said to cross that hurdle when i come to it but it s still a big 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