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ights in a row over the weekend it was glorious thursday night she went to sleep around 10 and woke up at 5 30 and friday night went to sleep about the same time and slept til 6 30 i don t know what got into her but i wish it d come back the next night and every night since she s back to waking up between 2 and 3 then again between 6 and 7 not too bad but those two nights gave me hope that she ll sleep through the night soon we re trying lots of different sleeping positions and sleep attire fleece onesie thinner cotton onesie fleecy swaddler etc to try to find the right combination that helps her sleep sounder and longer we re also trying to combat a bit of flat head syndrome due to the back sleeping and are trying to get her to sleep on her side more that s not working too well but we re trying don t want kate to have to wear a helmet leave a comment posted in uncategorized hopeful posted on january 11 2010 leave a comment never underestimate the absolute necessity of spending time with other new mothers when you have a new baby i think it may be the most important thing when it comes to a mom s well being seriously being home bound with a new baby it s hard for me to find time or the means to get together with other moms sometimes or as often as i d like but when i do it reinforces to me just how important it is this morning i went to the breastfeeding support group that s organized by the lactation department at the hospital i ve been going to it every monday morning and am starting to get to know some of the girls better it s great to hear other moms talk about issues they re having and to realize i m not the only one dealing with a particular issue each week we get to weigh our babies to see how much they ve gained in the week and we also can weigh them after a feeding to see how much they take in this week i was happily surprised to see that kate gained 9 ounces in the past 7 days she s up to 9 lbs 7 5 oz for some reason breastfeeding actually got better in the last 5 or 6 days i started to do a few things differently with how we nurse and it seemed to help her take more in the nursing sessions are lasting longer and she s drinking more so i guess i shouldn t be too surprised that her weight went up more than usual also after nursing her there at the class we weighed her and found out that she took in 5 ounces from me that s huge that s how much she takes in from the bottle i m so glad to know she s getting that much from me previously she d only get 1 5 3 ounces in a nursing session today is a good day however i ve had a smattering of not so good days in the last week i ve bitten the bullet and made an appt with my ob to talk about what may be causing my mood swings and blue ness i never thought i d want to take something a medication for feeling blue but i m so tired of not feeling like myself again today is a good day i feel recharged i spent a lot of time in prayer this morning and i m telling you sitting and talking with those girls this morning did a world of good too but this recharged feeling may not last and i m feeling good about the upcoming appt with the dr to talk through some of this stuff and see if i need to take something to help me level out if i felt everyday like i do today pretty much back to my normal self i wouldn t have a problem but the low points over the last several weeks were scary and really not a fun place to be i don t want to be there again my life is really what i prayed for so much over those two years when we couldn t get pregnant it s not perfect but i have a wonderful husband a precious daughter and i m able to stay home with her not working full time it s exactly what i wanted yet i ve been feeling like i can t fully enjoy it like i ve been in this fog that s keeping me from really enjoying life enjoying matt and kate as much as i should be i just haven t had my usual interest in and zest for life i m ready to feel like myself again i know part of it is that being a new mother is hard and it s a big adjustment but i also know with me there s more to it and we just need to figure that out and address it i m hopeful things will get better leave a comment posted in uncategorized a good day posted on january 7 2010 leave a comment i m sitting here watching fat snowflakes fall from the sky and hearing kids outside laughing and playing in the street snow is a rare treat here so school s are closed for the day much to neighborhood kids delight kate and i have had a good day inside snuggling she s in her bouncy seat sleeping now i ve been making the most of her nap by uploading and organizing photos although i should be writing those darn thank you notes after my low point yesterday morning things have gotten better i had a good day yesterday and the night went well too it s funny in these 8 weeks every time i ve gotten really fed up with breastfeeding and talking about giving it up and going to pumping and bottles only the nursing starts getting better kate nursed well yesterday meaning longer than a quick 5 minutes that does nothing to relieve me and doesn t fill her up and has done well so far today maybe this is the turning point the lactation consultant says many girls say they can point to a specific day when breastfeeding got easier for them like one day it s hard and all of the sudden the next day everything changes and it gets better i m not convinced this change will be permanent but i ll take it for however long it lasts i loved having her sleep on my chest earlier today it s such a sweet feeling to have her nestled under my chin making little noises in her sleep her mouth twitches and her little eyes move all around under her eyelids i wish i knew what she was dreaming about she s been an active sleeper since the very first week back then i wondered what she could have possibly been dreaming about since she had no life experiences under her belt i decided she was dreaming about heaven or wherever she was before she came to us heaven or someplace else but i know she was with god sweet baby kate leave a comment posted in uncategorized confession posted on january 7 2010 1 comment for all my life is wonderful ness yesterday i m actually struggling quite a bit i had a rough night last night and what was hopefully the bottom this morning i realize that i m putting a lot of pressure on myself to figure everything out associated with motherhood and the fact that i haven t figured it out yet is stressing me out so much so that i m crying a lot and that worries me which makes me cry even more i think most of the issues stem from the fact that i m really struggling with breastfeeding everyone told me it would get easier after about 6 weeks but we re at 8 weeks and it really hasn t gotten easier we have good sessions and bad sessions but nothing consistant i ve had to pump more than i d like because i produce a lot of milk much more than kate takes from me so i end up in a good deal of pain so i pump but pumping a lot brings it s own problems so basically it s a never ending cycle and i feel like i should have this feeding thing down by now there are also a lot of other defeated feelings bouncing around my head and heart having to do with matt my role as a wife how i m doing as a wife how i m balancing everything etc not to mention my hormones are completely out of whack which is also contributing to the come aparts i m sure i actually started my period 5 weeks after having kate which was so disappointing i thought it d be a while before i had to deal with that again not only that it hasn t gone away yep i ve had a period for three solid weeks and the regular after childbirth bleeding prior to that and i m losing a good deal of hair too so i m feeling totally unsexy along with feeling like a basketcase it s great this morning i spent some time reading my bible which usually brings me a measure of comfort i read the verse in philippians do not be anxious about anything but in everything through prayer and petition with thanksgiving present your requests to god and the peace of god which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in christ jesus so i did that with thanksgiving i presented my requests to god namely that he d change my heart and help me to have a better attitude that he d give me the strength and peace to enjoy each day and each moment with kate and with matt so i don t miss this sweet time by being constantly frustrated worried sad anxious like matt said i need to just let things be as they are and let them be messy and be ok with it that he d turn my wailing into dancing and remove my sackcloth and clothe me in joy and more specifically that kate and i will be able to get the hang of bf ing so that i can just pump once at night when matt gives a bottle either that or that he ll give me peace about going to exclusive pumping and feeding her breastmilk in a bottle and foregoing breastfeeding i realize that s a lot of requests but he tells us to present our requests to him so i m doing that i know his will will be done and it just may be that he continues to allow me to struggle in order for me to learn important things about myself and if that s the case so be it i just need a heart change in order to get through it i have a beautiful baby daughter and a husband who loves me unconditionally i need to focus on that and ignore the fiery arrows of defeat discouragement and doubt that satan flings at me whew glad i got that off my chest so in other news tomorrow is our snow day it s all everyone is talking about on the news here in birmingham well that and the bcs bowl in pasadena tomorrow because alabama is playing so football and snow that s all we re talking about here i asked matt yesterday to pick up milk on his way home from work because we were almost out then i remembered we needed bread for sandwiches too when he got home he said he felt like a walking cliche because he bought bread and milk two days before snow that s the running joke in alabama that when snow comes there s a run on bread and milk at the store here s hoping we get a pretty dusting of snow but no power outtages i don t want to spend the whole day inside with no tv or computer although i do have a whole lot of think you notes to write note i originally posted these first two posts in a blogger blog but moved them this morning thursday to wordpress that s why it looks like i posted them both this morning rather than tuesday and wednesday when i actually posted them 1 comment posted in uncategorized re entering the blog world posted on january 7 2010 1 comment hello my name is lauren and i m a new mom maybe this will be my support group i titled my blog an ordinary day because to everyone else life with a new baby is just an ordinary day countless mothers do it every day it s normal not a big deal but for me it s anything but normal i guess it s a new normal my life looks nothing like it used to i used to work full time in publishing dressed in business casual attire and had adult conversations all day then i lost my job got pregnant and spent most of last year at home freelancing a bit nannying a bit and planning for our new little person now my days are spent nursing pumping washing bottles burping the baby not me and if i m lucky some time outside the house i m not complaining i waited for this baby for a long time much longer than the 10 months of pregnancy and she kate is wonderful by all accounts my life is wonderful but i struggle with what everyone says are typical new mother struggles and battles but for me they re new and scary i ll get into those later i started this blog to maybe connect with other mothers to be inspired by those who truly do have it all figured out if there are any of you out there and to commiserate with those of you who are in the same boat as me maybe we can learn from each other i have friends in real life who have babies and who i can talk to but sometimes it s easier to admit things or say things out loud or on a computer screen to people you don t know for me sometimes it s easier to write my feelings than it is to verbalize them thus i m adding yet another blog to the world i have to admit this is maybe the 5th blog i ve started a couple fell by the wayside a long time ago more recently i began a blog that i intended to keep up for out of town friends and family as a way to keep them up to date on little kate and the goings on in our world i even was ambitious enough to say i d write in it all year and at the end of the year have it published so we d have a book of all my writings and photos from kate s first year sounds like a great idea but i just don t have a lot of time to update it much less upload the photos it s become daunting in my mind plus i keep wanting a place to unload or upload ha my frustrations joys hopes and fears about motherhood and that blog wasn t the place to do it i have another blog that i kept up with during the time my husband and i were trying to get pregnant it served a wonderful purpose for me it allowed me to connect with other women who were also stuck in the world of infertility they helped me immensely then once i got pregnant i didn t do a good job of keeping the blog going i had some issues figuring out how much to post knowing that the girls who read my blog were still struggling to get pregnant i also found that returning to that blog was sort of like revisiting our difficult road of infertility a road that i m not quite ready to revisit i m fully aware that i may be on that road again whenever we decide to try for baby 2 but for now i need some separation from that world although not the people it s not the people i need separation from if i m successful in keeping this blog going i d love to redirect them to this blog once i had kate all thoughts of having time to blog were laughable at the beginning i barely had time to make a bowl of cereal much less string together words with any coherence now we re almost at 8 weeks and there are days when i have a bit more time and i m finding myself wanting to re enter the blog world for the community available and also just as an outlet for myself i m not sure how often i ll post because there are so many days when i have to do laundry or a freelance project or make phone calls during the precious few hours kate spends napping but i m hoping to make it here often i d love this place to be a little haven for me we ll see what happens so consider this my first introduction i m lauren my wonderful and supportive husband is matt he makes me better i love warm or even hot weather which means this incredibly unusual freezing cold snap here in birmingham is not my cup of tea it s barely getting above freezing this week which means i m hunkered down inside in my warmest fleecy pants with the heat cranked up i don t plan to leave the house this week i can t wait for summer to get here i also love reading a lot and i like to write on good days i d call myself a freel...