Meta tags:

Headings (most frequently used words):

navigation, post, the, watch, me, grow, sweet, charlotte, bump, check, pregnancy, playing, house, snuggles, glamping, finter, 2019, bffs, goodbye, school, hello, summer, family, baseball, baby, hem, is, three, dragon, coffee, with, char, hand, holding, follow, via, email, categories, recent, posts, archives, henry,

Text of the page (most frequently used words):
the (212), and (165), weeks (121), was (72), that (61), for (52), henry (50), with (41), but (40), 2014 (38), old (38), this (35), days (34), had (30), just (29), like (29), little (29), our (29), not (26), his (26), she (25), #family (25), are (24), has (24), day (23), week (23), time (23), from (23), which (22), have (21), can (21), baby (21), now (20), about (20), tumor (20), posted (20), months (19), really (19), her (19), out (18), charlotte (18), 2019 (18), when (17), 2016 (17), raising (17), june (16), more (16), girl (16), been (16), get (16), school (16), they (16), feel (15), there (15), will (15), crazy (15), morning (15), next (15), all (14), then (14), believe (14), mark (14), march (14), still (13), definitely (13), belly (12), lbs (12), until (12), you (12), may (12), back (12), january (12), 2015 (12), playing (11), pregnant (11), what (11), got (11), sweet (11), hard (11), down (11), february (11), first (11), one (11), siblings (11), house (10), would (10), some (10), way (10), very (10), could (10), two (10), doc (10), only (10), full (10), here (10), pretty (10), getting (10), him (10), into (10), actually (10), december (10), twenty (10), boy (10), tagged (10), playinghousewi (10), birthday (10), night (10), comment (9), today (9), good (9), before (9), how (9), april (9), room (9), much (9), 2013 (9), every (9), november (9), 2017 (9), 2018 (9), love (9), who (9), friends (9), other (8), real (8), going (8), another (8), look (8), sure (8), everything (8), big (8), well (8), around (8), new (8), leave (8), these (8), because (8), taken (8), fun (8), desmoid (8), after (8), surgery (8), weekend (8), being (7), giant (7), last (7), already (7), grow (7), see (7), ever (7), also (7), made (7), home (7), even (7), seems (7), should (7), post (7), too (7), pregnancy (7), three (7), september (7), preschooler (7), while (7), hematoma (7), came (7), their (7), kids (7), doesn (6), think (6), happy (6), somehow (6), okay (6), mommy (6), size (6), great (6), bump (6), always (6), different (6), thing (6), know (6), bit (6), august (6), october (6), second (6), living (6), same (6), scan (6), results (6), were (6), went (6), them (6), told (6), fall (6), email (5), due (5), say (5), thought (5), starting (5), check (5), growing (5), wait (5), body (5), inches (5), feeling (5), flying (5), over (5), people (5), off (5), did (5), such (5), things (5), point (5), life (5), better (5), husband (5), ultrasound (5), july (5), summer (5), glamping (5), toddler (5), healthy (5), breakfast (5), often (5), met (5), something (5), dad (5), during (5), lump (5), best (5), baseball (5), halloween (5), comments (4), date (4), didn (4), exciting (4), let (4), makes (4), want (4), continues (4), high (4), right (4), far (4), making (4), bulge (4), looking (4), meet (4), gone (4), said (4), maybe (4), past (4), photo (4), normal (4), parents (4), tiny (4), took (4), don (4), watch (4), does (4), under (4), officially (4), than (4), called (4), picture (4), year (4), taking (4), photos (4), thirty (4), finter (4), posts (4), kindergarten (4), follow (4), hand (4), tissue (4), perfect (4), started (4), amazing (4), together (4), pain (4), both (4), muscle (4), biopsy (4), typically (4), surgeon (4), aka (4), crying (4), music (4), waking (4), anything (4), needle (4), despite (4), times (4), loves (4), train (4), field (4), trip (4), candy (4), bar (3), wordpress (3), com (3), free (3), holy (3), pics (3), however (3), might (3), weighs (3), toby (3), why (3), remember (3), thinking (3), felt (3), soon (3), tum (3), four (3), bigger (3), tell (3), gets (3), end (3), literally (3), left (3), working (3), stay (3), looks (3), nearly (3), anyway (3), ish (3), piece (3), whatever (3), excited (3), nugget (3), totally (3), few (3), darn (3), cannot (3), note (3), month (3), head (3), journey (3), through (3), fact (3), attention (3), coming (3), hit (3), weird (3), surprised (3), knows (3), finally (3), face (3), whole (3), lot (3), confirmed (3), snuggles (3), your (3), navigation (3), holding (3), moments (3), most (3), speaks (3), work (3), meeting (3), favorite (3), per (3), stayed (3), since (3), care (3), general (3), again (3), light (3), diagnosis (3), kind (3), bed (3), wide (3), likely (3), laugh (3), couldn (3), find (3), upon (3), doctor (3), friend (3), sports (3), play (3), hands (3), true (3), car (3), eggs (3), public (3), lunch (3), kiddos (3), each (3), noted (3), class (3), farm (3), beautiful (3), camping (3), villa (3), jellystone (3), website (2), name (2), required (2), content (2), log (2), sign (2), site (2), shit (2), honestly (2), guess (2), woke (2), huge (2), pains (2), enjoy (2), knowing (2), womb (2), according (2), phone (2), app (2), long (2), seriously (2), stubborn (2), refusing (2), dog (2), term (2), stretch (2), wear (2), interesting (2), lately (2), short (2), any (2), ready (2), pop (2), someone (2), story (2), feels (2), absolutely (2), popped (2), sized (2), put (2), shoes (2), flew (2), least (2), munchkin (2), pineapple (2), smokes (2), dude (2), fills (2), must (2), throwing (2), ate (2), stand (2), probably (2), huh (2), gained (2), princess (2), guessing (2), small (2), shaping (2), side (2), own (2), cute (2), call (2), happen (2), stomach (2), ago (2), large (2), kicked (2), sunny (2), half (2), able (2), tomorrow (2), super (2), outside (2), need (2), fridays (2), babe (2), between (2), grown (2), continue (2), stuff (2), noticeable (2), clothes (2), bloat (2), fat (2), less (2), 25th (2), dates (2), lost (2), laughing (2), nine (2), eight (2), seven (2), six (2), five (2), goodbye (2), hello (2), bffs (2), holidays (2), addiction (2), address (2), older (2), morris (2), total (2), pie (2), sometimes (2), hem (2), eating (2), heart (2), melts (2), pictures (2), picks (2), nan (2), coffee (2), char (2), abdominal (2), wall (2), kill (2), make (2), essentially (2), cells (2), hours (2), apple (2), wisconsin (2), swallow (2), scary (2), genetic (2), desmoids (2), surgical (2), conference (2), talk (2), specific (2), found (2), families (2), lives (2), blur (2), talking (2), eyes (2), calling (2), sobs (2), hospital (2), honest (2), bathroom (2), pants (2), walk (2), resection (2), sarcoma (2), rate (2), preserved (2), played (2), pure (2), goes (2), help (2), course (2), step (2), telling (2), nothing (2), surprise (2), waiting (2), inconclusive (2), overly (2), concerned (2), scheduled (2), seemed (2), keep (2), primary (2), injury (2), fruit (2), appointment (2), tech (2), deep (2), visit (2), open (2), abdomen (2), dinner (2), wakes (2), alarm (2), come (2), sister (2), arms (2), biting (2), phase (2), incredibly (2), tend (2), voice (2), age (2), tends (2), catch (2), reminds (2), grandpa (2), falls (2), toy (2), boiled (2), calls (2), eat (2), sleeping (2), says (2), never (2), warm (2), won (2), random (2), percentile (2), update (2), perfectly (2), nap (2), set (2), hour (2), streetcar (2), excitement (2), market (2), ice (2), cream (2), ran (2), building (2), asking (2), bedtime (2), years (2), adult (2), quite (2), children (2), books (2), ideas (2), behind (2), run (2), dance (2), beginning (2), spooky (2), trick (2), loved (2), magic (2), circles (2), costume (2), late (2), early (2), crew (2), yogi (2), bear (2), horse (2), races (2), haystack (2), quiet (2), loft (2), kitchen (2), easier (2), park (2), write, loading, collapse, report, manage, subscriptions, view, reader, privacy, account, join, 200, subscribers, subscribed, subscribe, create, blog, marks, 280th, disappointed, arrive, milestone, plus, mild, aches, importantly, weirdly, shaped, lie, ritz, measures, unfortunately, woman, drop, surprising, mean, cutest, mini, warrior, champ, kissing, cheeks, forcing, outfits, prove, otherwise, hear, anyone, else, carrying, twins, hurt, button, inny, pokes, outy, volcano, speak, difficult, socks, aching, weighing, wonder, hurts, measuring, friday, complain, beefs, swallowed, basketball, obviously, larger, vending, machine, office, gave, unsolicited, bags, snacks, hungry, ravenous, version, bloody, meat, tiger, getaway, pretzels, happily, single, digits, lady, naming, ounce, squirmer, craziness, forgot, shy, although, shabby, momma, measurement, official, buddah, kicks, recognize, wise, fight, ick, swear, followed, sat, glad, isn, flaming, red, though, kicking, monster, wound, bladder, force, stinker, mexico, where, monumental, important, reason, become, soo, pointy, silly, changing, nyc, valentine, 140, yesterday, marked, papa, kick, milestones, halfway, touch, loving, enjoying, movement, potentially, pay, haven, worked, once, posting, its, wearing, sweater, puppy, bumper, collar, prevent, fitting, slats, fence, problems, saw, examine, reminded, comes, anywhere, fast, clothed, regardless, lime, trimester, looked, progressive, bff, role, laced, hormones, exhaustion, heck, snot, wasn, mood, remark, harder, concur, somewhere, please, puppito, lower, corner, wondering, photographer, child, fooled, bloated, evening, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, archives, recent, uncategorized, sugar, cookies, recipes, professional, product, review, infant, rcsec, style, drugs, drug, diy, categories, enter, receive, notifications, via, search, biggest, smoocher, cuddly, lovey, wants, hold, walking, whenever, puddle, gitel, special, muffin, scone, baked, conned, buying, squirrel, nibbling, sugary, parts, expression, motions, soaks, undivided, adorable, shines, talkative, expressive, absurdly, charismatic, gem, busy, instead, driving, mondays, nana, shop, live, sand, resumed, start, grateful, hope, stronger, assuming, mris, monitor, remain, returns, cryoblation, freezes, chemotherapy, radiation, hoping, indefinitive, mass, hopefully, confirming, truly, effects, clean, lasted, ugh, decently, irrelevant, seroma, scar, original, gotta, paranoid, mind, transition, oncology, pill, geneticist, testing, fap, disorder, cause, oncologist, ordered, mri, talked, options, return, cornering, socializing, docs, specialize, answers, questions, informed, empowered, research, foundation, hosting, patient, mid, urged, helped, sore, mentally, grip, convention, earlier, california, spent, exploring, san, francisco, reclusive, state, hurting, scared, ahead, emotionally, unstable, foreign, emotions, person, bawling, smallest, unrecognizable, hardest, part, babies, legit, kept, released, sections, topped, exponentially, terrible, lay, lift, pull, lovely, barely, removed, surrounding, final, rare, million, considered, cancerous, metastasize, areas, locally, malignant, recurrence, judgement, result, positive, margins, sides, touching, microscopic, traces, asked, wanted, threw, folk, hindsight, idea, recovery, form, cracking, jokes, distracting, yes, sassy, mil, instantly, choked, pulled, wheeled, away, cry, warn, surreal, insisted, perform, send, lab, depending, either, remove, removing, black, white, stuck, grey, unknown, many, shouldn, worry, nobody, knew, driven, myself, sudden, overwhelming, emotion, drive, crawl, darkness, lots, unpleasantly, assumed, shot, wrong, retire, theory, move, zebra, rarity, panicking, spoke, suggested, schwanoma, listed, breast, cancer, limits, watching, began, recommended, having, orangetheory, pit, torn, reevaluate, nervous, experience, pregnancies, eventually, ended, relax, breath, used, phrase, quickly, continued, googling, waited, became, recluse, book, fear, experienced, thus, 29th, noticing, workouts, hadn, snow, decided, google, led, dragon, rates, meals, thumbs, sideways, almost, kiddie, clock, turns, green, signaling, rooms, teachers, mostly, frequently, playground, pinchy, buds, smiles, inch, hearted, sweetest, guy, bright, perceptive, completely, unbiased, source, 100, captivating, quality, instantaneously, loud, squeaky, strangers, strict, dairy, soy, sunflower, oil, coconut, diet, try, chronic, loose, poops, stopped, helping, lifted, food, restrictions, mouth, trucks, dinosaurs, dressed, himself, puts, packs, unpacks, backpack, daily, asleep, gripping, ring, etc, sneaks, alone, oiled, avocado, adocado, eats, tank, uncommon, multiple, bowls, cereal, oatmeal, turkey, insists, door, above, sleeper, sneak, smooches, rides, tricycle, intro, show, bobby, world, wears, underwear, shirt, backwards, serious, passion, sings, naps, sound, refers, pinching, pretend, enough, piss, thankfully, manipulator, naughty, kneel, cups, paws, sorry, buys, pony, heavy, maaammmmy, huggy, shweetie, snuggler, dry, snuggliest, hug, smooch, randomly, huggies, clumsy, verbal, fluently, bore, bazillion, words, phrases, spell, count, spanish, assistance, remembering, tid, bits, weight, 65th, height, 39th, terms, facts, celebration, bottle, forever, movie, picnic, projector, watched, cars, tots, bored, moved, toys, hopped, downtown, ride, purposes, yummy, adventure, couple, neighbors, celebratory, playtime, overwhelmed, discovering, thomas, decoration, balloons, tablecloth, covered, gift, 615am, hopes, reaction, bugger, beat, heard, melissa, fashion, consisted, ridiculous, amount, decorating, placed, give, internal, tears, shed, manner, wake, anticipation, happened, feet, slimming, smell, pudge, gist, sesh, hitting, ball, indoor, adore, cutie, sweeties, specifically, haha, sweetie, program, montessori, recently, changed, friendship, miscellaneous, scenes, taste, mequon, color, backyard, facetiming, robot, uncle, matt, aunt, hannah, picking, grandma, chaperone, riding, bus, raise, money, highlights, classroom, party, bring, picked, feast, treating, parties, snowfall, later, bananas, magical, pick, treat, haul, busted, pieces, received, oops, blast, refused, costumes, dreams, fancy, dress, seem, amazon, requesting, owlette, mask, blippy, transformed, cartoon, character, besides, damn, possible, moment, passes, switched, wonderful, psychotic, routine, crash, repeat, figure, sleep, hate, hearing, giggle, flown, figured, prepare, yourself, overload, suddenly, overtaken, winter, childhood, vacation, arriving, ranger, smith, smores, stories, campfire, egg, toss, foot, pool, near, craft, booboo, swimming, mornings, strolling, campgrounds, itinerary, theme, filled, tons, activities, finding, bedroom, glamorous, add, hilarity, bedrooms, adults, upstairs, featured, twin, beds, setup, camp, fires, ground, ghost, town, rented, grand, enjoyed, luxuries, offer, season, packed, headed, campground, average, running, water, easy, relaxing, coed, sharing, spooning, seen, cuter, skip,

Text of the page (random words):
y in the bedrooms our kids in one our friends kids in the other and the adults stayed upstairs in the loft which featured 4 twin beds this setup made our late night camp fires easier the jellystone theme for the weekend was a weekend at the farm and was filled with tons of activities from candy bar horse races to finding a needle in a haystack we had such a great time the weekend itinerary i loved the early mornings strolling around the quiet campgrounds it was one for the books needle in a haystack candy bar horse races swimming craft time with booboo ice cream playing with friends near the villa egg toss playing on the foot pool field dinner smores spooky stories around the campfire bedtime story with ranger smith random fun the crew a little lunch yogi bear upon arriving home posted in family preschooler raising a boy raising a girl siblings tagged camping family vacation glamping 1 comment finter 2019 posted on november 6 2019 by playinghousewi somehow summer flew by and it s suddenly what wisconsin is calling finter aka what should be fall but is being overtaken by winter school has started and my sweet char is deep into kindergarten full day school and the beginning of her true childhood years i m not crying you re crying before too much time has flown by and i fall way too far behind i figured i d post everything from the first day of school until now so prepare yourself for an overload of photos from my sweet crew first day of school i don t know how it s possible but despite the crazy every moment that passes seems to get better and better the kids are amazing this summer we switched them into the same room which has been wonderful and psychotic they love the shit out of each other which tends to get in the way of sleeping their routine is essentially to stay up late playing one night and then crash hard and early the next night and repeat we definitely have to figure out a way to get them more sleep but i will say i don t hate hearing them giggle all night halloween was a blast charlotte refused all of my ideas for family costumes with her big dreams of being a beautiful princess who is beautiful and fancy with real magic circles on her dress i couldn t seem to find real magic circles on amazon but we did the best we could and mr henry went from requesting an owlette costume from pj mask because she s so beautiful to blippy in the end he was transformed into even more of a cartoon character and should never wear anything besides that damn costume ever again as a side it should be noted that we finally let the kids pick some candy to eat from their trick or treat haul this morning first time let s just say that mark and i got busted for eating so much of it somehow c seemed to remember specific pieces of candy she had received oops noted for next year after the most perfect day for trick or treating and a weekend full of birthday parties for c finter kicked in and we had our first snowfall literally days later on halloween it was bananas and magical the kids loved it for halloween we made a spooky feast and had the best night other halloween highlights c s classroom halloween party bring a friend to dance class c picked henry as her friend here are some pics from more fun since the beginning of the school year charlotte s fun run to raise money for school charlotte s farm field trip mommy s first time as a field trip chaperone note riding a bus at 34 is not amazing henry s farm field trip apple picking with grandma grandpa public market lunch uncle matt aunt hannah come to visit charlotte s dance class henry s robot class mommy henry facetiming fall backyard fun family date night taste of mequon the color run mommy s first 5k family photos behind the scenes miscellaneous fun with friends family love adult fun posted in family kindergarten preschooler raising a boy raising a girl siblings tagged fall family fun fall family photo ideas family update leave a comment bffs ️ posted on june 11 2019 by playinghousewi these two are everything i love the way they love each other a friendship for the books posted in family raising a boy raising a girl siblings tagged family siblings leave a comment goodbye school hello summer posted on june 5 2019 by playinghousewi while charlotte is still in her 4k school program with the public school the kids montessori school recently had their last day can you believe how much they ve changed it should be noted that both of my children want to be parents when they grow up little sweeties specifically henry would like to be a dad like my other dad aka like mark haha and my sweetie charlotte s favorite thing is her whole family and here are some other cutie pie pics from the morning posted in family preschooler raising a boy raising a girl siblings toddler tagged last day of school siblings summer leave a comment family baseball posted on june 5 2019 by playinghousewi this past weekend we had quite the living room baseball sesh soon both kids will be hitting the ball too hard for indoor play but for now these are the moments i absolutely adore posted in family preschooler raising a boy raising a girl siblings toddler tagged baseball family living room baseball leave a comment the baby hem is three posted on june 5 2019 by playinghousewi henry is officially three years and three days old how has this happened my baby s feet are slimming down and starting to smell his hands have lost their pudge he is pretty much a grown adult the gist time is flying and my baby is getting old despite my internal tears being shed for the manner in which time is just flying by this birthday has been so exciting for about a month before henry s birthday he started really getting excited asking at bedtime when i wake up from this nap will it be my birthday and waking every morning asking is today my birthday the anticipation was really building in pure melissa mark fashion the night before henry s birthday consisted of a ridiculous amount of toy building and house decorating we ran around like crazy people making sure everything was perfectly placed to give henry a great birthday surprise when he woke up i set my alarm for 615am in hopes of waking up before henry so i could see his reaction however the bugger beat me at around 6 i heard his tiny voice charlotte look i popped up and ran to catch henry discovering each thomas the train decoration piece by piece then the balloons and his giant tablecloth covered gift he was overwhelmed with excitement the kiddos played for the next couple hours while i got everything ready for our birthday breakfast our favorite little friends neighbors were coming over to enjoy a celebratory breakfast and some playtime after breakfast our friends went home and we hopped in the car to go downtown to ride the new streetcar which we called the train for excitement purposes we took the train to the public market and ate a yummy lunch and ice cream outside then took the streetcar back to our car it was a great little adventure then nap time and a movie night picnic back at the house we set up the projector and watched about an hour of cars before the tiny tots got bored and we moved on to playing with henry s new toys all in all the celebration was great we had such a happy day these are the days i want to bottle up and keep perfectly preserved forever and in terms of a henry update here are the facts height 3 1 39th percentile weight 33 lbs 65th percentile random tid bits henry can count to 6 in spanish 10 with assistance he has a hard time remembering 7 and 10 he can spell his name and knows his birthday henry is incredibly verbal he speaks just as fluently as his sister so i won t bore you with the bazillion words and phrases he has henry is very clumsy and falls often henry continues to be the snuggliest little dude ever he is always there for a hug and or smooch this morning he randomly told me that huggies are like snuggles true henry has very dry warm hands holding his hand fills my little heart when henry melts down crying he often times will say through heavy sobs maaammmmy i need a huggy shweetie snuggler henry is a pretty big manipulator when he does something naughty and i kneel down to tell him that he cannot do said thing he cups my face with his warm paws and says i m sorry mommy i won t do it again then mommy buys henry a pony henry has been in a pinching pretend biting phase with charlotte never too hard but enough to piss her off thankfully he s still perfect henry says charlotte with a hard ch sound and refers to her as my charlotte henry still naps every day henry loves music and sings a lot h has serious passion for baseball and sports in general henry often times wears his pants underwear and shirt backwards when henry rides his tricycle he reminds me of the intro to the show bobby s world henry insists on sleeping with his door open typically with his arms above his head he s a light sleeper so i tend to sneak in for smooches before i go to bed henry loves hard boiled eggs which he calls hard oiled eggs and avocado which he calls adocado he eats like a tank it is not uncommon for him to eat multiple bowls of cereal oatmeal 1 2 hard boiled eggs turkey and fruit all of that at one breakfast henry sometimes sneaks in charlotte s room at night because he doesn t like to be alone henry always falls asleep gripping some toy a car a train a ring etc henry picks out his own clothes and gets dressed by himself every morning he also puts his shoes on and packs up unpacks his backpack daily henry loves trucks and dinosaurs henry s little mouth reminds me of my grandpa henry up until about 2 weeks ago we had henry on a strict no dairy no soy no sunflower oil no coconut diet to try to help with his chronic loose poops it stopped helping so we ve since lifted the food restrictions h is now living his best life henry has a very captivating quality about him people tend to fall in love with him instantaneously upon meeting him he has a loud squeaky voice and speaks very well for his age which tends to catch the attention of strangers henry is a boy to love he is very kind hearted and the sweetest little guy i ve ever met he s also incredibly bright and perceptive as a completely unbiased source you know these things are 100 true henry is happy henry smiles with every inch of his body i love my baby henry looks up to his sister and loves going to the same school as her their teachers tell me that they often play together at school mostly h with c s friends they frequently walk around the playground holding hands or with c s arms around him despite his little pinchy biting phase they are the best of buds henry wakes charlotte up almost every morning he goes into her room wakes her and then they play together until their kiddie alarm clock turns green signaling that they can come out of their rooms at dinner time henry rates my meals with a thumbs up down or sideways posted in family holidays preschooler raising a boy second baby siblings toddler tagged birthday family henry morris leave a comment the dragon posted on may 16 2019 by playinghousewi on january 29th i went to my primary care doctor for a lump on my abdomen i had been noticing the lump for at least a month typically during my workouts but hadn t really thought much of it then during one of the 4 snow days we had in january i decided to google lump on abdomen the results led me to go see my doc the next day at that first visit my doc used the phrase tumor on your abdominal wall about 3 times i quickly scheduled an ultrasound and continued googling as i waited for the ultrasound appointment i became a bit of a recluse it s interesting because i m typically a wide open book but there was something about this fear that was different than anything i had experienced in my life thus far i didn t want to talk about it it was too much mark came to the ultrasound appointment with me we were both so nervous the last time i had been there was to see our sweet henry in the womb definitely a different experience this time the ultrasound tech who was the same tech we had during my pregnancies eventually ended up telling me to relax it looks like a hematoma from a sports injury definitely not something to be overly concerned about okay deep breath i then went to the surgeon my primary care doc recommended he confirmed that it s likely a hematoma i was told to watch and wait for 6 weeks despite not having any real sports injury i do work out at orangetheory 4 6 times per week and they thought that my fruit pit of a lump was likely from a torn muscle a hematoma should go down in size so we d wait and reevaluate after 2 or so weeks i started to feel what seemed like another lump i called and they told me to keep watching by the next week there was definitely another of course i couldn t get back into my doc for another week or two but when i did we began a new little journey there was in fact another and it was time to retire the hematoma theory and move on to the zebra the rarity my doc scheduled me for a ct scan i was back to panicking i spoke to a friend s dad who suggested it might be a schwanoma my doctor had listed everything from a sarcoma to breast cancer nothing was off limits there was lots of waiting only to find out that the ct scan was inconclusive next step needle biopsy i m going to be honest i was not overly concerned about pain from this and was very unpleasantly surprised during and after i assumed it was like a shot i was wrong i had driven myself to the doc and met my husband there i called him on my way back home and all of a sudden the pain and overwhelming emotion hit i had to go all i could do was just drive i had to get home crawl into bed and just be in darkness my doctor had told me that the needle biopsy had something like a 92 diagnosis rate no surprise that after waiting the weekend for results i was told that the results came back inconclusive the next step was surgery for someone who lives in the black and white i was really stuck in grey so much unknown so many people telling me i would be okay that it was probably nothing that i shouldn t worry but me knowing that nobody knew how it was actually going to end up the surgery was hard for me to swallow my surgeon would go in he would perform a biopsy and send it to the lab while i was under depending on the results he would either leave the tumor in remove the tumor only or do a wide resection removing the tumor and healthy muscle and tissue i would get to find out upon waking up the whole thing was so surreal i got to the hospital with mark on march 21 2019 first thing in the morning mark insisted on taking pictures and of course got a good laugh out of me then my parents came in pure dad form he was cracking jokes making me laugh distracting me maybe throwing in a few of his i totally know how this goes comments because my dad knows everything yes i m being sassy then my mil came and i instantly got choked up i pulled it together until my s...