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n semua itulah mencorak seseorang insan menjadi seadanya mereka pada hari ini anggaplah mereka berubah akibat persekitaran dan pengalaman yang dilaluinya janganlah bersedih yang penting aku aku mesti berubah berubah ke arah yang lebih baik tebus kembali dosa dosa zaman nakal ku zaman remaja teman teman khilaf yang lalu kupohon keampunan doakan aku ke arah yang lebih baik tidak sombong ikhlas menjadi manusia yang lebih berguna dan semakin mendekati nya sesungguhnya dedaun pohon di loh mahfuz milikku berguguran satu persatu ditelan usia begitulah kata orang tua tua aku bersyukur kerana adanya seorang psikologis dirumahku psikologis peribadi dan psikologis kerajaan yang jauh lebih muda tetapi matang dalam pertimbangannya apabila berbicara baik soal insan mahupun ketuhanan syukur alhamdulillah terima kasih dik menyambung bicara tentang rindu ada kalanya aku jadi keciwa kerana perkara yang berlaku tidak seperti yangku harapkan misalnya aku mengingati zaman kanak kanakku aku berusaha mengesan kawan kawanku namun ada diantaranya apabila ku temui dia sudah tidak sama seperti dahulu jauh berubah tiada lagi mesra tiada lagi taw aria segala galanya asing seperti aku tidak pernah dikenalinya seolah olah aku tidak pernah hadir walau sekelumitpun dalam sejarah hidupnya ah menyesalnya aku meluangkan masa mengingatinya tika itu psikologisku berkata usah dikesal usah dikeluh kerana pengalaman mengubah manusia awak selalu menjaga segala memori sedari kecil umpama menatang minyak yang penuh kamar memori mu terjaga rapi sehingga tidak ada sekelumitpun memori itu yang terpinggir semuanya begitu terjaga umpama difilemkan tidak tercalar tidak tercemar itu kelebihanmu bukankah saya telah katakan dahulu dirimu insan mempunyai photographic memory yang kuat gambar gambar yang terakam begitu jelas simpanan filem filemmu begitu sistematik dan terurus mudah dicari mudah diteliti dan kau tayangkannya berulang ulang sehingga menjadi nostalgie sedangkan orang lain telah kehilangannya atau mungkin dia telah merakamkan filem yang lebih signifikan seketiadaanmu dan men delete filem lama yang kurang justifikasinya atau apa mungkin pengalaman menjadikan mereka tidak lagi sama seperti sebelumnya terimalah hakikat itu dan aku pun terkulat kulat berusaha untuk menerima itulah hakikatnya posted by dr psycheupp at 6 31 pm 5 comments tuesday june 14 2011 sesajer posted by dr psycheupp at 5 45 pm no comments sunday may 22 2011 dr psycheupp it s me posted by dr psycheupp at 4 13 am 7 comments sunday may 1 2011 waiting munich prague serene i fold my hands and wait nor care for wind nor tide nor sea i rave no more gainst time or fate for lo my own shall come to me i stay my haste i make delays for what avails this eager pace i stand amid the eternal ways and what is mine shall know my face asleep awake by night or day the friends i seek are seeking me no wind can drive my bark astray nor change the tide of destiny what matter if i stand alone i wait with joy the coming years my heart shall reap where it hath sown and garner up its fruit of tears the waters know their own and draw the brook that springs in yonder height so flows the good with equal law unto the soul of pure delight the stars come nightly to the sky the tidal wave unto the sea nor time nor space nor deep nor high can keep my own away from me j b no more waiting now tangkap syahdu pulak dahhhh posted by dr psycheupp at 6 33 pm 3 comments wednesday april 27 2011 fb anyone hmmmm gotcha posted by dr psycheupp at 5 07 pm 3 comments sunday april 24 2011 lama nyer tak berenang i am still has no confidence yet to jump into the pool afraid if the stitches get infected its a ridiculous thought i know nanti lah dah janji dgn adik dan jiran untuk mulakan kelas berenang soon kekekeke akan tetapi haku ter jumpa ini tapi kan while i was browsing the net designrulz i found fake swimming pool huaaaa ni ssemua berlaku kat jepun hai yooo manyak kretip laaa korang jgn terjun pulak tau kalau jumpa pool ni kat tepi jalan mau benjol kepala real kan posted by dr psycheupp at 5 41 pm no comments tuesday april 19 2011 anger management have you ever feel unloved or angry for no specific reason or may be you feel not important just because there are some one else is better than you they could be your brothers sisters cousins friends or even your best friend you cannot run away with the feeling because one day the feeling will get heated and finally you throw your tantrum to others what is tantrum tantrum is type of emotional expression for example when your parents telling you something that you may not agree with instead of talking to them politely you might slam the door yell at them or just leave the room may be you have observed at the shopping mall small child was crying out loud because the mother refuse to buy him or her the toy on the rack that is tantrum you must know how to control your negative emotion like angry so that you would not get tantrum here is the checklist for you to ask yourself i what makes you angry is it when people always pick on you you don t understand what people want from you no body is listening to what you want _______________________________________ ii what you think when you are angry are you thinking to hurt others before they can hurt you hurt yourself because you think you should be punished want to argue with the authority teacher parents prefect _______________________________________ iii how do you feel that time are you feeling frustrated downhearted powerless to do anything about your life _______________________________________ try to observe your own emotion for a week see how many time s in a week you feel angry see how you deal with your anger does anger help you to solve your problem what are the consequences after you show your tantrum let s identify things that you do to help you stay calm list all the positive strategies that help you most to deal with the feeling of anger listen to music and sing along talk to yourself self monologue do physical activities like some exercise write your feeling in diary or create a blog remember you have to control your anger before it controls you talk to someone you trust is the best you can talk to your parents siblings friends teachers or go and see your school counselor anyone that can help you to work on your feelings help you to build up strategies in dealing with difficult situations that may trigger you anger sometimes anger could boost your creativity you can always let go your feelings by writing poems song lyrics or any form of art projects each time you feel angry you could use the positive methods that work for you to control your anger try to think of solutions this will help you successfully resolve your anger in a positive way dr norzah abd ghani psycheupp posted by dr psycheupp at 4 56 pm 4 comments sunday april 17 2011 hmmm kelakar bagi yang rasa kelakar taken from internet so its not from my camera posted by dr psycheupp at 11 11 pm no comments thursday april 14 2011 jalan jalan as i do my internet walking i saw this in one of the forums i have visited hmmmm well dont take it too serious at least the owner brave enough to write in english huh posted by dr psycheupp at 8 41 pm no comments tuesday april 5 2011 akademi fantasia home well the heat of akademi fantasia is on though i am not a fanatic fan used to be hihihihihi but i have strong fond to music i didnt get any formal music class or vocal class but because of great exposure to music instruments bands and observing my brothers playing those magic things has so much influence in my life as the youngest in the family i always felt that i was used by them pegi kedai kemas umah kemas itu amik ini susun itu susun ini and i had no chance at all to play the magic things at home not until my brothers were out then silently i touch here and there play here and there and that s the way i learnt the magic things until i said to myself that one day i will have my own studio and all mine i was somewhere between muddled and nonexistent sometimes i profoundly misundertand the elasticity of my presence at home but during my university life music and performance help me to cope music has constantly help me to feel new fresh enjoy and absorb life positively now my concept is music help us to aid ourselves and others in enjoying life i want music to be a medium for all of us to stay organized making learning as part of games which are fun and educational and to my femes neighbor thanks for giving me the trust to teach your talented boy posted by dr psycheupp at 4 57 pm 1 comment sunday march 27 2011 balik kampoonggg sweet old memories tak semena mena tergerak nak balik kampung posted by dr psycheupp at 10 00 pm 3 comments thursday march 17 2011 back to work i dont know where to begin how to begin but one thing i know that adik dha will not hesitate to take legal action to the individual s or the organization that person s work if they do not follow the g o properly one day bangang said adik dhada of s awak ni tak tau ke saya jaga kes kes t t t t b peraturan mana yg dia ikut ni and the t m an p n h at hosp ta p ra a a pun ketawa sinis ttg surat yg mereka terima dari that individual apa pun i am back to work money money money its so funny in a rich man world practice make perfect inbound and outbound to adik dhada sabar eh sabar tuhan akan balas orang orang yang menganiayai orang lain posted by dr psycheupp at 6 40 pm 3 comments thursday january 6 2011 2011 is here and i am too life has been good at least i see it from my view though people keep on showing their sympathy and empathy i still feel that i am strong and fit enough to face these challenges at least its a turning point in my life be moderate in whatever i choose to do my new year was exciting to me after a long long long break in 2010 but again the excitement was challenged by my condition my sister noticed the abnormality at my leg she felt the skin was too soft and as if there is liquid puss in it so she took me to the private clinic dr hanita was not in so we went to dr lisa alis the doctor advised us to go the specialist so we have to wait till the next day even though the next appointment was in 20 january tapi dia nak gak bawa g hospital monday tu 3 january 2011 meeting the doctor at othor putrajaya is like but we are fortunate that we know mr ewe mr tan specialists in othor mr tan was my specialist when i had slipdisc and he is a very very good and the job suites him so the mo did some cut and there was minimum puss at the soft area near my leg they admitted me on the spot they want to do incision and drainage procedure huaaaaaaaa but at least before i left home sempat juga men decor my studio kekekekekekke this is me huhuhuhu still in the hospital posted by dr psycheupp at 4 26 pm no comments monday october 18 2010 mukaddimah assalamualaikum telah terlalu lama aku tidak menulis hari ini aku menulis kembali mengasah dan mengilap semula segala aspek linguistik yang masih aku miliki setelah tragedi 30 oktober 2010 yang membawa banyak hikmah dalam hidupku catatan suara hati ini sekadar monolog dalaman agar diri ini tenang selepas kuzahirkan segala yang terdetik dalam mindaku yang masih samar ini pertamanya lafaz syukurku kehadzrat illahi kerana hingga ke saat ini aku masih bernafas meskipun banyak kesangsaraan fizikal dan mental yang perlu kutanggung selepas keretaku dirempuh oleh sebuah kereta sutera hitam yang melayang dari arah yang bertentangan terbang merentasi pembahagi jalan di highway pricinct 16 putrajaya ketika aku mahu pulang dari pejabat masihku ingat detik itu jam menunjukkan pukul 4 45 petang aku baru sahaja dijemput oleh adikku raja k rmk anak kepada mak ungku j yang memeliharaku saling tak tumpah spt anaknya sendiri alhamdulillah yang baru pulang dari upm bagi menyiapkan ph d keduanya sesungguhnya dia adalah adik yang amat baik dan bertanggungjawab selain drp layak digelar scholar sejati kerana telah mendapat dua degree tiga master dan bakal 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