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timate first names yet over months of name gaming once we learned the baby was a boy we continued to circle back to keller until finally we just started referring to him as keller only between us by the time i was five months pregnant at this point we figured we better do some research on the name we took to google facebook and the social security website to see what they could dish out that might dis sway us ironically the first things that came up on google thrilled me not one but two ties to nyc things that weren t obvious things that i never knew existed but that were real new york connections the first being the keller grad school of management a branch of devry university located in manhattan the second a clothing brand in brooklyn both were a stretch and neither mattered or were things i d name a baby after but a connection with this name and new york existed and that was enough lots of results brought keller up as a last name but it was hard to find first names without really digging we liked that while it was an obvious last name it wasn t a common last turned first name and we did find a few first named keller s such as keller chryst one of the most sought after quarterback recruits of 2014 for tom this was immediately seen as a good omen for our son s sport potential and keller foley actor scott foley s 2yr old son good news to me because i love the tv shows scandal and felicity and would in no way mind having something in common with that handsome and talented actor finally the meaning of the name was discovered to be companion or little champion which we both found appropriate since he already felt like our little buddy and was the champion of our hearts last but not least we had to make fun it to fairly look out for our little boy we came up with all the teasing we could think of so we could gauge how bad it may or may not be there s the obvious association with helen keller but for what s it s worth we really hope he finds his helen killer is pretty bad a if he s killer at something it s a headline waiting to happen if he s killer to something we very much hope it s the prior kelly was our least favorite but if it happens it happens this nickname gave us the most pause because my male cousin s name is kelly and we would also be using the same middle name after my grandpa making kelly and keller s names nearly the same we debated this up until days before keller was born should we change the middle name do we like any other first names better we didn t finally we decided it didn t matter plenty of people have similar family names or identical ones kelly is in his 20s he lives across the country and he s a really amazing guy we could do much worse then my favorite part of naming keller occurred and this is why i think his name just came to me early on in the first place the day after my baby shower i was eight months along and still in much debate over the near identical naming of keller and kelly i called my mom and asked her if she would read some names off of our family tree which she has going back and back and back since we were planning to name keller after my grandpa joe i figured if we had to change then at least it could be after someone on that side of the family william henry carl and many classically older names were on the list and then mom said george keller we had kept keller s name between us so i was shocked not only to hear it come up but to hear it was a family name my great great grandfather s on my grandma s side to be exact i got chills and i just knew we had chosen the right name keller would hold meaning to my grandma and joseph would hold meaning to my grandpa it was perfect and so the name game was over it stood the rule test except for 3 which daddy made and daddy broke so i can t be held responsible and turned out to be so much more than just a random idea it was a long time consuming thought filled process from the moment i had that extra heart beat inside me which is why we could not have been more certain we made the right choice when keller joseph was born posted by sarah 0 comments sunday july 6 2014 thursday at five a birth story it has been five days since i became a mama for nine whole months i carried this little being inside of my body i had two free hands and a full eight or more hours of sleep every night give or take a few insomnia moments around week thirty eight and those first twelve weeks where i sleeping beauty ied through life functioning only if i got twelve to fourteen and for the life of me i could not find the time to blog its been over two years since i blogged anything or journal or post it note any solid record of pregnancy aside from snippets posted to facebook to ensure there was something to look back on something to include family and friends scattered across the country and something to remind me of that one time that very first time i grew a human and now he s here and my hands are hardly ever free and when they are i m trying to capture and savor every moment or take a shower and clothe myself at the very least i try to apply deodorant i get by on quick naps when he s napping and various chunks of night time sleep depending on the night the first couple nights i was up every hour now it s usually every three thank you breast milk for finally coming in and bringing happiness to all the other night i got four blessed hours and i was almost certain i had crossed over into an out of body experience and yet despite really not having the time now i have this urgency a vital need to make sure that i get this part right that i record every detail i can possibly remember of how my son my son came into this world not for me not for scattered family not for curious friends or neighbors but for him for my baby because he ll want to know and because i never want to forget and because everything i do now is for him and i wouldn t have it any other way so this is for keller who is sleeping on my husband s chest and will probably need to be re attached to my boobs again in about twenty five minutes for keller who changed our lives and stole our hearts in the wee hours of a friday morning but it all started with thursday at five once upon a growing belly was my first baby he fit perfectly he never made me sick he grew steady and strong he hiccoughed routinely and still does and kicked like a soccer champ he never popped my belly button but he did make it go completely flat which was fascinating he gave me a tiny patch of stretch marks on the underside of my belly at thirty nine weeks that remind me of a homemade tattoo only way more personal and meaningful he brought perfect joy the day he was born we thought had been told it was very likely i d have to have the baby a couple weeks early because due to the extra hormones my placenta produced i surprisingly ended up with gestational diabetes a story for another time and most babies need to come out a bit sooner when that happens most gd babies don t see their due date some babies get close a slim few get past luckily he remained healthy and happy in there grew on his own and i controlled the gd ever so strictly and he remained unaffected so when thirty eight weeks rolled around and we prepared to meet him the dr s said we could wait one more week we were thrilled anything to avoid a c section and after that week we got another week we were a little bummed from anticipation but thankful and then at forty weeks when we were assured we would be induced on my due date and it was the third time we d been scheduled for induction we were very ready to meet the little guy but guess what the doctors said we could have two more days because he was just fine we knew just how fine he was because at thirty nine weeks i was being seen at my ob s office every single day including weekends he was closed but would open just for us to do an ultrasound and non stress test which i d been getting frequently at thirty four weeks already in addition i also received growth ultrasounds at the hospital to ensure the highest possible accuracy everything was good and we all wanted him to come on his own if possible to increase my chances of a healthy vaginal delivery so by my due date when we weren t being induced again after all tom i thought maybe he d just stay in there forever and i would never get to eat a donut again even the hospital receptionist couldn t believe how on earth we hadn t had a baby yet the amazing doctors looking after us were champions in making sure they held out as long as possible even when i thought i couldn t so he could come when he was ready however there was a no matter what deadline and that was thursday june 5th at five o clock i woke up on thursday morning with some cramping but i had had that for the last two days since having my membranes stripped twice and yes ow to hopefully kick my body into gear before the induction it was 7am i ate my routine 2 pieces of toast with peanut butter while tom had a bowl of cereal we excitedly chatted about how in a mere 24hrs i could have a bowl of cereal again too we wondered what kind of cereal the baby would like when he got older i began having contractions sporadically but often and we got excited thinking that we had all day until five o clock to let things play out i was in denial that anything was actually happening but tom was sure i was in labor maybe this kid really was coming on his own at 7 30am my phone rang and it was our fairy god doctor or ob gyn if you wanna be technical dr fahmy hey guys where are you he asked we re home said tom are we supposed to be somewhere yes you were supposed to be at the hospital at five dr fahmy said five a m we screeched at the same time who schedules an induction at five a m and forgets to mention the a m part i exclaimed we couldn t believe it we thought we would for sure be black listed at the hospital now for not coming in for our fourth scheduled induction oops well just head down now there will probably be a wait so it s best to get there as soon as possible i ll see you there in a bit said dr f we laughed about the silly miscommunication got dressed called our super doula johanna to let her know to meet us grabbed all our pre packed things and headed out the door it was gloomy rainy and in the middle of rush hour yet somehow we caught a cab right off the bat and were on our way the stars were aligning by the time we were in the cab at 8 30am i was really having contractions tom had started timing them just before we left the house and they were anywhere from 1 1 2 to 3 minutes apart and not letting up when we arrived at the hospital it was 9am and my contractions were now steady at 2 minutes apart and getting stronger as they came so strong that my body would shake and i felt like throwing up and pooping myself all at the same time as they peaked and then i d be starving at the end it was intense dr fahmy called to check in with us and when he heard i was having contractions so close together he said he would come in right away and check me himself to see how things were progressing he called the nurses himself directly after and got us straight in to be seen i love that man and his hospital powers triage was one of the rougher parts of the whole experience having to lie in a bed for 20 minutes to be monitored and not be able to move around is not how one wants to go through contractions every two minutes the nurses and residents were all really nice but they had a tendency to state the obvious that i really didn t appreciate in the moment oh wow you re really having some contractions my dear and so close together they would say i was quite aware thankyouverymuch dr fahmy arrived in no time and i was dilated to 4cm and 80 effaced well you are certainly in active labor he said and i am very happy see everything happens for a reason he asked the nurses to find me a room as soon as one was available and i asked tom to get me some fruit to help keep my energy up i had one piece of pineapple and that was the last thing i ate before i became a mama as soon as i was allowed off the bed a contraction hit hard and i knew breakfast was on it s way back up where s the bathroom i m going to throw up i asked the nurses station oh just down the hall they vaguely replied pointing to three different hallways followed by how far dilated are you are you effaced yet what s your status in gentle almost patronizing tones bathroom throw up which way i could barely get out oh right down there they pointed to one about fifteen steps away i took three steps and covered the entire triage floor with my two pieces of peanut butter toast and a pineapple chunk ssssoooorrrrryyyy i moaned to simultaneously sympathetic reactions of ohhhhhh honeyyyyyy i stood frozen having another contraction bleeding a little on the floor because i wasn t wearing underwear anymore and had had my membranes stripped twice remember everyone was really nice about it re assuring me it was quite routine and to just let it all out so i did and i threw up again they got some towels laid down so i could maneuver around to the bathroom and handed tom all kinds of things to help get me cleaned up oh the poor girl she s not even tied up in the back dad tie mom up her tush is hanging out one nurse exclaimed as we made our way to the bathroom finally least of my worries i shouted behind me it s a let it all hang out kinda day tom helped get me cleaned up with all kinds of comfy hospital accessories seriously i love the mesh undies they are really truly the best things i ve ever worn i took multiple pairs with me when we left the hospital anyway three minutes later we came out of the bathroom and the nurse said we found you a room the lesson here is when hospitals are really busy and full excrete bodily fluids all over the place and they will make things happen for you we got into a room at 10 30am and johanna superdoula had arrived and was already helping me with contractions while i got my ivs answered questions which is really hard when you don t have much down time between contractions you learn to speak very clearly and quickly and waited for epidural paperwork i was getting slammed every minute and a half at this point and all i wanted to do was lay down and take a nap however laying and sitting are not appealing contraction positions and there was no way i d be sleeping through any of this i used the bathroom and debated filling up the tub to sit in and let the water soothe me until i heard the anesthesiologist come in and say does she want the epidural now or just the paperwork it was 11 40am at this point and i felt that four and a half hours of contractions that were never more than three minutes apart from the start had been plenty of an experience if i sent this angel thesiologist away now knowing how busy things were i knew i wouldn t see her again for quite awhile so i bounded out of the bathroom and said now would be great i could ve gone longer and had planned...