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d watching what might be the most important documentary ever made it s on netflix it does an excellent job of explaining exactly why social media is a threat why it doesn t feel like one on an intuitive level even when we can see its very serious effects on the world around us and why it s crucial for us to intervene on our own behalf immediately the strange thing to me is that even knowing the immense power of social media and these algorithms that control it us everyone in the documentary seems stuck at the level of harm prevention none of them seem to grasp the incredible potential of this tool if instead of simply hobbling it or regulating it we use it towards i hesitate to say utopian ends since so many people associate that word with inevitable failure naturally naturally if we don t live in a utopia all attempts to create one have been failures it won t be associated with success until we successfully create one exasperated sigh but truly if the algorithms are given human goals instead of fiscal ones connecting people showing us the information and rhetoric most likely to center our attention around our shared values and solutions to our disputes directing our attention to where it s most needed identifying and preventing scams threats propaganda and lies it could bring about so much good so quickly well go watch it and see for yourselves posted by me at 1 25 am no comments wednesday september 27 2017 live lit thursdays this past year i ve found two local outlets to share and receive feedback on my writing one is the hive sj where local screenwriters directors and actors all work on their craft together the second is live lit open mic nights hosted by the inimitable mighty mike mcgee they ve begun to have featured writers and tomorrow i get to be one of them i usually read bits of the automythography i m working on but tomorrow i ll probably read one of my published pieces here s the link if you should care to check it out posted by me at 12 27 pm no comments tuesday february 23 2016 the plan is go the guides are your monsters a flirtation with it had been planned and there were guides by jessica lee richardson this is how i imagine you and i met i was on the bus carrying a sack of flour like a baby you came up to me and wordlessly stuck your knife up through the bottom as the flour spilled quietly into the black rubber rivets we looked one another straight in the eyes and knew our lives were changed forever well mine anyway you mentioned a vacation and i asked you about it oh it was scary my ride on the concrete boat there is such a thing as a concrete boat you know don t want you to go down the wrong stream i think i ve heard of concrete boats but wrong stream i m not sure such a thing exists anymore since we met how did you put it his penis went soft because i took his rape how can there be a wrong stream again after that i told you about the song i m writing that goes like this stockholm syndrome there s a sign you re already in hell to think it s crazy just to love someone you ve grown to know so fucking well and you answered a story so beautiful that i wished you were whispering it in my ear in pitch blackness so my expression could be private i like to cry sometimes how old are you you exude experience but tenderly like a child i m not even talking your kids chase and check though he smelled like socks but he had a point nods or ko whose mind you excavate not warm not sweet not milk not she cries in non speech the shapes circling her are the wrong shapes again the not i can almost remember my own babyhood when you cup my toes the way you do i m not even talking about the auctioneer baby who seems in some ways the adultest she never planned the confessions that became her filler words she found out what was bothering her and what was beautiful to her by what came out or the actual baby left on the doorstep who cries as if she could write a new world if she is just loud enough wow that s a lot of babies i guess what i m trying to say lies somewhere between doctor who moments like this what good is a body paint that is too hot to touch the skin i won t bore you with the details i will just say that there are other ways to keep particles in motion and give you a little wink i ll give you a little wink and this kind of phrasing colin s job at the factory stick enormous metal comb into a deep rectangular tray of paste well colin called it paste can i say you translucent things there are babies inside of adults and inside of babies the things that make adults what they are the absurd wonder inside the mundane and how to do perfectly the things that i pray inside of the night will never happen it s misleading for those un attuned to foreshadowing that you should reference guides and plans in your name in your presence i can expect most of what i understand to fly out the window and then i can expect the window to turn out to be something else and that something else will be looking at me in a reassuring way though it is shaped like terror what guide or plan would send reassuring terror after me do not assume from this that i will avoid your void his mouth frowned but he curled his body into a smile your whimsical dark makes me braver like cruddy by lynda barry the illuminated shapes of your twisted beasts on the walls teach me the nature of illumination you are so fucking zen the monster is me and the direction is forward and nothing will be okay exactly but there is a crystal pool waiting in the between where it s all here for you blinding love the way to win got it going http www uapress ua edu product it had been planned and there were guides 6262 aspx posted by me at 11 17 pm 1 comment thursday november 19 2015 writing update here are some things i ve put out there since my last post on this blog at the very least i d like to keep my publications updated here nonfiction columns on ethics and writing for atticus review my beef with polish the gods of the bestseller lists bees service and privilege how i justify writing in dystopia fiction in print the disappearances in the fiddlehead fiction online the big bad wolf gets home from work in waccamaw great news i may have found a local writing community i m super excited will update posted by me at 6 22 pm no comments friday august 2 2013 review of tampa by alissa nutting tampa has generated a lot of chatter for its adept handling of a controversial subject the seduction of a eighth grade boy by his extremely attractive but unfortunately sociopathic english teacher as someone who adored nutting s collection unclean stories for women and girls and i ll be honest as someone who mildly idolizes the pixie of a woman behind these two literary accomplishments i highly anticipated this book and it didn t disappoint i never picked it up without reading several chapters and i got through the whole thing in two days which is my equivalent of reading it in one sitting considering how many novels in progress slump quietly throughout my apartment it s hard to say whether it was an enjoyable read exactly more of a squirmy dark disturbing read celeste s sense of humor is sharp but cruel and there is not a single character in the book you can unreservedly champion but was it compelling certainly i was curious to see how deep into depravity nutting might delve she strongly discouraged her parents from cracking the cover my conservative religious parents are likewise certain to be traumatized by the descriptions within but for a book that goes into such vivid detail describing both the sensual and the grotesque it never felt gratuitous you ll find more darkness in the realm of the psychological than the sexual consider this passage as celeste prepares for an unpleasant sexual encounter with the father of one of her conquests your wish is my command he whispered i felt a gagging tug at the back of my throat but managed to swallow it down with a quiet burp he quickly fumbled off his shirt and pants each sound a tortuous reminder that we hadn t even started yet there was a small slapping sound of hand on skin the equivalent of buck having to prime gasoline into a lawn mower engine by pulling the cord a few times then finally with relief and a bit of pride he kneeled down behind me on the carpet and said okay i m hard for you disturbing gross yes gratuitous no i was also curious to see what notions of morality might surface how would nutting portray a predatory female without contributing to the demonization of feminine sexual assertiveness well i can t say with certainty that it won t do that people hear what they want to hear and read what they want to read but the book consistently refuses to belabor any particular morality celeste s worldview dominates obscuring nutting s almost entirely in fact i hardly reflected at all on the underlying moral questions until i began to try and write about the experience one question that subtly rises on reflection what makes a monster celeste s ritualistic preparations for her students arrival are as visceral and sinister as casting of webs is a monster something bent on fear and destruction her single minded obsession and lack of scruples make her function on this planet simple as a vampire s or a werewolf s she is a predator a special breed of siren drawn to the newly adolescent somehow despite celeste s utter callousness towards anything that isn t beautiful and young despite her lack of feelings for the people in her life i found myself quite frequently sympathizing with her casting for explanations and agreeing with her assessments of her surroundings celeste price is clearly a product of this society america herself is youth and beauty obsessed and cruel or indifferent towards age and non compliance to certain standards of appearance like celeste modern american society views human beings as commodities to be coldly assessed and then approved or discarded her marriage is a straightforward exchange of commodities a harmonious arrangement of my needing money and ford s needing a stunning wife and this shallow situation is nothing shocking to any of us why then should it be shocking that our protagonist would use and discard her students in a similar way and then there s the fact that minors are not just a fun deviance for celeste she has an unrelenting sexual appetite and sex with adult males isn t just unsatisfactory it literally nauseates her it s easy to forget how attractive her husband is supposed to be needlessly sexy according to celeste s friends he repulses her so and finally she treats herself exactly the same way as she treats others her alarming habit of drugging her husband to get out of sleeping with him has its parallel in her self doping prior to the occasional inevitable sex with him some of the most successful literary villains like satan of paradise lost and of course lolita s humbert humbert are brilliant because they get us accidentally siding with them rooting for them and this causes us to question our own values and assumptions as a result how similar am i to the monster within these pages we wonder am i different enough am i different in the right ways i emerged from tampa disoriented my world slightly askew as a non believer in evil i don t think celeste price is though she s certainly ill ultimately it comes down to consent and ultimate harm it is undeniable that her main victim jack is irrevocably harmed through her actions but her other primary victim boyd offers an interesting juxtaposition to this easy answer as he seems to come out of the experience happy and unscathed crowing with pride about the experience is he still a victim had he been her only victim would celeste s exoneration be justified but what really got to me more than anything else was the theme of casual commodification for celeste as for corporate america the value of an individual lies entirely in their visual appeal immediate usefulness and or spending ability it s a cold and cutthroat world empty of meaningful connections and it s easy to see the degree to which this mindset has already conquered our culture and national values posted by me at 1 00 pm no comments tuesday march 13 2012 listen sing i ve just had an epiphany about music etc often we cheat ourselves out of a rich experience due to our laziness i do this all the time with my music among other things pluck one or two songs from my albums and put them all on a playlist where i can listen to only my very favorites all the time why do i listen to the one or two songs i get lazy i don t feel like changing the music out i don t feel like sitting through the songs that don t keep my attention i m a lazy listener sometimes i want something i can easily sing along to songs with words i know by heart mostly the ones that happened to catch my attention often the same ones that catch everyone s attention for the same reason i miss the interesting stuff i don t engage with the artist i know lots of music on a very shallow level all because i don t want to listen i just want to sing this strikes me as a parable posted by me at 4 12 pm no comments wednesday february 1 2012 false alarm i ve found another outlet for my political rants this will remain a writing personal blog speaking of which pank 6 is here it s lovely and delightfully thick within kevin weidner matt mahaney and i posted by me at 7 06 pm no comments older posts home subscribe to posts atom followers blog archive 2020 1 september 1 the social dilemma 2017 1 september 1 2016 1 february 1 2015 1 november 1 2013 1 august 1 2012 3 march 1 february 1 january 1 2011 4 october 2 may 1 march 1 2010 12 december 1 november 1 september 2 july 1 june 3 april 1 march 2 february 1 2009 9 december 1 october 2 august 3 april 1 march 1 january 1 2008 10 december 1 november 2 september 2 july 1 may 1 april 2 march 1 2007 1 december 1 publications the big bad wolf gets home from work waccamaw iss 15 the disappearances the fiddlehead no 264 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