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seri langkat the virtual me seri langkat the virtual me i pray that god will grant me the serenity to accept the things i can t change the courage to change the things i can and the wisdom to hide the bodies of the people i killed because they were annoying friday february 08 2013 the second class citizen speaks they are the ones who prefer listening to speaking reading to partying who innovate and create but dislike self promotion who favor working on their own over brainstorming in teams although they are often labeled quiet it is to introverts that we owe many of the great contributions to society from van gogh s sunflowers to the invention of the personal computer quiet the power of introverts in a world that can t stop talking by susan cain so why are the introverts being shunned by the world like it s some disease that will catch on if you stand too close to one why are introverts being perceived as not contributing not fun and a whole long list of not s is it society s fault the culture the nation just for the fun of it show me a handbook or a single proof that introverts are to be treated as second class citizens if you can find one life doesn t even have a handbook makes me wonder how on earth did people decide to treat introverts as lowly beings posted by the star gazer at 12 12 pm no comments friday february 01 2013 in my own backyard i tried my hands on writing seriously a couple of days ago by serious i mean writing a piece and submitting it to a third party getting started was harder than i thought it was supposed to be written in bahasa and boy i didn t expect it to be so difficult after a while i started writing in english to get the idea flowing and once i have formed a story line in my head i started writing in bahasa lo and behold it was done in an hour i received an email from the relevant party the very next day with positive notes and now we wait keeping my fingers crossed for a good feedback posted by the star gazer at 9 49 pm no comments sunday november 04 2012 the pain we endured people don t know this but my heart is a fragile little thing i could never stand a heartache give me physical pain any time and i will endure it but heartaches i can never take god has plans for us all he tests us and our strengths by bestowing us with challenges but only those that we are able to shoulder he will not burden us with more than we can ever handle i believe for that reason alone god has given me the sickness to live with because he knows i will be able to swallow it whole that s also why i believe that he did not tests me with challenges and hurdles in relationships between family and friends i am thankful for that because i wouldn t be able to deal with it clear headedly i shared this with my sister whom has suffered a great deal of heartache one can imagine she cried and suffered but she s still standing i have a lot of respect for her she has inherited my mum s strength and i have my dad s calmness we re meant to have those traits because without them we would lose our battles god doesn t create perfectionists because he is the only perfect being we the humble servants would have to realize our own strengths and weaknesses we have to use our strength to overcome our weaknesses may he bless our lives always and show us signs we need to see and heed the teachings he has set in the holy book posted by the star gazer at 5 57 pm no comments friday november 02 2012 things that i love found this in my 2010 journal nothing has changed 1 books 2 handbags 3 crossword puzzles 4 arts and crafts 5 colorful pens 6 travelling 7 buy presents for friends and family 8 organizing a vacation 9 coordinating parties 10 analyzing people 11 writing in journals blogs etc 12 good food 13 cats 14 jodi picoult books 15 peppermint tea 17 shoes i am still me posted by the star gazer at 1 51 pm no comments wednesday october 24 2012 never stop learning i don t appreciate being lied to especially by someone i trust i don t know what this person has up her sleeves but she has her toes digging into the line way too many times sneaking behind my back and tell tale to the bosses i don t think i am better than her in doing my job i think i am just okay with what i do there is no need for rivalry today i get to know that the project that i was supposed to handle landed on her lap i hate to think that it has something to do with my 2 weeks absence then again with my boss anything is possible i don t particularly feel sad or anything like that it s just that i think she s trying too hard to oust me i have not done anything bad to her or her projects not a single thing i blame myself for trusting people so easily more often than not i ended up getting hurt another lesson in life posted by the star gazer at 3 04 pm no comments sunday october 07 2012 words of the heart because it s you i forget everything else and see only you so why can t you see me too because it s you m y heart lay hurt because it s you whom i love i drink in the pain and ignored laughter because i love you more than you know i keep drowning and drowning in sorrow playing it fine kills me whole to see you everyday but i just can t hold feeling the love for you ends up burning my soul you see me but you re not with me you touched my hand and sent me to heaven but to you it s not affection i stand before you yet you see me through i am merely a ghost to you my take on the drama big posted by the star gazer at 11 40 pm no comments wednesday august 29 2012 please remind me who i really am something is wrong it s been going on for a week or so now every time i heard a good song or watched an interesting story i felt compelled to write i don t exactly know what about i just felt that i should write i tried penning my thoughts in my journal but i couldn t get the words right i attempted typing words to my blog but endless typos killed the mood fingers on the pen or the keyboard neither were fruitful maybe i was wrong in thinking that i could quit my day job and become a full time writer posted by the star gazer at 10 22 pm 1 comment monday july 30 2012 because it s you i am completely smitten by a song the song the singer and the way it s sung i didn t quite understand the song because it s in korean but somehow my heart felt heavy listening to it heavy as if burdened by feelings of affection and pain so great that it made breathing extremely difficult it felt warm and fuzzy soon after it felt that my heart was crushed i can taste the pain in my mouth bitter and stinging with hurt yet i kept listening to it over and over again a drug to my ears it s amazing how the song weaved pain and love to feel the endless affection that soared higher than the sky before pain tugged it to back to the ground the song is called because it s you it s the original soundtrack of the korean drama big i think the original singer is davichi i much prefer the version by gong yoo the lead actor in that drama i think the song s staying in my playlist for a while i have pretty much deleted the rest of the songs in the playlist find it in youtube http www youtube com watch v u1nbs91ucvu posted by the star gazer at 10 50 pm no comments wednesday april 11 2012 read write i ve read quite a number of books i happened to have written a lot too but mostly rants as a way to let some steam off i have tried fictions poems and serious pieces but of late i find it hard to start writing again calling it a writer s block doesn t seem appropriate since i am not a writer to begin with i have all these thoughts in my head but i couldn t translate them into proper strings of words and i couldn t even put the ink on paper i hope this is just temporary i was probably thinking too much posted by the star gazer at 11 48 pm no comments friday march 02 2012 signed sealed to depart soon it s all done tickets purchased hotel room booked this is out of the norm but i really need it with all the stress and annoying people i really need a break from the office we re flying off soon for a short get away the kids will have to skip school for a couple of days i have applied for leave while deli is so damn lucky there ll be an audit or something like that going on at the same dates am really looking forward to it posted by the star gazer at 12 23 am 2 comments older posts home subscribe to posts atom yours truly the star gazer view my complete profile my flava a pinch in the heart memories to cherish ooh la la say a prayer sharing the moment work is just work 2012 book list 1 songs of the humpback whale by jodi picoult 2 the restraint of beasts by magnus mills 3 mango season by amulya malladi 4 battle hymn of the tiger mother by amy chua 5 switched by amanda hocking 6 torn by amanda hocking 7 ascend by amanda hocking 8 game of thrones by george r r martin 9 harry potter the philosopher s stone by j k rowling 10 harry potter the chamber of secrets by j k rawling 11 tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom 12 fifty shades of grey by e l james 13 fifty 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