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ed to do am i remembering and honoring him the right way is he happy when he sees us is he with us all the time i wish i knew what it was like to be a mom of 3 boys not only 2 there s so many questions so many things i could dwell on i m thankful i only have those moments so rarely i d be a different person completely if i didn t have the ability to just let it go just breathe just live posted by shane s story at 2 50 am no comments tuesday november 9 2010 happy birthday shane fly on little wing posted by shane s story at 8 17 pm no comments saturday november 6 2010 3 years it s hard to believe but this monday november 8 2010 our special little guy would have been 3 years old i sit here and try to remember all the things that miles was doing when he was 3 and imagine shane doing them if he was here with us talking up a storm laughing at his goofy dad just starting to play board games with us pretty much starting to run the house from morning til night not a day goes by that we don t miss him sure i ll admit it now that it s been 3 years most days are good days it s just seems to be when this season comes around the time when the leaves start to change and the weather cools off i can t help but feel a little different a little less happy a little less like myself i miss him every single day and some days it just hurts physically hurts deep down in my soul ever since that day in 2007 i wondered if life would ever feel the same if it would ever get easier to know that this happened to us that it wasn t just a dream yes it has gotten easier no it ll never be the same i ll never live another day in my life without a piece of my heart missing i can t dwell on that though i have to move on i have moved on i m a very lucky woman to have such an amazing family my husband and my 2 boys miles and owen have been 3 people in my life that could make me smile no matter what the circumstances i still remember when i was in labor with shane being induced for 28 yes 28 whole hours and despite the dreary and uncertain future we were about to face being able to smile and laugh with eachother for most of that day that right there is the miracle that is love i m the luckiest woman on earth to share that with this man my husband as i said before not a day will go by that i don t have a piece of my heart missing but on the brighter side of that i get to live the rest of my life with all this light and love surrounding me each and every day if anything comes close to filling in that hole that s it i still have all the emails and cards and letters that everyone sent to us when we were going through this in 2007 every year i do my best to read through some of them not so i can relive the pain but so i can remember the support and love i got from so many of the people we know and love i just want to say thank you for everyone s continued support through the good times and bad and thank you for anyone who just listens when i talk about him keep me up to date on anything that you do to remember our little man just drop me an email or a comment on my blog post whether it be simply lighting a candle for him thinking of him or saying a little prayer for him you can also feel totally safe in sending me a message for shane to my email dadoo12704 gmail com and i can post it on his blog with or without your name attached thank you for visiting shane s site peace posted by shane s story at 3 03 pm no comments monday june 14 2010 my grandma ruby cline passed away after a long battle with cancer on june 3 2010 this was a display of flowers at her wake each of the roses represent all of her living great grandchildren and the butterfly is for the little angel who was awaiting her arrival thank you once again for remembering our baby boy and keeping him a part of us even though he is not here we miss him so much each and every single day ps i guess i inherited a love for the same candy bar ha ha posted by shane s story at 11 58 pm no comments tuesday may 18 2010 it s been a while it s so hard to keep up with things sorry i haven t posted in a while i just realized i have a couple things to share when it comes to the subject of our little angel first off i ll share something very special that happened on mother s day this year a sweet little mother s day gift to me and a little reminder that i am a mom of 3 boys not just the 2 that are here with me my family i went to spend the day at my mom dad s house all the kids were outside playing shortly after we got there and suddenly we looked over and saw a balloon floating up to the clouds and then a little girl from the neighbor s house ran over and was really upset because she had let go of it only moments before miles being the social little guy he is went up to her and started explaining to her where that balloon was going in his sweet little words it s okay shane s up there he proceeded to explain to her that shane would take her balloon and have a great time playing with it in heaven my dad was outside and witnessed this with me and we both had the same thought at the same time thank god my mom didn t see or hear that as it was happening or she would have busted out in tears as she probably is right now reading this so thank you shane for that mother s day gift then just a few weeks later we got a wedding invitation in the mail mike had opened it earlier in the day and i came home later to find it on the counter as i was going through the contents i didn t notice at first but then i realized and i had to do a double take this extremely awesome couple had listed our names on the inner envelope mike carrie miles shane and owen they will never know how much that touched my heart it absolutely made my day sometimes you go on with your life thinking people forgot you think you re the only one who knows what it s like to have that big hole in your heart that will never be filled up again that you will carry with you until the day you die it s those sweet little reminders that give you a little bit of peace so thank you for that i also wanted to give an update on my previous post shane s gang was very successful once again we walked in bolingbrook this year and we raised about 2600 in memory of our little man we had about 27 people walking including kids with our team this year which is more than ever the greatest surprise of the day was shane s gang being announced on the loud speakers at the end of the walk as the top new family team for the bolingbrook walksite we went up on stage and accepted our plaque and we were quite honored thank you so much to everyone who walked or donated it means so much to us that every year we continue to be so successful in doing this walk in our son s memory we can t wait to do it again next year we re moving the walk back downtown this year hope you ll all come with us thanks for reading sorry it s been so long keep thinking of our little angel xoxo posted by shane s story at 10 15 am no comments thursday january 7 2010 shane s gang is back in action i love the new year because it s time once again to think about our little angel shane and for our annual march for babies walk in memory of him i m so excited for this year i think it s going to be a very successful walk i ve picked a walksite that is both closer and much shorter than the lakefront walk it s 1 2 the distance and much closer to home i m really hoping that this will bring out more walkers this year i thought it would be easier for families with kids to bring them along in their wagons or strollers this year i ll keep you all up to date but since it s a shorter walk we might even have a little get together for lunch goodies at our house after the walk more info to come on that stay tuned we will be walking this year on sunday april 25 2010 at the promenade bolingbrook mall in bolingbrook illinois registration starts at 8 00 am and the walk starts at 9 00 am wanna help us there are 2 ways first all you have to do is visit the team s website by clicking here http www marchforbabies org team t1300753 and then click on either join this team in the center of the page or donate to this team on the left side of the page if you want to donate you can donate any amount you d like to every single little bit counts and is much appreciated you can donate to any specific walker on our team by clicking on their name at the bottom of the team page or you can make a team donation by using the link above if you want to walk with us when you click on join this team you will then set up your own site to collect donations for our team whether you get no donations or just a little something you can still walk with us you can also email me the team captain dadoo12704 yahoo com and let me know if you d like to purchase a shane s gang t shirt for the walk they are white long sleeved cotton t shirts very nice they run about 20 maybe a little less if i have a big order i can send you a picture of one if you d like to see them you can also change the style if you d like to a regular t shirt or even a hoodie whichever way you decide you d like to help every single year we truly appreciate you thinking of our little boy shane and all the other babies out there that need the march of dimes help let s make this shane s gang s biggest year yet love and thanks to you all shane s family mike carrie miles owen and all the team members past or present of shane s gang posted by shane s story at 5 11 pm no comments wednesday january 6 2010 the lovely bones as most of you already know i love to read i recently found a book called the lovely bones it s the story of a girl who was murdered she looks down on her family s and her murderer s life from heaven the book is told from her perspective it is her talking the whole entire book was amazing there were so many lines and paragraphs and even entire pages that made me think of shane while i was reading at moments it would make me smile to think that he might be looking down on us and watching us live our lives just like this girl did then i got to the end and there was a paragraph that hit home for me she was summing it all up she had figured it out as i watched my family sip champagne i thought about how their lives trailed backward and forward from my death these were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence the connections sometimes tenuous sometimes made at great cost but often magnificent that happened after i was gone and i began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it the events that my death wrought were merely the bones of a body that would become whole at some unpredictable time in the future the price of what i came to see as this miraculous body had been my life i seriously had to stop reading and take a deep breath it is so cool for me to think of shane s impact on us in that way that his body is living in another way through us every time i make a new connection share my story with someone who has also lost their baby everytime i hug miles owen think of shane or everytime mike holds me we think of shane together those are all of his bones coming together forming his body his new life throughout the book the girl visits and stays with her family during the times that they need her most when she sees that there is closure to a certain thing she slips away she compares this to a woman in the back of a lecture hall or theater whom no one notices until she slips out only those near the door themselves notice to the rest it is like an unexplained breeze in a closed room she also talks about how sometimes she does things that stump the humans and leave them grateful her brother on earth had planted a garden only he mixed flowers with vegetables and had no order to it whatsoever his grandmother always hated it because she was trying to teach him how to plant things but he didn t listen he wanted to do it his way one year his sister decided to come down and bloom all of his plants and flowers and weeds all at once just to let him know she was there that made me smile in the fall of 2008 as shane s 1st birthday was approaching i asked him one day when i was leaving for work if he could just give me a sign some small sign that he was there fall is usually a hard time for me when the leaves are changing it just brings back all those feelings again when i got home from work the next morning i noticed that our trees in the front yard were the only ones on our block that were full from top to bottom of these little white flowers some might call me crazy but i took that as the sign i love books like this that make you notice all the little things if you re looking for a good one to read i would definitely pick this one up there is also a movie version of the book coming out you can see the preview here http www apple com trailers paramount thelovelybones it looks excellent xoxo posted by shane s story at 9 20 am no comments older posts home subscribe to posts atom keeping shane alive in us shane s story our son shane passed away during his birth on november 8 2007 he was diagnosed by ultrasound with a very severe form of caudal regression syndrome when i was 32 weeks pregnant with him i made the very difficult decision to deliver him by induction at 34 weeks this particular syndrome is commonly associated with gestational diabetic mothers but i was completely healthy there was no explanation and there remains no known reason for what happened to shane i still struggle with this today knowing i will never understand the reason why is the hardest thing to grasp shane s family and friends are doing everything they can to keep him alive in spirit this site will keep you up to date on what those things are please feel free to share your comments feelings stories or anything at all you might want to share thank you so much for visiting our son s website and keeping him alive in your hearts view my complete profile taking it all in my last kiss goodbye do not stand at my grave do not stand at my grave and weep i am not there i do not sleep i am the thousand winds that blow i am the diamond glint on snow i am the sunlight on ripened grain i am the gentle autumn rain i am the shining star at night when you awake to the morning light my time has come i am at rest i am the sunset in the west i am the clouds that race above where i watch over those i love do not stand at my grave and cry i am not there i did not die so hear the words that here i say i am the love that guides your way you can shed tears that he is gone or you can smile because he has lived you can close your eyes and pray that he ll come back or you can open your eyes and see all that he has left your heart can be empty because you can t see him or you can be full of the love you shared you can turn your back on tomorrow and live for yesterday or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday you can remember only that he is gone or you can cherish his memory and let it live on you can cry and close 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