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do laid his hand tenderly on sam s breast meeting his dark eyes with a firm look remember how you carried me when i was weak sam remember when you stood by me at a time when no one else could i can carry you now sam give yourself to me sam laid aside his coat and began undoing the buttons of his stained long worn shirt frodo brushed his work roughened hands away with slim fingers and finished opening the buttons himself sam panted slightly as frodo slid the suspenders from his shoulders we shouldn t even be here i know sam but we are and i can make you feel like you re in the greatest story of all time sam leaned back as frodo pressed forward with his parted lips the moss underneath them on the shady river bank was slightly damp and tickled his back as he moved underneath his former master a cool breeze brushed their foreheads and lifted tousled hair relieving some of heat of the afternoon swelter frodo s hands slid down between sam s legs and parted them his formerly gentle fingers dug through cloth into the sensitive inner thigh causing sam to gasp oh the fingers became gentle again and gripped sam s shaft through the rough fabric of his dun colored trousers give yourself to me boy oh master sam was panting with desire yes i will he groaned the trousers were slid off tossed aside and frodo s head move down to allow his mouth to encompass sam s thickness after they were spent side by side they lay a long time on the shady bank not think of rings or orcs or nazgul but only each other july 28 2026 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest monday july 27 2026 online course i m taking an online course in erotic writing and since basically no one is reading this blog anymore i thought i would just do my homework assignments in this space for myself to keep track of first assignment pick a symbol for your sexuality and write about it 100 200 words then pick a motif in your own sexuality up to this point and describe why you think it is a motif imagine a stress ball it could be blue or it could be pink it s about the size of a golf ball made of a sort of latex rubber filled with glue and covered with tiny soft prickles sometimes the prickles fall off if you are too rough with it but the temptation is always there to squeeze it the harder you squeeze the more pleasure you can have with it if you press your thumbs into this stress ball the outer skin becomes thin almost liminally so you never want to press her so hard that you break her because then she ll be gone but when you press just hard enough you can feel the ball and yourself sighing together inaudibly with taut pleasure i have to think a little bit more and figure out what a motif is before i do the next one july 27 2026 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest friday july 10 2026 shepherd s pie and orgasms i can t believe it has been almost a year since i wrote anything at all on the blog i had a bit of a horrific time this spring with flooding in my basement and a lot of things being ruined including the washing machine and shelves of books the washing machine was inconvenient and money but the books they were my master s and some of mine and i cried as i carried each load out to the trash can it was like losing friends but in the end they are just things but each one holds a memory of some kind in addition to the flooding i had a lot of other house related issues i had to replace a shower the roof and gutters need work etc etc it seems never ending this year so maybe i will be doing that instead of a vacation i have been keeping a busy social calendar in addition to working one big news is that i was a bridesmaid in mystique and hasufel s wedding that was really really cool she still claims me as a part of the throuple but we are not active in that way we just have a medium amount of hang out time i have many feelings which i won t get into at the moment just know but i still very much the lack of someone to hold me after a bad day or someone to flirt with playfully or someone to just fucking rail the shit out of me um pardon my french ha i had been meaning to message dr peter for a long time months to see if we could get together but one thing after another mainly the house projects kept coming up but finally last week i did and he was feeling better so he said yes i woke up early feeling super excited and already horny and went to grief group which you would think would bring down the energy level but i have a special technique thanks to one therapist and involving hot air balloons i was able to let the weight go easily dr peter had made a shepherd s pie from scratch and a salad to go with but we first had a cup of tea and chatted and then played i stripped down and he checked in with me making sure i didn t have any problem areas or spots to avoid i was feeling good then i knelt on the couch over a towel facing the wall there was a pillow for my face first he gave me a light warm up flogging i m not positive of the order of implements but i think next was possibly a really stingy little cane that had a different name than rattan he was telling me all about it but i didn t retain very much he caned all up and down my body from shoulders to ass to thighs calves and the bottoms of my feet i was getting a bit wiggly and he reminded me that i must be still after that there was the leather cane baton that i really like and a few more things including fur rubs i lost track of the particular implements but i was feeling by overwhelming arousal i felt i might come at any second he stopped and i told him how i was feeling so he asked me to masturbate for him i asked if i should wait for the command and he said yes he would tell me when i could orgasm it took only a few seconds i think and then a second one right after because i was so close already at the same time he was talking dirty to me and smacking the fronts of my legs with the cane i don t feel like i took a lot of pain but i felt like the stored up and frustrated pleasure was really coming out july 10 2026 no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest friday august 1 2025 beating and eating a while ago we were trying to come up with a cute name for our thursday meetings me and dr peter today we came up with beating and eating which sounded funnier when i was high on brain chemicals and subspace than it does right now later in the evening what do you think funny too silly beating and eating tea and canes whacks and snacks last time which i think was in early july he asked me if there was anything i would like to add to our play sessions i wasn t sure in the moment but i thought about it all month and asked if we could add in some bondage he said he d like to do that also although he s not an elaborate rope lover he asked me if i d be ok wearing a play session collar and i said i would this morning i dug through my bags of toys and found my leather cuffs which i haven t worn since before my master was getting sick it gave me a stab to the heart to even pick them up and look at them again but i felt i was ready so i powered through the feeling acknowledging it along the way and packed them in a bag with some rope over at dr peter s house we talked for a few minutes on the couch and then i undressed and he placed a leather collar with a large ring which lay flat against my neck the tightness and weight was strange and familiar at the same time he put the cuffs on me an extremely familiar feeling almost like no time had passed since i last wore them they are quite emotional for me at this point in life which is part of the reason i wanted to bring them he wrapped me in a quick body harness and tied my cuffs to the rope at my sides i knelt awkwardly without hands on the couch with some pillows to prop me up he draped an implement i couldn t see against my back and asked me to guess its identity i immediately thought flogger but it wasn t sliding quite the way the leather ones do so i made a guess and said rubber flogger which was the right answer it is very hard and intense feeling for a few minutes and then he went back to using a gentler flogger the second guess was not as successful wood i guessed because it felt smooth like a paddle but it was the smooth leather cane also very hard and intense on my backside i began to whimper but i stayed still as he exhorted me to take it for him i gave a sigh of pleasure after a few more canes he had me turn around and i was feeling subspacey and just a little loopy it was time for a little rest and then lunch which was delicious august 01 2025 5 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest saturday may 24 2025 emotions and stuff i ve been taking a class on shadow work which has ranged from extremely emotional to flat out avoidance the second session there was a group vote to just go home and not do it to extremely emotional on the third session i had never heard about this before but it s almost like getting therapized in a group setting with out going to therapy it s honestly better than almost every therapist i ve seen because these are my friends and i feel the caring from them unlike a therapist who to me feels like if i weren t paying her she d rather be at home binging netflix i have been to 5 therapists now and i took away only 2 things that i still use from 2 of them like here s this bitch again with her boring problems between that and my other activities i feel like i ve been taking on new emotional hurdles in openness i got on a couple dating apps and started some conversations the ones with women didn t go anywhere really no spark of common interests i guess the first man was quite exciting but before meeting in person i did a quick ccap looking up criminal record and found out some absolutely no way am i ever meeting this person information i highly recommend this step i did not ghost i cancelled the date without telling him the reason i felt really shaken after this and almost decided not to pursue the app thing but after a few weeks i was willing to try again the second man we found some mutual interests and it turned out we d met before at a munch so that s a green flag for me people that go to munches share something of the same level of openness about kink as i do i don t want someone too timid to show their face anywhere ever i mean i understand privacy but also i d like someone to match my level of community engagement we went on a date and he was really interesting and fun we didn t do anything just sat at a cafe outdoors and talked for a couple hours but we got into some deep conversational territory we plan to meet again i m really bad at texting some days though i just leave my phone and live my life which is what i think we all should be doing so i need people to understand that speed of reply is not in any way a rejection the emotional part i m getting to that i had some conversations with my daughter that i had been avoiding one about death and some of my wishes for when i die and also about what she wanted to do with her dad s ashes i had been wanting to talk about it for years with both kids but i just kept putting it off as not the right time or i just don t want to bring it up because i m scared and uncomfortable i still need to have the same or similar conversation with my son the other thing was i brought up that i was on a dating app i meant to reassure her that i wasn t planning on marrying or living with someone again ever i just wanted a companion to do fun things with but i didn t actually come out and say that what do you think is it good to lay out those intentions or just not say anything about the future because who knows what will actually happen for context both kids are over 20 now my daughter is living with a girl partner my son lives at home with me and has been using dating apps and had one relatively serious relationship which ended and the final emotional event happened at thursday s shadow work class where i brought up my sexual assault i thought i had mentioned it before in passing but perhaps no one heard me or i was too vague surely they wouldn t hear and then forget as an introvert sometimes i think i have clearly said something but in fact i only nodded made noises and had a full conversation in my head does that happen to others may 24 2025 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest thursday may 8 2025 courtesy of london tanners i had a very emotional morning first was grief group for two hours which was emotionally exhausting but so worth it and then lunch with my friends and then a shadow work class with the same people they are so lovely this is hard stuff though emotionally draining next dr peter met me at the door for our beatings and lunch date we kissed and i told him about my emotionally tiring day we sat on the couch for a bit and just talked then we moved downstairs to try out the new toys i stripped and knelt we talking about health and feelings in my body just to check in on how everything was with me he rubbed my sore back there was a warm up with some of the leather paddles there are 4 now two dark and two light two with holes and two without each one had to be tried and each had a slightly different feeling then he used a gentle flogger and a heavy thuddy flogger when he got to a really stingy cane i began squirming and ouching and he told me in a firm but gentle voice take it for me darling i said yes and held still for a few more different canes then he brought out this guy i don t know if you can tell from the picture but it is layers of very stiff leather it s about 2 1 2 feet long the feeling when used on me was mainly thud with a little sting i began laughing as he was beating my ass and thighs with it oh yes my knees were spreading almost on their own i was getting very aroused very close a few more hits and an orgasm a paingasm exploded out of me orgasm courtesy of london tanners they are the makers of the leather cane as well as leather paddles he asked if i wanted to sit and rest which i did he brought me a blanket and hot tea and we sat on the couch and cuddled and talked then we moved up to the bed where i gave him a back massage and then we cuddled under the covers it s easy to become cuddle deprived when you don t have a live in partner after a bit we got up and had a delicious meal i feel so good and relaxed now my ass is marked up with stripes and all is right in my world may 08 2025 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest thursday march 27 2025 picture you do you picture me like i picture you am i in the frame from your point of view do you feel the same i m too scared to say half of the things i do when i picture you so tell me now tell me now all your perversions am i doing research in a mini skirt at the library in your hometown https youtu be 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