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i have no way to maintain or improve these skills since i need to focus on my comps and dissertation research i still don t have down the names of all 66 of my students how do other people learn their students names i think it it must be some sort of learning disability on my part that is all for now faculty salaries to complain or not to complain november 14 2010 in academia bitching employment grad school things that are wrong 4 comments there is a debate going around on the academic blog o sphere about faculty salaries and whether or not tt faculty have a right to complain as far as i can tell it started over at tenured radical s when folks found out that tr makes over 107k many said she shouldn t complain or that they themselves don t feel the need or the right to complain you can read a few different views historiann dr crazy another post by tr squadratomagico and undine here s the thing folks from the mouth of someone at the bottom of the academic totem pole i make 12 14k depending on whether i get the privilege of teaching over the summer if tenured radical or other full professors in secure positions are willing to unionize or in any way help organize for better working conditions in academia i welcome their help i would be happy to discuss with them what organizing priorities the union should have although raises for full faculty wouldn t be my first priority i wouldn t be opposed to organizing for such raises certainly we could all agree to organize in opposition to increasing teaching loads and larger and larger class sizes unions filled with grad students and adjuncts are weak compared to unions that also have tenured professors as members there is a campaign happening now at crunchy u to unionize the faculty adjuncts and tt together it seems that many tt faculty are reticent to join despite their marxist leanings if you can t unionize in your state maybe it is time to start organizing to change that law there are lots of workers out there who are in worse positions who could use your help if you can t unionize legally maybe it is time to organize maybe we should start talking to our students about the conditions we work under faculty and students could be allies in organizing for improved education funding civil disobedience could be considered for that matter you could do something to help k 12 educators who are struggling under crappy conditions our new roommate is a 1st grade teacher at a low income public school or doing something to help improve the working conditions for preschool teachers having well trained and well paid preschool teachers would make a huge difference in children s lives no one values preschool teachers yet these are the folks that really need to understand developmental stages and how to provide kids with the foundations to do well in school just don t expect making change to be easy i m just saying seven random things about me november 13 2010 in memes leave a comment k8 tagged me for this meme the rules link to your tagger and list these rules on your blog share 7 facts about yourself on your blog some random some weird tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blog let them know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog 1 when i was very small my parents tried to go back to the land and be organic farmers 2 in high school i was a drama geek 3 i have never done a semester abroad which i now greatly regret but as a high school student i spent about three weeks in what was then the soviet union 4 i worked on the most dangerous volcano in the u s 5 recently i bought a ps2 and a ddr mat and have been using it as a form of exercise 6 i love swimming in the ocean and jumping through waves 7 i know a lot about medicinal herbs for a while i wanted to go to herbalism school or become a naturopath the news from crunchy town october 23 2010 in conferences grad school 4 comments since trillwing was kind enough to write a long update on her recent activities i feel obligated to reciprocate crunchy u is on the quarter system so we are almost half way through the term my main activities this term are taking two different 300 level spanish courses being swamped with grading and trying to prepare for my comps i am exhausted and behind on my work as usual the 8am spanish classes are really messing with my sleep schedule since i have been working too much eating crap and not exercising i have been having trouble getting to sleep and staying asleep however none of that is important really i have to admit that since beorn s diagnosis with rheumatoid arthritis my attitude has been pretty crappy his illness came along as part of a series of unlucky events in our lives and i couldn t help but begin to wonder if we were in some way cursed this brought up a tension within me between the part of me that believes that trying your best and being a good person will bring good things into your life and the part of me that knows that many good people are unfairly burdened with more than their fair share of misfortune i spent a lot of time feeling angry and bitter for all the things that we have lost it is difficult to explain the impact of ra to someone who hasn t experienced it beorn s case is particularly severe but he doesn t look that different he doesn t look sick except for the limp and the cane but the reality is that he is in constant pain and simple things like going to the grocery store can be exhausting his right knee is basically shot so walking in painful and since the knee won t straighten it is constantly pulling his back out of alignment causing more pain the point is i felt as if i couldn t let myself get too optimistic i had a negative attitude and was generally pessimistic about the future really i just kept going because i didn t know what else to do and knew things would just get worse if i didn t keep going i felt like the red queen i was also just angry at people who didn t understand which was basically everyone i knew or met hanging out with other graduate students was difficult because the students in my department were leading the kind of lives that i felt i had lost they were getting outside enjoying all sorts of recreation they were traveling the world having adventures but over the past few months my anger has been fading a few nice things have happened recently to lessen my feeling that we are hanging off a ledge by our fingernails last spring i applied for and received a trip to britain for a research related workshop that felt amazing because it was the first time i had been to britain and the first time i had been off the north american continent since i was a teen then i won a small fellowship it is enough money to be a help but not enough to mean i can take time off from working as a teaching assistant the main thing though is that it will look good on my cv and makes it made me feel like i accomplished something this summer i spent taking yet another spanish class and then teaching a class i was planning to get some research done but never managed to travel to get any new interviews in in early august a mentor for big ag u emailed to ask if i was interested in writing a book chapter he knew i had some background on this particular topic and i guess the editors had been having trouble finding an author so i agreed to do it even though the topic isn t really my specialty the book was getting close to publication so the timeline was tight writing the chapter and then getting all the editing and formatting done took longer than i expected and caused me a huge amount of anxiety i just hope that when it comes out it isn t supremely embarrassing the topic is sort of a specialty of folks in my discipline but the book is geared to people outside my discipline and my approach to the chapter was somewhat unconventional so i m a bit worried about how people will react also i am concerned that i have missed citing some extremely important works or missed something obvious that would reveal my lack of knowledge in september i went at my advisor s urging to a small regional conference and presented a paper the paper is far from done the historical research and the discourse analysis of online writings looks good but i haven t been able to do any interviewing or the online survey i am planning really i wasn t very prepared but i went into the presentation thinking i would just try to have fun with it it turned out that i won a small award for best student paper in one category it was nice that people enjoyed my presentation and the money meant that i didn t have to spend out of pocket to attend the conference the latest piece of good news has to do with my future presentation at the big national conference my advisor was recommending that i present the regional paper again at the big national conference i m not excited about the regional paper though there is another paper historical i wrote last year that is both more interesting and closer to my dissertation work and general interests well it took a bit of back and forth but i managed to get the historical paper into a great session my advisor said he liked it and the session organizer said he was really excited about it so that is the news now i need to get back to all the grading and spanish homework i have been neglecting over the weekend in need of an epiphany august 10 2010 in academia anxiety bitching dissertation grad school teaching 3 comments tonight i am grumpy for some reason i think it is because i have spent the last six months teaching and struggling through language classes i like teaching really i do but my department doesn t assign me to teach within my specialty area this spring i was assigned to teach a gen ed class that has literally been called the impossible course because you are expected to cover the globe in a quarter i got very little done spring quarter then the first four weeks of summer i spent in an intensive grammar course for my foreign language two more third year language classes for me in the fall the last three weeks i have been teaching the same technical course as i did last summer last summer it took me a ton of time and energy to prep that course thankfully this summer it was basically all ready to go i m just not motivated to teach research is calling me only it has been so long that i have lost track of what my dissertation is about and what my next steps should be i also have a small research project that is related to the dissertation which i am suppose to be getting done for a regional conference in september problem the project proposal is stuck somewhere in the office for the protection of human subjects basically i m busy beating myself up for not getting enough research done at the same time i would really like to have a few weeks vacation instead i agreed to write a book chapter that has to be done by the end of the month publications are good so i can t really be picky but i now have three different projects to deal with between now and october when classes start i have also been thinking a lot about my research and trying to imagine what my next research project would be after my dissertation is complete now it may seem premature considering that my comps aren t done and i still need my committee to approve my final dissertation proposal but i have been doing research related to my dissertation project all along so i feel like i have already learned some things i like and don t like about this project reading notorious phd s series on the fox and the hedghog in research has gotten me thinking i m definitely more of a fox my research interests are all over the place but the question that keeps bouncing around inside my head right now is how much i want to subscribe to one particular line of social theory i know what i like what research resonates with me but some days i m feeling postmodern and other days a bit of traditional western marxism seems more appropriate also how much can i let current fashions social theory dictate the direction of my research hopefully all will become clear through the initiation process that is called comprehensive exams duh duh duh epiphanies will abound p s i don t know if i will ever get back in the habit of blogging here on a regular basis advising february 23 2010 in academia bitching 2 comments first congrats to my good friend trillwing she was offered a tt position i won t say more because she should reveal that herself but let s just say that she is fabulous and deserves the best here the hypothetical situation i would like you all to consider you have an advisor who is smart and well thought of but inaccessible just very difficult to keep in contact with this person on paper is the ideal advisor for you but in reality is difficult to handle do you find another advisor do you continue to persist in trying to manage this person despite the warnings of other graduate students and faculty how long do you attempt to make it work do you talk to this person directly about the issue as i have mentioned i m planning to work through my comprehensive exams process during the fall quarter and so need to get my advising and my committee worked out unfortunately the available professors are all real people with their own unique quirks writing a term paper february 6 2010 in academia anxiety bitching dissertation grad school writing leave a comment this term i am in a seminar with an unusual twist we are using about half the class time for a sort of writing workshop each week we turn in a bit of our term paper and get feedback i should be very excited about this because i have been in grad school a very long time and have rarely gotten any feedback on my writing the professor for this seminar is a very well know senior scholar in our discipline so it s exciting to get help from him his logic is that normally we would all write our term papers during the final week or two of the quarter anyway so we might as well just spend some time each week on our writing and get some actual feedback so that the final paper might be publishable he also laid out which sections we were to turn in each week abstract outline introduction literature review and so on this all sounds great so far except i m finding in practice it s not here s the thing that s not how i write my term papers it s true that i don t get started on the actual writing of the paper until the end of the quarter but i spend my spare moments all quarter researching finding data and reading through articles to build my literature review by the end of the quarter i usually have a good idea of how my paper will be structured sometimes i write it from the beginning straight through but often i start writing and then discover that the point i m making needs to be moved later my original intro is usually crap because i have to write some overly general rubbish in order to get to the heart of my argument i don t write a complete outline first although i...