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my ivf journey ivf dreams thoughts my ivf journey ivf dreams thoughts menu skip to content home the baby wave 333 bfn x3 november 19 2014 by s valentina i just knew it was going to work this time but my heart failed me once again did my blood test yesterday and got a negative pregnancy result it hurts even typing these words in it hurt so bad i can t even cry or scream or even feel again i feel lost and childless my husband hasn t even spoken to me since the news it s just heartbreaking and most of all depressing don t know if i can t stand another cycle let alone we are completely spent and used our last dime on this one thanks guys for the support and warm kind words until i can speak again 6 comments ivf 3 8dp5dt november 17 2014 by s valentina so here i am this is my 3rd ivf cycle and i m already towards the end i wanted to come on and apologize for my absence and just briefly fill you guys in i am currently in my 2ww and its been dreadful i will later fill you in on my antagonist cycle but as of today i am 8dp5dt pupo i test on tuesday and it s driving me insane current symptoms extreme headache dark brown spotting lower back pain so tired mild cramping im hoping that these are all good signs seeing as through i poas the last 3 days and they all came back negative cross your fingers for me please its been a long time coming for my husband and i i hope everyone stays tuned and support my journey 3 comments bfn february 12 2014 by s valentina beta was 4 ughhh what did i do to deserve this to top it off i have a gruesome yeast infection fml my heart is broken 8 comments eve of 1st beta february 12 2014 by s valentina it s crunch time and i ve been a nervous wreck it has officially hit me hard that this is it tomorrow will be all or nothing my heart races every time i think about it i ve been playing with my emotions or maybe my body has been playing with my emotions i took about 4 pregnancy tests all frer they were all negative except one which was very faint i don t know if my eyes were playing tricks on me but i went ahead and took another one about 10 hours later and another negative my heart just drops and i slowly start to lose all hope my husband continues to encourage me and think positive but it hard to go on with optimism when you see that cold hard negative in these tests all i can do now is go to sleep and wait lately my symptoms have been weird little cramping once in a while yellowish white discharge tmi which now includes burning and irritation i pray it s not yeast or urine infection those suck annoyed and emotional headaches all i can do now is continue to pray and again know that everything happens for a reason good or bad jeez i feel like i m having dejavu all over again from my first cycle and just feeling hopeless i wish my husband was around at these crucial moments when i just want to crawl in to a deep whole and ball up in a corner wish me luck people btw 4 more days until deployment i m so scared i need to get my life in order stephanie v 4 comments ivf 2 6dp3dt anxiety kills february 7 2014 by s valentina soo tgif people time is just going amazingly slow i m at work and i don t have a mere responsibility and duty to accomplish i just sit in my shop twiddling my fingers all day since my last ivf cycle i relieved all of my responsibilities to my shipmate and therefore my helping hand is not needed maybe i m just going crazy and waiting for this gruesome 2ww to pass it s day 6 and my symptoms have lessened i think i try to listen to my body every chance i get it small cramps here and there my lower back is completely sore from those darn injections speaking of injections that has been an episode all on its own let me begin by saying that my husband is back down in florida where he s stationed so i no longer have him for assistance i m left with typically whoever is in arm s length around 7pm every evening not only do these people hate needles and i barely know them and dont want in my business my ship is getting ready for a 9 month deployment so you can only imagine where everyones brain is last thing they want to do is stick me with a huge syringe on my back ugh well let me not forget i have literally 7 days to figure out if i will be making deployment or not my first beta is on wednesday the 12th and my second beta is the friday the 14th valentine s day the ship leaves on saturday the 15th i have a short time allotted for either pregnancy news or saying farewell to my husband for a while it s such a stressful thought i m choosing to take a home pregnancy test sunday morning to see if i get a least one faint line of hope if not i still will have 3 more days to see if my blessing will happen pray for me stephanie v 3 comments ivf 2 3rd day transfer pupo february 2 2014 by s valentina so we didn t get a phone call this morning from the doc saying that it s a 5 day transfer so today was the lucky day we got there and waited patiently for our grading report as we waited i was gulping down gatorade and water so the doc came in and she laid out the report out of 1 5 grading scale we have 7 embryos still working 1 grade 2 6 grade 3 so we chose to go with 2 embryos one from the grade 2 and one from the best looking one from grade 3 we are pretty satisfied with our choose honestly i m just glad it s all over the anxiety and the wonderment of how the meds are working my body and if my body is reacting accordingly all i have left is my pio injections and the vitamins so in the meantime im just going to hang out a couple of days longer at my in laws until i have to be present at work let s pray i get some type of sign or symptom soon so i can the ball rolling i don t mind being pupo and just getting my mind off the craziness of this cycle stephanie v 3 comments ivf 2 symptoms side effects more injections january 31 2014 by s valentina well its a picture of my husband and i taking our minds of things and dreaming of our love child we had a great dinner and a movie tonight hibachi is our favs i just wanted to to share the misery of my experiences day to day my breasts are sore to the touch the pains in my ovaries of the retrieval still resides i am a lot slower than i used to be from the last cycle plus this one i have put on some weight which is extremely uncomfortable for me i wwar nothing but spandex and tights this time around i chose to take the progesterone oil injections instead of the messy suppositories which i still dread i tense up every time and my leg just gives out it s hilarious every time my husband swears he my personal doctor now i m just counting down the days where i can say all of this is worth it every pain soreness cramp pill injection sting and tear will be worth it i just pray that is all i can do stephanie v 6 comments ivf 2 fertilization report january 30 2014 by s valentina here s the verdict 18 eggs retrieved 9 matured 7 fertilized until saturday at 11am i m officially on standby i m kind of praying for a 5 day blasts since i had a 3 day transfer before and wasn t of course successful but the do say it s better to get the embryo in the womb sooner than later for the natural effect my numbers are not what i expected since it s a deep plunge from 18 to 9 for maturity however 7 is still a strong number and i can live with that we are crossing our fingers for some good news on saturday can t wait to share stephanie v 4 comments ivf 2 egg retrieval january 29 2014 by s valentina 18 eggs what a beautiful number not quite as much as my last cycle but way more than i expected due to my last sonogram with not many follicles producing so now im patiently waiting for my fertilization report tomorrow feeling good about this cycle knowing im less stressed and knowing what to expect feeling a little queasy and dizzy pain and soreness i m just glad the hardest part is over i m so relieved to know that it s in god s hands now there s nothing more for me to control but the meds and actually trying the pio injections well i know i ve been absent from my blogs only because i m not trying to get my hopes up to high but i do continue to follow every ones else s journey i m just thankful all of you are around for support until tomorrow stephanie v 9 comments im back in full effect ivf 2 january 3 2014 by s valentina so blog family im back im down for round two of the ivf cycle happy holidays and happy new year to all after the tears and wonderment i have gain the strenght to pull through and try again as of yet well i already began the bcps and started my lupron injections on the 30th super excited about this round i can feel it in my gut literally my baseline is on the 14th and nothing can stop my shine i pray i didnt lose my followers along the way due to my distance i need all the support i can get its a new day new year and new energy lots of love more to follow 11 comments post navigation older posts search recent posts bfn x3 ivf 3 8dp5dt bfn eve of 1st beta ivf 2 6dp3dt anxiety kills recent comments 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