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and the stubborn clouds last month a good friend of mine was able to pass along a burnt cd with the title stubborn clouds on it to me he said that this artist knew my pain and my waiting he said that this artist was able to hash through infertility in a way that hasn t been done before these songs tore me apart these words described me waiting with sarah for the monthly phone call that let me down these words described this vision i once had of god having perfect plans for my life but not coming through they describe me looking up at cloudy skies hoping that sun would shine through hoping i could sing again this e p i was lucky to run across went through a short story of love and hope of that someday we dream of i really want to share these songs with you and hopefully bless you i am inspired to write again and go through these songs and the feelings i have had that are now put into melodies the artist has not yet released the full cd so i will start with what they put online i hope you take the time to listen to the full story and go through the journey of finding hope in a hopeless situation stubborn clouds once again in the waiting room the smell of fear fighting your perfume and the holy ghost and the devil take their turns one speaks of all that i deserve the other speaks in simpler terms of a fierce love that cannot be contained i say i know the man who gives and takes i ve done him some favors so maybe he ll save the day maybe not i know the man who can raise the dead i haven t been faithful but maybe he ll be instead i sure hope so oh i can see it now through the dark skies and stubborn clouds somehow you will break out and cover us all in a song somehow all of this chaos makes sense now the fiercest of storms bring out the best sailors once again waiting for the call trembling yet strong for her the deceiver finds an opening he speaks of all you haven t done he denies that the war was won in the graveyard through the veins of a king and i say i know the man who gives and takes and it s not about favors it s more about his story he is love i know the man who can raise the dead he has done it before and he ll do it again in us he is love oh i can see it now through the dark skies and stubborn clouds somehow you will break out and cover us all in a song somehow all of this chaos makes sense now the fiercest of storms bring out the best sailors may your story flow through my veins let me sing again may your glory fill my lungs oh let me sing again here is a link to the album stream abram share this share on x opens in new window x share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on reddit opens in new window reddit email a link to a friend opens in new window email print opens in new window print like loading tags abraham abram christian christianity facebook god in vitro fertilisation infertility pregnancy religion and spirituality sarah still counting stars support group twitter wife categories abram abraham infertility stuck on saturday by still counting stars april 13 2012 6 this past weekend was easter and if you re a christian you probably spent sunday morning at church celebrating the resurrection of jesus you also probably spent some time at church on friday remembering the crucifixion the days are only 2 days apart yet they feel so different one is quiet introspective and broken while the other is joyful social and for many full of chocolate but until this year i never thought about the day that falls between those two it s easy to skip over saturday from our perspective of the resurrection story nothing happened that day jesus was in the tomb waiting for the next morning when he would rise from the dead but can you imagine what that saturday was like for the disciples these were men who had quit their jobs to follow jesus they had left their homes and their families and their belongings to be a part of his story clearly they believed in him what would it take you to give up your job and your home to follow a stranger now imagine the despair they felt on that saturday everything they believed in had died their hope for a future was gone and the disappointment they felt must have been unbearable they knew jesus had said he would rise from the dead but i m sure the situation felt pretty hopeless on saturday life didn t go as they had planned do you ever feel like you re stuck on saturday you know what god s promises are but they seem pretty impossible you want to believe his words but you re overcome with disappointment unlike the disciples we know the end of the story we know what happens on sunday we see that every word jesus said was true and in the light of sunday saturday doesn t seem so bad maybe you ve been stuck in this infertility journey for too long and you re having a hard time seeing the hope of sunday maybe you feel like you re hanging by a thread i m there with you and i know how hard it is let s continue to remind ourselves that god s promises are true in your hardest times and disappointing months cling to the promises he s made he is the god of the impossible and we can trust that he won t break a single promise thanks to a song by all sons and daughters i learned this easter that god has a lesson for us about that saturday when you have a few minutes listen to this song and their commentary about it be encouraged sunday is coming related articles saturday seasons orangesatmidnight wordpress com sadderday wherefaithmeetslife wordpress com share this share on x opens in new window x share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on reddit opens in new window reddit email a link to a friend opens in new window email print opens in new window print like loading tags christian easter grief in vitro fertilisation infertility pregnancy reproductive health saturday still counting stars support group categories sarah absense makes the heart grow by still counting stars february 8 2012 10 numb er i am not sure if numb er is a word but it works better in my little play on words so i am going to go with it i added a dash so you wouldn t think i was counting i have abandoned this community that i was growing i know that i am just going to pretend you are like old college roommates and jump right in where we left off minus the cheap beer video games and staying up until i normally wake up for work i just had hoped that maybe by not writing so much as someone going through infertility that i would somehow not be defined by it somehow infertility problems would just slowly shrink down and nuzzle themselves somewhere in between my lesser problems like being a people pleaser and not being able to pick up after myself im sure sarah will give an amen to that the slow fade and yes i am going to pretend nuzzle is the proper term here it is a great term for all married people to learn the problem i am finding is that i am denying my story my part in an epic novel that is ultimately not about me i am so afraid of the scarlet letter or the infertility goggles or coming out of the closet that i deny what is going on here i am not owning the fact that all things are from him through him and to him i am not owning up to the fact that i will never know his ways and the more i have ignored my story the more numb i have become to how this can change and shape me i care about all of you going through this i also need to go through this with others let s dive into how to have faith and be men and women of prayer when faith and prayer haven t seemed to work in our favor this has been a nice chat abram what do all of you think absence does to the heart does ignoring infertility make anything better related articles coming out of the infertility closet stillcountingstars wordpress com there is nothing happy about infertility jackielopina wordpress com this is everything yet this is not everything the infertility goggles stillcountingstars wordpress com deluge of infertility splatterings of hope teardropsfalling wordpress com hello fertility sisters fertilityfaith com infertility the totally misunderstood disease djpnz com share this share on x opens in new window x share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on reddit opens in new window reddit email a link to a friend opens in new window email print opens in new window print like loading tags abram christianity coming out god health infertility pregnancy religion and spirituality reproductive health sarah still counting stars categories abram quiet lips and heavy hearts the silence of infertility by still counting stars standard february 8 2012 17 it s been pretty quiet on here for the past few weeks to be honest i just haven t felt like writing i haven t felt like thinking or talking about infertility i m getting tired of waiting and more than anything i just feel hopeless the fertility drugs aren t working and the wait is driving us crazy to make matters worse pregnancies are being announced on facebook like they re going out of style can any of you relate so i gave myself a few weeks of pity parties denial re decorating and now it s time to move forward i will choose joy and continue to believe that god s timing is perfect i won t worry about my biological clock because i serve the author of time your eyes saw my unformed body all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be psalm 139 16 thanks for all your prayers lately sarah related articles this is everything yet this is not everything the infertility goggles stillcountingstars wordpress com well here goes bringonthebump wordpress com share this share on x opens in new window x share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on reddit opens in new window reddit email a link to a friend opens in new window email print opens in new window print like loading tags facebook fertility medication god infertility pregnancy categories sarah give me faith a song for when he does not seem good or great by still counting stars january 5 2012 10 i may have mentioned this before but i am a musician i do not know how it is for people that are not songwriters but when i hear lyrics that perfectly capture a thought or yearning that i haven t yet put words to i am captured i am really drawn in by songs that take thoughts on my heart and put them to melodies to me that is what defines a great artist once such artist is a worship band from a relatively new church they go by the name elevation worship the following song has really stuck with my wife and i and has continually been on our minds this has been how i have started or ended many of my prayers in the past months i need to know that god is still good and that his love for me is great especially in the midst of pregnancy issues i need to know he is shaping me i do not know of a better place to go to build that belief than right to god as much as i go to this blog and as much as i go to friends or family i need to step back sometimes and ask him to put that belief in me you may be reading this at work but i urge you sometime to sit down with this song and help it become your prayer as well abram i need you to soften my heart to break me apart i need you to open my eyes to see that you re shaping my life all i am i surrender give me faith to trust what you say that you re good and your love is great i m broken inside i give you my life i need you to soften my heart to break me apart i need you to pierce through the dark and cleanse every part of me all i am i surrender give me faith to trust what you say that you re good and your love is great i m broken inside i give you my life i may be weak your spirit s strong in me my flesh may fail my god you never will share this share on x opens in new window x share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on reddit opens in new window reddit email a link to a friend opens in new window email print opens in new window print like loading tags pregnancy issues categories abram the much anticipated end of the 2 week wait by still counting stars december 30 2011 20 image via wikipedia my guess is that most of you reading this blog have a thorough understanding of the infamous 2 week wait but just in case you re popping over here and aren t haven t experienced infertility let me explain in a typical woman s cycle she ll ovulate around day 13 15 and then get her period 2 weeks later for those of us trying to get pregnant this 2 week window can be unbearable it s the period of time where you could be pregnant but you just don t know you ve done everything you can do to get pregnant and now you just have to wait it out i find myself over analyzing every ache cramp emotion sensitivity and wondering if they re signs that i m pregnant by the end of the 2 weeks my mind is screaming that i m probably not pregnant so i don t get my hopes up but all the way to the deepest core of me i m hoping that i am my 2 week wait ends tomorrow will this be my last ever 2 week wait or will i be faced with the all too familiar negative test result phone call i don t know how to prepare myself plan for the worst and hope for the best what s your advice i m sure at least of few of you are veterans of the 2 week wait what s your advice for those of us that are going through it right now please share your best advice and hopefully we ll get some good ideas listed for the next time we re faced with the dreaded 2 week wait sarah related articles what i would like fertiles and the world at large to know part 2 thestorkdiaries wordpress com ten commandments for dealing with infertility psychologytoday com top 10 responses i am tired of hearing themadmama wordpress com share this share on x opens in new window x share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on reddit opens in new window reddit email a link to a friend opens in new window email print opens in new window print like loading tags infertility negative test result ovulation pregnancy categories sarah it s christmas by still counting stars december 25 2011 9 merry christmas star counters i know today will be hard from some of us we ll be reminded of our dream for children and then faced with emptiness on christmas morning family members may say insensitive things and emotions may be elevated my prayer for you this christmas is that you would know that you re not alone and the god has a plan and purpose for your life may the most important baby ever born fill your hearts and bring you peace xo sarah share this share on x opens in new window x share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on reddit opens in new window reddit email a link to a friend opens in new window email print 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