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pirit christianity today april 23 2014 image brian smale it didn t take a moment of genius introspection to realize that doing life my way had led to nothing but disaster and destruction it was the summer of 2009 and i had just completed an almost 11 year sentence in federal prison for my role in five bank robberies i had committed as a foolish young man after my release i moved into an apartment with the love of my life annie two weeks later i proposed one week after that we learned she was pregnant at age 35 i was about to become a husband and father we had no money and no real plan for our future it may terrify some ct readers to know that i grew up in a christian home in rural nebraska with parents who had started a local church when my high school basketball career faded and college and the military fell through i was left with a complete lack of purpose susceptible to addiction and depression when my equally adrift best friend suggested we rob a bank it struck me as a legitimate idea we robbed five banks with guns and scared the tellers and patrons half to death i knew it was wrong still i couldn t stop the easy money and party lifestyle that large sums of unearned money brought me it didn t stop until the fbi tackled me inside the lobby of a doubletree hotel in omaha a year later i stood with shaky legs and a trembling spirit before a federal judge who sentenced me to more than 12 years in federal prison i was 23 learning to love the law prison is not a place for personal growth but there were small graces to escape the men around me i took a job in the prison law library when i wasn t shelving books i began learning the law what i found was that i really enjoyed the process of solving legal puzzles for my friends and so over the years i took on fellow prisoners cases writing petitions they would then file in federal courts across the country including the u s supreme court the odds of the court hearing a case brought by a prisoner is less than 1 percent of 1 percent and yet the court granted two petitions i had prepared for my friends fellow prisoners began calling me a jailhouse lawyer then another grace annie my secret crush all through high school began sending letters to me and through hundreds of letters phone calls and visits we became close friends many mornings i d walk over to visit my next cell door neighbor robert who was serving a 20 year sentence for a nonviolent drug offense we d chat over a cup of instant coffee which always seemed to have the consistency of sawdust and water robert would grumble about missing out on the lives of his children and how hard it was on his wife who was trying to hold the family together through two decades without him worst of all he ranted about one of his friends who had turned against him and testified for the government at his trial he said he wished that guy would die it was clear to me that the bitterness of life and prison had consumed him i think many parents would have forsaken someone like me but mine continued to pray for me and my mom continued to send me christian books even after i told her to stop i d read those books and then wonder if god had forgotten about me i wasn t quite ready for god but i also couldn t rationalize the transformation i d seen in the lives of my fellow prisoners one day i walked over to robert s cell and watched as he smiled and danced around while sweeping the floor my first thought was that he had scored some drugs but when i asked why he seemed so different i was unprepared for his response shon i m with jesus now he said within days robert had forgiven the man who had testified against him today robert is back on his farm with his family and once a week he treks back into prison to lead a men s bible study robert was neither the first nor the last prisoner i saw experience a complete and utter life turnaround these inmates had a great effect on me because i saw how grace can transform everyone even prisoners perhaps especially prisoners i was finding it harder and harder to rationalize myself away from god wise counsel i was released from prison in april of 2009 during the heart of the recession when no one let alone a former inmate could find work but within months another grace arrived i found a position at a leading printer of supreme court briefs in omaha helping attorneys perfect their briefs when annie and i got engaged we decided that we wanted my friend pastor marty barnhart to officiate the ceremony god bless him marty wouldn t agree to do so until we had gone through his premarital counseling our first counseling session was in a word memorable instead of discussing marriage marty asked what we believed about jesus when he talked about grace that free gift of salvation i listened especially when he said that i could be forgiven yeah even you shon he said the next day i couldn t escape the feeling that god had been pursuing me for a long time and that if i d just abandon my stubbornness and selfishness and hand everything over to him i would find redemption what does it mean to be redeemed and how do you redeem yourself after robbing five banks the answer is you don t the answer is that you need some help in ephesians 1 7 8 paul writes that in christ we have redemption through his blood the forgiveness of sins in accordance with the riches of god s grace that he lavished on us to put it differently because of our sins none of us and surely no former prisoner like me can be redeemed on our own we need the gospel of grace which says that each of us matters and has worth because we re made in the image of god grace says we are not defined by our failures and our faults but by a love without merit or condition god s grace was enough to redeem me surrender nearly five years have passed since i made the most important decision of my life to surrender to this grace annie and i got married and she too became a believer we were baptized together at christ community church in omaha we had a son whom we named mark after my father a man of faith who passed away after a long battle with cancer while i was still incarcerated and a few years later we had a baby girl whom we named grace we moved from nebraska to seattle so i could attend the university of washington law school on a full ride scholarship from the bill and melinda gates foundation during this time i ve volunteered and served toward a goal of ending mass incarceration in the united states i m motivated by the belief that prisoners are not beyond the grasp of god s redemption and we ve been nourished by our church mars hill in seattle where we have met christians who live out their beliefs with grace and compassion after i graduate this spring we will move to washington d c and i will begin clerking for a judge on the u s court of appeals for the d c circuit to say we have been blessed doesn t begin to cover it through it all from the amazing to the mundane god loved us through it all god has given us a purpose for me that purpose revolves around repentance loving my wife and children sharing the grace i ve been given and using my legal knowledge to assist those who cannot afford a decent attorney looking back over the course of my life i can see that although i rarely returned the favor god hotly pursued me shon hopwood is a gates public service law scholar at the university of washington school of law and author of law man my story of robbing banks winning supreme court cases and finding redemption crown publishing random house posted by andrew kenny at 11 28 no comments monday 16 february 2015 mez mcconnell s amazing testimony https vimeo com 85020964 https vimeo com 85020964 posted by andrew kenny at 10 31 no comments thursday 12 april 2012 my story my name is colin birnie and i am a 41 year old christian i gave my life over to the lord jesus on thursday 26th january 2012 it was the best decision i ever made i m not saying it was easy because i ve had many bad days when i ve questioned myself whether i m good enough or if i could really be the person god wants me to be i suppose i better start by telling you about my journey to where i am at the moment in my life i was born in east belfast in 1970 and had what i believed to be a normal childhood my parents brought me up to believe in god and from the age of 5 i was a member of the robins then as i got older i was elevated to the boys brigade in cregagh methodist church i would say that at about the age of 10 or 11 i started to realise that my parents were fighting a lot more than usual and i know that alcohol was the main reason for these arguments starting i remember lying in bed with the pillow over my head and my cassette player on to try to drown out the raised voices and fights as time went on i realised my mum had a drink problem and ended up dying an alcoholic in 2005 my mum turned to drink because my dad was a gambler and on too many occasions blew his wages in the bookies i remember once when i was 14 mum and dad were fighting and my mum ran out of the house and something or someone told me to follow her i found her lying on the cregagh road with cars driving around her she ended up in purdysburn the first of a few visits there i started drinking around that time myself and gambling playing cards slot machines etc i suppose i was looking for a release or attention or something but it didn t make me happy i gradually started to need more money for my habits i ve done some low things in my life but i think the lowest was stealing from my family as i grew older my habits grew with me and i moved out of home at 22 and shared a house with two mates they trusted me to pay the bills and gave me their share but mine never materialised it was while i was living with them that i found myself in the bathroom with a razor blade in my hand and i slit my wrists i blamed it on falling out with an ex girl friend i was only kidding myself it was my own life that was getting me down my parents my gambling and my drinking i stumbled through my life for the next four years doing the same things until i met my partner angela what a god send as they say angela and i moved in together along with her two kids we got along great but i was still gambling angela knew i did a bet but not the extent that i was really gambling angela caught me taking money from the house which wasn t mine and i got the third degree but i lied my way out of that one as my gambling increased so did my ability to lie i could tell some stories the next week angela gave me some money to pay for a bill at the bank but i walked straight passed the bank and into the bookies i didn t lose it all that day around 200 but gradually it all went the following week angela phoned me at work to tell me it wasn t paid i lied through my teeth saying i would call at the bank and see what was wrong i spun angela another yarn they rolled off my tongue so easily angela said she would call into the bank herself and i let her go and get humiliated because i could not own up i was given an ultimatum to get help or get out i want to g a but it did not stop me angela knew nothing of this and got deeper and deeper into the spiral of stealing lying and borrowing i couldn t see a way out but that didn t stop me i hit rock bottom in july 2009 when angela had found out that i had lost 7000 angela was minding the money for a friend and didn t know i knew where the money was i haven t done a single bet since that day someone was helping me angela stuck by me and i ve paid my debt almost was god helping me ask me then and i would say no now i say most definitely yes to finding god i must be a bit slow to realise he was always with me angela gave herself to jesus in november 2010 i was angry with her and god i said that god was taking her away from me now i realise he was guiding me to him through angela how selfish of me after all that angela had put up with by my drinking and gambling oh i nearly forgot christmas eve night on christmas night in her sister s house i was drunk as usual at those family get togethers i told rhoda angela s sister that i wanted to become a christian i wanted what those people in church the night before i was crying as i was telling her this sorry back to the plot angela was going great guns at this christian lark and i was fighting against it big time i told her i didn t love her and some other horrible things just to hurt her and boy did i do that angela accepted my apology but told me that god was to be a big part in her life forever and that i should try going to church myself i then started going to church just to keep in her good books but gradually i began to enjoy it i was starting to have my favourite worship songs and singers still i was drinking and thought i had the best of both worlds keep angela happy through going to church then going out for pints but i wasn t really happy god was talking to me but i wasn t prepared to listen the church started an alpha course and i signed up i really enjoyed it and would advise anyone to give it a go i was taking steps to finding but every time i was getting closer to god i thought i was missing out so off i went and got wasted big time what is it two steps forward two miles backwards i know now that the devil was attacking me he didn t to let god let me off for anything all the bad things i was doing was making him the happy one as a man i met handing out tracts in belfast city centre told me the devil is wanting to send a messenger down to earth so he asks three of his angels what they would tell the people when they got there the first one said he would tell the people that the bible is all lies no said the devil the bible is well recorded back in history the second one says i will tell people that jesus is a myth no no says the devil everyone know that jesus lived on the earth the third one says i will tell people why become a christian today there s plenty of time you can do it tomorrow the devil says the third no one is guaranteed tomorrow that story stuck with me for two weeks i was at my work on the 26th january 2012 and constantly god was talking to me when i got home at lunch time i just grabbed a pen and a piece of paper and this is what my heart told me to write dear lord heavenly father you have been speaking to me constantly this morning about myself to you i have heard you lord for a long time but kept putting obstacles in the way of turning to christ please dear lord forgive me of all my sins and take me as yours from this moment on and for the rest of my life please dear lord give me strength and courage to be proud of what i ve become your son i ask this in your son s name jesus christ amen i said this prayer that night at the life group and my life has changed so much from then i no longer feel i m missing out on something i feel complete i feel loved i no longer want to go to the pub and get drunk i m now reconciled with god he is always there for me i just never looked for him as t...