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arted to happen we were at a benefit concert at some friends house and i went to use the bathroom and i was spotting i knew something was happening the spotting continued into sunday morning till about 11am after that nothing happened i had spent all morning lying down and resting i continued to lie down in hopes that it would stop it but knowing fullwell that it wouldn t about 5 pm i went to use the restroom and there it was full blown red blood i sat there and cried knowing that what i had thought all along was coming to past monday morning i call my dr and i tell him that i waited for you he tells me that he is sorry and that he wished that this wasn t happening he also tells me that i need to go get an ultrasound done stating his apologies knowing that we would have to pay for it but he wanted to be sure that there was no heartbeat and that there wasn t some other type of pregnancy happening i finally called my mom who is serving a lds mission with my dad in ca and told her what was happening i miss my mom so much but i am so glad that i can call her whenever i need too dave leaves work and meets me down to get the ultrasound and sure enough no baby there was never any baby i had the type of pregnancy that is called a blighted ovum meaning that my body was pregnant but there was never a baby in there to grow and develop and come home with me i didn t cry because i knew that from the beginning something wasn t right plus i think that i was in a little shock at the loss of hope and the thought of another baby i am grateful for the comforting spirit to warn my heart and mind though it made it a little easier to handle the loss the dr asked if we wanted to have a d c or have it naturally he suggested to have it naturally because i was already bleeding and it would happen in the next few days since the d c wouldn t be covered by ins again we chose to wait we went home and dave took the day off to be there and support me tuesday morning at about 4 45 am i woke up with the worst cramp ever i rush to the bathroom to see if anything happened nothing so i go back to bed 5 mins later the same thing then again 5 mins later and again and again and again this went on for an hour before i got up and went down stairs to watch t v to try and distract my mind the pain was getting harder and stronger the contractions which i am calling them because it is exactly what my contractions felt with my other children births started getting closer together they were happening so fast that i only had time to take about 2 deep breaths before another one would hit the pain was so bad i i swear i cried out wheres my epidural i was in tears and in pain not only physically but mentally too i was going through labor and nothing was to come of it i finally went and woke up dave so he could come and be some sort of support for me even if it was to just hold me while i cried or to rub my back or to let me lay on him in pain i didn t care i just needed him then about 15 mins later snap the pain was gone and the tears had stopped and reality hit as i walked to the bathroom to say goodbye to the loss and the hope of a baby that was never there my heart goes out to those who have lost a child to stillbirths i only experienced 13 weeks of the hope for a baby and not 7 8 9 months for the love of the baby that was inside me i had a friend tell me that even though i say there wasn t a baby it was still a loss and a loss is hard she is right it was hard it wasn t easy and it is something that i never want to experience again but the fun wasn t over the next day i woke up feeling great dave went to work and i got the kids off to school my dear friend offered to come over and help me fold laundry or clean or what ever i needed done she left my house a round noon i got the kids lunch and was picking up a few things and i had a tickle in my throat and so i coughed warning possible tmi when i coughed i felt something like i gushed some blood which happened sometimes like when i stood up gravity would take hold or that i had just passed another blood clot which too happened often alot of things get passed delivered when you have a miscarriage or a baby so i went to the bathroom and whatever it was that happened it didn t happen completely it was still inside me and sticking out about an half of an inch i tried to pull it out thinking that it was another big blood clot but it was more of a fleshy feel so i freaked out my cervics is falling out my uterus is falling out which i know can happen i am going to have a hysterectomy i won t be able to have anymore kids my family isn t complete yet these are all thoughts that went through my mind i called my dr and he said that my stuff isn t falling out but since i couldn t get it out then i needed to go and see him asap and not to drive for 2 reasons 1 emotionally i was in no state of mind to drive and 2 incase i hemoragged so i call dave who was at the state fair 45 mins away he said he would leave asap which meant the soonest he could get here was in 1 hour and my dr was another 20 30 mins away but i didn t want to wait that long and felt like i couldn t wait that long so i called my dear friedn who had just been to my house to help me i call her in a panic and in tears not knowing what to do i had 2 sleeping kids and other kids that we still at school she said give me 5 mins and i will have it all worked out so she did she found someone to watch our kids so she could take me to the dr we get there and they are trying to work us in as soon as they can 5 10 mins later they get be in and i get in the room and am waiting for the dr and i start freaking out and thinking of all the worst things the dr comes in and ask me how i am holding up emtionally i start crying beacause i don t know what is happening and my husband isn t here yet he hugs me and comforts me and then asks me to lie down i start shaking so bad that i thought i would not be able to stay on the table when he starts to examine me he tells me that it is just my placenta i hadn t passed my placenta yet which i thought i had but they must have been some mighty big blood clots and i mean big blood clots just then dave walks in and i lose it again but it was a happy and relief cry when the dr tries to take the placenta out it wouldn t come so in further examination he finds that my cervics had already closed and pinched part of the placenta inside it feeling like i was in an operating room hear the dr ask for this and that and this and that i was worried on what was happening i asked him and he said that since my cervic has closed pinching my placenta he needs to open my cervics back up so he could take it out ouch double ouch after that i was bleeding a ton i lost about a unit of blood and the dr wasn t liking that the bleeding was not stopping and was thinking that i would need a d c right then what not putting me under luckily the bleeding started to slow down and the d c was not needed thank you after a few days of recovery yes i was sore from the open of my cervics back up and awesome friends and neighbors who took care of me when i needed it and brought in dinners and watched my kids and a mother in law who came up that same night to help i am finally feeling better and back to normal my heart still hurts but i know that all things are meant to be and that everything will work out in the end now to loose this extra 13 weeks of weight gain till i get pregnant again thanks for sticking around posted by tara and david at 1 21 pm 6 comments thursday september 15 2011 maybe i should maybe i should love more maybe i should laugh more maybe i should think happy thoughts more maybe i should enjoy today maybe i should pla y m ore mayb e i should blog more maybe maybe maybe the real question is am i doing it probably not like i should but by darn i am trying well maybe not the blogging bit life is what i make of it right i choose to love it or hate it i love it life with a 7 year old 5 year old 2 year old and 5 month old what is not to love right right 7 year old 1st grade and loving it loves flag football and very good at it people say it is a 1 man show but not on purpose he is the only one that will do anyth ing loves friends loves the wii a great helper when he wants to be 5 year old kinny gartener and loving it fyi he will repeat kinny garten again next year like his big brother best decision ever both summer b days so they will be the oldest he too loves and is awesome at flag football loves to color loves cars he too is a great helper when he wants to be 2 year old well on sat she will be 2 loves ring a round the rosies great with baby brother loves her daddy very mischievous too stinkin cute for her own good first broken arm in the family she only had to wear it for 2 5 weeks 5 month old rolls every where very inquisitive smiles at everyone can almost sit up sweetest little thing yum i married someone delish posted by tara and david at 10 09 am 6 comments saturday june 11 2011 good bye good bye grandpa we love you and are so happy for you and your reunion with grandma naomi and helen thanks for all the memories and for living with my parents so we all could get to know you better and have lasting memories enjoy heaven posted by tara and david at 7 40 am no comments sunday april 17 2011 heres to the past goofin around that what them boys do best this is what happens when your face gets caught between the wall moms foot and treadmill sledding a few red faces and tears christmas eve jammies new baby posted by tara and david at 6 30 pm 2 comments thursday april 14 2011 birth story last preggos picture 6 30 am right after delivery my biggest baby getting ready to leave the hospital had to see if he looked as cute as his brothers and daddy in a beanie yep sure does so this pregnancy was the first pregnancy that i was scheduled to be induced i have never been induced before and the only reason i was getting induced was because my wonderful doctor was going out of town and we didn t want to have another doctor deliver my baby my induction day was 6 days early the induction date was april 7th if you have been keeping track or read my last birth story you will notice that all my kids have been born with a 7 in their birth date child 1 june 7th 2 aug 27th 3 sept 17th i did not plan that at all they all came on their own 6 days 4days and 7 days early so when my doctor schedule the induction for the 7th i had to giggle but who knows them babies come when they want on april 6th i had a dr s appt and he checked my cervix and i was dilated to an almost 2 and was 80 effaced so he went ahead and stripped my membranes i was prepared this time for the pain no screaming when i had 3 he did the same thing and i had her that night so i thought that i was going to have him on the 6th but i wasn t having any regular contractions ya they hurt but they were not regular at all so i didn t really think that he was coming on the 6th he wanted to be like his siblings and have a 7 in his birth date my mom drove up that night from st george so she didn t get a call at 2 am and had to wake up and drive then my niece was staying the night to be with the kids in the morning since we had to go to the hospital really early so at 5 am i woke up and called the hospital to see what time to show up did i get any sleep that night no i was nervous about being induced since i have never had to before they told me to be there around 6 15 to 6 30 so i hopped in the shower and got ready to go we got to the hospital just before 6 30 and we sat around until 7 30 when they finally admitted me when the nurse checked me i was almost a 3 not quite but almost i told her that once i get to a 4 i move really fast i don t think she really believed me they started me on pitocin at 8am and she said that she would up the dose every 20 mins and check me every hour at 9am my cervix hadn t really changed curse word so they kept upping my pitocin and when they got to 12 the little mans heart rate would drop and so they dropped the pit back down to 8 so my contractions weren t coming so frequent 10 am i was at a 3 11 am i was barely over a 3 so i thought good hell this is going to be a long day and since i am here in the stinking hospital with crap on me and it is hard to walk around and with his heart rate dropping they want to keep me monitored i am going to get my epidural so i can labor in comfort so i asked for the epidural at 11 am and they came right away which has never happened before either i usually have to wait for 20 to 30 mins oh well lets just do it not that the contractions weren t bearable they were i could have gone alot longer without the epidural but at the rate i was progressing it was going to be a long day and with my history of pushing 3hours 1 5 hours 45 mins who knows what was going to happen at 12 noon still the same barely over a 3 the nurse informed me that my doctor would be there within the hour to break my water on his lunch break sweet lets get things moving so i am laying there on my right side chatting with my mom and my hubby and i can t really see the clock so i am not fully aware of the time but i felt some leakage sorry if tmi but i did that with the others too so not a concern then i started to feel the contractions a little more differently so i turned to look at the clock and it said 12 50 i thought maybe i should call the nurse to come and check me but i didn t since the hour was almost up anyways 2 more contractions went by and they too felt more like something was happening so at 1 pm i said to my mom and hubby that i think i need to call the nurse to come and check me and at that same time the 2 nurses walked in because his heart rate dropped and they wanted to put oxygen on me i told her to check me first since there were 2 nurses she said she would but it still took her a min but when she did she got the biggest shocked look on her face and kindof stuttered oh um you are complete i better go call your doctor mind you i am in provo and my dr is in spanish fork 10 miles away if he hadn t left yet there was no way i was going to wait for him but when the nurse walked out of the room he was walking down the hall so she let him know that i was complete and ready he changed his clothes and came in while they were prepping for the delivery my water broke compared to my other kids the gushing wasn t there just a little pop of water i told them that my water broke the nurse didn t really believe since they didn t hear or see anything on the floor but when my dr looked he assured her that it had when they were ready with the prepping i started to push at 1 15 ish when i started pushing i didn t feel right i had them turn off the epidural as soon as i was complete so i knew that wasn t it because i was starting to feel the contractions after about 4 contractions i knew what was wrong i was still laying down the nurse hadn t moved me up so when they told me to push like i 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