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lchair i wouldn t but ncs did returning from her wild camp which took place in a hail storm she felt like she could do anything it was the most amazing experience imaginable ncs is open to 16 and 17 year olds across england and northern ireland the two to four week programme which takes place in school holidays includes outdoor team building exercises a residential for participants to learn life skills a community based social action project and an end of programme celebration event the activities designed to develop strength of character and shove children out of their comfort zone definitely worked they built from challenging physical activities to personal development to voluntary work in the community and then allowed children who were really inspired to get involved further after applying to be on the regional youth board eldest went off for yet another residential and yesterday nearly a year after she signed up she went to a full day s meeting to decide on her cohort s next project they ve already set up a campaign about mental health they launched a facebook group and they made a video which you can see on facebook here that s eldest at the end those are her words how proud am i how much you say how much is this going to cost me would you believe me if i told you it was fifty quid and they feed them and even send them a t shirt through the post that s right they feed them they clothe them they inspire them they take their grumpy teenage selves away from you for three plus weeks for fifty quid find me a better deal and if fifty quid is a stretch there are bursaries available they ve asked me to mention support for children with additional needs i can personally attest to the fact that they support kids with special needs abseiling in a wheelchair i ask you you might have holidays booked don t worry you can choose from a range of dates you won t find a better chance for your teenager to learn to have fun to build confidence and to get involved in the world outside their smartphone there will be children from different backgrounds working together on ncs s goal of creating a more engaged society this year more than 100 000 teens will join up developing skills for their lives be like eldest sign up now there are still places available for year 11s to take part this summer to sign up now go to the ncs website there are social media links below facebook ncs twitter ncs instagram ncsyes go go go posted by the coffee lady at 14 20 3 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest tuesday 8 august 2017 and this is where you get with metaphors last year as part of a nightschool course i found myself in the midst of an exercise where the participants had to say positive things about each other i thought it an excruciating idea when it came to me there was the usual she s so funny she s so warm she s so whatever you already know i was not born for positivity but one lady said something that has stayed with me ever since my presence on the course she said my continued ability to fully take part whilst caring for a terminally ill mother and two children made me the definition of having your sh t together it wasn t a phrase or a sentiment i had ever connected with me if there s one thing i m good at it s telling myself i m not really doing very well at things that i m barely coping the fact that someone thought i was not only coping but doing it quite well really surprised me just weeks ago my husband my partner of 25 years left after suddenly announcing he had been having a very long term affair without warning the children and i had our entire existence turned upside down the pain and betrayal were heart stopping so let s talk now about this picture of a chicken once upon a time i was working with the crick crack club to promote a show by the storyteller michael harvey the poster image for which was just this single determined looking chicken staring straight at the camera i loved everything about that show the stories the teller the telling and of course the chicken in my head it became a symbol and i remember talking to my husband about it i was saying that all the metaphors about lovebirds and those doves that people release in cheesy movie weddings weren t the real deal real marriage was like that chicken steely unswerving sometimes not entirely pretty but the one bird you d like to have in your corner in a fight marriage had your back it gave you strength so why when i was planning what image to take for a textile art workshop i had booked months ago was i still thinking about that chicken my marriage had not had my back it turned out that i had not actually been in what i would consider a marriage for years why was the chicken still so important the words from the nightschool course came back to me and they made me realise for a long time now as my husband concentrated on a new career i have felt increasingly alone i have run my household i have gone to work i have gone to college i have nourished and nurtured my children i have nursed my much loved mother and kept vigil at her death earlier this year marriage was never the chicken i was the chicken i was the effing chicken all along with thanks to mandy pattullo for a wonderful workshop and for understanding that i had to abandon the pretext of the course stitched memories because memories sometimes have to wait thanks also to the crick crack club for the gloriousness of the chicken all the shows they promote are exceptional go look at what they have coming up michael harvey is currently touring a new show called dreaming the night field details of tour dates are available at adverse camber posted by the coffee lady at 14 46 24 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest monday 3 april 2017 the struck match i ve been clearing my mother s house those of you who follow me on instagram might have seen my hashtag thestruckmatch and marvelled at my ability to be entirely self referential grieving is an odd animal when it began which really was before my mother died i was convinced that i would lovingly document everything i gave to the charity shop shoved in the bin nicked and took to my house in a beautiful new blog turns out i didn t turns out i got all practical and goal orientated which is not like me at all so i share this post the first and only post on what was to be my house clearing blog and with hindsight what a mesmorising read that wouldn t have been i was an only child an only child of a mother who liked to keep things who liked the history of objects who didn t like waste who was brought up in the original make do and mend era when you had to when it wasn t pretty she threw few things away sometime back in the early 2000s i went out for dinner with my friend d in london she was in a similar position except that she had just lost her grandmother and her mother was making no attempt to get rid of anything from that previous generation we were both we realised going to inherit years and years of accumulated clutter and have to deal with it alone with no siblings to say yes get rid for heaven s sake just us with the houses full of junk and the grief and the guilt we made a pact we had been drinking when the time came we would call on each other to release us from our plight and we would give the poor bereaved be cluttered person permission to put a match to the whole lot i texted her the other day and told her to ready the matches there s an irony here though for as i made a start on looking in cupboards and drawers i found that my mother had been hoarding scented candles she didn t like them but if people gave them as a present she wouldn t give them away what if you needed them so she stowed them in the cupboard under the telephone or in a drawer full of thread and old spectacles again old spectacles why a house smells different when it s empty it smells still and unfamiliar and discomforting or maybe that s just me noting how it doesn t really smell like it did when my mother was truly living not surviving but living in it i thought i would light the scented candles during the times i was here i like them even if my mother didn t so i started the process by looking for matches where are the matches mother i asked the empty house and i found them damp and unused because she had nothing to light in a drawer and i struck one posted by the coffee lady at 03 33 8 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest saturday 26 november 2016 so now i am actually trying to sell you something a few years ago the lovely driftwood and i met up with our families at a national trust place and did a whole load of activities that were designed for slightly less sarcastic people with slightly younger children one of the activities was making flying kites out of bits of plastic and string this obviously led us to spend the afternoon wandering around the landscaped gardens dreaming up a business that sold kites made out of liberty fabric that didn t fly at all because what kind of self respecting craft business would actually make an item that had a practical use however i was at a point in my career go on let s at least call it that where i wasn t sure what direction i could go in i thought i could take a bit of control for myself perhaps a little craft business where i tinkered around making lovely things with lovely fabric would be just the thing and so it was that i bought some books in order to learn to make kites that actually flew i learned about dihedral joints and eddy kites and buying string that was measured in lbs and the beaufort wind force scale i spent hours in the garden with a hacksaw balancing poles making kites it turned out is more about physics than fabric i had loads of fun lots of trial and error and scribbled notes and eventually came up with two kite designs a small pocket kite and a larger fold away model and i made a few little kite brooches and did a couple of craft fairs and set up an etsy shop and told no one about it megan recently used this quote by james baldwin on her gorgeous blog the scent of water this collision between one s image of oneself and what one actually is is always painful and there are two things you can do about it you can confront the collision head on and try and become what you really are or you can retreat and try to remain what you thought you were which is a fantasy in which you will certainly perish which is a bit dramatic i m not on the verge of perishing by selling a few kites but true over time the job i took three years ago because i needed a job and the hours were right has gradually turned into a home into the only job i could possibly be doing it s lovely but it doesn t solve the problem of this suitcase full of kites so come and buy the link is in the sidebar i ve listed the kites one last time before i shut up shop the kites fly and they re pretty and i adored making them and i learned a lot about taking control and about going where the wind takes you posted by the coffee lady at 12 49 2 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest thursday 17 november 2016 getting hyggy with it i know you don t say higgy leave it a new routine has taken shape at home most evenings my mother comes over to eat after dinner we wrap her in a quilt and try to work out what to watch on tv which she won t dislike she dozes eldest could be homeworking not or messaging friends and watching youtube videos mr coffee could be working on his laptop or playing minecraft with littlest who would be playing minecraft without him if he was working i may be knitting a row or two of my ill fated sock unravelled 4 times already i ve started to light candles because these evenings deserve a reverence they re normal normal is good normal could end at any time the other night i went to a friend s house for a bonfire party and we all stood around watching the fireworks whilst drinking cheap whisky out of jamjars at one point i thought and i held onto it in that moment i am so happy just now i am so happy i like this quote from this article about hygge it feels incredible to share these drama free moments with those you care about if you realize that it is only for a dinner or a lunch or a limited period of time it makes it much easier to really try and enjoy that moment a limited period of time that s the fella that s where we are right now posted by the coffee lady at 09 00 8 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest sunday 25 september 2016 winter is coming summer is the time for squabbles in winter we must protect one another keep each other warm share our strengths george r r martin a song of fire and ice we were a bit late to the game of thones party mr coffee and i it was only a few weeks ago we finally got around to watching season 2 do not tell me who is dead already and by the time we did it was so long ago since we d watched season 1 that i d forgotten who everyone was so i got hold of the first book and came across the quote above anyone who has watched more than a couple of episodes of game of thrones will know that all that winter is coming stuff is not just about it getting a bit colder it s about a family s life changing and the realisation that complaints about kids throwing up in tents and not having enough time to do the garden are just summer squabbles winter is coming and we must keep each other warm i made a quilt it only took me two years it s a rainbow quilt hand pieced and machine quilted made up of bits of liberty that i collected during my summer squabbles i wasn t choosy if it was even slightly related to the colour next to it it went in and even if it didn t it has an extra warm batting from the local fabric shop which is suitable for the coming colder months because in winter we must protect one another keep each other warm share our strengths my children s strengths lie mainly in recrimination and anger this enforced familial protection is not one they buy into very easily i just had a screaming row with eldest whilst i was actually writing my blog post which culminated in me holding her close really hard whilst she struggled with her anger her frustration and both our desires to punch each other in the face there s a lot in store for us this winter it s gcse year and my mother the grandmother my children s beloved refuge who lives just down the street has been diagnosed with inoperable cancer and it strikes me as bizarre right now the things i used to complain about the state of the living room floor how difficult it was to get to swimming lessons on time i honestly don t know how many people still read blogs now and it s so long since i wrote on mine i don t know who is still around if you do and you are please no comments that will make me cry if you like you can tell me the most bizarre and unimportant thing that you complained about this week because winter ...