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ber that time we made a robot costume when i was little that was so cool that s what it s all about building fun filled memories with my kiddos it was nice that both nana and gram got to go trick or treating with them this year actually nana and pa got to be apart of halloween pumpkin carving trick or treating some shopping at the mall along with eating out at red lobster a trip to sweet frog a birthday party and even some bowling throw in the non stop never ending question of can we go in your camper again coloring endless pages in coloring books and just the non stop craziness that is the foster household and i d have to say my parents survived with minimal permeant damage lol my parents just left this morning and already the boys are talking about what they are going to do with nana and pa they next time they come up to visit thanks mom and dad for making some fun memories with my kiddos and i love ya posted by stephannie at 1 32 pm no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest friday october 18 2013 the sensitive child well i still haven t given up on blogging yet it is challenging to find the time to actually blog though it seems as though it takes me half a day to actually get something written to actually blog because i can only type for 1 minute here and 3 minutes there lol i guess that will just be the norm for me for the next 18 years so today i have more of a question to throw out there how should one raise a son that is very sensitive and that takes everything to heart jeremiah my 7 year old has and probably always will be on the sensitive side when the boy was like 6 months old all his aunt tammy had to say was butter beans i have no clue why those words would set him off lol and the poor baby would be in tears even after he was calmed down and he was distracted to much happier things i could see him look off into the distance and start to get a big pouty face again you just knew he was reliving the whole butter beans incident in his little head i find myself almost in a daily struggle to find a balance on teaching him that it s ok to have strong feelings about things but yet to teach him not to be a pansy so to speak jeremiah is by far no pansy in fact he does an awesome job holding his own when it comes wrestling and fighting with his brother although if you say something that he feels is sad or hurtful then he tends to internalize it and seems to never stop thinking about it for example a few years ago we had some friends over to the house one evening and after they had left jeremiah said their son who was around the same age as him had told them how he had a baby brother but that he was in heaven now of course my curious little man had about 100 questions about all that he wanted to know how a baby could die cause in his mind everyone was is supposed to live till they are old people so we explained to him that when babies are first born their necks are really weak and their heads are really heavy we told them that the baby had rolled over and his neck just wasn t strong enough to move his head so he could breath he cried and said how sad that was and how bad he felt for his friend who didn t have his little baby brother anymore well time went on and it was about a year and a half later we had another little baby both the boys loved their new little sister to pieces the first day i came home with little charlotte i noticed jeremiah would hover over his sister no stop if i put her down for a second he was right there watching her i just took it as he was so excited about her that he just couldn t get enough of her later that evening as we were tucking the boys into bed jeremiah asked me mom were is baby charlotte going to sleep tonight i told him she would be in the pack n play right next to our bed his eyes began to fill up with tears that quickly began streaming down his face here i thought he was just over excited and over tired from the busy day i told him not to worry and that she was here to stay so he would see her tomorrow his response was but mom what if she rolls over and can t breath while your sleeping at night what normal 5 6 year old thinks and worries about such things a year and a half after they first heard about something like that he is also the type that when reading stories for school will often break into tears the other day he was reading about black beauty and when the horse was sold to a new owner that was enough to send him into tears my dilemma is how do i teach him that it s a good thing that he is as caring as he his but yet on the same hand not to wear his heart on his sleeve all the time i love the fact that he is sensitive to others feelings i always say he is going to make an awesome husband one day cause he is so thoughtful and sensitive to others feelings yet on the flip side of that i hate to see my 7 year old stress and worry about things that shouldn t concern his little mind does anyone else out there struggle with this and how to you handle it posted by stephannie at 7 16 am no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest thursday october 10 2013 just call me m om manager of messes after spending the past several days around the house it probably doesn t come as a big shocker that kids are going stir crazy as a stay at home mom i like to think of myself as being creative along with the help of pintrest and often come up with cool and neat things or places for the kids to do or go but this creative momma must be out of ideas cause the kids are begging to go somewhere fun today and i can t think of anything to do so we ve just been kind of hanging around the house today which i soon learned is a big no no i have to admit the day started out quite peaceful and i was enjoying it everyone slept in till 7 a m and jeremiah did a double day of school yesterday so no school for him today by 10 a m the boys had oddly enough not tried to kill each other yet and were playing together nicely in fact it warmed my heart to hear them laughing and giggling with each other in their bedroom charlotte was happy playing in her room where she had taken every shoe her sister and her own and placed it into her laundry basket and had her elephant sitting on top of the massive shoe pile she was then sitting in her red car trying to drive in circles around the basket all the while carrying on a very in depth conversation with effent which at times even had charlotte busting out in very comical but fake chuckles that elephant is one crazy funny stuffed animal ya know my sweet little vivian was content as could be just jumping away in her exersaucer all in all it was an awesomely calm relaxing morning then all h e double hockey sticks broke loose as it usually dose on a daily basis here in the foster household i had just started to feed vivi some tasty sweet carrots when i hear charlotte scream in her room and its the type of scream that you immediately know she is hurt so i dart to her room where i find she has somehow fell under the steering wheel of her red car and was now stuck and couldn t get out because she had somehow twisted her arm in a very awkward looking position after carefully maneuvering her out and assessing that she had no broken bones or wasn t bleeding she goes back to her driving around and playing with effent disaster averted i walk back into the dinning room to find that in my hurry to see what was wrong with charlotte i had left the sweet carrot baby food jar within viv s reach on the high chair where once i had had a freshly bathed baby clothed in a cute little white and pink outfit now sat a baby covered from head to toe in a quite messy display of an almost florescent orange colored jar of baby food needless to say bath number 2 of the day was in store for her at least the boys are getting along ran the thought through my head i didn t dare speak those words out loud for fear of jinxing it so as i m getting vivi s 2nd bath of the day ready this is the time charlotte decides that she is in desperate need of some momma time and since i can t give it to her right at that moment she feels like hanging off my leg screaming momma momma momma will make me hold her more quickly so i take vivi out of her bath long enough to bribe charlie with a snack so that i can get vivi back in the bath and cleaned up yes i m not afraid to admit that i do bribe my children with food from time to time any real honest mother will admit to nothing less so while bathing vivi not only do the boys start declaring world war iii on each other cause apparently just thinking the thought of them playing well together was enough to jinx that then both dogs start barking like crazy which they do only when someone is coming up to the house their non stop barking sends the bird into a screeching fit as well yet again i take vivi out of the bath to see who is here by the time i get to the door after screaming for the dogs the bird and the boys to stop yelling i see that it s just a guy dropping off yet another verizon phone book thanks verizon i ll put that phone book with the other 10 that you ve sent me in the last year in the trash i mean come on how many phone books does one really need apparently 11 according to verizon i finally get vivi bathed and dressed again while still trying to manage charlie s meltdowns i get vivi content enough that i can finally pay charlie some attention charlie cuddles in my lap an i begin to read her her favorite fishy book that lasted until eli came into the room and informed me that he is no longer playing with his brother cause he is mean and he now hates him eli then goes into a long story about why his brother is so mean which he ended with the sentence like for real mom who does he think he is is he the parent of me nope so now i hate him after a lengthy talk with him about how we shouldn t really hate anyone and how we are all supposed to love each other eli s response is well yeah but i still hate bub not 30 seconds after that comment jeremiah comes running into the room telling eli he has to come see this funny video he found on youtube they both go running out of the room and with in a matter of a minute i hear bursts of laughter coming from them both again at least i know eli s hatred doesn t run deep so back to charlie girl and her book or so i thought she figured while she was waiting for me to finish my talk with eli she would leave me a present of a very odorous nature in her diaper after changing that diaper we sit down to read yet again when i think to myself that it still smells pretty bad in the room so i check vivi only to find she s had a complete blowout i m talking poop all the way up the back of her almost up to her shoulders short of cutting off the onesie that she has on i can t figure how to remove the thing without spreading the poop even further i just bite the bullet and pull it over her head and get her ready for bath number 3 for the day after bath number 3 is done i find it yet time again to feed the heard so lunch is made cleaned up and both girls are now napping at least long enough for me to have typed this now i must try to get the lunch dishes done laundry washed and folded rugs vacuumed and maybe even attempt to yet again organize the boys mess um i mean room here s to hoping the girls take a nice long nap oh wait is that vivian i hear crying now great so much for getting stuff accomplished today lol posted by stephannie at 10 43 am no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest friday october 4 2013 weight issues alright so i realize in my logical mind that having had so many pregnancies especially the last two that were so close together that it can take a toll on one s body i know that i was never a super model nor will i ever be but to say i strongly dislike my body now is a major understatement i know i m by no means obese but i do feel like i need to lose about 20 to 30 lbs to be back to what i consider my normal although i d like to just state for the record that i have the most awesome husband ever who always tells me on a daily basis how beautiful he thinks i am and how he thinks my body is more sexy now then when we got married it makes me love him all the more for saying such uplifting things but i still struggle with what i see when i look at myself in the mirror i ve done nothing but complain about my body for years now it s hard to find time in my schedule though to exercise on a regular basis the only real free time i have comes after i have all the kiddos in bed for the night and vivi has been soooo clingy the past few months that on a good night i ll be lucky to have her down and out by 10 p m i can get the other 3 all in bed and good to go for the night by 8 30 p m but vivi fights it even if she does go to sleep around 8 30 or 9 00 if i put her down she wakes up 5 or 6 time between 9 and 10 just to make sure i m still there and it has to be me if eric tries to help out she just cries and cries but if i go in there and she can see it s me then she will drift back off into la la land so by 10 p m it s usually my free time let s face the cold hard facts here by 10 p m at night the last thing running through my list of things to do is exercise heck i consider it a productive use of time management if i get a shower brush my teeth and pass out in bed before 11 p m so how am i to go about losing these extra few pounds that having me looking at myself like a teenage girl with no self esteem what so ever well when i figure that out i will let ya know in fact you ll probably here about it on the news or something because surly i d win some sort of medal award or honor of great distinction for accomplishing the impossible right for now though there is something i can change and vow to try to change starting right here and right now that is the words that i choose to let come out of my mouth when it comes to describing how i fell about my body i know its now become a habit i must break but no longer will i say i m so fat or i hate my stomach or anything of that nature why you ask here is why i will no longer say negative things about my self image a few days ago i was outside with the boys and we were hitting golf balls out into the farmer field next to our backyard after hitting a ton of them deep into the field i said to the boys that we should go on a golf ball hunt so they grabbed a bucket and off we went into the field to find as many golf balls as we could after finding a lot of balls and walking half the field over my 4 year old son eli made said wow we have been walking forever and my legs are getting really tired but i m really glad we went to find golf balls in return i said i know it s a lot of walking but we are almost back home now it was fun finding all those golf balls though right his response well yeah it was fun but i m really glad we went for this long walk cause i ate to many pancakes today and my 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