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always want to be remembered for their deeds these men are leaders of their generation their company group and often have breakthrough ideas that just keep you at awe who am i talking about for one steve jobs this man has almost single handedly revolutionized his company and the technology we have welcomed and incorporated into our lives ipod iphone ipad are one of the best inventions of this generation from my perspective of course and they all came under mr jobs almost every year people are kept in suspense awaiting news of new products brought on by his company and when they are released people are left wanting more many have questioned now that mr jobs is out of the picture temporarily or permanently who will be taking over the reigns of the company he is no doubt a great leader a visionary if you must but we hardly hear of an uprising number two so who will my beloved this company fair in the near future will it be another polaroid who died alongside with its founder humans are naturally selfish and in wanting to protect their legacy they don t let others in not the greatest kind of leadership as the baton never gets passed on and so with the passing of the founder so goes the company lesson s don t hold on too tightly onto something because like sand the tighter your grip the more you lose any good leader thinks about the future thinks about the continuity of the company and not his legacy you need more than one kind of leader manager visionary slave driver shepherd etc in your organization lessons for myself to learn and remember anyway 2 comments insulting god posted in matters close to the heart provoking thoughts the word on january 29 2011 by joth it s funny in life how as we grow up we try more and more to make our own decisions and stand firm in our beliefs even when an elder tells us that we re walking down the wrong way contrast that to during younger days we followed sometimes blindly what our parents instructions as we grow older we become confident that we have solidified our reasoning skills in handling problems at least that applies for me and often enogh this leads to great disappointment and many a heartache or break to our parents i ll never fully comprehend that until probable another 1o years down the road but something i read in the past few days really shook me a little you know for a lot of us who worship god whichever religion it is we often try to do good try to earn brownie points and in return we ask for favors let me pass my exam let my family be safe let me get that job let me this please let me have that etc etc etc i m sure we are all familiar with those lines i know i am my latest request has been please don t send me to palong i was frustrated because i had all this plans and not just any plans plans to which i thought would be pleasing to god so like many other people i thought hey rub the lamp and wish for something then i read this are you determined to have your own way in living for god we will never be free from this trap until we are brought into the experience of the baptism of the holy spirit and fire matthew 3 11 stubbornness and self will will always stab jesus christ it may hurt no one else but it wounds his spirit whenever we are obstinate and self willed and set on our own ambitions we are hurting jesus every time we stand on our own rights and insist that this is what we intend to do we are persecuting him whenever we rely on self respect we systematically disturb and grieve his spirit and when we finally understand that it is jesus we have been persecuting all this time it is the most crushing revelation ever is the word of god tremendously penetrating and sharp in me as i hand it on to you or does my life betray the things i profess to teach i may teach sanctification and yet exhibit the spirit of satan the very spirit that persecutes jesus christ the spirit of jesus is conscious of only one thing a perfect oneness with the father and he tells us take my yoke upon you and learn from me for i am gentle and lowly in heart and you will find rest for your souls matthew 11 29 all i do should be based on a perfect oneness with him not on a self willed determination to be godly this will mean that others may use me go around me or completely ignore me but if i will submit to it for his sake i will prevent jesus christ from being persecuted from my utmost for his highest i am in a fix i do not want to go to a desolated isolated and sometimes i call it a god forsaken place however after reading that i felt that indeed many times i have insulted god by telling him what i wanted not that we can t but the way i ve acted over this whole matter was as if it was my right to stay wherever i am and proceed with my career choices i didn t want to trust god and it was like a 5 year old who didn t want to trust his father in carrying him because he s worried he d fall that is a stab to god s heart so again it comes boils down to my relationship with god you know the list you make of all the important things in life and we always rank god first well we tend to forget that we forget matthew 6 33 in all the times we ve read it we forget to place god first before ourselves we as we grow older become selfish and self reliant with our needs i guess i m back to square one asking god what he wants for once and not the other way round 2 comments mirror this posted in provoking thoughts on january 15 2011 by joth people are best reflected in their worst moments just as a chain is as strong as its weakest link people will value you for who you are in your worst moments so if you re calm cool and collected when the storm hits that s the real you people don t tend to be suave charming and polite when their pushed up against the wall at least most people aren t i think it speaks truly of one s trust for another especially when it comes to bgr i ve learned in my limited experience that many a times people are different in a one on one setting and when their with other people so i guess it made a lot of sense when my elders leaders pastors told me that it s best to mingle in a crowd why simply because their reaction will be different want to know someone for who they really are before you commit in some kind of relationship with them whether its bff bf gf or whichever few alphabets you wanna piece together catch them in a sensitive moment when it comes to forking out more cash or own effort especially when it doesn t help their cause then you d definitely get a glimpse of who the real person is inside speaking from another angle though the fire or rather the tests in life that we pass through really do shape us you are who you are in your weakest moments if you re nice when the s hits the fan you ll be nice mostly so the next time you re in a fix persevere through the experience and i know i am a bit cliched by saying this but it ll make you a better person only if you look at it positively leave a comment as again posted in time wasting on january 3 2011 by joth as always i ve gotten busy it s always the same old excuse for exercise for doing quiet time or for even meeting up with people the infamous i ve been busy no doubt my work schedule is kinda hectic but there are days where i do wonder where all my time has gone lately i can account it with my latest obsessions with cars or rather gt 5 it really feels like i m heading the pathway of a professional driver not my long list of things to do reports studies meeting up with people exercise play my ps3 pay my bills do quiet time sleep sleep sleep work work workworkworkworkwork you get the drill so how does one know that their using their time wisely i m obviously not coz i m here doing this instead of the above list mentioned hope my wife is at least entertained by this nonsensical post 2 comments purpose posted in provoking thoughts on october 22 2010 by joth gotta to start by saying i ve had no internet for a while and hence have not been able to put up anything lots of thoughts lots of happenings but the one thing that s been running on my mind lately is purpose purpose the sole engine that drives one s life it s the stuff that makes one wake up in the morning fresh and ready to face the day like in the message i heard you know you ve got life with purpose when you wake and gladly go good morning and not oh no it s morning gets me thinking about when i wake up each morning i m funny in a way that my morning depends on the hours i sleep i sleep enough i feel like i can do anything if not i d want another 5 minutes snooze snooze i m on a soul searching journey well somewhat i realize i do a lot of things without thinking it s only the afterthought that i realize somethings could be better so here s me doing more thinking but so far with no yield got to start asking myself in whatever i do is it really worth it that s for now next time i ll write something more light hearted a comedy maybe haha leave a comment relationships posted in matters close to the heart the honest truth on september 9 2010 by joth these were always tricky ones to manage to upkeep or even start i m not complaining about my wife i m just talking about any relationships in general i think i ve grown up to face many disappointments with many people in terms of relationships when i was younger i used to question why no one makes the effort to be friends with me now as i grow older i question why no one reciprocates sometimes or am i just being selfish in wanting more friends i ve come to realize how many times i take certain friendships for granted myself but i still can t discount the fact that because of certain changes in life people go through the relationship changes i agree about how dynamics may be different but the bond should not loosen boy oh boy if i were to write a memoir of my past experiences would it be one heck of a book of complaints probably so i vowed to study all my relationships closely and try to understand the dynamics between people what i have learned so far i m not quite sure actually but i guess in any relationship one has to give willingly and selflessly tough love if you ask me do unto others what you want others to do unto you right anyhow for all the people that i m somehow connected to i apologize if i ve offended you or made you to believe that you are any less special than my other friends i try my best and i hope you would too leave a comment i m back posted in matters close to the heart provoking thoughts reflection the honest truth on september 3 2010 by joth or so i think i am the hiatus well many reasons really but no need to indulge all here i suppose life s taken a funny turn the day i thought would never come dropped down on me like an anvil well okay it wasn t that bad but i meant in terms of how fast it happened the one thing i ve noticed about myself is that i m not as persistent as i used to be perhaps i ve grown old or maybe my maker had put me enough to learn how to accept certain things that come my way am i like a knife that s getting dull in all my hopes of trying to help educate the apprentices i find it not easy how do you get people to pay attention without oneself getting furious loud and obnoxious scare tactics they do work but only for a while before all of them revert to their old habits so how does one lead what s the right formula the correct dosage of shelling needed while educating a younger one love and enthusiasm seem to be a good route but once again it will only be taken advantage of more thoughts to be pondered along this line eh i can only say that in all things god has a plan these past few months have been evident one thing s for sure is that god has laid so many steps before me some that i had only discover much later guess i ll just have to bear the brunt for now leave a comment uninspired posted in rant time wasting on february 14 2010 by joth supposed to have holidays and rest do some reading of some sort at least catch up and update my knowledge a little i m not doing anything not the least bit interesting i blame my friend for going off somewhere during chinese new year for once meaning no hanging out and doing stuff and talking rubbish hmmm maybe i ll go reach out for my anatomy book how interesting hmmmm 1 comment love your country posted in matters close to the heart memoirs of a m sian boy on february 11 2010 by joth you can love your country and be angry at its actions hmmm so do we go on accepting its actions or do we do something about it leave a comment trust can be an issue posted in matters close to the heart rant on february 2 2010 by joth some days trust becomes an issue to trust or not to trust that is the question i used to be very bitter and very upset if someone would lie to me i would have probably thrown a hissy fit pull a long face and go on for days at end ranting about how that person lied to me about me i value truth above all as much as i can i always speak of the truth even if it gets me in trouble i don t like being lied to so i figure that not many like being told lies neither so what do you do if you have a friend who you ve already somewhat got some trust issues from the past you want to forgive let go brush aside and let your guard down but what if that friend who calls you a good friend talks to others about some good news you confront the person a couple of times only to receive a resounding no i m not lying to you but only to hear again and again that it is not as it is said i ll give time sure i ll give way to explanation but in due time if i find that i ve been lied to this ship friendship geddit is sailing and this time it isn t coming back to salvage anything leave a comment older entries 1 filler from books from my lens humor lists matters close to the heart memoirs of a m sian boy provoking thoughts rant reflection reunion rhetorical questions the honest truth the word this country my home thoughts time wasting updates fav sites bgg food blog mac news 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