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es and noble in dallas it is not sold online i purchased two of the wild things from eggemeyer s general store in san angelo tx i paid about 15 each but online they are more expensive amazon 3 arrow chalkboard sign from bhldn 4 painted rocking chair a gift from my friend patty you can message her through facebook to order one she can customize one to fit any decor or party theme 5 max costume party city 6 first birthday pictures krysta rathbun photography this party theme was simple and fun enjoy throwing your own wild rumpus posted by craig and angela at 12 47 pm no comments thursday february 6 2014 celebrating our wild thing j s birthday was 2 months ago and i am just now getting around to blogging about this is proof that time is literally going by too fast for me i can t believe my baby is now 14 months old we are doing all we can to hang onto these sweet moments with our little one and his birthday party was one of the best events so far planning a birthday party is not easy planning a party that fell between holidays while family was in town and when my son and i both had the stomach flu that felt impossible thankfully there are a few things i learned that helped make party planning a little bit easier 1 pick a theme in advance i think i had the where the wild things are theme in mind before j was even born a few years ago i saw this post from hostess with the mostess and loved the party idea having a theme early helped with shopping i was able to purchase items months in advance so i didn t have to stress about getting everything right before the party it also helped spread out the cost over a few months instead of one big amount all at once the hubs really appreciated this 2 give yourself some alone time since i had to make a lot of decorations for the party i knew it couldn t be done with the little man in the house my husband graciously took him out of the house for guy time at bass pro shop they had fun ogling at hunting and fishing gear while i got hours alone with my sewing machine and hot glue gun bliss 3 ask for help when i started planning i had this grand idea that i wasn t going to ask our parents for help they have been a huge source of support this year and i wanted them to just enjoy the party and not lift a finger ha i still laugh at my naive self if we couldn t get through our first year as parents without them why in the world did i think we d get through a first birthday party without them i needed help i asked and of course our family stepped up our brothers and sisters spent a long night making decorations and setting up for the party they also managed to get in a few snuggles with the birthday boy and our moms were the biggest help craig s mom helped indecisive me pick out cake flavors she kept j while i ran party errands then picked up the cake and delivered it to our house in time for the party my mom is generous with all things her time money and talent and in helping me with this party she provided all those things she doesn t even wait for me to ask her for help she sees a need and just jumps in we couldn t have pulled a party off without these two ladies 4 have an after party celebration when the guests have gone presents are strewn around the living room and your little party animal is tucked in bed celebrate with your husband craig and i popped open a bottle of wine put our feet up and talked about the day and the last year give thanks and celebrate because not only did god give your little one their first year of life he also gave you all you needed as parents to get through this first year we are pretty crazy about this little one if you want to host your own wild rumpus i will post more pictures of the decorations and links to products in another blog post hopefully it won t take me another two months to write posted by craig and angela at 2 39 pm no comments thursday september 19 2013 jaxon s nursery when craig and i moved into our house we knew immediately which room we wanted for a nursery it wasn t long after we moved that we started trying for a child this room sat empty for a long time after a few years we decorated it as a guest room just because it hurt so much seeing an empty room everyday i d often go into the room and pray asking god to fill this room with a child and fill it he did it s amazing how a little one so quickly fills your house and your heart it s no surprise that j s nursery is my current favorite room in the house i love the soft neutrals with pops of color and texture and a rustic feel creating j s nursery was so much fun and it s filled with gifts from family which makes it even more special there are also a lot of diy projects in the room my parents sis and bro in law were kind enough to spend an entire saturday painting sewing and staining and i love the hand made touches in the room please excuse my amateur photography skills i took the photos with my iphone so the quality isn t the best i also have to add a disclaimer that the room does not always look this neat i spruced it up before pictures welcome to jaxon s room my favorite thing in the room is the wood wall craig made out of wood from his great grandparents old house i had originally wanted to pay someone for their chalkboard writing skills or try a chalk transfer method with a pretty font but just didn t have the time now that little j is reaching up and touching everything with his wet slobbery hands i m pretty glad i just hand wrote the verse there have been lots of touch ups the crates are filled with special things a bear that craig ordered while we were waiting and before we even knew about j a framed deer onesie that j wore to his sip n see a bear from the lubbock court house from j s adoption day it s the bear he adopted that day the willow tree figurine is a gift from the hospital in lubbock where jax was born craig surprised me with it after we got home this dresser was craig s growing up and we sanded and re painted it years ago little secret i actually went with turquoise pops of color because i didn t want to buy new knobs for the dresser if you look closely you can see a bat signal nightlight in the corner the turquoise frame has prayer cards written by family and friends at our sip n see it also has a cards from j s adoption day the frame on the left normally has picture of us with j s birth mom but out of respect for her privacy i slipped in a birth announcement photo just like the wood wall j s barrel for laundry is also from the northcutt farm the sign above the closet doors says for this child we prayed and was purchased by my mother in law while we were going through fertility treatments the back has signatures from family and friends that lifted us in prayer over the years of waiting this shadow box was mine as a child and is filled with some of the same trinkets there are some fun new additions too and the sweet boy who has filled this room and our lives with so much joy i love when people post where they found their nursery items so in case you were wondering paint color dormer brown by sherwin williams it didn t come out well in pics but it s a gray brown color my parents had the room painted for us because i m awful at painting crib and changer jenny linde purchased from amazon a gift from craig s dad and step mom rocker from gigglebrush designs in mckinney tx a gift from craig s mom and step dad ottoman purchased from a consignment shop in lewisville repainted with annie sloan pure white chalk paint dark wax and recovered with new fabric ottoman fabric and crib bumpers balboa ikat print from ballard designs turquoise nightstand deer pillows wire baskets purchased in canton many from my sweet sis in law lamp shade and crib sheet target diaper pail diaper genie elite by playtex not fashionable at all but necessary and does it s job very well batman nightlight metal j on door and rug pottery barn kids card board deer head red fun shop in fredericksburg tx love you more pillow metal j and n on the wall are from little shops in downtown mckinney i don t remember the names but just go there it s such as fun place to find treasures curtain rod plumber piping from home depot dresser painted with annie sloan pure white chalk paint dresser knobs anthropologie cute little boy a beautiful gift from god posted by craig and angela at 4 39 pm 2 comments friday may 10 2013 my hopes and prayers for my son this post is long overdue about five months overdue i have wanted to write this update for some time but it s been difficult first of all there hasn t been much time in front of the computer most of my time is spent in front of the cutest baby boy my baby boy my son even seeing those words on the screen brings tears to my eyes we have a son it s also been difficult to know what to share my heart is completely overwhelmed when i look back on what the lord has done over the last few months there is so much i want to tell so many details to share but ultimately this is jaxon s story to tell when he s ready and i want to honor that this week i get to celebrate my first mother s day a day i have waited years to celebrate as i thank god for his perfect timing and gift of my son my mind is brought to jaxon s other mother his birthmother this woman loves my son every bit as much as i do she loved him by choosing to give him life when this broken world offered her another alternative she loved him when she chose to give him more in this life more than she could offer she loved him when she chose us to raise him and placed him in my arms this woman loved jaxon enough to build a relationship with us and allowed us to be a part of his life even before he was born she cared for us enough to let us be with him in the hospital and build precious memories from the very beginning of his life my prayer is that jaxon will grow to know and love his birthmother that he will see the beauty in his birth and adoption story i know the lord planned for her to carry him just as he planned for us to raise him he beautifully knit jaxon in her womb and with same love he knit our families together when she chose us to be his mom and dad my hope is that jaxon will know how deeply his birthmother loves him how she sacrificed her body so he could be here and how she gave this mom the most beautiful gift jaxon s story so beautifully mirrors another relationship between another parent a heavenly father one who loves his children perfectly and so deeply that he sacrificed his son so that we could have life with him i pray that my son knows how deeply loved he is by his earthly parents but ultimately by his heavenly father and that the lord would open his eyes and heart to a love so pure and perfect jaxon craig you are such a blessing being your mama is a joy posted by craig and angela at 1 10 pm 1 comment friday september 14 2012 six weeks six weeks ago craig and i made a visit to the hospital to meet a beautiful baby girl we held this precious baby fed her watched her sigh in her sleep i think of this little one often because six weeks ago i thought we were going to bring her home i thought i was going to be her mom earlier that week we received a much anticipated phone call from our adoption agency saying an expecting couple wanted to meet with us we sat through a meeting full of nerves and excitement talking with this couple each of us weighing the possibility of this adoption the next day brought joyous news they wanted to move forward with adoption and the baby was on the way we started preparing the nursery and discussing baby names we stood in the middle of babies r us with our parents completely overwhelmed but crying tears of happiness i registered for as many pink things as craig would allow all knowing that at any chance this couple could change their minds then we spent that memorable day at the hospital holding a baby we thought could be our daughter we left the hospital with a sense of uneasiness and that night our fear was confirmed the adoption wasn t going to take place it was week filled with such joy yet ended in heartbreaking sadness though we know this was not the child planned for our family and this baby is exactly where god intended her it didn t make the loss any easier during this time we were loved well by our family friends and agency workers but the most comforting presence was god s steadfast love through every step he made his presence known he provided strength when we needed it comfort when we hurt and when our arms were left empty he provided hope my heart is closer to him because of this situation and for that i am grateful six weeks ago i didn t think i was strong enough to walk through this but because of him i am his steadfast love continues to be a comforting balm to our hurting hearts while there is still pain and tears one constant remains god is good and his loves endures through all things the steadfast love of the lord never ceases his mercies never come to an end they are new every morning great is your faithfulness the lord is my portion says my soul therefore i will hope in him lamentations 3 22 26 posted by craig and angela at 5 10 am 3 comments monday november 7 2011 confession most of this blog has been about what god has done through our longing for a child but i don t ever want to present an image that now i m dealing with this perfectly that i ve figured out how to deal with sadness and hurt and no longer struggle with the same sins to be honest i constantly battle with the sins of anger and fear and many times i fail the holiday season continues to be a difficult time for me while my longing for a child is always there the holiday season seems to magnify that longing and the absence of a child from our home i find myself anxious about the upcoming holiday season fearful to face another season not being parents and an irritable attitude starts to grow in me a big part of me wants the season to rush by and for january to be here there s a part of me that doesn t feel up to all of the holiday hoop la and times when i feel like i can t handle another holiday season one of my biggest difficulties has been how i deal with sadness and hurt in the right way it s so easy for that sadness to turn into bitterness irritation and worry for a while i thought i couldn t be sad if i felt sad that meant i thought a child was more important than god so i tried to buck up put on a smile and pretend that i was okay with it all that only resulted in a more bitter and irritable person behind that smile i ve learned it s okay to be sad and feel pain it s okay to cry and hurt because sometimes that s when we feel god s presence the most my most vulnerable moments are the times i realize just how much i m in need of a savior during this time i have to check my heart and remember that the holidays are not about food presents or even family those are wonderful blessings god gives us to enjoy but they re not the meaning of the holiday season god gives us 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