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er arrive we are already too far behind however a critical message of hope is that each of us will receive the necessary time to work out our salvation allan d rau be ye therefore perfect beyond the perfectionist paradigm in religious educator 12 no 3 2011 37 57 it is simply not a race against time or against each other as i have contemplated this over the last several day i think i understand a little more now than i did last week about how god must feel about us he knows us he knows what blessings and privileges and helps we have or haven t had he knows perfectly what we are capable of what we have mastered what we have previously achieved what we have learned since then and what we still need help with he doesn t expect us to be the kid in the chair next to us he doesn t expect us to get a 406 three months after we got a 105 he doesn t shame us when we have given the best of whatever is in us even if it is still nowhere near what is expected for where we should be or where everyone else is the beautiful thing about god is that he doesn t hold us up against everyone else he holds us up against ourselves and helps us in every way he can to make the progress necessary to be able to return to him and while we struggle and progress one line or sentence at a time he always loves us he is not waiting to love you until you have overcome your weaknesses and bad habits he loves you today with a full understanding of your struggles he is aware that you reach up to him in heartfelt and hopeful prayer he knows of the times you have held onto the fading light and believed even in the midst of growing darkness he knows of your sufferings he knows of your remorse for the times you have fallen short or failed and still he loves you he knows everything about you he sees you clearly he knows you as you really are he loves you not only for who you are this very day but also for the person of glory and light you have the potential and the desire to become more than you could ever imagine he wants you to achieve your destiny to return to your heavenly home in honor dieter uchtdorf live the gospel joyful as we muddle through this life students stuck together side by side through our individual journey each facing our own exams and test it is critical to remember that we are not the master teacher we do not know truly who our fellow test takers are what they have been through what they have experienced what they have already brought to the table and what they are capable of rather than judge each other let us help each other progress recognizing that we are each in different spots on our journey let us worry more about making our own progress whatever that may be than in pointing out how unfair our lives may seem let us not become so pleased with how much better we are than others that we become complacent and stop progressing ourselves we all must take the tests of life we can crawl under our desk and cry hysterically about it yeah that happened we can give a half hearted pathetic effort that we convince ourselves will be good enough or we can give everything we have without being concerned by what everyone else around us is doing thereby realizing that we have learned and grown and become better thank you sage testing for so vividly reminding me of what this life is all about posted by melissa at 11 23 pm 1 comment labels analogies attempts at deep thoughts kids religion school sunday january 4 2015 redemption as a child i was somewhat obsessed with fairness i wanted a fair world where good was always rewarded and bad was always punished it was all so simple to me back then everyone should get the same amount of dessert have the same bedtime and get to do the same fun things spoken like a true second child always following my complaints about some type of unfairness i would inevitably hear my dad s calm voice echoing the oft said phrase life s not fair melissa eventually my crusade got to the point that my dad unable to take my declarations of it s not fair anymore threatened to fine me 1 every single time i used that phrase for a child who was even more obsessed with money than fairness it did the trick fairly quickly this past year there have been days that have echoed with my cries of it s not fair and a father s replies of life s not fair melissa at least not yet see sometimes i expect a world where people find true love just because they re looking for it and people who deserve babies will be the ones who have them and honest people who work hard will get hired and only nice people will be promoted i subconsciously expect people who take care of themselves not to get sick and people who are still needed not to die i think people with faith should always have their prayers answered how they d like and that miracles should come to all who believe frankly with subliminal expectations like that rolling around deep down inside of me life will never cease to let me down because a perfectly fair world is just not our earthly reality no one ever said it would be fair in fact the more i learn about life the more life confirms that no one is exempt from what feels terribly unfair responsible capable people who have been wanting children for years struggle with infertility wonderful parents die from unexpected diseases or accidents leaving young children behind innocent children are abused people in under developed countries die from hunger while their first world peers eat at buffets diligent students fail finals lonely people struggle to find companionship planes go down in storms all of us who pass through life will learn something about the word unfair in the last few months i read the biographies autobiographies of three exceptional successful people who all had one thing in common they experienced unfair firsthand and recorded their accounts there was a famous neurosurgeon who became the youngest director at johns hopkins an olympic athlete who was likely to be the first man to run a four minute mile and a successful businessman religious leader father who was preparing to welcome another child into his family despite this all of them suffered they suffered from abandonment imprisonment and death they suffered from rage and hate and despair they suffered from bullying and loneliness and ptsd they suffered at the hands of circumstances beyond their control they suffered at the hands of other people who chose to hurt them and they suffered in ways that were completely and entirely unfair ben carson one of the most respected pediatric neurosurgeons of all time revered for his work separating craniopagus siamese twins was abandoned by his drug dealing father as a young boy his somewhat illiterate mother who had only a third grade education struggled to raise him and his brother against the economic and racial challenges of the day in addition to these challenges ben fought the demons of his terrible uncontrollable temper that often led him to physical aggression louis zamperini an olympic athlete who went on to be an inspirational speaker and run a camp for troubled youth had been taken as a prisoner of war following the crashing of his plane during his wwii air force service during the course of the war he went through four japanese prison camps where he endured horrific abuse suffering and disease in addition to the battle of imprisonment upon returning home he also fought the demons of alcoholism ptsd nightmares and the obsessive need for revenge http www army mil media 278989 chris williams a devoted father of four soon to be five had everything he knew taken from him in front of his eyes when without warning a drunk driver hit him head on killing his wife his unborn baby and two of their children in a matter of seconds he was left a single father of two grieving children courageously he fought the demons of loneliness and anger that would try to engulf him as i reflected on these three stories a black neurosurgeon an italian runner and a white businessman i first thought that these were stories of survival we celebrate and read about these men because they are survivors but in one way or another are we not all survivors what is surviving more than continuing to wake up each morning breathe and just keep living that is surviving the 2009 census concluded that 63 of black children grow up in a home that does not have two parents http www census gov prod 2011pubs p70 126 pdf yet most of them still make it to adulthood it appears that they are surviving single parenthood records show that 67 of american prisoners of war held by the japanese did not die in japan but eventually returned home they indeed survived the war and despite what people continue to say about dying of a broken heart anyone who has lost a loved one or several knows that we in fact continue to wake up day after day and survive no the stories of these men were not stories of survival because there is nothing innately remarkable about surviving itself rather they were stories of redemption each of these men a seventh day adventist a catholic turned born again christian and an lds bishop were through faith in jesus christ redeemed at a low point each of them heard or read the word of god prayed and exercised faith in the healing power of jesus christ and he healed them not just made them feel better not just made them forget for a moment he healed them he changed them ben carson recalls that his temper went away never to return louis zamperini s nightmares stopped entirely for the rest of his 97 year life chris williams felt an overpowering forgiveness for the boy who had taken his wife and children and was able to in his words let it go remember remember that it is upon the rock of our redeemer who is christ the son of god that ye must build your foundation that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds yea his shafts in the whirlwind yea when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo because of the rock upon which ye are built which is a sure foundation a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall helaman 5 12 i am not sure i have words to express how powerfully their messages of christ and his power touched me i only know that these are real people who discovered that christ bind s up the brokenhearted open s the prison to them that are bound and give s unto them beauty for ashes isaiah 61 1 3 without fail each of these men had experiences that led him to know that he was known by god that he was not alone that god remembered him among the ashes of their once standing hopes and dreams he gave each of them back beauty they felt his promise yet will i not forget thee behold i have graven thee upon the palms of my hands thy walls are continually before me isaiah 49 16 as we celebrated the birth of jesus christ this december i was able to vicariously feel through their journeys what redemption is all about jesus christ redeems us not from our circumstances but rather from ourselves we can be redeemed from hurt and pain anger and frustration despair and addiction we can be redeemed from what hasn t been and what may never be we can be redeemed from the burden of our unmet expectations and the shattered pieces of our souls and as we are redeemed we can literally be changed into new people because of him all that is unfair about life can be made right through the atonement of jesus christ pmg pg 51 a new year is beginning and with it will come so many things beyond my control i am certain there will also be many things that won t be fair after all life isn t fair and finally i understand life wasn t meant to be fair it was meant to be redemptive truly we are helpless without the atonement of jesus christ pmg pg 51 rather than looking to this year as another year of survival i instead want to write my own story of redemption through my faith in jesus christ and that at least is something that even in an unfair world i can control happy new year posted by melissa at 8 01 pm 1 comment labels attempts at deep thoughts religion friday december 19 2014 moving i might need that some day i love my grandma i love the legacy that she left me i love how she pretended she invented oreos and how she snuck downstairs every afternoon with a diet pepsi and bag of microwave popcorn to watch general hospital i love that she could create anything she put her mind to and do it well i love how she used to take me to yard sales during the summer i love how she took us to plays and musical events i love the parts of her that i see in me but despite all that there was at least one thing i was determined not to carry on when she passed away after cleaning out her house room by room closet by closet drawer by drawer and shelf by shelf i vowed i would never hold on to anything i didn t really need ever again cleaning out a house can change a person especially if said house was lived in by two people who both lived through the great depression even more especially if at least one of those people loved yard sales clearance racks and deals at least i can now say i come by it honestly right i was quite sure that the life altering mission of cleaning out a person s house entirely i mean down to the carpet and walls had changed my own hoarding life drastically upon returning home from my last trip cleaning out the house i went on a giant purge of our one bedroom basement apartment organizing everything and giving things away to charity that if i were to really be honest with myself i knew deep down would never fit again i convinced myself that if by some miraculous parasite or other disease miracle they ever did fit again they would be so out of style that it wouldn t matter anyway bottom line i let a lot of things go i think it was the happiest week of paul s life so i felt relatively unconcerned when it came time to move i mean how much stuff could there be i feel like there should be some type of ominous mood music that should come on right about now we decided to start early to avoid the typical last minute crisis i usually find myself in upon moving i got boxes we started packing we got online and rented a truck just to be safe we chose u haul s two bedroom apartment option you know just in case the day drew closer and the boxes piled up more and more we got a call from u haul telling us that every single truck in that size had been taken and that we were going to have to go all the way to santaquin to get a truck but because of the inconvenience we would be upgraded to a truck for a small house i know it s big you don t have to tell me everything seemed to be coming together flawlessly the boxes were packed people were coming at 6 00 pm to help us load the truck and we had an even larger truck than we d planned so there was no need to worry all we had to do was get the truck and be home by 6 00 i would clean the apartment while everyone packed and we would be on 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