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unbound boxes limping gods behind the writing unbound boxes limping gods behind the writing menu skip to content home about unbound boxes limping gods june 13 2021 by cherylmoore the broken writer my mantra is not strong enough to fix this tumbling loop of broken down dreams what was it i said in the beginning the writer gives life to a story the reader keeps it alive dear reader thank you for all that you have done but i am a raging mess of emotion numb and exhausted being smashed against life s sharp edges its whirlpools and precipices flaying my creativity i struggle to breathe to find reason to claw my way back to the surface i need to take a break from writing i am not well or skilled enough to juggle stark reality with a dream as precious as unbound boxes limping gods the writer is too exhausted to breathe life into these stories i feel sorrow and remorse but mostly want to sleep i will wake up one day after the maelstrom has spat me out i ll look up and see a blurry angel my muse alexand merek and just as she had done when i was seventeen years old she ll whisper come with me sweetie i ll take her hand and reply but you re not real and she ll say of course i m real do i look made up to you unbound boxes limping gods will return after a break on wednesday 1st september 2021 last issue wednesday 23rd june please keep the stories alive by reading past issues issue 1 or if you would like a challenge chronological stories the broken writer can t give life to a story but the faithful reader can keep blowing on the ember whilst she sleeps posted in immortality short stories unbound boxes limping gods uncategorized writing tagged alexand merek anxiety break broken capitalism depression exhaustion mantra mental illness muse short story society suicidal thoughts unbound boxes limping gods writer writers view 3 comments september 21 2020 by cherylmoore to vlog or not to vlog for the past ten years i have published stories on wordpress and have contemplated releasing additional content for subscribers such as story readings behind the writing exclusives in depth character profiles and analysis via vlog the only problem is i hate watching myself i hate having my photo taken unless i m in disguise and i hate the sound of my own voice it sounds very different when i m writing i m able to become the characters and disappear from my body for a while vlogging however is a quagmire of horrors which i m not sure i want to inflict on myself or any readers interested in unbound boxes limping gods my cat henry disagrees with me and has been very supportive during a difficult time in my life as you can see he says meeeeow and prruuuuuurrrrp and that i should probably start meewrecording more footage before he destraooows my camera would you like to learn more about unbound boxes limping gods do you think every vlog should feature me in a different disguise i would love to hear your thoughts posted in blogging short stories unbound boxes limping gods writing tagged anxiety behind the writing blogging general anxiety mental health promotion redundancy self hate short stories unbound boxes limping gods vlogging leave a comment september 19 2020 by cherylmoore facing fear i have three big fears the first is too awful to write about the second is burning to death in a house fire but i suppose at least i would be dead and the third is being made redundant anyone who knows me will realise that catastrophizing is a skill i have honed into a super power exploding anxiety bombs inside me continuously driving me to do my best work or be my best self in the hope that i can somehow prevent inevitable or perceived horrors from catching up with me months even years before they actually do or don t unfortunately my third biggest fear has come true and i am now facing redundancy during the pandemic and those anxiety bombs have escalated into overwhelming mushroom clouds don t misunderstand me i am not going to curl up in the fallout i ve done this twice before i take my iodine pills and get up please wish me luck for the future i need it three redundancies in 13 years may be due to some sort of curse but it sure does justify the catastrophizing i like that word but i could do without the curse posted in blogging uncategorized writing tagged abandonment behind the writing biggest fear cheryl moore covid 19 fallout fear feeling alone isolation job loss job loss due to covid 19 mental health pandemic redundancy vulnerability 7 comments march 31 2020 by cherylmoore character profile sister ancille posted in blogging immortality short stories unbound boxes limping gods uncategorized writing tagged character convent nun sister ancille spirituality unbound boxes limping gods 1 comment november 9 2019 by cherylmoore the broken down imposter this is not me this is an imitation forged from a necessity to provide in a world which fragments reality and personality i grieve for precious time who i was is broken down unrecognisable and consumed unless the imitation becomes a shield and the world outside a monster to be eaten by the broken down imposter bringing me back to life posted in blogging short stories uncategorized writing tagged anxiety attack cheryl moore depression poetry threat unbound boxes limping gods leave a comment october 11 2019 by cherylmoore in a dark place i am having trouble functioning at the moment feeling joy feeling connected to anything or wanting to be a part of this world this disconnect can be traced back to early childhood although i didn t recognise it back then it keeps re surfacing in my weakest moments the problem is when you feel weak then your perception of the people around you and of yourself becomes distorted or leaves you open to imagined or actual attack i have a confession i have been diagnosed with generalised anxiety disorder and over the years it has grown into a monster which has severed my trust in friends myself colleagues humanity and most of my family i was taught to see the good in everyone no matter how hard you had to look for it but this has created a debilitating and confusing cognitive dissonance some people some times mean you harm most people even family don t care about you and that is not okay and it goes against everything i was lead to believe as a child i see disdain in people s eyes like i m a repulsive creature that they want to jettison from the room and in any state because i am an introvert most people tend not to acknowledge me in a group their eyes will flicker past me as if i m not even there even when i m speaking like i m made of light which is somehow beyond their field of vision and my words aren t sticking to reality as much as everyone else around me this has happened throughout my life i am a quiet person and never really learnt how to impose myself fully i was taught to put others first i wish i was born male and although i m disguised as a woman something tells them i m not quite right and that is why i believe i am excluded and sometimes ostracised i don t know how to cope with a deliberately turned back strategically positioned to block me from a conversation or the old classic conversation sniper hungry for attention devouring words before i have a chance to spit them out that one drama whore who everyone else in the room adores but hates me and wants me to suffer silently the scapegoat locked inside an abusive battle of unspoken contempt coated with niceties to fool the other people into thinking everything is okay because the battle is only visible to the ostracised and the perpetrator for the most part i have been able to ignore it to use my invisibility as a power to conjure people inside my head to write them into existence the writer gives life and the reader is made of better stuff than the flimsy world that the writer is used to and they listen they hear my voice they see my words i exist but i resent having to live outside of writing i m so alone and so broken so lost posted in blogging immortality short stories unbound boxes limping gods writing tagged bullying depression general anxiety isolation lgbt mental illness silence unbound boxes limping gods leave a comment september 24 2019 by cherylmoore character profile lucy apfvarzian posted in blogging immortality short stories unbound boxes limping gods uncategorized writing tagged ayo apfvarzian character profile epidemic juba apfvarzian lucy apfvarzian mogadishu short story somalia the amanojuko unbound boxes limping gods leave a comment september 12 2019 by cherylmoore character profile samira ganesh posted in blogging immortality short stories unbound boxes limping gods writing tagged character profile grace o malley prostitution samira ganesh the kyo ashita unbound boxes limping gods 1 comment september 12 2019 by cherylmoore character profile rachel mccrimmond ferguson posted in blogging immortality short stories unbound boxes limping gods uncategorized writing tagged abuse alexand merek character profile neil mccrimmond ferguson rachel mccrimmond ferguson scotland the amanojuko the guild master s general the isle of skye unbound boxes limping gods leave a comment september 10 2019 by cherylmoore character profile naveen ghur posted in blogging immortality short stories unbound boxes limping gods uncategorized writing tagged character profile filius anderson grace o malley naveen ghur the amanojuko the floating asylum unbound boxes limping gods leave a comment post navigation older posts unbound boxes limping gods follow blog via email enter your email address to follow this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email email address follow join 443 other subscribers characters alexand merek katherine de somme heyem merek jarad vijay inajda rekaya juba apfvarzian filius anderson helga ritter abouna panak samuel merevija ajeeta kothari the guild master s general aicha merek de somme gloriana santos lali de somme georges de somme grace o malley kavita de somme xan medani edith mehxian 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