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m to meet me at work by now my office seemed to have become the film s first location and that left me with just one day saturday there was a patient meeting scheduled and i would be available all through the day i told the young man over the phone don t even ask me how i managed to exitricate myself from the sessions and give the poor guy the time he needed and that too without letting on who he was and what i was upto nikhil to his credit was the perfect profession and within minutes had all the measurements he needed of my not yet swollen head and oh what a challenge getting everyone s times to match now for the look test for me it had to be after working hours and thank god working hours for the film industry was outside of my working hours which is quite a mean feat to achieve considering mine go on for hours and hours but coordinate we did and rendezvoused at a studio in the western suburbs where for the first time i met some of the members of akhil sathyan s unit and a delightful bunch of people what impressed me so much was how uthara had with her every single item of clothing and accessories and a tailor who whipped out a sewing machine for last minute adjustments and someone handy with an iron as well i surrendered without any struggle to the ministrations of the whole team the look of approval on the director s face was reward to all ps the glamour quotient of the stylist uthara menon is something else indeed 28 th january 2020 and then the dates were fixed and we began shooting the first schedules set for end jan i was at mayo college ajmer on a speaking assignment and drove down that early cold winter morning to delhi to take the flight to kochi the previous day i had completed a long cherished mannath offering prayers at the ajmer sharif dargah i was told so many actors came there to receive blessings before beginning a shoot cannot describe the myriad thoughts going through my mind while passing some lovely mustard fields in bloom i thought it quite fitting to stop and do a filmy thing right there after all i was going to act in a film so why not some drama baazi neeraj my trusted sarathy when i m in and around delhi was only too happy to do the honours it was a lovely drive and we kept stopping to take photos and for one whopping breakfast of aaloo paranthas with makkhan and lassi too i know i wouldn t be hungry till after i reached kochi adarsh from the unit was waiting for me at kochi airport and boy did it feel strange being received and chaperoned into a city i d been to so many times on my own looking up at some point i spotted the huge bill board of anoop sathyan s film which was releasing in a couple of days anoop and akhil are the twin sons of well known film maker sathyan anthikkad like the first family of malayalam cinema at the hotel it was nice to put a face to the voice of young assistant director vandana who took care of everything and warned me that there might be a late night look test where the director and make up team might want to do some final adjustments they were as good as their word and finally that one long day came to an end with akhil s good night ringing in my ears reporting time tomorrow morning 6 30 ma am and i was there with the sun to be met by akhil and my costar vineeth radhakrishnan the humility with which the actor came and introduced himself is something i can never get over i couldn t believe this was indeed the well known actor dancer who s been acting since he was a young boy and won so many accolades and we were doing the first scene to be shot together with vineeth and the sathyan twins pandian sir at work kochi jan 29th 2020 and so it began my first day of shooting it was such a surreal feeling my own make up van and the make up and costume team taking total charge i was completely at their mercy i will never forget pandian sir s sweet but firm cajoling as he removed all traces of eye makeup i had on look amma your role is of old lady no makeup we have to make you look old but i did win a small victory when he allowed some kaajal to remain in my eyes i loved the look eventually and it seemed effortless after his ministrations to become the ummachi akhil sathyan wanted the first shot was with vineeth radhakrishnan who went out of his way to make me feel so much at ease and if this was how simple it was i said to myself but then that was before day 2 shot 1 which was a big one just vineeth and i and some of the longest and most emotional dialogues take after re take and i m only wanting to hear akhil say niiiice in that drawl of his to know i had done ok but no it now seemed i would not even need the glycerin because i was almost in tears myself if i got the expression right in one i got the pronunciation wrong if i got both right i muffed the lines and so on it went how patient everyone was with me and how gently vineeth made it seem perfectly ok that i was making him do take after take with me i was envious of my little co star jesse who would confidently run up to see the shot on the director s little monitor screen after every take i was petrified to go take a close look myself till today i haven t seen any of the footage shot but what i saw of the team and my lovely co stars i knew i was in great company the kind eyes of the dop sharan velayudhan the ever ready to help with my lines ad rajiv rajendran and ad aaron mathew who would keep throwing me encouraging smiles the lovely dilna and her hugs and most of all my director who when he did say niiiice ok gave me his most beaming smile as for the sarees uthara menon had chosen for ummachi to wear each one was a winner i wanted to bring them all back with me you should have seen how shocked the young costume team was when i said that overwhelmed is how i felt on day one of the shoot of akhil sathyan s film and not just because it was the first day of my first ever film asked to light the lamp before the first shot it still hadn t all sunk in this was a unit with some top notch technical names like sharan velayudhan prabhakaran justin and anil radhakrishnan besides well known actors like fahad faasil and the charming vineeth radhakrishnan whom i had already met i was introduced to the producer sethu mannarkkad of full moon cinema such a sweet humble young man akhil himself was now totally immersed in getting the shots ready and the film was on the floors the moment of the morning however was this in between shots while vineeth and i were taking a short break the director walked upto us with a clipboard in hand and began to tell us how there were going to be a few changes something made me look up as he bent forward maybe my subconscious registered that akhil s white shirt had turned into a pink one when it hit me that this was not akhil but anoop his brother pulling his famous know the twin prank anoop sathyan you had me there for all of 3 seconds i admit feb1st to 3 rd 2020 shooting in kochi who would have ever imagined and what joy it was having family friends dropping in on the sets beena narayanan amit vaidya ravi and vijaya thank you ️ and as for sapna babu thank you for making me look so good ️ 6th february 2020 a dream i never even dreamt of comes true akhil brings his unit to bombay and the first schedule is at maa hajjan dargah 6 30am call and we are at the shoot location bright and early for me it is like getting to work early as we take the right at lotus signal and haji ali and the fishing boats dotting the placid sea come into view but now this is very special more than very special it is the universe conspiring in its own magical way my first schedule in bombay for my first ever film and it is at my no now it is our dargah on his first visit to meet with me and discuss the film i had taken him to maa hajiani this heavenly spot i have a special relationship with now we have come back with his crew to shoot our first scenes in bombay here the sun was golden and the sky blue one of the most beautiful mornings ever the whole unit had breakfast together and then pandian sir sapna babu took charge in the vanity what a thrill to see my name next to vineeth my heart was so full as i knelt down inside after the shoot to offer my own prayers it was the most indescribable of all feelings i will not even try to describe them maybe my favourite shot february 7 th 8 th 2020 and then we did two more days of shooting in bombay it just felt so amazing to see bombay through the eyes of director akhil sathyan it was a bombay i know very well the same bombay i had trudged the length and breadth of all of these last three decades and more as a working woman the city where i d found my feet the city that gave me wings to fly like a bird free and unfettered then what was this city i was seeing ah the power of a camera and the eyes and mind behind it the hearts behind it akhil and dop sharan velayudhan showed me another marine drive another ballard estate another chawl altogether and yet another juhu you see i was not me but ummachi this was ummachi s bombay we shot all day and one day all through the night till the day became the next morning i am writing all this down more so i will never forget than share with you reader this once in a lifetime experience the pandemic has brought an intermission outside of the screen for now but inshallah ummachi will bring to you more from her diaries real soon posted by viji venkatesh at 3 07 am 1 comment the last adieu something i wrote a few years ago and as we observed the anniversary i felt it should be in my blog oct 13th 2015 my husband s uncle died a couple of days ago and was cremated this morning after his only son our cousin flew in from houston babu mama as we affectionately called him was not just our uncle he was as most younger brothers of our mothers are a friend and a mentor and someone who loved us unconditionally especially to my husband this dear caring man was like a brother and a role model so much so that he followed in his footsteps and became an oil man himself and like him worked for years in the refineries mama to me was the epitome of what a man should be kind and loving and charming and caring with the most amazing sense of humour and passionate about his work and he was so proud of me and my work that meant so much to me in his home i was treated like a princess his wife mami was my friend and confidante and his young son and daughter even younger than what my grandchildren are today became my most ardent fans and till today i treasure and cherish their love for me above everything else so much so that i even forgot he was my husband s uncle and the family his not mine i kind of appropriated them we could do no wrong in their eyes they loved us so much and because of that we made certain we never made a wrong move love does that it makes you good mama loved bombay especially the beautiful bit of the city where it s two most famous icons the mahalakshmi temple and the haji ali dargah sit cheek by jowl on the waters of the arabian sea and our cousin decided that s where he would immerse his father s ashes as the sun set and the city decked itself in its evening glitter he went into the waters that were receding already because of the low tide holding the hand of young wasim my little friend from the fishing village who guided him like the expert navigator he was they reached the waters and gently let the mortal remains of mama float away into the last light of the evening you can see them if you look carefully at the photograph wasim led our cousin back and we sat for a while in a wondrous silence thinking of what we had achieved and i said to myself mama will never really be far from us posted by viji venkatesh at 1 20 am 1 comment tuesday august 18 2020 for my brothers from the unabashed msd fan in the family writing this for my older brother at the behest of my younger brother the latter used to be a sports writer journalist i use the past tense because that s how he looks at himself though i think he still remains one of the finest voices in sports indian and international which is why our older brother asked him to comment on m s dhoni s retirement and of course citing his past tense sports journalist status he told our older brother maybe he should ask me the unabashed dhoni fan in the family to say something so here s that something ever since he burst upon the firmament of indian cricket dhoni for me shone like the star he is i have grown up in a household that was totally into cricket despite the fact that three of the four female members our mother and my two sisters were not into it the other four father brothers and moi were enough and made for a formidable family of aficionados now i have five more guys in my family to add to that the old man our sons and the grandson i grew up when the names that shone were richie benaud bob simpson and bill lawry peter may colin cowdrey lance gibbs wes hall gary sobers salim durrani budhi kundheran ml jaisimha abbas ali baig and mak pataudi till dhoni came on the scene no one else made an impact that came even close to the ones these legends had made on me ok imran khan and david gower maybe and i must confess i pinned a scribbled note once to shane warne on the board in the team dressing room on a visit to the mcg in 1995 whereas i adored these players given i was a young girl then and young girls were quite given to adorin with dhoni it was admiration from the word go his demeanour his game his stance his unorthodox style and hair and the aura around him elicited admiration and respect he exuded power power that came from the confidence of someone extremely comfortable in his skin his keen and unwavering gaze his easy smile and the sheer passion he put into his game only added to the aura i can still remember seeing him atop the best bus on the post t20 world cup win ride through the streets of bombay yes my team and i came out on the roads to watch that parade most of all i loved and admired his leadership skills he led by example and he made his team work for him and then he walked away from the limelight leaving his team to bask in the glow of the victories he made for them he worked hard to me that said it all nothing comes easy to anyone he knew that and single mindedly worked towards what he wanted for himself his team and the country i don t think he ever consciously made references of having come up the hard way or from a smaller town people made a big deal of it he concentrated on his game and on his team and when the rewards came he took that as a natural outcome of his and his team s efforts as i put this down i realise how close this is to how i see myself as a leader of my team cancer care is as different from cricket as the proverbial chalk is from cheese but a leader s responsibilities aren t too different no matter in which field and talking of fields what a joy the man was to watch on the cricket ground fit head held high agile eyes scanning every inch of the ground and the calm co...