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apter of my life is closed so i don t really plan on coming back here i have two beautiful baby girls they were born via scheduled c section at exactly 38 weeks on july 7th 2010 they were both breech so the c section was our only option baby a sarah elizabeth was 6 pounds 8 ounces 19 inches long baby b julianne carol was 7 pounds 11 ounces 20 inches long a lot of baby even my ob was shocked at their sizes no wonder i was so huge and uncomfortable especially the last few weeks they were both very healthy the last few months has been a blur 4 babies in the house is crazy danny and callie have handled their new sisters like champs they love the babies and they are very gentle and sweet with them the babies are a little more challenging than danny and callie were we ve dealt with lactose intolerance dairy sensitivity and now reflux overall it s not bad but we knew that we were spoiled with how easy c d were as babies so some days we feel like we are figuring it out all over again but they are beautiful and they get more beautiful every day if anyone is still checking here you can now find me at my family blog jimandorlisa blogspot com these days that blog is mostly populated with pictures of the kids i also don t check the email associated with this blog very often so if you want to reach me just leave a comment on the other blog with your email address comments are hidden so noone else will see your email and i m on facebook too also leave me a comment on the family blog if you want to know how to find me there life on the other side of infertility is interesting you re never really on the other side of it you never recover from the scars i will never stop thinking about the pain that i went through and there will always be a little part of me that will wish that i could get pregnant naturally honestly i would love to have more kids i love being a mom but 4 is enough really i can t afford the help that would be required to manage more than 4 and anyway the well is dry my egg source has her own life now a husband and child of her own and i wouldn t ask her to do for me again what she did once i still wonder about the embryos that didn t make it i will always wonder who those babies might have become and secretly late at night when i m holding one of my little babies i whisper into their ears about all the little angel brothers and sisters they have in heaven looking over them there were so many there are little parts of me that still think that something i did caused those babies not to live something wrong with my body caused them to not implant and grow and live the lives they were meant to live there will always be a little guilt about that but on the other hand if we had frozen embryos left now then i would be conflicted about what to do with them i would want them signing out for now posted by carol at 3 09 pm 12 comments wednesday february 03 2010 me again time flies i m 16 weeks now and finally actually feeling pretty good most of the time the nausea is mostly gone i still get occasional waves but it s pretty seldom and considerably milder than before so really nothing to even worry about i m still having issues sleeping but nowhere near as bad as it was even a few weeks ago i had many nights when i was literally wide awake all night which seems crazy given how exhausted i was all day this went on for weeks and weeks and nothing helped i tried benadryl and my doc even prescribed a mbien it didn t touch it but not sure if it was just a timing coincidence or what i think i started to realize that when i didn t take my prenatal vitamin at night i slept a little better i have been taking my vitamins in the evening for a while now because they just seemed to go down better on a full stomach but it never occurred to me that they might affect my sleep so as i said it could be something or it could be just the timing that i was already entering the 2nd trimester where a lot of these problems go away anyway who knows i m still not sleeping all night but i m not laying wide awake for hours and hours which is so much better that whole first trimester gross ness doesn t really make you feel pregnant you just feel gross now i am starting to feel pregnant i m definitely starting to show and feeling like there s something in there i think i m also starting to feel some of that spreading pressure on the pelvic bone i think this is a lot earlier than last time but i guess that makes sense i m not yet feeling any real movement still just that faint tickling flickering sort of sensation that you sometimes hear about a little like gas but faster and lower and more frequent we ve had a few good looks at the babies and they are doing great both right about the same size growing right on track the nuchal measurements were great so we re not moving forward with any other screenings we will have the anatomy scan in a few weeks i need to get that scheduled my kids have decided that now would be a good time to start to have some sleeping issues they both have been taking turns being sick for the last few weeks our entire household including the nanny have been trading colds around so we ve had quite a few nights of sneezing coughing waking up just being generally miserable etc fortunately for me my husband has taken most of the brunt of this night time stuff voluntarily he wanted me to be able to get some rest but i think that is coming to an end he has turned into a total whiner about not getting enough sleep and i m getting so sick of hearing about it that i d rather just get up in the night and let him sleep seriously i m not sure what he thinks he s going to do when these babies are born he is getting tons of sleep now compared to what he will be getting in a few months so it seems to me like it would be wise to not complain about it now i m not sure what has gotten in to him having sick kids is no fun especially when there is so little you can do to help them feel better or even help them understand why they feel so bad it s sad we re definitely noticing the impact of having them in preschool and being exposed to the germs but i really have a hard time with how many parents bring their kids to school when they are obviously sick and contagious especially our school we are in a developmental preschool at a clinic where there are lots of kids with health problems and special needs and still these people think nothing of bringing a kid who is coughing like crazy or has green snot running out their nose it really makes me angry and it s not because the parents have to work and have no place else to send their kid this is a program that requires the parent to be present i sat across the table at snack time last week from a kid with green snot running down his face and his clueless mother was sitting right next to him doing nothing about it until i mentioned that he needed his nose wiped what is wrong with these people i really love the place otherwise danny has done amazing there and has made huge progress and i know this goes on everywhere i just would have expected that parents in this kind of environment would be a little more considerate we have started to spread our news a bit more broadly the preschool teachers and danny s therapists all know now and a few more friends we still haven t told anyone we work with although i am going to have to do that in the next week i think i am running out of clothes to wear i pretty much only fit in materity clothes now i have a few baggy sweaters that somewhat hide things if i m layerd with a cardigan hold my coat in front of me or make sure i get to meetings early so i m sitting when others arrive last time i was able to get away with it until around 20 weeks but this time i started off much thinner and i think it s true what they say about showing earlier with a second pregnancy but i can t get away with it for much longer i was holding off because i was trying to get a consulting contract locked in through june i didn t want any knowledge of the pregnancy to influence any decisions about extending my contract i mostly work from home so i fully expect to be able to keep working until the end of june or close to it that would be basically the same timing as last time and i have no reason to think this pregnancy will be any shorter i had absolutely no complications or pre term labor last time no dilation nothing so my ob feels fairly confident that i will go pretty far again of course anything could happen but i need to move forward assuming it won t and i ll deal with any complications if they arise i feel a little bad keeping this secret but it really isn t relevant to my job so technically and legally it shouldn t matter i think i ve now got my contract secured through june so i will probably break the news next week ok that was long and rambling enough but now we are somewhat caught up to speed posted by carol at 9 24 pm 7 comments sunday january 17 2010 disappeared oh i have become one of those slacking bloggers disappearing for months at a time everything is fine i m 13 5 weeks now will be 14 weeks on wednesday we ve had a few great ultrasounds and the babies are growing right on track very busy and looking very healthy so far i have been miserable thus my excuse for not keeping up it seems worse than last time although maybe that s my bad memory or maybe being a few years older makes it harder and probably the fact that i am not able to get in a 3 hour nap every day like i last time makes a difference too the last few months have been filled with nausea gas bloating nausea headaches lightheadedness very severe insomnia exhaustion bad taste in my mouth and more nausea i got a cold at thanksgiving that lasted for weeks and weeks and weeks i think my body didn t have the strength to fight it very well i ve been managing to do the bare minimum to keep the family fed and clothed and stay employed beyond that nothing has been accomplished my house is disorganized and my to do list is a mile long thank goodness for my amazing husband who has been doing everything he can around here and taking care of the kids all weekend while i lay on the couch and moan but i am finally starting to come out of the fog i m still not quite feeling that great second trimester energy you sometimes hear about but i am feeling human again i will try to be back soon and write more of an update but i at least wanted to send out word that i am still alive and doing ok oh and i deleted my twitter account i kept seeing people add me but i never update it any more posted by carol at 9 59 pm 6 comments tuesday december 01 2009 here we go again ultrasound today it s twins again we weren t all that suprised given the super high beta and the fact that i ve been feeling exactly as awful as i did when i was pg with the twins so here we go again we waffle back and forth between a combination of excitement and oh my god what have we gotten ourselves into but mostly very excited i d be more excited if i didn t feel so crummy but i ll feel better in a couple months must rest now posted by carol at 4 50 pm 18 comments thursday november 19 2009 again with the waiting thanks to everyone for all your wonderful comments of support and congrats i don t know what i would do if i hadn t found this wonderful virtual if community what a wonderful thing the internet is you all make if just a little bit easier to bear and you help make the successes a little more sweet so thank you i don t have much in the way of updates we have a scan scheduled for tuesday dec 1 i ll be 6 weeks and 6 days they offered to do one next week but we ll be out of town i asked if we could do it before we leave but they said that would be too early so it s booked for the day after we get home we re flying to san diego on saturday to spend the week with my family for thanksgiving we will be telling my mom stepdad and my sister brother in law at dinnner on saturday night those of you who have been reading here for a while will recall that these embryos were the result of donor eggs from my sister so i am very exicted to be able to tell her of this pregnancy in person this second 2ww is almost as hard as the first but fortunately i have this vacation to break it up and am busy this week getting everyone packed and ready for the trip i ve been having a terrible time keeping my brain focused on work which is not very good because i do consulting work so i need to put in the hours in order to get paid i have to figure out a way to get focused i have been graduated early by my acupuncturist i saw her yesterday and she said that they usually like to see people through their first trimester but my numbers are so high that she really doesn t think it s necessary so she sent me off with a whole packet of info eastern medicine guidelines and recommendations about pregnancy and told me to call if i have any complications and to come back in the third trimester for birth preparation if any of you are considering acupuncture and or chinese medicine for infertility i highly recommend it i really believe it made a difference in my last cycle i have very little symptoms so far some mild breast tenderness maybe some blue veins showing up in my arms and chest and some very mild queasyness all things that i probably wouldn t notice if i wasn t looking so closely for them but i expect this to change within the next couple of weeks last time i think it was around 6 weeks that i started feeling pretty crummy i ve been thinking a lot about the little superstitions that we all have during our if treatments with every little move i make i m afraid i might jinx something with my first fet transfer i wore the necklace i had worn when i got pg with the twins but that fet failed so this last time i made sure to wear a different necklace a new one that my hubby had given me for my birthday i bought a few items of maternity clothing because the weather has turned here and i have no winter clothes that fit yes i gained a bit of weight this last cycle it seemed silly to buy regular winter clothes that won t fit for very long so i bought a few maternity things they are little big but so much more comfortable than squeezing into pants that are too tight and it s so nice that the now make maternity pants that don t look like maternity pants with a real waste but i m terrified that i ll jinx myself by doing so and by talking about it that s all for now not sure how much i ll be posting for the next week or so as i ll be busy with family but check back on december 1 for the news about the first ultrasound i think it will be exciting posted by carol at 11 03 am 5 comments monday november 16 2009 third beta third beta is 4898 approximately a 39 hour doubling time again posted by carol at 2 13 pm 7 comments saturday november 14 2009 second beta the second beta is 2162 that is a doubling time of 39 hours with my twins my second beta had a doubling time of 45 hours so this is even stronger we re feeling 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