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at some point i stopped knowing how to let them know how much i care but if you re reading this and wondering whether it s you i mean yes it is and i miss you all more than i can express posted by willowc at thursday september 10 2009 8 comments thursday 13 august 2009 transatlantic dashing in case there are any burglars reading my flat will be vacant and welcoming for the next fortnight do feel free to make yourself a nice cup of tea while you re at it and the key is under the mat it s not it s that time again you see time for a transatlantic booty call to the arms of my darling boyfriend it s been far too long since i was close enough for snuggly affection he was in london in may but since then the distance has been back between us it s hard yes but by god those kisses are worth it so in the interests of making it back into his arms i shall be boarding a 13 hour flight tomorrow and inflicting myself upon him and his whole family in wyoming my hair is trimmed and shiny my teeth are cleaned and also shiny i am waxed and smooth but not shiny i have completed the refusal to be bored on a plane campaign and therefore have hand luggage filled with laptop dvd player psp iphone and an entire arthur c clarke trilogy none of which of course i will be in the mood to do should i have chosen one of those planes that just plays soap re runs on tv screens that are in the aisle several metres ahead and to the side and i have finally finished the packing although my process was a little questionable and culminated in so many things strewn around my flat i might equally have called it unpacking and am now doing all the odds and sods that need doing before one exits the premises for two weeks someone please remind me i haven t watered the plants one more sleep and it s airport kisses time posted by willowc at thursday august 13 2009 5 comments sunday 9 august 2009 things i learned tonight 1 gi joe is not a good movie it s got a pleasing number of bangs and whistles but a script written by a halfwit 2 burnt sienna miller thank you tim has a club foot unless that s her sexy walk 3 channing tatum reacts to danger by looking like he s about to burst into tears he s also as close to cross eyed as dammit and he looks like a potato an emo potato 4 taglines are difficult to write when everyone else gives up they don t really don t is that honestly the only verb that sprang to mind what about save the day prevail kick things while shouting a lot just don t isn t that a bit like a dog worrying a sheep 5 richmond odeon has appalling sound quality in addition its staff are apt to scarper before you exit the movie denying you whinging rights 6 blowing up paris is fun under any circumstances 7 the credits boasted that the movie had a mold department you need a whole team of people to leave a mug under the sofa these days 8 lord n lady gaga has a pee pee which i did not find out from the movie incidentally an evening with tim is nothing if not educational i still love her though my life would not be the same without poker face posted by willowc at sunday august 09 2009 3 comments friday 7 august 2009 insect asylum we are not amused somehow my flat through no fault of its own has become a haven for bugs of all shapes sizes and backgrounds a safe place to buzz and flap without risk of discrimination why me it started with a wasp and ends with a wasp wasp the former apparently sat on my head for the better part of a day as the only time i ventured into the stickily hot outdoors was during the afternoon only to be discovered at bedtime when i ran my hand over my hair and was rewarded with an annoyed bzzzz i think i woke him up this time last year we had a slug problem in the garden the little buggers kept coming up and over my window and then questing across the kitchen floor nothing there of interest guys turn back that was pretty revolting but i can t decide if it was better or worse than the insect asylum a couple of days ago i walked into my flat to see a spider sitting on my anti spider electrical device the one that is supposed to emit a high pitched squealing that insects are unable to tolerate the cheek of it as laura put it it was much like a stubborn child saying yeah i really like this noise anyway it s my favourite there was also an incident with a mosquito biting me in a place i would prefer not to have been visited by an insect let alone bitten that is all i shall say about that and last night as i slumbered safe and warm in my bed dreaming no doubt of cookies and cream i rolled over onto a wasp that had decided to join me and got stung on the ankle that s it i declare war posted by willowc at friday august 07 2009 5 comments wednesday 5 august 2009 reboot the pre credits bit not very long ago sparky tim informed me as he ferried me home from the cinema that i ve stopped blogging i had of course already noticed that i ve stopped blogging but i still had no excuse bearing in mind i ve left it so long since my last post that i m coughing up cobwebs with every keystroke how can i possibly get going again without writing a hundred catch up posts it s been an interesting year after all so reboot it he said in a not uncommon moment of sense it worked for star trek mind you he then shared his intention to go and twist his body into funny shapes in a room with the temperature cranked up to 100 something to do with yoga so not everything that comes out of his mouth is a pearl of wisdom so this post if you like is the bit before the credits before i go storming off into another chapter the bit where i catch you up on what s been going on so that i m making at least some sense when i get on with the wittering this i think will go best on a month by month basis beginning just after i left off february typical had to start on a big one didn t i at the beginning of that month i turned 30 an occasion i celebrated with a significant amount of booze and munch and the company of my favourite people in oxygen my favourite bar i avoided the mid life crisis but not the hangover funniest moment of the night trying to put my pyjama top on inside out upside down and twisted half back to front as laura tutted at me and said that s literally how an idiot tries to get dressed later that month w p d and i invaded america now there s one i wish i d blogged properly at the time we started in nyc moved on to vegas and then drove down to la i came back with an extra suitcase mostly full of clothes a profound appreciation of the continent especially its food and people a mistrust of yank cocktails and a boyfriend yes that s right folks for anyone who hasn t been following my indiscretions on perplexed and the city i did indeed go to america and fall in love and if you haven t already been bored silly by it you can find out more here and here about how virtual life became real life with just one gaze across an airport march most of this month was spent in corporate hell working very long hours for a shockingly unpleasant company low pay low quality and worst of all an appalling attitude towards contributers which meant i was repeatedly ordered to wriggle out of paying them screwing people over for their hard work not my ambition in life really especially not for a boss i suspect was a little wrong in the head that being the part of her doing all the shrieking april i escaped hell in april bravely jacking in that terrible job despite the money munch since then mewsic ghost and i have been working on machinima making pretty videos as sound r so much more fun canimal also came to stay for a week during which we went to see spike from buffy play live oh yes may the aforementioned boyfriend came to visit for a blissful couple of weeks another topic covered in depth here it might not be easy falling for a man who lives thousands of miles away but when you do get to spend time together and you decide that this might well be the one you d like to spend all your time with it can be safely chalked up as the highlight of the year if not most years pleasingly my friends are equally keen on him he and best mate s fiance made firm friends while best mate has become a one woman cheerleading squad for the marry them off campaign we spent a fabulous evening making art with w p d and another drinking cocktails and making merry with laura willis johan and danni good times june aside from moping about missing my man this was a fairly quiet month spent on sound r things july best mate got married the month began with her hen party which went from posh afternoon tea in a swanky hotel to cider and black in my favourite rock pub the intrepid fox the night before which i had spent drinking vodka with willis and the day after which i spent watching wimbledon with pignut brilliant the wedding itself was beautiful and perfect just as it should have been because those two are a perfect couple and belong together so there were nothing but smiles from everyone there including from me i may or may not have expressed my pleased ness many times to anyone who was listening and several who weren t she looked stunning and our bridesmaids dresses were purty and i got a beautiful necklace as a gift for wafting about in it too also brilliant and w p d had her first gallery opening too another incredibly well deserved moment for her huge amount of bravery and whole heap of talent plus one of the paintings that went up was part of the series we helped her prepare for in may and features little old me still brilliant so there you have it a swift overview of the year so far and now normal service can and probably will resume good idea this reboot thing innit posted by willowc at wednesday august 05 2009 6 comments sunday 11 january 2009 numpty strikes out again not that i wish to start the year on a negative note and aware also that i m running a little late with the resolutions part of the new year but my ambition for 2009 was i m afraid born of a bit of an emo looking back at last year s resolutions i don t think i ve done too badly money aside and i was doing pretty well with that until the credit crunched or as ian put it the arrival of the money munch i did escape england and in six weeks i ll be doing so again on my yankland extravaganza with w p d i might be a year late but i m going to las vegas to see vici after all i did learn new skills i did read better i m even a regular reader of the spectator these days and i did in general terms be better although not in the specific ways i had planned tim is going to need to buy those bigger robes and grow his beard as his position as entertainment guru barring the unpleasant experience of watching the spirit was fully secured and i carried through one particular resolution that changed everything else along with it i never spoke of it here and still won t but most of you know what i m on about and if not feel free to ask and best of all i discovered just how talented and amazing all my friends are and got to spend a considerable amount of time investigating said marvellousness and then boasting that i know them that wasn t on the list but i count it as an achievement but then there s the downside i m not a lot closer to finishing the dusty book that s plagued me for so long i wrote some promptly hated it as is my wont and set it aside for a while telling myself it would come when it was ready then changed that thought to well maybe it s not the one i should start with it s a bit ambitious what with all the research and trying to talk like an egyptian that s talk not walk so i started a new one stunning myself one evening with a cracking idea that not only fed into all my geeky loves in life angels fantasy and so on but would also let me write in the style i m comfortable with perfect i thought and sat down to write the first page it was met with varying reactions w p d declared it hilarious and immediately offered to illustrate every chapter if you ve seen any of her paintings you ll know just how hoppingly exciting that is and tim and ghost liked the idea and are considering donating chapters of their own but then i sent it to mummyc who said only that it was overwritten and awkward i rewrote it she liked it better but both ghost and i think it s completely lost its soul which triggered a realisation when it comes to writing i m perfectly happy wittering away on this blog and on perplexed and the city and i ve never had any qualms when it comes to tapping the keyboard at work i think the number of magazine articles i ve seen published now tops the 100 mark i have a portfolio of them up here if you re particularly lacking for things to do but please bear in mind they weren t written for the intellectual portion of society it s not an achievement i ought to dismiss but somehow i do the second i open the files for either of my books i immediately want to slit my wrists i can t relax into it so it comes out self consciously i go back to them frustrated read them over hate what i ve written with every fibre of my being and throw a small tantrum that ends with a sworn oath to never bloody bother again i ve wanted to write fiction since i was a child i vaguely recall mentioning this before i can t be bothered to check but i first had a go at writing a book when i was about 13 it went marvellously it was based on the wonderfully cheesy point horror series and managed to include virtually every possible means of killing off your characters within 100 pages i had classmates sat next to my desk waiting for me to finish the next page and then passing it round mind you i cunningly named characters after some of them in an early demonstration of marketing prowess a fair number of other attempts followed as the years went by but not one of them is finished and i eventually lost the will to try it wasn t until i met ghost that i realised just how well i d walled off that part of me with bricks made of stupid excuses watching his constant creativity going starry eyed over everything he creates tapping into his ever artistic brain it was he who inspired the newest of my never to be a books passing many a happy hour talking of plots and characters and ideas it woke back up the hunger and with it the fear because the truth is i m just scared to fail then what would i dream of and that long winded explanation brings me to this year s belated resolution i will write the guardians the new one without flailing back and forth to find reasons not to and without sneaky avoidance tactics and what s more i ll write it without coming back the next day and whining that i don t like what i ve written oh yes i will because if i don t w p d is going to be stuck with an empty wall where the paintings ought to be and i ll still be irritating everyone by complaining i can t do it without finding out whether i can when i m old grey and can t see the keyboard p s i just realised i wrote this post instead of getting on with the book oh the irony posted by willowc at sunday 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