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tabletop to prevent it from tipping over your stylist had dressed you in an obnoxiously voluminous green tulle dress that was meant to make you look like a forest fairy or whatever elodie had called it the sheer material doesn t leave much to the imagination your tiara slides slightly as you tilt your head waiting for his response he simply grabs his glass and takes a long sip rescuing it from the wobbling table your eyes narrow accepting the challenge you needed this advice your mentor warned you about what snow did with the capitol s favorites and you knew only drinking would get you through it leaning in closer you raise your voice slightly and force him to acknowledge you just give me a drink to order and i ll leave you to brood in peace haymitch wonders what he possibly could ve done to make himself look approachable was he losing his edge at twenty five didn t your parents teach you about stranger danger bold of you to assume they lived long enough to teach me haymitch doesn t dignify your quip with platitudes nor does he spare a glance at your ridiculous ensemble he returns to ignoring you you kind of respect that shrugging you explain look beetee refuses to come to these things but he said you d be the best drinking partner of the lot the mention of ampert s father has haymitch s shoulders stiffening you notice how his fingers twitch around his glass but don t pry come on abernathy just say a couple words and i ll be out of your hair boy were you stubborn did it ever occur to you that beetee might ve been making a joke do you really think beetee would make a joke haymitch sighs meeks get the kid a vodka soda and you get out of my face you ordered me a pop seriously you ignore haymitch s demand that you leave him alone and wrinkle your nose at the drink set before you he gives you a pointed look and you raise the glass to your lips downing half the glass in one go big mistake haymitch watches slightly amused at your naïveté as you lean over coughing violently you ve never drank before have you that should teach you to stop bothering me you send him a nasty look in response and in a miraculous moment of kindness he orders you a glass of water the hit on your pride is immense but at least you didn t throw up all over his shoes just you wait twelve i ll be able to drink you under the table in no time after that first night you ran into him at enough parties that you made good on that promise by the next time you saw him you could handle your high heels and your alcohol at a sponsor s party celebrating the 62nd games you maintain your tradition of joining haymitch in the corner hey twelve once again you materialize out of nowhere this time with a whole bottle of bourbon you know the nickname bothers him an obnoxious reminder that he is the lone victor of the twelfth district you use it anyway when he doesn t respond you say simply haven t seen you since the last one haymitch sighs what do you want princess you hardly bat an eye at his biting tone somehow his rudeness makes the capitol s nickname for you slightly more bearable still as charming as ever you uncork the bottle before pouring a generous amount into your glass when you twist it toward him he accepts your offer grudgingly i brought my own drink tophir never gives out anything strong enough he s stingy haymitch raises his glass to you mockingly before taking a sip but says nothing once again he wonders what in the world you could ve possibly seen to make you want to talk to him finally he asks did mags send you over here to bother me i ve noticed that people tend to steer clear of you and i wanted to use those bad vibes for good you roll your eyes before adding i love mags but not enough to do this out of the goodness of my heart i doubt anything you do comes from the goodness of your heart an image of you volunteering at your reaping pops into his brain to his annoyance you shrug it off like anyone else here is different well maybe mags you finish off your glass and reach for the bottle haymitch grabs it before you can refilling his cup and setting the bottle back down on the table eyes narrowing you shoot him a look though there isn t any fire behind it you couldn t even pour me one property tax princess your company is not worth that much haymitch shakes his head you re the one that came over here suddenly a hand rests on the small of your back before trailing up to the back of your neck cutting off your response you shudder as one of your regular clients whispers in your ear i paid snow for the rest of the evening princess he catches you so off guard that you flinch before you can stop yourself you hope he ll dismiss your shaking as excitement the corseted blue dress elodie tied you into earlier feels suffocating and you take a slow breath haymitch remains expressionless but he feels disgust bubbling in his stomach as he examines the man behind you the capitol man s designer blue suit and slicked back hair reek of arrogance for the first time in ten years alcohol fails to make haymitch numb the worst part of it all is your expression immediately you fix your face and any trace of discomfort is gone replaced by a forced smile that doesn t reach your eyes at least let her stick around till the bourbon s done haymitch slurs attempting to play the alcoholic card the other man eyes him warily tightening his grip on you you understand what haymitch is trying to do and deep down you both know it isn t going to work unflinching you bare your teeth into a forced smile that the man behind you doesn t seem to notice it s fine twelve i ll leave the rest of it here with you it doesn t matter that haymitch can t find words to respond with because then you re gone you avoid his gaze and he looks away as you let the man lead you up the stairs haynitch downs the rest of the bourbon straight from the bottle not bothering to pour it into his glass the next morning you find a brand new bottle waiting outside of your door no note is tied to its neck but you know who sent it miraculously your lips crack into a half smile maybe haymitch abernathy has a heart after all the neon haired women scream again and more glass shatters snapping haymitch out of his reverie he tore his gaze away from the empty seat beside him before grabbing a full bottle of bourbon by the neck and retreating to his apartment none of the other guests noticed except for one after watching him slip out of the room you stepped out of your hiding place and stood near finnick who had been moved from the oversized fishbowl into a gilded fishnet the whole affair has you feeling nauseous but you push aside your panic to slip your hand between the gaps and give his fingers a comforting squeeze the fourteen year old shoots you a brief half smile but you can feel that he s shaking there s nothing you can do except comfort him in the morning your mouth sets into a grim line haymitch had the right idea with the bourbon am i dragging this forever am i thinking bout september haymitch kept leaving bourbon on your doorstep on what he knew to be your worst nights but after he kicked you out of his life the amount of bourbon on his shelves never returned to normal he never minded drinking for two or five his drinking habits remained the same but his house had certainly changed takeout boxes increased as did piles of dirty clothes the curtains stayed drawn the kitchen cabinets sat empty and he set a personal record for the most alcohol bottles ever accumulated in his living room with every passing day all the while haymitch pretended he didn t notice and his biweekly trips to town to restock his alcohol cabinet increased victor s village had never felt so isolated despite the fact that he d been the only resident for fifteen years well for the most part after the 63rd games haymitch spends exactly one relatively peaceful week in solitude before he jolts awake to the sound of a fist pounding on his front door wiping sleep out of his eyes haymitch takes his sweet time getting to the door if the peacekeepers want to see him this early in the morning he plans to make them wait haymitch pulls on a shirt slowly scowling as the knocking grows louder and the throbbing in his skull increases accordingly when he whips open the door instead of standing face to face with a district peacekeeper he s met with the sight of you grinning in a zip up hoodie and sweats and surrounded by a multitude of paper bags you lift your chin as a greeting adjusting the duffle bag on your shoulder and waiting for him to let you in haymitch what re you doing here kid and why so early his anger falters slightly at the initial surprise but it returns at the sight of the slowly rising sun you don t appreciate being called a kid but you let it slide after seeing your interaction with the man at tophir s party haymitch decided to never call you princess again and you quietly returned the favor by tossing the nickname twelve mags sent me m here out of the goodness of my heart and all that you slip past him into the house before he can stop you haymitch s neutral but sleepy expression hides his mental calculations after concluding that sending you away will be more difficult than scaring off the people of twelve he crosses his arms and waits for you to explain yourself you slide your sunglasses onto the top of your head and set down several grocery bags before assessing the damage you note the remnants of sleep in his eyes and the half conscious scowl on his face this might just be the most sober you ve ever seen him dirty dishes are spread out on the table and overflow in the kitchen sink while empty bottles surround his couch like a barricade the kitchen looks unused and there s even a cobweb growing in one corner of the ceiling seriously abernathy how can you live like this you got back from the capitol last tuesday mags sent you to babysit at sunrise haymitch ignores your questions too shocked to do anything about your unwelcome entrance you are one of the first people to see the inside of the house since he moved in thirteen years ago well the sunrise part was my fault i m an early riser you begin emptying the grocery bags placing ingredients in the refrigerator and cabinets i m supposed to make sure you don t swallow your tongue or something like that haymitch runs a hand over his face now he definitely needs a drink he pushes past you to retrieve a bottle of vodka at seven in the morning seriously your left eyebrow rises in disbelief shaking your head with a slight grin you roll up your sleeves and turn on the sink before lathering soap with a sponge mags is right you really do need an intervention hey haymitch snaps you re in my house at this godforsaken hour and i didn t tell you to come in so shut up and get out shouting doesn t scare you anymore instead of running out the door you smile more widely and the glint in your eyes has haymitch internally bracing himself you re horrifically hungover aren t you his frown deepens as he reaches for a glass of water he did not like your tone i m so sorry i ll try to speak more quietly you promise nodding with exaggerated seriousness just as he takes a sip from his glass you bang two pots together the clang loud enough to fill the room oops haymitch scowls letting out a curse as he lifts his free hand to clutch his head get out of my house you ignore him and continue scrubbing the dishes little does he know that your dispatcher wasn t mags at all it was effie the escort admitted she was at her wits end trying to make him presentable during the games but recently she had begun to worry about his drinking problem and what it meant for his odds of survival she didn t find your quip that at least haymitch is consistent very amusing instead of laughing she insisted that you might have a better chance at helping him than she did the bourbon had to count for something after all between your growing curiosity about haymitch s life outside of the capitol and effie s promise that she would get you out of your night work so that you could watch haymitch in district 12 you found yourself with an offer you couldn t refuse while you begin scrubbing a grimy cast iron skillet haymitch s thudding footsteps leave the room keep drinking water you call over your shoulder you start humming quietly while you do the dishes once you re finished you step into the living room and round up his collection of empty bottles unsurprisingly haymitch is nowhere to be found it s honestly not as bad as i thought it would be you declare loudly you re met with silence a backhanded compliment isn t enough to provoke him this morning unbothered you pull back the curtains for some natural light and get to work cleaning the windows later over eggs and toast haymitch grudgingly engages you in conversation he d hoped that if he ignored you long enough you d leave but he should ve known by now that you were too persistent for that he scowls did your folks in three finally have enough how d mags get you here free vacation you pointedly ignore his question about your family twelve is no vacation sweetheart the scoff slips out of him so quickly that he doesn t process the nickname till after he s said it this is an intervention not a proposal abernathy you dismiss the moment flippantly and he s grateful his slip of the tongue has him ready to kick you out of the house again but before he can usher you out the door you re on your feet venturing further into his house in search of laundry he barks your name from the kitchen you hear the scrape of his chair as he pushes it away from the table followed by the slam of his glass as he downs more vodka before following you what re you doing now don t go upstairs you stop at the base of the staircase hanging onto the railing as you lean back to look at him i m threatening to do your laundry so that you feel insulted enough to do it yourself mags said it might work that was actually all you but it was worth a shot haymitch huffs you wouldn t no vacation is worth that watch me anything s a vacation compared to the capitol as usual your biting sarcasm reveals a bit of truth haymitch runs a hand over his face sighing again he has a feeling he ll be doing that a lot if you re going to insist on staying twelve he s going to make you pick another house to stay in preferably as far away as possible half a bottle of scotch later haymitch attempts to bargain suggesting that you stay in twelve but lie to mags and leave him alone his suggestion falls on obstinate ears you clutch imaginary pearls i can t believe you would cross that line abernathy mags is an angel and anyone who lies to her is going to hell haymitch can t tell if you re serious but none of it really matters because you re still here and he has no idea how to get rid of you he can t afford to make too much of a scene and he doesn t have the energy to bury a body fine if you re staying in twelve just keep out of my hair are you sure 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