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support it is a great article so if you or anyone you love is struggling with infertility direct them to this great post seriously you ll be glad you did posted by leslie at 2 22 pm 2 comments thursday march 17 2011 when irish eyes are smiling i know i ve put that picture up every st patrick s day but i love it it was a picture i took in my backyard in my beloved arizona it still makes me happy today at my house my kids woke up at 6 00 they were hoping to find that a leprechaun had been caught in their trap and that he had stolen our gold coins and hidden them which he does every year but that sneaky little man hasn t come yet the kiddos almost fell over when i poured the milk on their cereal this morning and it turned green such magic jewel was so excited to go to school today because she didn t have to wear green at her last visit to the orthodontist she requested green bands on her braces she thinks it s pretty awesome she did wear a shamrock garland wrapped around her headband just in case someone thought they should pinch her from behind alfredo is excited to go to preschool wearing his green shirt and oversized shamrock glasses dr d left the house without any green on at all i m worried about all those young girls up at the university thinking they should pinch him i usually make some fun st patty s day treats i hope i can squeeze that in today it could be interesting today i will leave you with some favorite irish prayers and blessings enjoy your st patrick s day all an irish prayer may god give you for every storm a rainbow for every tear a smile for every care a promise and a blessing in each trial for every problem life sends a faithful friend to share for every sigh a sweet song and an answer for each prayer an old irish blessing may the road rise up to meet you may the wind always be at your back may the sun shine warm upon your face and rains fall soft upon your fields and until we meet again may god hold you in the palm of his hand one more may your blessings outnumber the shamrocks that grow and may trouble avoid you wherever you go posted by leslie at 9 00 am 2 comments tuesday march 15 2011 prayer tragedy tragedy n an event causing great suffering destruction and distress such as a serious accident crime or natural catastrophe there have been a lot of tragedies unfolding all around lately the events in japan are mind boggling we don t have access to regular tv channels so my only way to see what has been going on has been on the internet i have found myself watching youtube and news videos somewhere between awed and horrified it is hard to really understand and process what is happening there i don t know anyone in japan my grandfather spent most of world war ii in the pacific on warships where the target was anything japanese my grandparents went to japan when they were in their early 70s i think it may have been for my grandfather to come to peace with the war he left feeling a love for japan it s people culture and heritage he told me about his experience transmitting to me a love of god s children everywhere my heart has been heavy thinking of what difficulties face the japanese people this morning i read a few blogs authored by people who have lost someone suddenly and tragically to accidents one was a mother the other a wife my heart ached for them there are some things happening in my extended family right now that could definitely be described as tragic things that some of my loved ones are experiencing that are causing great suffering and distress it hurts my heart in the face of all of these difficulties i find myself wishing that i could do something my heart yearns to relieve some of the suffering and some of the pain in each circumstance i am powerless to help yes i can contribute something for the aid in japan but i cannot physically go there and help it seems the most i can do is pray pray for peace comfort relief pray for solutions miracles and an easing of the way and so i do and i thank the lord that he is listening and loving posted by leslie at 12 07 pm 2 comments thursday march 3 2011 a couple successes can i just say thank you again to those of you who have made such nice comments on the last couple of posts you are awesome for anyone who is interested i have updated our rexburg readers blog we had a great discussion last night and i find myself grateful every month for our little book group last night s discussion helped me continue this process of getting back on my feet and moving forward again i always feel refreshed and edified by spending time with fun women in our neighborhood and i love the books that everyone chooses we have officially been doing book club for a year now thanks to everyone who has made it possible it s like a little life line for me yesterday i stumbled on something that i think is going to help in my quest to get my family engaged in being a part of making our home a better and cleaner place to live somewhere sometime i saw something from someone talking about how they love myjobchart com so i checked into it yesterday i looked at the videos they have on their homepage and decided to give it a try the basics are these you set up an account it s free and then you can set up individual jobs for your kids including daily jobs jobs they only do on certain days of the week jobs they only do once or extra jobs so they can earn more points every job is worth points and they can use their points to earn rewards they have even partnered with amazon so you can reward your kids with books dvds toys games ipods etc etc so i spent time assigning my kids their jobs setting up rewards etc i taught my kids how to log on to check off their jobs and showed them some of the rewards they could earn just by doing their part to make our house a happy place to be we ll see if the trend continues but my husband thinks that i have worked some kind of magic on the kids last night and again this morning they were excited to do things i usually have to nag them to do you know things like get dressed brush your teeth make your bed pick up your toys what amazed me even more is that getting the kids involved made everyone anxious to create order dr d and myself included dr d wants me to set up a list for him now so he can earn rewards too i think he wants a new ipod like i said we ll see if the trend continues but i can see some serious possibilities here and i m excited so narrowing down my essentials has made a huge difference in my life over the last couple of days it has allowed me to feel successful and more enabled i m sure i ll add a few more to my list over the next few weeks but i can t even begin to say how big of a change this has made serious answer to prayers here posted by leslie at 11 19 am no comments wednesday march 2 2011 yesterday and today thanks andrea and amanda for your comments yesterday i really needed them thank you thank you as i was thinking about why i was in a funk yesterday i realized a few things one of the most important being this lately in my ward and in other places i have heard a lot a lot about doing the essentials first and then everything else working out for me the list of essentials is exhaustingly long i feel completely overwhelmed because the essentials are already more than i can handle i always feel like a failure because i can t even seem to get to all of the essentials let alone the good but not essential stuff it has been frustrating and debilitating to me mentally and spiritually so yesterday after i wrote my sad sad needy post i went out to get a few things done the sun was shining and it wasn t as cold as i thought it was and i took a breath of fresh air i came home with a little more happiness in my heart i read comments from good friends and pondered what i could do to make the right choices to find more happiness in my life and i made a decision about something i decided i needed to revise my list of essentials so for now my list of essentials contains 4 things praying personal scripture studying getting the beds made ideally getting everyone to take care of their own providing a good dinner every night that should leave me time to take time for myself and do things that are therapeutic for me like blogging and still get other things accomplished this means that my house won t look perfect which is hard for me to come to because i really believe that order is an essential quality of heaven and i d like to have a heavenly home on earth but i also realize that i have been struggling for a long time to find ways to get my family more involved in taking responsibility for our home now i am going to have time to study out how to make this happen yesterday was hard today is still hard but it feels better thanks for listening posted by leslie at 9 16 am 3 comments tuesday march 1 2011 looking for a little warmth and happiness has it seriously been nearly a month since my last post i say that like i ve been busy and truthfully some things have been busy at our home dr d has been traveling a lot working with an orchestra in southern idaho and there are always lots of little things to keep me busy things like tidying up the house washing clothes and bed sheets checking my email and status updates on facebook making meals breaking up fights making plans etc nothing earth shattering or really very important i wish i could say that i like february but by the time february rolls around in idaho i am quite sick of cold and snow the snow doesn t get to me as much as the cold and gray skies i know everyone feels like this to some extent it s harder on some than on others some days are harder than others today the sun is shining which is nice but it is still cold and i am longing for a nice warm day with the scent of spring blossoms reaching out to touch my senses but i m going to have to wait quite a bit longer for that it s times like these i find it hard to be super positive about life ok readers please help a girl out and tell me what you do to keep a bit of joy in your life to keep things positive to keep smiling i really want to hear and more importantly i really need to know posted by leslie at 1 16 pm 3 comments monday february 7 2011 monday thoughts last week was a long hard no good very bad week i m glad it s over but today is a new day and even though the new week begins on sunday i always feel like the week really starts on monday so i am going to look forward to a new week and hope it is better than the last one my grandma used to be somebody pretty famous in our church she was known by millions in our church around the world and was also known by a large number of people in the us who were are not members of our faith she was the general relief society president of our church for the first 10 years of my life the relief society is the women s organization in the church of jesus christ of latter day saints incidentally it is the largest organization for women in the world she gave lots of speeches in one of those speeches she said this goals are stars to steer by not sticks to beat yourself with somehow i always forget that last part i remember that my goals are important for guiding me to do better and be better but i forget not to start beating myself up when i don t accomplish my goals at this point in the year i have always made goals and i usually have done ok with some and completely forgotten others this is also always the time of year when i get mad at myself because i have not accomplished my goals it s hard not to last night dr d had the kiddos get out their goal list we also pulled out our family goal list then he did something amazing he had us go through the goals one by one and evaluate them we talked about how it was going we had made some progress on some of our goals and we weren t doing very well on some of the others the ones that weren t going very well we talked about and decided to do better it was like making the goal over again i think i need to do the same thing with my personal goals because i m black and blue from beating myself up over what i haven t done i guess this is my reminder that what my grandma said needs to be true goals are stars to steer by not stick to beat yourself with posted by leslie at 9 03 am 6 comments monday january 24 2011 stream of consciousness blogging well it seems that i am not really made for blogging anymore i just don t have time i have thought of just getting rid of this blog all together and just keeping my private family blog but i guess i just can t bring myself to do that so today there are lots of things just rumbling around in my head and i am just going to spend a few minutes writing it will be random and it might be a little confusing but that s how life is right i just got an email back from our family doctor i was updating him on jewel s recovery from surgery c as i read through what i wrote to him i realized that i spelled assess incorrectly leave off the last s to know what i wrote i am mortified and don t know whether to write him back and apologize at the same time it makes me laugh i used to be a pretty good speller ok i ve never been that great but i guess i used to do a better job of proofreading those days seem like a long time ago i also used to be pretty organized another thing that has disappeared from my life however we have been re organizing our basement it s still unfinished which pretty much makes for an open canvas i have been dreading doing it but knew it needed to be done it s taken a week but we now have everything re ordered and it feels and looks much better the best part is that dr d loves it he is the kind of guy who really likes to get things in order which is awesome he says that every time he goes downstairs he just feels calm and happy maybe that is partly because we really fashioned a study practice area for him anyway he loves it the kids love their newly designed play space and everybody is happy now if i could just make the upstairs work as well as the downstairs speaking of getting things in order i took all the pictures off my walls last week i just have never been happy with their placement and so i am starting over the house seems a little more echo y i keep trying to find joy in the daily grind some days that is harder than others we have had lots of talks in our family about how it s not mom s job to do all the cleaning straightening and so on but in the end it really just happens that way when you have friends over and the house is a mess do they think oh those kids just haven t done their jobs no you think why can t that woman keep her house in order i realize that part of the job is getting the family members to do their part this means please don t lecture me on this if you choose to comment order is a big deal to me it s part of my upbringing my least favorite cleaning jobs are showers and toilets unfortunately i can never get anyone else to do this it s me or it just doesn t happen i am trying to figure out what i c...