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utes apart and weren t too painful but there was no way i could sleep through them i kept timing thinking if i hit 4 minutes apart even once i was calling the hospital i was so done being pregnant at this point but 7 minutes apart every time until about 8 30 when i decided to get up and fold the three baskets of laundry in the nursery and of course the contractions slowed right down and eventually came to a stop so we went on with our day finding the eggs the easter bunny hid around the house watching general conference the kids getting a sugar buzz from all their candy braving the snow to go to uncle tim s and aunt elaine s house for easter dinner and visiting with all of the thomas side of the family i napped a little too to make up for the 5 hours of contractions that morning i guess the contractions didn t completely stop because i had quite a few while we had dinner with the family and i guess they were painful enough that most of the women and nurses in the room made note of the time and duration of each one but i ignored them i don t go into labor on my own i was being induced on saturday the 11th and that was that so when we got home from easter dinner i made zac drive my car because sitting was getting rather uncomfortable and i did not want to drive i wanted to curl up in the seat on my side we watched some tv with the kids and zac put them to bed and then i got the text from beth hey i ve been having some pretty regular contractions heading to the hospital see true to her word that s why everyone loves her so i wished her luck said i was having some too but not consistently and jokes maybe i would see her there tomorrow i pretty much collapsed on the couch and didn t move until i went to bed at 10 still contracting every now and then but not consistently my mother in law whom i alerted to the frequent yet sporadic contractions said she would have her phone on and to keep her updated she was sure it was going to happen i humored her and said i would let her know if anything changed and went to sleep at 1 a m i think i almost woke up the whole house with an aahhhh contraction that one was a doozy it took a few more to really wake me up and realize i was having really painful ones again not just strong this time but painful so once again i watched the clock as a few more went by 7 minutes 10 minutes 6 minutes 13 minutes they were all over the place but i couldn t go back to sleep and i m pretty sure my writhing in pain was disturbing zac s sleep so i went out to the couch i tried bouncing on my birthing ball walking leaning up against the counter making a mountain of pillows on the couch to lie on but nothing was helping with the pain i texted jaylene around 3 30 and let her know the contractions were back and freaking hurt but that i still doubted it was anything to be concerned about since they weren t consistent i hung out in the living room another hour and a half and got a response from jaylene just before 5 00 she said she was coming over as soon as madison was on her way to before school seminary i didn t argue i still doubted i was actually in labor but if nothing else jaylene would rub my back and make me feel better but around 5 30 i decided to call the hospital just to call and see what they said maybe they would have me come in and check me and maybe i made some progress i was barely at 1 cm dilated and 80 percent effaced at my appointment the thursday before so i called and spoke to this really sweet nurse we chatted for a while she got my personal info and looked me up she asked about my other two labors we talked about how it was my due date how my mother in law was on her way over and she was capable of watching logan and kaylee and i think the best part was how she talked me through the contractions i had while on the phone with her i couldn t talk through them anymore so she noticed when i would have one and would just very sweetly coach me through it after speaking with her for a while she asked why i didn t want to come into the hospital just yet and i said it was because i was afraid of being sent home and looking dumb for thinking i was in labor nurse pregnant women don t look dumb sweetie is your husband awake me no nurse well do me a favor and go wake prince charming up in the 10 minutes we ve been on the phone you ve had 3 contractions you haven t been able to talk through me are you sure nurse i m sure you re having a baby today so i woke zac up got dressed jaylene walked in the door and we went to the hospital the 6 minute ride there was awful who knew a car could be so uncomfortable i was pretty much moaning the entire time freaked zac out pretty bad keep in mind my other two labors were scheduled inductions so this was all new territory for us we got to the hospital and parked and i headed toward the doors while zac got my bag at one point i kind of doubled over in the parking lot and eventually grabbed onto a handicapped parking sign i had figured out that upright was the best way to handle a contraction but i usually needed support too this became a recurring theme through the rest of my labor inside the er entrance it was just after 6 am so it was the only way in the receptionist just smiled as we made our way past her and i said i m having a baby i wasn t in the mood to stop and chit chat i knew where i was going and to hell with anyone who got in my way as we moseyed on down the corridor to the elevators one nurse asked sweetie do you need a wheelchair to which i responded no sitting and kept walking or waddling i guess we made it to the second floor where the nursing staff was ready and waiting for us we went right into a room where i got changed and we waited for the calvary basically my midwife jessica she got there around 7 and checked me i was 6 centimeters dilated so it was definitely happening she suggested i labor in the tub for a while since i was refusing pain meds i agreed so they filled up the tub and i got in it was such a great relief that i was mad at myself for not thinking of it while i was at home i honestly don t know how long i was in there frankly most of the details and time gets a bit hazy here i had a nursing student check the baby s heart rate every once in a while i complained about my awful heart burn and they brought me a shot glass of something sour that knocked it right out they put a hep lock in my hand which i begged them not to but it s hospital protocol zac texted my mom and told her if she wanted to come she should i said hypnobirthing is stupid and doesn t work jaylene texted zac to tell him the kids were off to school and asked if she could come to the hospital and then things started to feel different in my pelvis so we called the nurse she had me walk back to my room to be checked and i had to stop a few times down the hallway because the contractions were really awful when i got to my room my midwife checked me and said i was at an 8 she also said she could feel the cushion of fluid right there and if she broke my water i would be done with this whole laboring nonsense in about 10 minutes me right but once you break my water it s going to hurt jessica breaking your water doesn t hurt me no i know but the contractions are going to get a lot worse and they already hurt and i m tired jessica okay but it will be like 10 minutes of intense laboring and then it will be over with me okay fine jessica on an unrelated and unprofessional note did you watch scandal this week me no sorry jessica okay try and catch up on it while you re recovering so she broke my water oh jaylene was there at this point my mom was still mia i didn t want to stay in bed because lying down was the worst and i needed to be standing so i got back out of bed and had a whopper of a contraction thankfully jaylene was there because i grabbed right onto her i think i was trying to put her in a choke hold but she had the advantage of not being in pain or pregnant so she just held onto me and helped me work through it that happened a few more times before my midwife said okay how are you going to push what position do you want to be in because it s go time i thought about it for a second and said i don t know i don t care what s easier for you because as i was thinking about it i realized i never had an option before with logan i had an epidural and didn t feel a thing so they positioned me with kaylee she came so fast my doctor wasn t even there i also started to freak out at this point because i realized i never learned how to push again with logan i couldn t feel anything and i don t really know how i even pushed him out and with kaylee they were all telling me not to push and she came out when i rolled over so at this point i was in full blown panic mode i e transition and kept saying i don t want to and i can t and i don t know how jessica pushing is just like pooping pretend to poop me i don t want to poop jessica you won t poop there isn t anything in your rectum she lied but i pushed once and then i pretty much gave up me i can t do this i don t know how i don t want to jessica one more push sarah the head is right here me i don t want to jessica though it may have been jaylene you hate being pregnant right one more push and you won t be pregnant anymore and that was all it took baby was out and crying and everything looked great she was born on her due date at 10 06 am weighing 9 lbs 2 oz 20 3 4 inches long we waited for the kids to get home from school to see her before we named her so when zac brought them to the hospital that afternoon we all agreed on lillian danielle the last 6 weeks have been pretty great as far as lilly is concerned she is a good sleeper a great eater and really isn t too fussy she prefers to be held but isn t above the rocker or the lounger she sleeps 4 6 hour stretches at night most of the time and is starting to smile when she is awake during the day we love her to pieces and really can t imagine our lives without her posted by sarah steele at 2 11 pm 0 comments monday may 19 2014 so much for updating heh remember when i said i d be better about blogging back in february yeah that didn t happen but what has happened since then in no particular order no wait that s a lie this is mostly chronological since my last post 1 i was called as the yw president in the canandaigua ward it was a crazy thing the bishop called me into his office and sat me down i was figuring he was going to release me from my calling non lds readers can take that as unpaid volunteer job as the young women organization s secretary because the yw president was moving so the conversation went something like this bishop warner so as you know barb is moving me yes bishop and when a president leaves her presidency is dissolved and a new president is called then she calls two counselors and a secretary me uh huh bishop we re going to need a new president who do you think it should be me um isn t that your job to figure out i proceeded to throw out some ideas of people who would keep me on as secretary but he pretty much shot down all of my suggestions bishop so what about you me um i don t know if you are aware of it or not but this motioning to myself this is not leadership material bishop i beg to differ so take some time pray about it and tell me who we are calling as your counsellors and your secretary congratulations sister steele so yeah that happened and it s been hard and at times i feel like i m drowning but i have an amazing presidency who gets crap done and i love those girls so much i m in a good place 2 i half quit half got fired from the ymca i really started hating it there like loathed going into work and working with one or two particular people it was crushing my soul and after taking on the responsibilities as the yw president i m so glad i m not there anymore because i would die it was an interesting experience having never been fired from something before my supervisor self assigned title and i haven t gotten along since i was hired just a personality clash it really started wearing on me so incident after incident we both kept reporting the other to our boss i think our boss just got sick of it and said i needed an attitude adjustment which wasn t wrong when i couldn t stop complaining she asked for my letter of resignation i didn t give it i just left which was probably the wrong way to go about it but i hated that place so much in the final weeks i was there so i still have a bad taste in my mouth with the whole being partially fired thing but it was one of the best things that could have happened especially since i actually have time and a desire to work out there now instead of just going there to work oh and i get to spend more time volunteering at school and at home with these beautiful babies 3 we went to texas which deserves its own post which i will get to some day but in the mean time i will just tell you that i loved every second of spending a straight week with my very best friend in the whole world guys danielle baer williams is my soulmate i m so lucky to have her in my life 4 we have a new addition to the family no not the dog i posted about him last time this addition is 12 years old and her name is bailey over a year ago zac and i both felt pretty inspired to start taking foster parent certification courses through the county fast forward to the beginning of march when our final home study was being completed and i found out that one of my young women in the aforementioned young women s program was taken into foster care because her circumstances at home were not good we were asked if we were willing to take her since we had a previous relationship but our caseworker advised against it simply because our licensing wouldn t be complete for another week so we didn t and she was placed in a different foster home but fast forward 5 weeks and whatever home she was in wasn t working out so we were asked to reconsider and now we are trying to figure out how to parent a 12 year old who has never been parented before in her entire life it s an interesting adventure this picture is from her first day of school in canandaigua so now you re caught up ish in the goings on of the steele household future plans and upcoming events probably getting the puppy groomed i m getting my tonsils and adenoids out on thursday it s going to be awful i m sure we are talking about a summer vacation possibly to washington d c since a i love being a tourist b it s a reasonable drive and c logan has taken an interest in early american history most notably with old documents like the declaration of independence oh and d it s close to an ikea and a cafe rio boom posted by sarah steele at 7 20 am 0 comments monday february 10 2014 oh hello blog old friend yeah i haven t blogged in forever no apologies i ve been busy so to recap the last 13 months of me not blogging here are 13 random updates in no particular order 1 we retired the swagger wagon and brought home ruby t...