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nks lower than you at your firm that doesn t mean you can put your hands on me news of my departure spread colleagues were surprised though more often than not they high fived me apparently my departure came as quite a shock to those ranking above me but those who actually do the work were surprised it took me so long those last few weeks were excruciating i just wanted to run screaming from the building all day but i had to stay put and finish those specs and redline those drawing sheets because my team had been about 1 person down for the whole project since october and 2 people down for the past 4 months and i wasn t going to fuck over my project team because of the grand mal stupidity of the people that supposedly run this dumpster fire they call a firm and over and over and over again i witnessed and heard things that confirmed for me time and again leaving is the right thing to do you can t fix this place pixie the people in charge don t want it they say they want change and innovation but they don t mean it change means that they do more faster with fewer people innovation means free work out of already underpaid employees under the guise of empowerment the partners get six figure bonus checks every quarter but they have the audacity to argue with the head of admin about hiring a temp at 13 hr to scan some files for them so they could eliminate the off site storage needed for them they pay college interns less than i made fresh out of college 15 years ago while charging every single latte and snickers bar to a project s expenses then have the audacity to complain about the entitled millennials moments like this make me wish i was a man so all of those sanctimonius dipshits could line up and suck my dick i left with no fanfare howie asked to throw a going away happy hour for me a few weeks afterwards which of course i didn t want but knew if i didn t then i d be the asshole i arrived at the pub in question to find that howie hadn t made reservations for our rather sizable group and started acting all spazzed out that his overburdened admin assistant hadn t read his mind and made the reservation i looked at chloe my longtime friend and colleague from st ermahgerd and she just shook her head slowly not gonna miss this shit show are ya she asked while stifling a huge laugh as we watched howie act spastically amazed that magic didn t happen and our group of 16 didn t have a party room just because he started waving his hands around dude these aren t your employees they don t give a fuck if you didn t plan ahead their job doesn t actually rely on bending over backwards for you and bumping two other planned parties because you don t know how to operate a phone and an outlook calendar maybe you could use one of your big ass bonuses to pay someone to care oh never mind money never mind i took four months off four months off like ron livingston s character in office space i did nothing and it was everything i dreamed it would be guy and i went to south carolina and georgia for our birthday this year which happened to be my 40th we went to the golf course near myrtle beach where my uncle put two bullets in dad s head and one in his own and i spent a moment reveling in the peace and beauty of the patch of earth upon which my father last fell that now supported green lush grass and turf the sandy soil that drank blood spilled too wrong and too soon now cradled life small insects bumbling their ways over and under the brobdignagian blades of perfect green small birds bouncing over the tee looking for those same insects and the occasional worm and a squirrel hop hop hopping around a tree to search for pine cones with a few tasty seeds still left only to find one of those humans with a wet face staring into the middle distance unlike most humans on this grassy place this one looks distressed and makes noises like an abandoned squirrel kit humans are weird i also cleaned like a motherfucker which those of y all who know me know what perverse joy i get out of cleaning i cleaned out my closet and drawers and my portfolio from 6 years of architecture school and my bathroom and my art supplies and books seven boxes of books to the library people and everything guy also did some cleaning out of his clothes and some of the crap stored on the back balcony though it took him a little longer to really clean his crap up really it took both of us some time to clean our crap up as i was finally finding peace in my work life guy s was falling apart while i was about to start my almost perfect dream job at megaarch guy was miserable there hamstrung by the corporate processes and by his boss who didn t seem entirely comfortable being in charge and pushing back on said corporate process guy was underemployed and found himself being passed over for professional training and advancement opportunities and it got to him bad he began to doubt his own professional abilities and even his own general worthiness as a person i can name that tune in one note he agreed with his boss to cut his hours for three months to just what he needed to work to keep our healthcare and then we both really got to work we didn t just clean the house we cleaned our own houses emotionally we purged some bullshit and half truths and fears and arguments and it was good we went a long way towards fixing our shit it left me in a good place to start my new job in january of 2016 while i didn t immediately have anything billable to do i had time to settle in and learn how megaarch does stuff how their software works etc i overall found a grown up firm run by grown up people who hire other grown up people to be your coworkers what an utterly novel concept after a couple of months of working in the same office guy says while driving home look i really need to leave megaarch they want and value specialists like you not generalists like me i ve gone about as far as i can here and i m going crazy while i go nowhere fair enough i replied i have my awesome job now we need to get you an awesome job we drove through a few green lights silently then guy said what if i go back to design associates i promise part 3 will come sooner than six months later posted by mile high pixie at 10 09 am 6 comments sunday january 24 2016 what had happened was part 1 i ve been wrestling with the best way to describe what happened at design associates i m trying to find the place in between a brief overly professional and un informative paragraph and the three post long gory blow by blow truth hopefully the following achieves that y all recall that i made associate at da a few years ago well the joy of that lasted about 4 or 5 months until i realized what it really meant to be an associate with da you still have to maintain the project workload that you had before but now you have to lead and or run initiatives meet with various staff members on a quarterly basis to discuss job satisfaction and conditions and see how things were going and attend a crapload more meetings great i clawed my way to middle management for this shit but something darker dare i use that term began to reveal itself in the big meeting room with all the partners and associates aka middle management and senior leadership i was excited to finally join this group and help da on its new path of thoughtful leadership and management and evolution into an awesome 21st century firm i was finally going to help make a difference i was finally able to see how decisions are made i was finally able to watch the interactions and the dynamics between members of senior leadership the partners and between the senior leadership and the middle managers associates and some senior architects and i was appalled with his unwarranted and unprovoked explosions at colleagues not paying attention to whoever is speaking or even flat out leaving the meeting before it was over bosley was a bully howie was a jittering pushy micromanaging bully audrey whom i once thought was a great role model for women in leadership positions turned out to act like a passive aggressive hypocritical micromanaging flake molly an associate partner whose arrival had also given me hope for da was simply put a fucking nightmare for my colleagues and me a master manipulator with poor listening skills and even poorer senses of boundaries and propriety she was bosley s syncophant for as long as it helped her get ahead and avoid blame for any project gone wrong other partners popped in and out of meetings to deliver their own flavor of seagull management fly in make a lot of noise crap on everything and then leave i would sit in the meetings and watch the other partners bulldoze over sven one of my favorite partners and patty an associate partner i had long worked with and admired sven would sit back quietly in his chair and patty would sigh and look down with her head in her hands after being shot down by bosley and howie yet again after my experience with the st ermahgerd project i vowed that this truly would never happen again as a somewhat leader at this firm i needed to make it work if not for me then for the others who weren t able to be in this room to defend their interests i decided to study how to make projects work better so i could show the partners and help them improve the firm s employee satisfaction and maybe even its bottom line too so with the help of a colleague with a great deal of experience setting up research projects and surveys i complete the first round of an in depth research project and presented it at a national conference where it was received with great enthusiasm and almost delight after i presented i lost count of the number of times someone said something to the effect of your firm is so smart and brave for doing this sort of self study yes i thought i m really doing work that can help people and then i went home after getting bumped off the agenda for nearly three months i finally got to present my research to the partners and associates however many felt like showing up that day i went through the data explaining my methods and then i got to the punchline my research showed that the most successful project teams were the ones that had only one partner or no active partners on the project this was not going to be good news for howie molly and bosley who for some incomprehensible reason insisted on having two of them or even all three on a project at the end of my presentation i was met with puzzled silence it was as if no one knew what to do with what i d shown them they began discussing amongst themselves in such a way that i sensed they didn t really get it should we share this with our clients if we get to the design solution faster would a lot of these stresses go away my inner lewis black rose up in my head you re not listenin asshole the main problem on your projects is your fucked up behavior you want to be a partner but you also want to be designers and planners and architects and unfortunately those things are mututally exclusive of being a partner you either get the work or do the work it s my job to do the work so go get the work and then get the hell out of my way and my colleagues ways the emporer was naked and no matter how many times or how loudly i shouted it the emporer wouldn t even go put some fucking shorts on i recounted some of this to my dear friend and advisor vinnie while hiding out at 3pm one afternoon at the cruise room for a glass of wine or four after a pause vinnie said quietly over his long island iced tea honey i think you ve outgrown design associates i must have looked puzzled because he continued these people are doing to you what your dad s family did to your mom they re making you crazy literally they say they want to give everyone autonomy and opportunities for growth and all that but their behavior says they want things to stay as they are but just want the staff to do more and when you speak up about the delta between what they say and what they do you get gaslighted like maybe it s your fault that you can t do an unreasonable amount of work over and over and over at first i was skeptical of vinnie s assessment but the longer i stayed at da the more i realized he was right howie tried to give me room on my next project but he keep fucking with my staff on a project that was already 5 to 1 person short by putting them on other things he needed help with for just a hour or so read all afternoon further i noticed howie and molly treating my utterly competent and professional colleagues like they barely knew how to be architects they were giving me a wide berth and bosley literally hadn t spoken to me in six months because of my meltdown and my survey delivered hand slap so you ll continue to treat my colleagues like shit because they haven t had a massive meltdown yet is that what it takes to get this firm s leaders to hear us it was during yet another micromanaging moment from the partners one day in may that i had the strangest feeling settle over me as one of my most senior colleagues told me not to make my staff surveys so nit picky and getting so into the details data is details fuckhead i thought to myself you don t really want me to give you true information you want to keep living in an echo chamber well you ll be living in it without me i left work early that day went to a coffee shop and started writing my resume and assembling my portfolio i applied to megaarch guy s firm the next day uploading my new resume and portfolio a few days later guy brought my resume by hand to his boss and apparently his boss went into a semi orgasmic convulsion to hear that a highly experienced healthcare planner and architect with research and speaking experience as well as a pleasant personality and good if indecent sense of humor might be interested in changing firms every few weeks i d have lunch with a new person from megaarch s national design specialties group guy s boss the head of architecture lady the head of healthcare and the healthcare marketing guy and lunch after lunch i felt so strangely light conversations with people who are interested in what i can do and know how to do and are so excited about the stuff i want to research and do and so on i finally realized that maybe just maybe i had skills to offer the world that really were well honed skills that maybe my work was valued somewhere by somebody the offer came in late july i got approval to start on january 2nd of 2016 i got the what i thought was insanely high salary i asked for and they didn t even blink i even got a signing bonus for which i didn t even ask i nearly started crying when i got the offer and showed guy i waited a couple of days for what reason i m not sure it was a big deal to leave design associates but it was time each time i tried to frame leaving da as a bad scary or negative thing i couldn t scare myself away or talk myself out of leaving and going to megaarch even if it went poorly there the fact that they 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