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that area and i love them but their priorities and expectations and their subtle airs let s just say our values are different i love them just the same but it just isn t how i want to be los angeles is a complete pass for me i ve been several times and i don t ever want to go again i get why people would want to visit it if they ve never been but i think it s overrated disneyland by the way is not in los angeles it s in anaheim which is in orange county and of course you should go there if you ve been to disney world you ll think magic kingdom because it mostly is but it is slightly different and they do have california adventure as well i love everything disney and since i grew up in california and have been to disneyland many time over the years it holds a special place in my heart everything between bakersfield and sacramento is a pass for me grew up in those parts and it s just a big black hole in terms of living there unemployment is high it s miserably hot it s mostly agricultural so many cattle farms it stinks to high heavenand i just don t think it has much going for it except yosemite of course is in that area and is a must see the one upside of growing up in merced the gateway to yosemite is it s proximity to yosemite so i ve been dozens upon dozens upon dozens of times it is fabulous san francisco is something everyone should experience fabulous food great culture beautiful historic and expensive and crowded and hilly like my quads ache right now just thinking about it it s a miserable place to drive and even more so to park i would never live there never never but it s one of my favorite places to visit fisherman s wharf is my favorite place in sf hands down walk around the shops get a yummy bite to eat do a ferry tour of the bay go to alcatraz visit the aquarium check out the sea lions then take a cable car tour of the city visit golden gate park do a little shopping do the museums especially the exploratorium if you have little ones even if you don t it s so cool just remember that it s freakin cold there even during the summer i think mark twain said something like the coldest winter i ever spent was a summer in san francisco and he wasn t kidding the 4th of july fireworks over the bay are well worth seeing but wear layers and stay the night because the traffic is horrific whenever there is an event oh and see a giants game that park is amazing oh and the haight how i love the haight let me count the ways takes me back to my late teens and early twenties if you re looking for a good vinyl shop the haight is where it s at lake tahoe is of course phenomenally beautiful i m only about 90 minutes away in good traffic so i ve camped there a fair amount over the years in fact my first honeymoon was there many moons ago if you love the outdoors it s great any time of year santa cruz and monterey are very different within driving distance of each other and both have lots of great memories for me my mom s family is from santa cruz and while i was born at an army hospital in monterey i was brought home to my uncle s house in santa cruz we didn t stay long but i visited many times a year until i was about 10 and because i m so nostalgic about it i ve gone back a lot even though i no longer have any family there in santa cruz capitola you have to go to the boardwalk which is a small beach amusement park the beach is overcrowded most of the time parking is expensive and sometimes difficult but it s worth it check out the mystery spot go downtown and walk the shops in monterey hit the aquarium 17 mile drive and dennis the menace park best park ever like ever did i say ever i could go on and on take pacific highway 1 all the way up the coast camp russian gulch is wonderful check out tide pools go on beautiful and inspiring hikes visit centuries old redwoods that are taller than anything you can imagine there really is a ton to do and see in california and there are many parts of my state that are so beautiful i can t put it into words it s too darn bad that it s so expensive and that all the places i want to live are even less affordable than the places i don t want to live and still can t afford anyway i feel i have once again sort of meandered off my chosen path so i m going to walk away while the going is good just don t forget there are way more cows in california than there are nice beaches 11 mar on the hunt posted by myndi madbooklove in uncategorized 2 comments you know i never really know how to title these posts seems like it s supposed to be short and descriptive and meaningful and i m just not ever really happy with what i come up with ah well so it s been a few weeks pb went back to work feb 28th and i m back to being a full time sahm i m feeling good back into the groove mostly normal amount of exhaustion feels good to be back at my post flynn s preschool has been interesting so far i m confident it s a good fit for him it was just sort of a weird time for him to start for one i had my surgery then he went through a part time assessment period for two weeks which was followed by a holiday week so he didn t get to transition straight into full time 9am 2pm then he got sick so he missed a few days then he got sick again and missed a few days and i ve had to go get him a few times because he fell asleep which is really no surprise given that he s only two years old and he s going from 9am to 2pm and they don t have a nap time so he now has to go without a nap 4 days a week which is crazy because he s a huge napper usually so he hasn t made it a full day yet crossing my fingers today will be the day he seems to be on the mend and he slept ok last night so all signs point in the right direction pacey is going through a phase where he has to kick in his crib for 30 minutes before he goes to sleep at nap time it drives me up a wall i wish i could wear ear plugs because it really makes me want to scream especially on the three days when flynn is home and trying to nap in the room next to him most days i have to choose who gets a nap pacey or flynn i wish we had three rooms that were soundproofed seriously in other news i think i have mentioned before that we have no intention of staying in california we ve been waiting for ss to graduate high school though if a once in a lifetime opportunity came up earlier we would have worked something out well she graduates in june fingers crossed we ve actually had two serious opportunities come up one fell through back in december the other is still in the works but looking iffy truthfully we want to get to the east coast we d prefer the northeast but right now the opportunity we re looking at is in atlanta really not on my list but the company is huge pb s really good longtime friend works there they pay very well with great benefits and the cost of living is pretty great compared to where we are at now however services for flynn aren t likely to be as good as what we re used to and the weather oh my part of the reason we want to get out of here is to get away from the heat and atlanta would be the heat we re used to plus humidity ugh frankly if i m going to live with the bugs and the humidity i d much prefer florida but i digress anyway the job hunt has been painfully slow lots of jobs to apply for but it seems like the minute they see we re in california they ditch us it would be nice if they d pay relocation but we are ready and able to pay for our own move we just need a job before we can do it we ve been looking in pennsylvania new york not nyc throughout new england even maryland and d c area i know it could take awhile but honestly we re feeling really pressured to get this train moving the kids may be only two but we want to move somewhere and rent for a year to get a feel for the area and make sure that the services are adequate to flynn s needs also we want to give ourselves time to make sure we re in the right location overall and our goal is to be settled somewhere owning a home by the time the kids start school that time is going to go quickly if we stay here we aren t going to be able to own a home or provide the kind of life we d like for our kids and i don t want to rent for the rest of my life so we keep trudging along if you happen to know of any great it jobs on the east coast feel free to let me know 17 feb bunny basket posted by myndi madbooklove in uncategorized 2 comments a crocheted by me bunny basket perfect size for a toddler easter egg hunt pb wants two more bunnies in different colors i want to make a duck and a frog what do you think 16 feb creative needs posted by myndi madbooklove in uncategorized 2 comments since i ve been on leave i ve been reading catching up on television practicing knitting i m teaching myself with the help of books and youtube how to s and expanding my crochet horizons my grandmother taught me the basic stitches of crochet when i was about 10 over the years i ve picked it up from time to time doing really simple really simple afghans once i finished a project if i finished i d get bored and not pick it up again for a few years but last year i picked it up again and really fell in love with it and i decided to push myself and try some more complicated pieces free time isn t something i have a ton of but i ve found enough to complete two ripple afghans for our living room a huge shell afghan for my brother s wedding present a granny square baby blanket for pb s best friend and during this downtime i tackled hats turns out i love working in the round and once you understand the basics of something you can really stretch and get creative i made pb a beanie then made the kids one made a crazy owl hat for the kids and then i found a hat online for dr seuss s thing 1 and thing 2 and of course i had to make a thing 3 as well truthfully i was really proud of myself they came out so cute see pics below anyway i think lots of people find these crafts to be sort of old school maybe even grandma ish but that s part of why i love it because my grandmother who passed 14 years ago was a very important part of my formative years and i find myself thinking of her often when i m working on something perhaps it s silly but i feel like i m sharing something with her even though she s not really here this is something she loved to do and i love it as well so it s connecting somehow also i ve always had a strong desire to be creative creative is not a word i would ever have used to describe myself perhaps i ve attempted to be creative but never felt like it was an innate part of who i am with this i can learn a technique and apply it with broad strokes to create something that s uniquely me and it s a creative skill so it has practical applications which makes this pragmatic capricorn even happier on a completely different note everyone in the house is in some state of sick i think we re heading into week 2 of our cold epidemic juliet as usual started things off with a runny nose and a horrible cough she is on the mend flynn has the worst cough ever but he s breathing fine no cough and his appetite and sleep have returned to normal pacey s cough lingers his nose is getting better and he s in better spirits paul was miserable for about 3 days but seems to be doing a lot better i was the last to get it and am in full blown cold mode at the moment anything that can be congested is runny nose my face hurts my head hurts my ears are all plugged up everything tastes crappy so so tired but no fever probably doesn t help that i got it while my body is still busy healing other things ah well this too shall pass the upside is paul is already home taking care of the kids so i can rest as needed p s i ve been trying to get pics of all the things in their hats but with the illness around here no one has been game but pacey pacey baby a modeling his thing 1 hat pacey saying cheese 13 feb what to say posted by myndi madbooklove in uncategorized leave a comment yeah so i think about writing every day because let s face it for the first time in a long time i ve got nothin but time i imagined this recovery period to be something quite different than what it has turned to be not being in full control and struggling with that i expected ditto for not being primary caretaker of my kids and really really struggling with that those two things are much more difficult than i anticipated but what can you do i did imagine an upside being able to devour a book in one sitting for instance top that being able to read maybe a dozen books or more during this 6 week period of uselessness catching up on blogs and getting back into the blogging groove but what happened instead is i m going crazy with boredom it s amazing how everything sounds so much better when you can t have it oh i wish i had an entire day to just read an entire day to catch up on the t v shows i never get to watch would be such a dream and actually probably if i did have just one day to do either of those things it would be more enjoyable but the reality is i miss my kids i miss being an active participant in my own life and i feel so separate right now that i started out thinking i have nothing to say because really what s going on in my life now that i m writing i guess maybe i do have something to say though i can t speak to how interesting it actually is flynn started preschool last week it s actually an assessment period so for the first two weeks he goes only two hours a day the first two days were great he didn t cry and the second day he actually dropped my hand and started running towards the door as soon as he realized where we were then day three he cried and cried and cried day four the same maybe he was a little burnt out more likely he wasn t feeling well but we didn t know it because his cold was just starting to kick in either way it was a rough two days now the whole house is sick juliet started it then the boys got it now daddy and i have it though he s got a head cold and i have a chest cold the kids have both they aren t necessarily out of sorts but they are certainly more reactive and wear down easily i took flynn to preschool yesterday it s called jumpstart so i ll probably to start referring to it as such and thought we d see how it went it was better than the end of the previous week because he s feeling a little better and he had several days off but as we were leaving his teacher told me that they had enough info to design his plan and if he wasn t feeling well today i could keep him out without worrying about it impacting anything so i did probably he could have made it through but he s two if they re done assessing him why not let him rest some more and get back to himself it s always so hard with little ones they can t verbalize how miserable they actually are or say that they need a break to rest at home this isn t as big a deal because there aren t a lot of expectations or demands on them and if they feel like grabbing a blanket and laying on the couch for awhile they...