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t of being pregnant and we had such excellent service at our re office that we might be a bit high maintenance and may call with questions but dr h understood and told us to ask for her 2 nurses that were really good and that they would answer our questions for us when we call they don t assign a specific nurse to their patients like they do at our re office and usually if we have questions any nurse will answer but if we ask specifically for dr h s nurses she knows that they will do their best to answer our questions thoroughly i still miss our re office though they were just so great but moving onward and upward bloody scare just this past sunday i was only 9w6d pregnant i noticed a gush of something flood my panty liner it was the same usual feeling i have after a few hours of inserting my progesterone but when i went to the bathroom to change my liner i noticed it was blood blood was on tissue paper in the toilet bowl and suffice it to say i was scared crap less mr truffles called the obgyn and had them page the on call dr she called and basically said there s nothing they can do at this point if i am going to miscarry i will miscarry but also reassured me that bleeding is common in my head i knew it was common too but it definitely is a bit freaky when it happens and you haven t had bleeding in a while the dr told me to rest and that if i continued to bleed to make an appointment for an ultrasound on monday i stopped bleeding after that one bloody show so i felt better and decided not to call for another ultrasound appointment so in the end it was nothing but it was a scary sunday morning to say the least stopping progesterone first day off of progesterone i was excited for this day to come i hated having to get up in the middle of dinner to go to the restroom to insert my endometrin in or wake up early on a saturday sunday morning to do that same for that matter i was looking forward to non gooey chalky icky discharge and not having to change my panty liner every few hours wasn t one of the perks of being pregnant to not have to change a liner pad but yesterday came which was the last day to use my progesterone and then i got scared is my placenta developed enough to make its own progesterone what if it isn t will i miscarry should i just quit cold turkey or ween myself off of the progesterone if you google this you will not find a lot of information to keep you sane but then again do you ever some say do not stop progesterone until the 12th week others say it is fine and to trust your dr because the placent makes enough progesterone starting the 8th week this morning i did not take my progesterone but i did shove a stash in my purse just in case i don t feel much different but i do feel ever so slightly crampy down there but this could be my uterus stretching too i m feeling it out trusting my dr and hoping for the best big reveal to mr truffle family this weekend will be the big reveal to mr truffle s family i m nervous but excited when a family member became pregnant last year after having dealing with infertility themselves i didnt take it all too well it was hard the baby was born about 3 days after we had our negative beta and it was devestating like salt on a wound i think this is so because of my theory that this family member and i both went through infertility but we had different experiences we both had heartache we both experienced the terrible experience of wanting to become a mother and not having that happen to us for years sure she went through it for longer me 2 5 years her many more years but it still hurt my theory is that we both went through that experience of pain but on top of that pain that we both went through i had to experience a year of pain that she didn t have to i had to endure her finally getting pregnant while i was not and her going through pregnancy birth experiencing parenthood for the first time while i was still going through my pain was a very difficult thing for me to deal with on top of the anxiety disappointment and heartache she has been understanding about it which added to my embarrasment that i was acting immature and jealous and it made me feel guilty i admit i was recluse and avoided having to go see them unless i really had to during the overlap of my infertility and their pregnancy and i will also admit a lot of the pain i experienced stemmed from my own thoughts and my own head but during that time of pain i didn t feel like i had the energy to try to be the bigger person nor did i even want to be my avoidance wans t just towards her but also towards friends who were newly pregnant how immature if i think about it now but at the time it was pain pain pain and all i wanted to do was avoid avoid avoid but now that i am pregnant it s much easier to be happier for her and for friends it s kind of silly how it all instantly is better all the more i tell myself that i was unfair to mr truffles during our dark time we went through as he always tries to undertsand and support me even if he didnt feel the same way as i did i am bracing myself that there is a possiblity that i may be disappointed in mr truffle s family reaction because of our distance last year but i will try to hope for the best maybe i m being over dramatic but i tend to be that way leading up to things i am anxious about then realize it s not as bad as i thought i hope that is the case besides i m an expect the worst and hope for the best type of person so the big reveal we plan on meeting my mil and telling her in person at her house then we will head over to my sil and bil s house to visit i bought this custom made onesie along with a bib saying i m going to be a big cousin and big cousin insert name sept 2013 we plan on casually giving them the gift nonchalantly and wait for their reaction to reading what the onesie says then we will go out to dinner with a few of mr truffles close friends and may tell them of our news there too i m excited to be coming out with the news i imagine it ll make this pregnancy seem i dunno real i want to remain grateful and learn to control my emotions better in the future after all that s what a mum has to do to be a good example right today today mr truffles and i are 10 weeks pregnant our baby is the size of a kumquat i ve never tried a kumquat but it is about 1 3 inches in size i still feel no morning sickness but now i m grateful for that i don t look like i gained weight yet at least i dont think i look like i do but my pants are tight and some don t even button up anymore i bought my very first maternity item which is a belly band on amazon it s basically a black band that you can put over your pants and leave the buttons undone it will cover the unbuttoned portion and also hold your pants up super comfortable on a different note i know it s a total waste to go shopping but with all the new spring clothes that have come out i want to go shopping as long as i purchase flowy tops it won t be a complete waste right i m going to try to minimize my maternity clothes buying anyway thanks for reading trufflelove 8 comments whew we saw the heartbeat posted by trufflelove in pregnant and tagged with 7 weeks baby excited graduating hearbeat relieved february 8 2013 finally my first ultrasound day came i was pretty nervous because i had freaked myself out i wasn t feeling many symptoms and wasn t feeling pregnant so i started going on the internet bad idea and found a lot of information that stressed me out why do i do this to myself anyway the first ultrasound went well we saw our fertility doctor for our last appointment and had the ultrasound where we saw the sack and our little peanut the technician pointed to a flutter and told us that was the heartbeat it was 136 beats per minute but strong and healthy we were 7 weeks 3 days yesterday at our ultrasound but our little peanut measured at 8 weeks 2 days so our re was pleased with that my pregnancy apps say our babe should be the size of a blueberry this week once you hear the heartbeat our re said that the chance of miscarriage is low like 3 mr truffles was so cute pumping his fist in the air kinda like golfers do walking out of the clinic to the car mr truffles and i told my family already they live in town and we are waiting to tell his family who live out of town and are planning a visit to see them at the end of this month at around our 10 week mark mr truffles and i are slowly allowing ourselves to be excited we re planning a lot of wknd trips for ourselves and with friends and are slowly thinking of where we d want to go on our big babymoon i found mr truffles reading the baby book that our re gave us yesterday and i couldn t help but smile these days we often like to just sit on the couch or lay in bed imagining what it will really be like to have our baby here we never used to allow ourselves to go there because it would make us so sad but already our little peanut has brought us so much joy we have our first appointment with our regular obgyn on february 20th we were recommended to a specific doctor who is known to be excellent by our re it was kind of an ordeal getting an appointment with her because she s so busy but mr truffles worked his magic after i was defeated and got us an appointment at our 10 week mark i m sad to be leaving my clinic because they are so responsive so wonderful and so professional but i m glad to have graduated and to be moving on thanks for all your support friends xo trufflelove 19 comments help posted by trufflelove in pregnant january 31 2013 i m constipated i was good at going just last week and then in the last few days i ve been super constipated the other day i woke up at 2 30am because i felt the urge to go but couldn t i haven t taken anything yet but when i found out that i was pregnant my nurse sent me a form that had the medications that were safe during pregnancy for constipation it says this usually dietary changes such as use of bran cereals whole grain breads fruits juices and drinking lots of water will relieve constipation if you continue to have a problem try the stool softener colace metamucil fibercon citrucel milk of magnesia or senekot these products do not cause dependency and may be taken up to three times daily i have colace at home and i have metamucil so i may have to resort to that anyone use any of these things that really helped them it s weird though because i knew that pregnancy could cause constipation so i have been extra cautious in the foods that i have been eating flaxseed in my oatmeal yogurt lots of fruits lots of water pomegranate etc ugh constipation is the worst feeling ugh i am 6 weeks pregnant as of this past tuesday i hope next thursday which will be my first ultrasound comes fast i need some kind of confirmation something anything to keep me in check 11 comments am i really pregnant posted by trufflelove in uncategorized january 23 2013 it s hard to tell i don t have any real symptoms besides the fact that i pee all the time but that s not really a symptom since i did that before i got a bfp anyway i don t have sore boobs no nausea i m tired but not that tired am i really pregnant oh one thing i do have are really vivid dreams like super detailed and about ppl that i haven t thought about in a long time ppl from my highschool i was officially 5 weeks pregnant as of yesterday i have my first ultrasound on the 7th of february and it cannot come soon enough 13 comments 2nd beta posted by trufflelove in pregnant and tagged with 2nd beta pregnant thyroid tsh january 17 2013 tuesday beta 182 thursday beta 399 so i m progressing i don t know how good those numbers are but at least they doubled but i was also told my thyroid stimulating hormone is high it s at 3 45 and they want it to be under 2 5 so i will be starting medication to get that level down starting tomorrow does anyone else know more about this is it a big deal worry after worry i blame it on this darn infertility btw i had my beta this morning at 7 30am and i didn t get a call until 3 10pm 3 10pm ugh the wait for the betas after the first one aren t that much easier i tell ya xo trufflelove 17 comments scared to even type it but posted by trufflelove in ivf 2 pregnant and tagged with beta bfp embryos ivf pregnant thankful january 15 2013 beta was today and it was 182 i m pregnant i tested on saturday afternoon 6dp5dt barely there line sunday fmu 7dp5dt barely there line still monday fmu or to be more specific i poas at around 2 30am darker visible line enough to make me feel hopeful symptoms no sore boobs no tiredness no metallic taste in mouth no gums bleeding no hunger pangs or cravings no cramps well no noticeable ones really but if i look back maybe i had some poking feelings on one side but i have gotten that every other cycle that ended in a bfn spotting had a little bit of spotting yesterday evening brown in color wasn t too concerned this morning i had bright red spotting makes me concerned how do i feel it feels surreal i feel thrilled and i feel relieved but i feel scared worried and cautious i know i m not completely out of the woods yet so i m just going to wait for my next beta which i have to schedule thurs or fri i know things are still very delicate right now and that i have to be very careful i m thankful to god i have gone from fervently praying to feeling hopeless and asking why me and turning away infertility has taken me to the darkest of darks but i am thankful that god saw me through it all and answered my prayers i m truly thankful beyond words and pray that i will continually have a thankful heart and never take this experience for granted i am also feeling a bit of guilt survivor s guilt because i know many of my friends in our community are still trying waiting and i know how excruciating and hopeless it all can really be i am hoping that everyone gets their bfps too so that we can celebrate and experience it all together infertility is just unfair and terrible and cruel and all i can say is i know how it feels and that i m hoping and praying for everyone xo trufflelove 23 comments pages about fertility timeline recent posts bfp round 2 december 29 2014 i m still here june 26 2013 halfway mark may 9 2013 the reveal relief and 12 weeks march 12 2013 week 10 update february 26 2013 whew we saw the heartbeat february 8 2013 help january 31 2013 am i really pregnant january 23 2013 enter your email address to follow this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email email address follow my journey archives archives select month december 2014 1 june 2013 1 may 2013 1 march 2013 1 february 2013 2 january 2013 7 december 2012 7 november 2012 8 october 2012 5 september 2012 5 august 2012 12 july 2012 12 june 2012 8 categories about me 9 chemical pregnancy 1 fet 1 13 hope 4 ivf 1 25 ivf 2 12 liebster award 1 pregnant 7 uncategorized 3 blogs i read my bfp journey through faith no so fertile girl happa hopes tales from a yellow brick 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