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didn t bleed all over this time then i headed home again to take my shot which i managed to do by about 9 30 am not too bad it just made me super late for work which no one even noticed whew the nurse who was in the room with me for my u s said if all was normal with my blood work i would not receive a followup call i anxiously waited all day but everything must have been good because no one called me another successful milestone checked off on this new journey side note 1 as i waited to be called back for my blood draw i let the receptionist know i had another question for my nurse that i forgot to ask during my appointment she checked my nurse s availability and let her know i was in the waiting room and to come see me when she was done with her next appointment a few minutes later my nurse called my name and i asked my question right there in the waiting room if my question had been more personal i would have requested a private room or something but all i wanted to do was confirm i was supposed to be taking prenatal vitamins i said i assumed i was supposed to but no one said anything about it at my nurse consult on december 14 and she confirmed yes i was indeed supposed to be taking them everything with ivf is so specific i didn t want to take something even prenatal vitamins that wasn t recommended yet so i thought it was better to check side note 2 per our financial consultation also on december 14 we were to pay our fet fees today december 29 since we didn t send a check in the mail before my first monitoring appointment no one at the receptionist desk asked for payment when i checked in today and i didn t remind them so i made it through without having to fork over 4 335 that is until they called me at 2 04 in the afternoon and asked for it humpf at least the lady was nice that i talked to she blamed the staff rather than me for the oversight she said i could send a check in the mail or pay over the phone with a credit card credit card this was new information i gave her my card number so i could rack up a few thousand reward points i pay my card off every month anyway so the reward points are like a sweet bonus for all my typical and atypical spending i d just end up reimbursing myself with my hsa health savings account anyway it was for sure a done deal now we were all paid and ready to go posted by sams at 12 46 pm 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest wednesday january 13 2016 fet 1 cycle updates bcp mini crisis as previously mentioned and per my fet booklet instructions i started my bcps on wednesday december 2 and continued taking them until wednesday december 23 however on december 22 i noticed i was going to be taking my last pill so i checked and rechecked my fet booklet manually counted the days on the calendar more than once and eventually gave a call to my re s office at 2 37 in the afternoon naturally i had to leave a voice message in my message i gave specific details about my discovery and that it was ok to leave a message on my phone if i missed their return call i asked if there had been a mistake since a pack of contraceptives only contains 21 active pills or if i needed to take one additional pill for a total of 22 this month and naturally i missed their return call at 3 51 pm as i anxiously checked my voice mail i was irritated to hear the nurse did not provide any answers whatsoever to any of my questions she just said something about how the office was closing in nine minutes and to give a call back when i was able argh so i called them again bright and early the next morning at 7 40 they weren t open yet and weren t accepting voice messages of course i called back again at 9 24 in the morning at my desk at work mind you and someone actually answered so i had to explain the whole situation all over again at work yay the nurse said my booklet was correct i did indeed need to take 22 bcps this month in order for the timing to match up for our transfer date she even counted the days out loud on her calendar while on the phone with me just to be sure herself after all that plus some more explaining on my part it still took her a moment to realize i needed another prescription of pills asap luckily i mentioned i had a pack on hand at home from about two months ago when i thought i was going to be starting my fet cycle but didn t i asked if the brand of pills mattered because my brand at home was different from the brand my re originally prescribed things are very specific in the ivf fet world and she said no she breathed an audible sigh of relief i m pretty sure i did too then she went on to explain i may see some spotting or get my period after my pills were done spotting ha i almost laughed at that i knew i would not be so lucky i thanked her and we hung up whew crisis averted posted by sams at 4 04 pm no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest tuesday january 12 2016 fet 1 cycle updates nurse consult financial consult and a good cry our combination nurse consult financial consult was monday december 14 at 1 15 pm hubby had a meeting downtown with his clients that wasn t scheduled to end until 1 00 pm but didn t actually end until 1 15 pm so we had to drive separately this time and meet at the clinic to top things off we had freezing rain sleet off and on all day which made the commute to our appointment especially fun at least my normal route was construction free this time i arrived at the clinic a little early and let the front desk know hubby was going to be late the very nice receptionist said she d let the nurses know and a few minutes later two nurses one in training who looked the same age if not slightly older than the other nurse came to talk to me the main nurse the one not in training said it was no problem hubby was going to be late and that we could go ahead and get started or wait for him i asked if we could wait until 1 30 and the same nurse reiterated it was no problem at all and there was no rush she was so nice thank goodness i knew 1 30 would be a stretch and hubby likely wouldn t make it by then but i hoped it wasn t going to be much later than that 1 30 came and went around 1 40 i just happened to look outside through the window of the 4th floor waiting room and saw him pull into the parking ramp entrance what timing i immediately let the receptionist know hubby had arrived and i stood near the desk to welcome him and let him know it was ok he was late plus i thought the nurses were going to come out and get us right away yeah that didn t happen we waited maybe another 15 minutes before they finally called our names i wondered if they decided to take a lunch break while they had a few extra minutes either way the only thing that mattered was we could now start our appointment the nurse consult was no big deal that s probably why my memory of the details are a little foggy already it was all fairly familiar to me anyway from three years prior we talked about meds and a tentative timeline of everything we went over my booklet of information that came in the mail a few weeks before and suggestions for where to order my prescriptions i remember asking a few questions and being proud of myself for speaking up when i was unsure about something or wanted clarification particularly when it came to remembering how to administer the medication historically i m not one to say anything additional in my doc appointments because well i m not entirely sure why maybe i feel like my dr has already brought up all the important topics so the other stuff doesn t really matter anyway the nurses didn t volunteer a demonstration of how to give myself the medication like i remembered them doing last time so i asked for a refresher and it all came rushing back oh yeah i remember how to do this i thought to myself i was also amazed that i ever forgot after we all agreed there were no more questions the nurses let the financial consultant know we were ready for her and this is where it all went down hill after she entered the tiny conference room one of the first things the consultant said to us aside from the typical greetings and pleasantries was none of our cycle was covered by insurance i kept telling her i believed her but i was still surprised that even the u s monitoring appointments weren t covered and she kept saying something to me like unless you know something i don t your insurance doesn t cover anything related to fertility treatments aside from iui i mean seriously i just told you i believed you and that i was sure you were right just that the information was still surprising and no i don t know anything you don t know so quit asking me if i know something you don t all i wanted to do was express my surprise no shock i don t need you digging at my wounds any further lady she was actually very nice i just found it irritating that she kept repeating herself when all i wanted to do was express my surprise she went on to explain we could pay her today for our fet cycle a mere 4 300 00 not counting meds send two checks in the mail because one agency clinic covers the monitoring and another covers i m not sure what the embryo transfer maybe or remit payment at my first u s appointment she left the room to give hubby and i a few minutes to talk it over during which i reiterated to him i couldn t believe nothing was covered i mean i know nothing was covered three years ago but i hadn t met my out of pocket max expenses for the year at that time so going into this appointment i thought hoped more was going to be covered anyway hubby and i weren t sure what we were going to do so i just told the consultant we d mail it to her she wrote down who to make the checks out to and we were on our way i was crushed i truly didn t know if we were going to be able to proceed we no longer had extra cash around since having our twins my heart ached my soul sank to the bottom of my feet my uterus shriveled up and hid behind other organs in my body and to top it off hubby and i had to drive separately back to work i couldn t even talk to him properly about what i was feeling because he left first while i scheduled my next appointments not knowing if i was actually going to be able to keep them i tried to keep myself collected while at the front desk booking my ultrasounds but as soon as i got into the miserably slow elevator the hurt and the tears and the anger began to release it wasn t until i reached the parking ramp that i didn t care anymore who saw me or what they thought i was full on sobbing i debated whether to just have a good cry and move on or call hubby via cell phone to talk about it what the heck i called him and managed to choke out some coherent sentences like it s not fair why can t we have it all with building a new home and building our family why did this have to happen to us there are all these people out there in the world who have no problems having kids who don t deserve them why does it have to cost us 35 000 and counting to have our family i really don t know if we can do this and so on hubby didn t have much to say back to his hysterical sad sobbing wife but he did get out a few encouraging words like you know you will always regret it if we don t at least try we will make it work this is all you ve been talking about for the past what year and i remember saying just because we can make it work doesn t mean we should we just don t have that kind of money anymore and i don t know if we actually can make it work this time basically i gave him an out a realistic logical unplanned out and he didn t cave i couldn t believe it he was there for me and knew my heart he knew what i really wanted and didn t take advantage of my weakness for an opportunity to go the other route and remain a family of four and i love him for it i was scared and so unsure of how we could possibly make it work but we were going to give it a shot somehow i ve always always said to myself and others in my life i would never wish infertility on anyone not anyone but on this day i had a moment of realization clarity i do wish infertility on some i wish it on politicians who vote against ivf as a covered medical expense i m certain if they walked a mile in my shoes on this journey we would have policy changes over night i wish it on those who keep having more and more children and can t or don t take care of them the ones who don t know what a blessing it is to have a child the ones who take it for granted the ones who hurt and abuse their children the ones who don t protect those little hearts and most importantly the ones who don t love them to not love a child is completely unfathomable to me this may be the most selfish admission i ve ever made but this cold dreary december day changed me tears fill my eyes even as i write this to those mothers those parents those so called families who think their beautiful unique special wonderful children are burdens and to those politicians i say to you you deserve infertility posted by sams at 12 04 pm no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest monday january 11 2016 fet 1 cycle updates sis trial transfer my sis was scheduled for tuesday december 8 at 11 45 am i called my re s office a few days prior to get a prescription for valium to take before my appointment i think i called december 4 i have a record in my cell phone from that day but i can t remember what specifically it was for so that s my best guess i had to get my prescription somehow so this seems like the most logical option anyway the day of my appointment i had a meeting with my boss immediately before i needed to leave so i wasn t able to take my valium one hour before my as instructed the best i could do was 30 minutes or risk being high during my meeting and because of the valium i needed my hubby to drive me to and from my appointment which was fine because we work in the same building we left at 11 15 am only to discover our normal route was closed due to construction i was pretty confident i knew an alternate way to get to the clinic but i pulled up google maps just in case we had no more issues and arrived with a few minutes to spare soon one of the nurses called me and hubby back to a room gave me instructions to undress from the waist down leave socks on and wait for my doc on the table i briefly reminded her i have a history of difficult sis tests and that i wasn t looking forward to this one at all we had a quick discussion about it which made me feel better and before she left the room she read in my chart my last fet was successful with b g twins we had a small moment of bonding as she informed us she also had b g twins maybe 5 years old with j names so fun hearing other moms of multiples talk about their twins especially the names i love hearing what others name their kids and i love it when the names start with the same letter like ours even though we didn t plan it that way...