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in with muppet and otis a immediately lit up upon seeing muppet she was clearly enchanted by her muppet was very hesitant to enter the room at 21 months there was no way to prepare her for this she is too young to understand but gradually we got her to warm up by giving her snacks and playing games she paraded around the room singing songs and showing off her baby sign language she wouldn t go to a which i was worried would upset her but a seemed to understand she told me she was glad that she was hesitant around strangers and so connected to us i was also worried about muppet openly calling me mommy but again a took it in stride she told us over and over how amazed she was by muppet she said she was so smart and that she never could have given muppet what we were obviously giving her we stayed for about an hour and it was probably my favorite part of this whole adoption it was like a huge weight had been lifted off our shoulders seeing how happy it made a to see muppet reassured us that our relationship with her would remain positive as we left we all gave a a big hug i held muppet and brought her to a so she could kiss her head we left knowing it would be a very long time before we saw each other again i spoke to a a few days later and she told me how much it meant to her to see all of us together she said she had also been concerned about how seeing muppet again would make her feel but it actually made her feel better about her decisions she said she knew she had done the right thing for both muppet and otis and that our family was beautiful a is beautiful she is a wonderful person who has ended up in some crappy situations but she is a wonderful mother who knows when she isn t enough for her children that takes more strength than most people have we are a family of 4 now it has been an incredibly crazy journey but little otis has competed us we feel so grateful to have him in our lives as well as muppet we are truly blessed i know i said i d post pictures but right now i just don t feel like it is something i should do however i am a crazy instagrammer so if you would like to see pictures of otis and muppet feel free to follow me a trisha it is a private account so i just request that you send me a direct message saying you follow my blog so i can approve you thank you all so much for all the support you ve given me over the years i love this community and feel so grateful to have been apart of it 7 comments filed under adoption babies baby boy baby girl birth mom family motherhood trans racial adoption july 28 2015 8 42 pm lucky i know i still haven t finished otis birth story yes there is more but things have been kinda hectic around here lately lets just say that going from one to two kids is not easy but i need to take a small break from the birth story for a very special post this post is very near and dear to my heart as it is an announcement that makes my heart burst with joy those of you who have followed me for a while may recall that many years ago i developed a close relationship with another blogger tutti she and i connected on a level that i never expected when we decided to meet up eons ago she became my rock during a very dark time we went through infertility recurrent pregnancy loss and giving up hope together i gave up hope when i lost my 4th pregnancy she gave up hope when she got divorced things changed a lot for us after that she moved across the country and we started heading in very different paths but we never lost our connection she was my biggest cheerleader leading up to muppet s birth and never seemed to resent me finally becoming a mother when she wasn t i truly feel blessed to have her in my life i treasure a picture i have of her holding muppet when she stopped by for a brief visit tutti has so much strength and such an amazing attitude towards life and i am so proud to call her my friend i am overjoyed to announce that tutti my dear friend has reached the end of her journey after all these long years on tuesday july 23rd she welcomed her beautiful baby into the world a daughter whom i ve decided to refer to as lucky both mom and baby are doing well and are home enjoying their time together and with loved ones i m dying that i can t be there to hold this special little girl but i m sending her my love from across the country i ve already decided that she and otis will marry some day whether they like it or not welcome lucky you are truly lucky to have such an amazing mom and we are all so lucky that you have finally arrived 15 comments filed under babies if you re happy and you know it it s not always about me july 10 2015 3 16 pm the birth i originally imagined having this post up much sooner but something about having two kids makes your day disappear more quickly than i could have ever imagined top that off with the fact that i ve been really sick well its been crazy to say the least but without further ado otis birth we were told to be ready by 8 30 am just in case things started moving quickly a was being induced at 6 00 am but we were not allowed to go to the hospital till she had her epidural and was comfortable even though at this point she didn t even want to see us i knew things would likely take longer though so i took my time in the morning to get muppet settled with my mom she went down for her morning nap and then we got the call it was about 10 30 am and we needed to get there asap i was a little upset that muppet was asleep so i couldn t give my only child a big kiss for the last time but it was probably for the best we packed up the car and headed out when we arrived at the hospital we were both a jumble of nerves we met our case worker in the lobby and she informed us that a was having a bit of a hard time her first epidural failed so they had to do a second one as she was in a lot of pain and she didn t want to see us her labor was moving quickly though so they wanted us close by we hung out if the waiting room making idle chit chat with our cm for about a half an hour by then a decided she wanted to see us i felt like there was a lot of tension in the air but as soon as i walked in the room it all melted away the moment i saw her i started crying i m an emotional wreck like that but i walked straight over to her and embraced her we both sat and cried for various reasons all the past the present and the future moments that we share but it was what needed to happen as it hugely broke the ice after our little cry session we were all at ease and were able relax as much as possible we talked about muppet and showed her recent pictures she loved hearing all about how much she is growing and developing she asked if we had decided on a name and luckily she loved the one we picked she was about 9 cm at this point so we all prepared ourselves for what was about to happen she looked at us and asked us to stay which just made my heart so happy i was going to stand on one side of her by her head while j was on the other side of the room so he didn t have a direct shot at the goods the doctor came in and we all took a deep breath i gave a a big hug and told her how much i loved her then it was time for otis to be born overall it was an uneventful birth he was here so quickly only 3 or 4 pushes when he started crying we all sighed with relief and gratitude that our little man had made his way into the world the atmosphere was so much different from muppet s birth at this point a was a wreck the first time around she was crying and hiding her face but this time there were no tears just relief that it was over i cut the cord and the immediately moved otis to the other side of the room to get cleaned up i expected this huge emotional air like there was with muppet but really it couldn t have been different we all just seemed so calm and at peace a decided not to hold him after he was weighed and cleaned up our little man weighed in at only 5 lbs 4 ounces and 17 3 4 inches long he was so tiny i couldn t believe it they placed him in my arms and i marveled over this incredible little creature a decided she wanted us to stay in the room for a while so we fed otis his first bottle there we snapped pictures and admired our new son while his birth mom looked on it wasn t uncomfortable at all she seemed to have put up wall blocking her emotions we really didn t see any from her at all after 45 minutes or so it was time for us to head into the nursery so otis could get his shots and a bath we bid farewell to a with a promise to return to her room as soon as we could in the nursery we traded off holding our son and i was able to give him his first bath you forget how small and delicate those little fresh creatures are he reminded me so much of muppet his coloring is very different but his facial features sent me spinning into deja vu my two babies were here my son had arrived 7 comments filed under adoption babies baby boy birth mom motherhood trans racial adoption june 29 2015 3 38 pm pre birth otis turned 2 weeks old today 2 weeks have passed since this little human came into our lives and i already feel as if he has always been here the stories i have to tell about his birth are broken into 3 parts here is the first considering how we found out about otis we should have known how completely different this process would be from muppet s adoption looking back i think that both parties us and birth mom went into muppet s adoption naively none of us were prepared for how heavy the emotional aspect would be this time we were all hyper aware of it once our home study and adoption paper work went through i just assumed that the rest of the process would follow pretty much the same course as last time but i couldn t have been more wrong we arrived in the state where our son would be born 6 days before the induction i wanted to be there early just in case she went into labor early it was so important to me that we be present for the birth i needed to be there for him we had plans to take a out to dinner the night before the induction we had also already discussed the birth plan with her and she said she wanted us in the room just like last time a few days after we arrived everything changed all of the sudden contact became strained a has always been pretty reliant on us and throughout the pregnancy she had been keeping us up to date i knew she had a doctor s appointment but i never heard how it went when i asked my case worker she didn t know either suddenly she had become silent the next day another bomb dropped when she cancelled our dinner her reasoning was that she had needed the dinner before muppet s adoption because she didn t know us then but this time she knew us and was comfortable with us so she didn t feel like we needed to go to dinner i started feeling uneasy but was told that this wasn t a red flag by the agency a few days later we were told that she no longer wanted us in the room for the birth and i felt my heart sink all of this seemed so out of character for her i sent her a few emails just asking how she was but got little to no response back 2 days before the birth she requested a phone date we set up a time and i waited and waited but the call never came i finally got a call from my case worker explaining that she had changed her mind and didn t want to talk to us it was in that moment i realized how serious this all had become i sobbed on the phone with my case manager not just out of fear but also for the pain that a was obviously going through i wanted her to know that we cared about her not just the baby they promised to pass along our words but i was filled with dread that night j and i sat out on the porch and had a conversation that every adoptive couple tries to avoid having how we would handle the situation if a changed her mind about the adoption that night was an awful night with muppet everything happened so fast that we really didn t have any reason to have that talk we just assumed that it would all work out but because we knew how different she was acting this time we knew we had a reason to be fearful i didn t sleep much that night instead different scenarios ran around in my mind luckily a must have known how we were feeling i woke up the next day to an email from her that eased all our fears she explained why she had been pushing us aside and it wasn t because she was questioning her decision in fact she assured us that she was 100 certain about the placement she just needed to handle things differently from last time in order to protect herself i breathed a huge sigh of relief knowing that the following day our son would be born and placed into our arms birth story to follow soon 6 comments filed under adoption baby boy birth mom trans racial adoption june 19 2015 7 23 pm he s here i know some people have been asking for an update so i just wanted to stop in really quick and let you all know that our baby boy is here happy and healthy he was born june 15th at 12 18 pm weighing a tiny 5 lbs 4 oz and 17 3 4 inches long his birth mom signed the papers terminating her parental rights 24 hours later and we are officially his guardians until his adoption is finalized in 6 months i have so many stories to tell about this whole process it was so different from last time so hopefully i ll be able to get some longer posts up soon on this blog i have decided to refer to him as otis if you want to know his real name this is a major hint as there is a pretty famous duo where one of them has the name otis the other name in the duo is our sons name thank you everyone for the well wishes i promise to give a better update soon 12 comments filed under adoption baby boy birth mom if you re happy and you know it motherhood trans racial adoption june 2 2015 9 22 pm the last week time is precious the closer we get to the birth of baby boy the more i realize how fleeting moments with muppet are i m feeling an odd sort of nostalgia or maybe it is guilt i can t quite tell i think it is because we fly out next week so this week is essentially the last time it is just her and me we ve become a bit of a girl s club and i m finding it very hard to let that go of course i m so excited to meet our boy but i m very aware that the times are changing and i m never going to get this time back with muppet again i think a large part of it is due to the fact that as of this moment baby boy is mythical i ve heard he is coming i ve prepared for it but i find it a little hard to believe whereas my daughter is living and breathing right before my very eyes and i hate the though of losing the bond i have with her even a little bit i know once he is here most of these thoughts will likely disappear and that i will be so thrilled to add a new member to our little club so for now i m just trying to soak up these last few days with muppet my incredible little girl whom i treasure above all else our home study was finalized last week and we are pretty much set to go muppet and i will fly out 6 da...