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and that s ok like friends who come into our lives at certain times because we need them i believe that is what this blog has been for me i needed this community and this blog in some ways i still do but in others my life has drastically changed and i don t need this particular outlet anymore i love writing and i hope to see that passion play out in my life but in the meantime i guess i m done here for now and i ll leave with this i m pregnant unexpectedly surprisingly with baby 3 we were done and didn t make it official so now we will welcome baby 3 in march i m hoping for another boy but we will see when you decide to go home from vacation and sell all the baby stuff good ol murphy steps in and bam positive pregnancy test the next morning and things are never easy with kids but man they ve been pretty great with the two boys not without three year old tantrums or brotherly fighting but good so baby 3 will rock our worlds i m sure thank you little blog for seeing me through this crazy ride from loss to unexpected conception i say we ve come full circle xoxo jb posted by jb at 10 08 am 2 comments friday april 8 2016 a day in the life one of my very favorite lifestyle bloggers posted a day in the life post and i thought i d follow suit considering the last one i did was forever ago when i thought my life was crazy with one kid oh my how naive i was what s funny this whole first part really hasn t changed lol i start the day around 4 45 am ok 4 39 now to be exact i roll groaningly jump out of bed with the first sound of my alarm sparks continues to be amazed even after 6 ok now 9 years of marriage that i have never snoozed in my life i mentioned the other day that i don t even know how to snooze on the iphone yup still true shower wash hair well every other day and i mention washing hair because washing prepping and drying crazy curly hair c c c curly is a task in and of itself yup and i no longer dry this crazy hair thanks kid 2 5 15 coffee pot beeps big cup of coffee get ready in kitchen by 5 55 scratch that in kitchen by 5 40 put away clean dishes do a load of laundry and or unload dishwasher shove a bowl of oatmeal down my throat still eat oatmeal just do it in the car now feed dog give dog medicine and then the crazy starts 6 20 upstairs turn on lights in d s room so that he can roll out of bed and whine go get cam out of crib change cam while arguing with d about why he has to go potty and why he has to brush his teeth clothe children brush teeth wash faces try to keep children from killing each other try to keep cam from falling in bath tub while i m helping d brush his teeth try to keep cam from falling down stairs 6 35 on a good day downstairs shoes on fight with d about who knows what maybe why the sun is still asleep maybe why he can t wear rain boots because it s not raining pop breakfasts in microwave try to calm cam down as he incessantly says i want that pointing to food and then cries because he eats breakfast at daycare convince d to give the dog treat to the dog not to his little brother 6 45 lug children into car one or both typically will cry for reasons known only to them because carseats are apparently torture chambers for toddlers try to keep d from pulling cam s legs off in the car drop cam off at daycare 7 30 arrive at work let d play in his nonna s office for 5 minutes fight with d about going to class drag d to his preschool classroom finally get into my office by 8 00 and i m ready for a nap or about 6 more cups of coffee 3 20 go get d from his classroom go pick up cam from daycare 4 00 strap boys in carseats try to convince cam he does not need a snack until we get home in five minutes 4 15 unload car and children calm cam with food try to convince d not to chase the dog try to convince cam it s almost dinner time wash lunch dishes and endless sippy cups prep lunches prep boys dinner all while one or both children are running around like crazy people who obviously have never eaten before and must eat right now and answer why can t i watch curious george 800 times 5 15 boys eat or more likely for one or both don t eat and then i clean up for like a hundred years because cleaning up after two boys is like cleaning up glitter except the dog can t eat the glitter that falls on the ground 5 30 6 45 prep dinner for hubs and me take a walk try to keep d from stepping on pushing pulling cam wait impatiently for hubs to come home 6 45 praise the good lord it s bath time bathe children keep d from drowning cam see a theme here 7 15 give cam bottle yes he s 15 m and still taking a bottle because i can t give it up i love this time with him cam in bed take d downstairs 7 45 fight with d about bedtime wrangle him to brush floss teeth finally get him upstairs sit by d for 5 minutes sit by d for 5 more minutes rub d s back one more time promise him there s no rain and no thunder about a hundred times tell him i ll come check on him in 5 minutes seriously i m in trouble when he learns how long 5 minutes really is 8 00 finish making dinner watch trashy tv eat talk to hubs fall asleep on couch and then we re in bed by 10 to do it allll again the next day and it is crazy and the boys are nuts and pushing all of their limits right now but it s my crazy and we make it work posted by jb at 12 59 pm 1 comment tuesday january 19 2016 microblogmondays 73 solidarity one of my college roommates texted this morning to say that she was 9 weeks pregnant went in for spotting and the baby had no heartbeat this is her second miscarriage since october secondary infertility is heartbreaking and i m devastated for my friend her husband and her children thoughts and prayers appreciated as we stand by her in solidarity an unfortunate sisterhood of loss posted by jb at 9 46 am 2 comments friday january 15 2016 a mom by any other name we are still having sleep troubles with daniel as in he still won t go to sleep in his bed or anywhere for that matter unless one of us is sleeping in his room with him we re going on two weeks of this now and i realize that two weeks out of the 150 weeks of life he has lived is not much but right now it feels like forever i know this next part will sound spoiled and maybe selfish and as a preface i adore my children and wouldn t change my life as a mom of 2 hubs and i worked really hard to sleep train the boys when they were little and as such they are both great sleepers cam was harder but he s a great 7 6ish sleeper now so hubs and i got used to having our evenings to ourselves 7 30 on and it was lovely we talked we cooked dinner we watched tv we relaxed we both work full time and rarely have any time to talk until the kids go to bed and often hubs doesn t even walk in the door until 6 30 pm here s the selfish part i miss that time i miss having a couple of kid free hours to myself at night to unwind and just relax i literally have a child clinging to me from 4pm 9pm right now cam until he goes down and then daniel and y all it s draining me i told hubs this i told him that i wanted just 5 minutes to myself to to feel like a person again and not just a mom and he said well maybe you shouldn t have been a mom if you wanted that he was not being mean when he said this trust me but that made me think does a mom have to be a mom every second of the day does she have to completely sacrifice so much of herself that there s nothing left except drool covered pants sleep deprived eyes and a messy bun so often moms are expected to do it all and i think sometimes women feel that looking like they do it all is a mark of success like if you look like you didn t sleep last night you re obviously doing something right is that what makes a good mom i will always do what is best for my children but i also need time to be me and to be a wife so maybe i am or was spoiled because my kids sleep slept very well and go went down very easily am i a bad mom because i don t want my kids clinging to me until i go to bed at night am i a bad mom because at 8 pm i want to curl up on the couch with a glass of wine and watch modern family i don t think so i m a mom struggling to recharge herself enough to be able to give everything back to her children again the next day i desperately want and need daniel to get out of this crazy pattern that he is in right now we are putting a bandage on it and trying to figure it out trying to be what he needs us to be one of us goes to bed with him until he falls asleep and then comes downstairs then around 10 one of us goes back upstairs to sleep in the twin bed in daniel s room again this can t be a long term thing but we are just trying to make do and find some semblance of normalcy in this crazy phase daniel is in posted by jb at 8 19 am 4 comments tuesday january 12 2016 you ladies rock as always this community never fails to dissapoint thank you all for the advice yesterday we didn t let him cry last night we haven t heard back from pedi yet progress he will stay in his room by himself with lights on and ipad without even complaining he only woke up once last night and barely even cried he will stay in room with lights off and ipad he isn t making himself throw up he will nap in his room by himself no progress still throws a fit when we try to leave at night even after preparing him for it the whole day and talking about what will happen at night we offered a special breakfast with momma and that incentive didn t work so on to it again tonight i will post what finally ends up working we obviously want to do what s best for daniel but i would be lying if i didn t say it s starting to take a toll on hubs and i we have a baby free trip to nashville next weekend so nighttime issues or not we get a break in 9 days posted by jb at 8 09 am no comments monday january 11 2016 microblogmondays 72 parenting gone wrong i know i don t visit here often but ladies i need some help i ll keep it short microblog style daniel almost 3 started having terrible nighttime anxiety after nye he s been an awesome sleeper since 10w old and until now we ve been able to rub his back and he goes to sleep on his own no issue now though screaming tantrums made himself throw up unless someone is literally in bed with him so we started trying to help him we have successfully made it out of his bed but we still must be in his room or he has a tantrum one of us has to sleep in a twin bed at the end of his bed we have tried flashlight essential oils special toy life sized minion seriously no joke nightlight white noise music everything we tried leaving the door open but his screaming just woke the baby so that wouldn t work he won t fall asleep with the light on we ve tried letting him fall asleep watching the ipad no luck i think he s over the fear but how do i know if he s just being defiant when is it time for tough love i love my kids but hubs and i can t go to sleep with him at 7 30 at night just because he needs someone in there to fall asleep he thinks he can just go downstairs with momma and daddy instead of going to sleep he needs his sleep too the screaming in the middle of the night has lessened and honestly he was waking once a night and calling for me before this all started and i m fine with that i just go up pull up his blankets and he would go back to bed for some reason this has all changed now i m really not sure what to do and i would welcome some advice we are tired and in desperate need of at least one baby free hour in the evenings posted by jb at 8 29 am 7 comments tuesday december 15 2015 is this real life i m sitting at work currently icing my finger that may or may not be broken i probably shouldn t have done an hour of hardcore pilates with it hurting last night oops daniel has been waking up screaming at the top of his lungs at least once a night he s almost 3 this is wake up frequency circa 8 weeks old he also wet his pants last night the first time he s ever done that and he s been potty trained since august cam chugs along pretty smoothly until he decides that 5 is a fabulous wake up time with daycare trying to transition him to one nap who knows how this night will look hubs took a new position at work this means late nights early mornings grumpy hubs but it also means job stability so i ll take it i had 3 cups of coffee this morning three and i still feel like i need more and least you think 3 cups is not much my mug is the size of a small bowl because really who drinks coffee from a small mug i gave daniel cameron s breakfast this morning just to keep him from having a temper tantrum sorry cam you got the crappy pancakes i wish there were a diet that consisted of chocolate and wine and that it would somehow help me train for the half marathon in january for which i have lost all motivation my baby turns one in 2 weeks how is this possible posted by jb at 8 26 am 1 comment older posts home subscribe to posts atom blog archive 2016 6 september 1 surprise april 1 january 4 2015 7 december 2 september 2 april 1 march 1 january 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