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like spending 4 focus to cast a spell only for the dice to land unhappy side up i have had many paddywhacks in my time but i full on double fist slammed and yelled who the fuck rolls three ones in the whiniest pitch complete with bottom lip sorscha baby what s wrong what did i do not only did this happen to me once it was a spell called tempest i was trying to cast a nasty little attack that would knock down the target and pummel it with a power 12 damage roll but i tried casting it again later on and the exact same thing happened leaving me wide open with no focus and looking like a very sorry army i was surrounding one of ian s warjacks at the time and had a great idea of casting tempest and then finshing it off with my hand cannon and my juggernaut waaah ian told me there is a website called bad dice i d better join i had the worst rolls for the entire match looking back it was so funny the dice favour the brave but it has been enough to get me hooked i even took my cards to work today to read now that i know what all the stats mean like actually mean i can read them and try to come up with scenarios or battle plans i took my cryx cards too and have been soaking up the battle college wiki pages can t believe i have to build my own toy ahem thanks ian d in the meantime i have been cleaning up my cryx battle box and i have currently one completed warwitch ian showed me how to clean up a model ready for assembly as a n00b i am flummoxed as to why i have to do this myself mumbles paid all that money it s in bits grumble however i am nothing if not a good sport hah so i ll give it my all d i cleaned up the mould lines on the little pieces of warbastards with a scalpel and then glued them together ta daaaa warwitch deneghra ain t she a beaut i ve been getting excited reading the stats cards that came with my cryx battlebox so far since my khador army were already assembled by ian as my christmas pressie i have been playing and training with them exclusively i can t wait to try out my cryx army they have such tricksy abilities i d better get them built first d we are going to firestorm again soon ian will be playing someone else and i ll be watching but i am going to take my battlebox with me incase i get the chance to play my first game on actual terrain i hope so over and out warbitches at 21 45 6 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest sunday 26 january 2014 the pride adventures 2 whilst the writing on the next razarhawk arc is underway i have been lending my scrawlings to a rather marvellous comic series called the pride created by joe glass the pride is a fabulous ensemble lgbtq supergroup led by fabman have you ever been sick of being misrepresented of having no one like you to look up to have you ever wanted to change everything the pride is a comic book series created and written by joe glass and featuring art by a host of amazing creative talent from all around the world including gavin mitchell kris carter mike stock dan harris kris anka cory smith and many many more i was approached by joe to work on the pride adventures 2 on a short featuring all the laydees he knows me so well p here is a sneak peak at the first panel that will appear in the short ladies night such fun to draw you can find out more and buy a copy of the pride here go on it s got gail simone s seal of approval at 20 36 2 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest next phase anti bacterial i am so excited to be writing this for those who may require a little bit of background i have struggled with gastrointestinal issues since 2008 you can read loads of details in my worry wart comic if you like that kind of thing to put it mildly my bowel and i have not been on the same team i employed many tactics the one i used most aggressively was total denial it became my normal everyone told me to just eat bread or calm down and stop thinking about it it became quite usual for the doctors i saw to treat my mind rather than my body and so i had been on many an anti depressant for it because quite rightly i was very distressed and it caused my anxiety well a little over 6 months ago now when my symptoms where the worst they d ever been i declared war i declared war on my nerves and war on anyone who wouldn t take my health seriously i contacted a nutritional therapist with a rather sorrowful email i outlined my 5 year gastro upset and asked if there was any such thing as a stress free diet i still believed at this point that the mind ruled the body and since i was so anxious it was driving my symptoms i started seeing her in july 2013 the first thing she suggested was to get some proper thorough lab stool tests completed and analysed as how the hell else will you ever know what s going on inside there were expensive and slightly traumatic but they have since become my greatest weapon knowledge is power the results were not surprising what s wrong doc well everything we tried a few different things to begin with a couple of months introducing supplements and a better western diet then we tried to flood my system with good guys stripped my diet back further found combinations of foods that were giving me hell etc eventually 100 days ago after my symptoms seemed to persist she suggested stripping my diet right back to an elimination phase essentially a siege tactic a starvation period not to starve myself you understand but to starve whatever little shit bad guys were swimming around my body having the time of their lives one of the results of my test proved that i had scant growth of probiotics in my intestines you re supposed to have billions in the time that my bowel has been without these essential good guys the baddies have run amock and settled in places they definitely shouldn t have settled cutting off their food supply would be a drastic change to my life but it would eventually starve them into submission once they are starved and weak i could introduce some good guys and hope they find home the elimination phase was the hardest thing i have ever done this handy graphic makes it look all sweetness and light don t be fooled by the cuteness rawr so i cut out starchy carbohydrates sugars fruits dairy grains processed packaged and prepared foods the only fats oil i could have was coconut oil for cooking 99 of the supermarket was irrelevant to me at first with the removal of carbs from my diet my body packed in i was so weak and lost a stone in weight very quickly followed by another stone much more slowly i got a cold pretty early on and it almost wiped me out i remember finding it physically hard to climb the stairs or get in and out of a chair running was out of the question and walking to work and back was such a chore no matter how slowly i walked my periods also stopped for a while as my body got used to my new intake i have slowly put half a stone back on as i had to greatly increase my portion sizes this diet was giving my system a break a proper rest everything on this list is easy for my body to digest and i was following a strict supplement program to make sure i got everything i needed writing this 101 days later is easy but the amount of times i nearly gave up are numerous it was so hard if i had to leave my home routine for example travelling to conventions was a nightmare i have done 3 conventions on this diet and at each con i lost half a stone over the weekend as taking the right amount of food with me is impossible without a fridge to store meat or cooking equipment i could not prepare the meals i had been having i would take as much frozen meals as i could and hoped they would last i introduced ground almonds after a month and this really helped as i was able to make baked products like the muffins made from almonds and butternut squash i posted on this blog i also introduced bananas and this made such a difference being able to walk into a shop and grab a banana was a very big help at the falmouth convention we did last october the organisers kindly let me use their microwave so i could heat my veggie soup in my general day to day life routine i became even more of a foodie than i was before making meals out of these minimal few ingredients became a fun no not always fun challenge and i have managed to make some seriously tasty food making a ginger chicken soup stock and cutting the courgettes into noodle shapes meant that i could fake a ramen dish for example or making a batter out of ground almond and an egg meant i could have almost proper fish and chips i have been converted to celeriac chips for life i made granolas with chopped baked nuts and cinnamon i ve made almost a lasagna almost a shepherds pie and even on christmas day ian and i managed to make my dinner look like everyone elses it became really important for me to feel more like i wasn t missing out by making my meals in familiar ways however try having a sugar free christmas before you start thinking this was easy go a week without coffee man i really miss coffee i miss an awful lot of things fish and chips chicken ginger ramen pecan bread topped with mushed banana granola with coconut milk but now after 100 days i am writing this following my latest consultation with my nutritionist and well i have never felt a bigger pay off all the paddy whacks and tantrums and going to bed hungry because i was just so angry at my situation have made this feeling all the more worth while the next phase is introducing a whole new long list of vegetables and making my diet as naturally anti bacterial as possible some strains of bacteria can lie dormant or go into a hibernation mode if they are starved they ve been hiding there waiting and a great way to coax them out is to introduce a little of their food source and then kick them in the face so i will be introducing small amounts of honey their food and eating garlic their demise garlic after 100 days of no garlic i don t shitting know where to start i could weep of course i have to monitor everything carefully as any one of the foods i ll be introducing could be problematic garlic is a high fodmap food and sometimes this can give people with troubled digestions ever more trouble but i ll be taking some natural anti biotic supplements too what i m trying to say is it feels like christmas to me right now i can t wait to explore my new list of veg and i can even introduce peaches and looking back over all my food diaries this nice long break for my digestion has done me a heap of good i ve never been more normal regular and healthy in my whole life i mean i m shitting really well people and my anxiety well i won i ve been off anti depressants for over a year i ve not taken an imodium in 6 months and i have been to conventions on long car journeys on flights new peoples houses cinemas new cafes i bought my first car the list is endless i feel like this diet has been my ultimate secret weapon knowing exactly what s wrong on the inside gives me the best possible chance to fix it and it wasn t all in my head at 15 12 2 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest wednesday 22 january 2014 portrait commission before christmas i was commissioned by a rather fabulous husband to paint an a3 full colour digital family portrait for print as a present to his wife since they are game of thrones nuts and his surname is stark the portrait was to be winterfell themed i had so much fun painting it here it is posted with permission of course and here it is all framed i received this photo on christmas day along with some rather lovely messages it made my day at 21 29 0 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest thursday 9 january 2014 binty learns the art of war i m going to use the old verbiage i remember it like it was yesterday one sunny winter morning in cardiff during a particularly honest conversation in the infancy of our relationship ian turned to me and said i have something to tell you since he was following a truth of my own and wore such an apprehensive expression i prepared myself for the worst i actually thought the words oh god he s got a kid after some fluff and a few out with its he finally hurled the words i play warhammer at me and flinched in anticipation of my response writing this 2 years later i do understand his anguish i think he genuinely thought it was going to be something we couldn t share however at the time i think my heart burst in my chest with pure and utter love how could anything that this man enjoys as a hobby bring anything but happiness to me omg you mean the little battle dudes that you get to paint and shit and go to war and that my brother had some and my friend dylan brings some into work and i ve aaaalwaays wanted to watch a game will you show me basically his confession benefited me more than him i finally had an in grrr the following christmas brought my first battle box ian had chosen the game warmachine as a starting point for me and my premier army was to be khador according to the battle college wiki page warmachine is a 30mm tabletop wargame from privateer press it is a fantasy wargame with a touch of steampunk set in the iron kingdoms originally created by privateer press as a dungeons dragons game world it is currently in its second edition of the rules everything i needed to go to war for the first time was included in the battle box he d assembled the two heavy warjacks and the warcaster that the box provided and added a tape measure some pebbles a pen some card protectors and some laminated rules for my faction how cool he chose the army khador because the battle box came with a female character as the warcaster this is like a leader she is called sorscha and she s a mega bitch perfect that nye we attempted my first game overwhelming is an understatement i tried i really did but quickly became fed up and lost confidence fast we have since come to realise that ian has been speaking this wargaming language for nearly twenty years whereas i was trying to relate everything to say computer games i couldn t grasp the basic mechanics got all tied up in knots thinking about spells and became quite stressed trying to decide what to do and when unfortunately and quite probably because i didn t take to it quite so well we sort of gave up it was something we couldn t find time for in the years since and i felt that ian had given up trying he had enough friends to play with and i d failed dramatically i mentioned it a few times and even went looking for models i bought a spriggan but it was relegated whilst real life took over this christmas however it seems we ve come up with a strategy that feeds my interest and isn t overwhelming he s been teaching me the basics one step at a time sounds simple really we played one round just making moves using the speed stat a numerical value indicating how many inches a model can advance then we played the next round 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