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et portrait of the artist as bipolar email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest check your meds november 13 email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest 15 fascinating quotes on mental health love is a serious mental disease plato i m not a big fan of psychoanalysis i think if you have mental problems what you need are good pills but i do think that if you have things that bother you things that are unresolved the more that you talk about them write about them the less serious they become stephen king if the national mental illness of the united states is megalomania that of canada is paranoid schizophrenia margaret atwood in the past men created witches now they create mental patients thomas szasz when you ve been locked up in a mental institution people are going to ask questions it was ok because i didn t have to act perfect all the time drew barrymore i wanted to tell her that if only something were wrong with my body it would be fine i would rather have anything wrong with my body than something wrong with my head but the idea seemed so involved and wearisome that i didn t say anything i only burrowed down further in the bed sylvia plath the bell jar depression in its major stages possesses no quickly available remedy failure of alleviation is one of the most distressing factors of the disorder as it reveals itself to the victim and one that helps situate it squarely in the category of grave diseases william styron darkness visible a memoir of madness my life isn t good or bad it s an incredible series of emotional and mental extremes with beautiful thunderstorms and stunning sunrises some would say this is my artistic temperament others would say i am mentally ill or bipolar i say it s a bit of both and i make the most of them creatively jaeda dewalt bipolar illness manic depression manic depressive illness manic depressive psychosis that s a nice way of saying you will feel so high that no street drug can compete and you will feel so low that you wish you had been hit by a mack truck instead christine f anderson forever different a memoir of one woman s journey living with bipolar disorder i get absolutely shitfaced i am shitfaced and hyper and ten years old i am having the time of my life marya hornbacher madness a bipolar life people with bpd are like people with third degree burns over 90 of their bodies lacking emotional skin they feel agony at the slightest touch or movement marsha linehan my heart keeps begging me for a reason to keep beating but i m running out of lies to tell it stephanie ware depression the healthy suspicion that modern life has no meaning and that modern society is absurd and alienating neel burton the meaning of madness sometimes the appropriate response to reality is to go insane philip k dick if being sane is thinking there s something wrong with being different i d rather be completely fucking mental angelina jolie email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest what is manic it s not the clinical definition but as a user it works for me email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest bipolar humour if you re bipolar and you re taking medication this will probably make you smile it may also invoke a moment of been there done that being bipolar means i am relative to most people living in an altered state when one takes medication one is also living in an altered state albeit one that allows one to function more better more often that s the theory anyway and for many of us it holds true more often than not but from time to time one can t help but wonder who am i really who am i when i m not on drugs does the world still affect me the same way it used to before the medication what am i really feeling compliance for me is a matter of percentages the longer i live with this diagnosis and the longer i take medication the more i become aware of how it s affecting me there s also a resentment factor that creeps in along the way something along the lines of fuck this other people don t have to take drugs every day just to be who they sort of are other people don t have to spend 200 every month just to be a human being childish i guess but nonetheless real sic bipolar humour 2 or should that be bipolar 2 humour i m at my shrinks for my regular appointment to get my meds renewed and we re running the checklist of usual questions he gets to the one about suicide any thoughts recently about self destruction no more than usual there s a pause we both smile and move on to the next question another example and the beat goes on la de da de dee email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest bipolar what s wrong with this picture when you do an image search for bipolar you get a lot of pictures like these i know that a broader dialogue and awareness about bipolar and other such topics is better than silence and shame and blah blah and i m willing to believe that the people who created these images and the thousands of others quite like them mean well and are trying to get people to feel the pain a little and it s hard to express something so inexpressible but as somebody ten years down the road of the diagnosed with some experience in the creation of images and communicating about challenging topics i really don t like them on a bad day i frikin hate them why for starters because they are wrong they are all about the extremes the crazy high and the deepest darkest of the lows and that s not how it is most of la vida bipolar in my experience is lived between these edges by portraying the extremes they misrepresent the reality of bipolar living by going for the drama they misrepresent that reality to those who do not know any better there is no line running down the middle of my life or the lives of the bipolar people i know it s not on or off it s not digital it s not that simple it s a continuum and scary pictures don t help anybody email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest seeking asylum i have this habit well i have a lot of habits but the one on my mind today goes back to studying literature i guess i like to look words up in the dictionary a good dictionary a dictionary like the oxford where you get the definitions of the word but you also get a sense of where the word came from and how it came to be so today i looked up asylum pronunciation əˈsʌɪləm 1 mass noun also political asylum the protection granted by a state to someone who has left their home country as a political refugee she applied for asylum and was granted refugee status as modifier his asylum application was refused shelter or protection from danger we provide asylum for those too ill to care for themselves 2 dated an institution for the care of people who are mentally ill he d been committed to an asylum origin late middle english in the sense place of refuge especially for criminals via latin from greek asulon refuge from asulos inviolable from a without sulon right of seizure current senses date from the 18th century it was more than a romantic thing about language that got me into this habit it was a powerful curiousity informed by my ongoing and seemingly endless problems dealing with reality as it is commonly understood words and ergo language are the building blocks of thought and thought is reality so if one ie me was having problems with reality or if reality was having problems with me going back to the source and double checking what exactly something was supposed to mean might help and it has it does the protection granted by a state to someone who has left their home country is it just me or is there something terribly poignant about this idea and although the notion of mental illness does not come up until 2 is there not something of the mentally different intrinsic in this primary definition isn t reality something we all like to think of as our home country even before we get to the idea of nation or home isn t the idea of reality something we d all like to think we share because if we don t aren t we conjuring a kind of loneliness so profound as to be almost unbearable how much lonelier could life be than that how much greater need could there be for asylums and while we all know that there are more horror stories than we care to consider about the lives that so many lived in these facilities now only thought of as haunting and haunted abandoned and gone wasn t there something noble in such grand attempts to help as always the impulse behind these institutions outlived the commitment and they became over crowded and fell further and further behind in their ability to help they became dumping grounds for unwanted people and were misused and subject to the whims of fashion to where an ice pick could be seen as a cure all and where fewer and fewer cared about what a cure might mean to the one undergoing it but how much worse is it to abandon people altogether to throw them out on the street with a handful of pills and nothing else to deal with a world they don t understand and who does not understand them and who doesn t have the time or the inclination to care to leave them alone on the street with nowhere to go no place of asylum http oxforddictionaries com definition english asylum email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest mental health facts numbers vive la difference email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest mental illness facts numbers email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest robert crumb on normal kinda creepy huh email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest bipolar versus normal sometimes i wonder what life would be like if i wasn t bipolar what would it be like to be normal not like forever or anything but maybe for a day an afternoon perhaps or maybe an evening how would i reac t to things i like would i find beefheart and dali strange all of a sudden if i was suddenly normal would i find things that usually make me want to barf suddenly cute would i find myself more at ease in the world or just uneasy in another kind of a way would i stop noticing all the sights and sounds around me that distract me from what s going on would i think fewer dark thoughts and more wonderful ones would i feel trapped claustrophobic calm would things creep me out less or more or would it all be pretty much the same only without the meds email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest a bipolar positive perspective i ve taken somewhere around fifty thousand photographs in the last ten years or so somewhere along the line it dawned on me that it was my way of mapping my world of capturing a handful of the thoughts that were racing thru my mind as i wandered around on the rare occasions i ever looked at them again afterwards i realized that these images were also a kind of diary this was partly due to the fact that i file them away by date but it was also because looking at those images i could tell you where i was that day and what the day was like and what else happened that i didn t take a picture of and so on but in the last couple of years i ve also found myself thinking that these images are also a way of communicating in some small way to other people what one person s bipolar experience was like sometimes this is what the world looks like to me this is what the world looked like to me wandering around a more tropical zone than i usually live in sort of i say sort of because my wanderings and hence my image making are rarely as tidy or as linear as a posting like this might imply between one plant here and another there might have been buildings birds statuary graf clouds and anything else i might have stumbled over along the way in that sense just posting all the images taken on a given walk would be a more accurate portrait of a my bipolar experience at the same time there is something to be said for a thematic approach too and respect for one s audience is one of those things if one is going to try and communicate i think it behooves one not to waste anybody s time including one s own i don t spend a lot of time trying to get a picture i may take two or even three photographs of something trying to capture what i m after but that s it if i haven t got it by the third shot then i m not really clear on what i m after why do you or anyone else need to see a photograph that i don t think captures it likewise i don t spend a lot of time fussing with the images once i ve got them i might tweak the cropping or sweeten the contrast or the colour but if it takes more than five minutes i ll bail partly because again if it needs more work than that i didn t get it and need to work on my skills not try and fix it in the mix as john lee hooker used to say that s the best and later for the garbage none of the above has a lot to do with what was on my mind when i set out to post these what i wanted to do was collect some of the images on this theme where i really felt that i had got it or come very close at least as a way of speaking to the perspective that most people including many of the diagnosed have about bipolar disorder i would not for a minute deny anyone else s bipolar experience or their right to speak about it in whatever terms they want and likewise for their friends and family or medical professionals or who have you the reason i started this blog was to have somewhere that i could do exactly that and what this post was supposed to be about is that i really really hate having my life my experience of the world characterized as a disorder one of the reasons i hate it so much is that characterizing this way of being as a disorder can very easily become a self fulfilling prophecy as soon as one is diagnosed one becomes the other hello stigma hmmm note to self email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest older posts home subscribe to posts 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