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our schools movie theaters concert venues banks random offices malls shops gas stations you name it are teeming with mass shootings every other minute not an actual statistic don t fact check me you know what i mean they shouldn t be happening at all let alone at the rate they currently are my venn diagram of people that i have regular access to in order to minister effectively is literally a circle and we re all young moms of miniature sized velociraptors getting together in person is firstly an actual miracle if all our schedules coincide and secondly a clusterfluff of tiny dictators who barely speak our language and take everything out of our mouths as a personal attack on their very happiness you don t willingly hop into an orangutan exhibit and expect to maintain any peace and be able to hold any conversation no you get poop flung on you you and probably some of the monkeys cry and everyone loses a shoe and your favorite shirt gets ruined and someone is always climbing much higher than is conceivably safe and on the precipice of falling and dying being kind to each other is avoiding each other not to mention i certainly don t want people randomly showing up to my house barging through the door and offering to do my dishes or fold my laundry or clean my floors and i would never expect that of others and even if i got over being embarrassed i still wouldn t want help because it s just like letting your husband or your kids help out they do it wrong and you have to go back and fix it later it s just more work my point being i personally feel like it can be just as helpful when we share honestly online let people see the slumps as well as the peaks and get validation and commiseration and funny quips from our peers that s where i think a vast majority of our generation get our sense of community get off your phones and be nice to each other ok well yes if you re feeling like social media has a toxic effect on your mental emotional physical well being as i did a few months ago then by all means shut it down but we can be nice to each other on our phones too obviously all of this comes with a disclaimer all comments subject to personal preferences i don t mean to speak for an entire generation of people that s bonkers not everybody will feel the way i do and of course i appreciate the anti bullying message now i m wishing i d just done the instastory this isn t a cohesive blog post either i do not categorically disagree with the apostles i simply wish they would encourage the good parts of social media rather than suggest to boycott it completely for a short period of time posted by hope douglass at 10 57 pm 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest friday may 18 2018 2nd month we ve moved in a nutshell we are on our third investment property and it s going to take the dream home to make me leave this one we ve been concentrating most of our efforts on prepping the place we moved out of for the incoming renters and the new place is still undergoing a few renovations so chaotic is quite the accurate descriptor for how things are going over in the douglass household but we re managing and it s the preferred brand of chaotic so i ll take it rohan is rocketing up the charts like it s a competition the boy has really packed it on and quick we feel like ander was born three months old aka huge and just kind of grew at a steady shallow incline rohan was born on the large side of normal and was like hold my beer bottle he still hasn t confused his days and nights and we ve had two nights within the past week where he didn t wake to feed at all sleeping through the night and we are so grateful he s on full formula and obviously thriving giving us more and more smiles and starting to try out his little voice he loves to be outside and listen to his brother playing we ve noticed that he s quite the social butterfly wanting to be right in the center of all the action whenever he s not snoozing that is amidst all the moving and renovating mark brought ander into our room the other day instructing him to tell mommy it s time to go swimming so we packed up as fast as we could and journeyed out to butcher jones out by saguaro lake upon arriving there was a ranger in his truck who just had to stop to say hi because he couldn t resist ander s adorable frantic waving we trekked out to the beach with all our stuff and were immediately set upon by a small pack of wild horses mark was instantly nervous and insisted we move our set up back from the water a bit while i snapped photo after photo with our dslr i gave ander my phone so he could feel involved as well a couple of other photographers with their big fancy lenses thought it was adorable and they snapped a few of him asking for my email so they could send them to me which i thought was very sweet soon after the horses meandered off and we were able to finally get in the water and play around for a bit rohan however enjoyed the beach from the comfort of his carseat and napped in the cozy sunlight as summer approaches we are starting to see the light at the end of this long tunnel our renters move in at the end of the month and as soon as our kitchen and laundry room are taken care of then it s simply time to get all our stuff where we want it the fun part of moving we ve renewed our city of mesa pool pass and plan on utilizing it thoroughly june is packed with trips and reunions and someone s third birthday which i am avoiding planning because then it won t happen and my baby will stay a baby forever right that s how it works yeah we couldn t be busier but we couldn t be any more blessed either full schedules full hearts posted by hope douglass at 2 53 pm no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest monday april 23 2018 1st month let s see if i can even remember how to write a monthly baby update post shall we granted he is only one month old and still a newborn so there s really not much to update upon rohan has been such a calming influence in our family which has been greatly appreciated considering the constant amount of chaos we are currently undergoing that is not to say it hasn t been difficult at times or that we haven t had to make adjustments or that i don t feel the need to sleep for three days straight but if all my babies could come out with rohan s temperament i d get pregnant again tomorrow it s bizarre to me to have a baby so reliably easy to console they say babies only cry if they re hungry tired or uncomfortable and with rohan that holds so blessedly true when in doubt as to why he s fussing we literally just double triple wrap him in warm blankets and as soon as he s sweaty toasty he settles right down gas drops and pumping his legs actually works to get the tummy bubbles out what a concept he hadn t soiled a diaper in a little over 24 hours the other day so i ran out to walgreens for some suppositories and whaddya know it worked like a charm we got so much advice and suggestions with ander when he was tiny and in all honesty hardly any of it ever worked so to get a firsthand example of how these things could have worked is blowing my mind in all sorts of great ways i guess i ll take a hot minute to try and explain where rohan s name came from we are indeed aware that it looks like a hardcore lord of the rings tribute it is not i originally brought the name to the table very much liking the sound of it but disliking the traditional spelling of rowan i researched and found that rohan was a suitable substitution but mark was staunchly against giving him a name so steeped in pop culture as to condemn him to a life of having his name mis pronounced or being teased as to it s presumed origin but after explaining that rohan is indeed an official anglicized spelling of the irish ruadhain it was much easier for mark to swallow in the end we compromised so that i was allowed rohan as long as we used mark s favorite william for the middle name coincidentally ruadhain means red one red haired and as of now our rohan is certainly looking particularly auburn in celtic it also means keeper of wolves which is completely bada just sayin rohan is keeping up the douglass tradition of dominating the upper 90th percentiles of all his physical measurements 96th for height 99th for weight and we won t even talk about head circumference he always fills his diaper literally seconds before the doc walks in so we always get a proper thumbs up on his bowel integrity he does a magnificent job of giving us loads of awake time during the day and very rarely does he give us any trouble going back to sleep at night he reliably gives us solid three hour chunks of sleep sometimes extending to nearly four he eats a ton our one single struggle in all of this glorious baby perfection has been the breastfeeding but it isn t rohan at all it s me without getting into the nitty gritty we re giving it all we ve got gonna keep on truckin and in the meantime he enjoys the occasional formula bottle or two we re all absolutely smitten with this chunk of love ander loves to let rohan watch as he plays games on his tablet and wants so badly to just pick rohan up whenever it strikes his fancy and mark will undoubtedly fall asleep each and every time he holds rohan regardless of the place or the hour the baby sedative is strong with this one he s growing faster than i would like but i anxiously look forward to seeing who this chill dude becomes posted by hope douglass at 11 51 am no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest tuesday march 27 2018 rohan william it s impossible to start at the beginning because the beginning is convoluted and much too long for what this post needs to be which would be just a simple birth story if such a thing exists but perhaps someday the backlog of dramatic drafts i have wallowing in the queue can be spruced up and fashioned into something semi intelligible and worth posting in the meantime we can start at the beginning of the 19th of march a monday we weren t scheduled to arrive at the hospital until 10 am that morning which sounds delightful until you factor in the minor detail that i would be undergoing major surgery so i wasn t allowed to eat talk about a looooong morning ander woke us up at his usual time between 6 30 and 7 completely oblivious of the monumental shift his universe was about to undergo he had spent friday evening all of saturday and most of sunday leading up to the 19th down in tucson with his grandma and we were all thrilled to have a quiet relaxed morning just the three of us my mom arrived just before 9 am and we began packing up our car with hospital things and packing her car with ander things the dog tried to hide his mild panic unsuccessfully jerky helped soon it was 9 30 and we were off whizzing down the freeway and discussing the birth plan s we were scheduled for c section but if they checked me and i was dilated in conjunction with a baby not the size of a small toddler we were to be allowed to discuss induction we arrived in triage the nurse pointed me towards the bathroom and i was instructed to disrobe i mentioned the call for cervical check and ultrasound her poker face was less than successful as she said she would run it by the doctors and get word from them as we waited in our little room directly beside the front desk mark overheard an exasperated nurse ask why are we doing this isn t she a c section but i immediately discarded that bit of information from my mind i didn t want to be crying just yet i wanted to offer to walk to the ultrasound in order to avoid the wheeling throne of awkward feelings aka the gurney but turns out i m glad i didn t because it was in an entirely other zone and floor of the hospital with the level of waddle i had achieved by that stage of pregnancy it may have taken most of the afternoon to get there as the tech gooped me up for the ultrasound machine she asked how we were doing why we were up here and i joked we re just hoping to get a better idea of his current size and how impossible it will be to birth to which she immediately chirped or how possible and that was the first and last medical professional to give a positive remark in regards to my desire to vbac cue more choking back of waves of emotion she estimated 8 pounds 10 ounces give or take a pound which was actually pretty shocking to hear i d been resigned to hearing over 10 pounds again and when faced with the sudden possibility that we would actually have to go through with discussing induction i had the sudden realization that maybe i would have to be brave and try to labor and risk all the risks every doctor had been throwing in my face for the last nine months and it was scary though it didn t matter anyway since they d forgotten to check my cervix first and when they finally got around to it i was about as high and tight as they come which they could have just done when we first walked in and avoided the ultrasound and the waiting and the eventual delaying of our surgery by an entire hour but whatever i m not salty about it at all after that i finally met the ob who would be performing the surgery and she was a gosh darn delight she jabbered on about the procedure and everything leading up to it offering to give us skin to skin time in the or possibly even breastfeed a little and was very aware of our concerns regarding abdomen incisions and having a nearly three year old circus performer at home proactively offering solutions before i d even thought to bring it up turns out they can provide binders for your belly there in the hospital what a concept basically she turned the entire morning around from heading in a stressful direction to feeling safe and comfortable and eager already my memory of this next part begins to haze up since it s the phase i dreaded the most going into it mark dressed in his operating room paper suit and they instructed him to grab our belongings leading us down a short short hallway into the hugging area one wonders if the blatant naming of such an area is as good an idea as it seems considering the frantic leaping and tugging of my heart as i got separated from my husband the room was just as barrenly crowded and cold as i remembered walls piled to the ceiling with machines and wires and not a speck of warmth or dust even i found immense comfort in the kind but sassy russian doctor who held my hand and gave me heavily accented instructions to make it through the spinal tap if you have to have surgery might as well get yourself a fairy god babushka i tried to read her name tag so i could remember her properly but all i know is it started with an o and was approximately 28 letters long with numerous x s as the hustle and bustle continued to flurry about me i strove to take deeper and deeper breaths talking to god and asking him to help me be calm and stifle the anxiety i know the 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