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a wowie s balikbayan boxes they were filled with fruit loops chocolates clothes and foreign toys that my parents did not spoil us enough to provide for that reason we would eagerly look forward to that box every year opening it and smelling the enclosed scent from a land far way looking forward to perhaps the only toys we would own that we could brag about while my grandmother lives far away visits and calls are moderately regular although the frequency has substantially dropped after my mom passed away mommy auring is not the stereotypical grandmother portrayed as a person infinitely agreeable to grandchildren but she was stereotypical in the sense that she did spoil us to some degree due to circumstances my grandmother did not grow up with a good education or family upbringing and this has constantly been a source of conflict in the family her life although one could describe as having had a stroke of luck was not devoid of difficulties nor was it copiously peppered with happiness yet i know she tries her best she tells me about her lucky casino streaks and the stories of her friends over long distance calls inevitable as well is the small talk about family often repeated at times intriguing yet always with the same zest whether for praise or criticism whenever i visit or she visits she never fails to volunteer to buy me luxuries she can afford while some of her habits can be hard to live with my brother and i would always recount her idiosyncrasies with fondness and humor i remember the first time i visited her after she left the philippines she fried me sunny side up eggs on our first morning and as i eagerly waited to eat them with the then novel bagel she deftly cut out my favorite yolks and threw them to the trash before she laid them in front of me i stared at the gaping holes with shock as she told me they were unhealthy but i did not care for eating healthy at 9 years old i owe her my streak of fierceness stubbornness and independence the same traits that my dad would mock my mom and i for and while they may be the opposite of sweetness and kindness those traits have allowed me to survive some of the hardest times in my life yet i have a third grandmother mama mila my maternal grandfather had several partners after his original wife one was my grandmother and the last one being mama mila the story is complicated yet i grew up acknowledging her existence as perfectly normal there was a period in time that we would visit my grandfather in his house every weekend and my grandmother had already long been separated from my grandfather then so it was mama mila and tita anna who greeted us in his home while the situation was perhaps a complicated overlap of interests and blood ties amongst everyone involved i had only pieced parcels of the story from hearsay when i was already grown up at a period where it didn t make any difference to me at all nevertheless mama mila had always taken cared of me well my grandfather s house was always my benchmark for order elegance wealth and abundance she was always pleasant and seemingly perfect consistently in high spirits even when the circumstances of my grandfather s estate eventually changed i had always admired mama mila how she kept order comfort and still elegance in my grandfather s life her devotion to my grandfather is laudable especially now when he has become even more difficult to take care of given his old age and apart from that mama mila has always been generous to me and my brother although i had never seen her as a grandmother as much as a mama mila a concept a child accepts and grows up with she treated us no different from family during the later years of my mom and especially now with her gone mama mila would go out of her way to bring us or my dad something constantly letting us know that she s always there if we need anything and while i am a person with no favorites with the same applicable for my grandmothers i love them all in their own way though i didn t grow up showing extreme affection to any of them perhaps due altogether to my own personality upbringing and characteristic reservedness i would still like them to know that i recognize their presence in my life not as just grandmothers but as distinct people and characters influences for which i am thankful for share this share on facebook opens in new window facebook print opens in new window print like loading hateship friendship courtship loveship marriage by alice munro november 4 2017 leave a comment finding a row of munro books in the library had refreshed me the memory of a promise to read more of her work i wasn t able to do a review of dear life given the fact that i m hardly fond of writing such but in the pursuit of keeping the little diamonds in this particular collection i have willed myself to write one especially when i owned that copy of dear life but hateship friendship courtship loveship marriage is still in my shopping cart subject to a few more days of internal evaluation judging just from the title itself i would have never picked this out of the slightest interest i ve never quite understood her penchant for using titles that often reeked of banal sentimentality unless like her stories her objective was to tease you into a world of the predictable but time and again be immersed into anything but if not that her titles would otherwise seem so ill fitted leaving the reader with an impression that the decision of the title was taken on so many levels or perhaps just a single one i have found it her startling talent to write about different facets of a person s humdrum existence in quite a way which was so familiar it was unsettling munro would give life to these details details that are otherwise stepped over in most stories out of politeness or neglect in a literary breadth that never fails to captivate the reader her characters will remind you of people you know or you once knew and most importantly how they made you truly feel the beautiful the polite including the ugly unspoken and unthinkable while i have not professed love to all her stories just as much as a person may prefer mangoes over strawberries it is often the case that a particular passage or line will captivate me without fail requiring a pause from the reading experience most of her stories have to be read more than once i can only surmise she had decided on the whole plot before she started writing i often wonder if munro imagines these dreamy situations even when they sound so trite and possible yet so unexpected that you would still think them a product of but a lucid daydream or does she draw from her own life or the life around her i am short of words to describe why i am this much enamored by a writer with her amazing insight and capacity reading her stories allow words to invade my thoughts days on end as if one word was enough to describe an entire experience and the ease at which she perfects the juxtaposition of words like horrible and treasure a horrible treasure paint descriptions with emotional precision the following are some of my favorite passages in a few of her stories in this collection my selection was done with much tapering for it is only truly proper that her stories be taken in entirety may she find it in her heart to forgive me i am limited by words floating bridge what she felt was a lighthearted sort of compassion almost like laughter a swish of tender hilarity getting the better of all her sores and hollows for the time given this line was this story s ending said by a woman suffering or dying soon of cancer tired of her life s incessant expectations of her as a sickly person yet still as a member of society surrounded by well meaning people who to her did not see her in the light that she saw herself ready and almost excited to die she is weary and angry when in an errand her husband is too caught up with his own presumptions and decides to leave her in their truck outside a house as he goes in to be cordial and polite and this woman finding herself kissing a boy more than a decade younger than her under the stars on a floating bridge munro s words feels like unraveling an entirely new universe of possibilities in the face of death family furnishings when i had walked for over an hour i saw a drugstore that was open i went in and had a cup of coffee the coffee was reheated black and bitter its taste was medicinal exactly what i needed i was already feeling relieved and now i began to feel happy such happines to be alone to see the hot late afternoon light on the sidewalk outside the branches of a tree just out in leaf throwing their skimpy shadows to head from the back of the shop the sounds of the ball game that the man who had served me was listening to on the radio i did not think of the story i would make about alfrida not of that in particular but of the work i wanted to do which seemed more like grabbing something out of the air than constructing stories the cries of the crowd came to me like big heartbeats full of sorrows lovely formal sounding waves with their distant almost inhuman assent and lamentation this was what i wanted this was what i thought i had to pay attention to this was how i wanted my life to be this story was particularly one of my favorites it is hard to describe in brief everything that i loved about this story of how it resounded in me of how it reminded me of myself and the many characters i have met through in life i picked this story s ending lines for it is also a story of a writer who naively thinks that to be a writer one was to breathe in stories from an indifferent strange reality that surrounded you one that you find yourself in when you re in a coffee shop as a stranger as an eye to the world putting yourself into a pedestal you yourself created it seems like a mistake for most of our best stories are actually our distorted own comfort they were a pair of people with no middle ground nothing between polite formalities and an engulfing intimacy what had been between them all these years had been kept in balance because of their marriages their marriages were the real content of their lives her marriage to lewis the sometimes harsh and bewildering indispensable content of her life this other thing depended on those marraiges for its sweetness its consoling promise it was not likely to be something that could hold up on its own even if they were both free yet it was not nothing the danger was in trying it and seeing it fall apart and then thinking that it had been nothing this passage talks about how two characters seemingly trapped in a shared yet silent longing for each other albeit both married with their own intricacies felt about that predicament and how munro describes it is probably a situation in which many a times people find themselves in not that i have the last line was particularly gripping for the dreaded finality of the possibility nettles back home then i would sit and write for hours at a wooden table under the windows of a former sunporch now become a makeshift kitchen i was hoping to make my living as a writer the sun soon heated up the little room and the backs of my legs i would be wearing shorts stuck to the chair i could smell the peculiar sweetish chemical odor of my plastic sandals absorbing the sweat of my feet i liked that it was the smell of my industry and i hoped of my accomplishment what i wrote wasn t any better than what i d managed to write back in the old life while the potatoes cooked or the laundry thumped around in its automatic cycle there was just more of it and it wasn t any worse that was all this was said by a woman recently divorced finding herself in the lackluster reality of what it was to be one far from what she imagined yet it confronted her and she had to accept it the way munro describes how she had realized that her dream to be a writer might have been a painful mistake a fantasy when one is bored of their present only to find that there was no future in it the bear came over the mountain do you think it would be fun fiona shouted do you think it would be fun if we got married he took her up on it he shouted yes he wanted never to be away from her she had the spark of life and while munro is adept in writing about the darkness frailty complications nuances and grievances of living the simplicity with which she renders human intimacy is equally splendid share this share on facebook opens in new window facebook print opens in new window print like loading friends october 24 2017 2 comments have i ever wondered you ask of how life washed us off into the same shore of how your smile was enough to encourage my hesitant hand to shake yours of how an early morning trip to nowhere special could be the pillar of conversations from different timezones i wake up with the sun as you start off your slumber with the moon and with each passing day across now different lands we could only wish for that time given back or a new one granted of how it may be impossible yet it doesn t change a thing no i don t for some things there s only enough room for gratitude for anu share this share on facebook opens in new window facebook print opens in new window print like loading solitude the wind and i october 22 2017 leave a comment the wind lapped on my little beads of sweat it offered me tiny dried flowers gathered from hidden branches and eaves embracing me in a gentle whirl and as my hair loosely hung from my crown i felt the lovely chill as it caressed both my thin and thick strands in a mesmerizing dance it raised the hem of my spirit and glided in between the crevices of my consciousness gracefully it made love to me and so i did with the beautiful face of solitude in front of me share this share on facebook opens in new window facebook print opens in new window print like loading my mother s penmanship october 16 2017 leave a comment my mother s penmanship is nothing like mine her smooth cursive glides in between two shades of her pen interrupted only by perfunctory stops each loop and line written in full and consistent control light dark light dark as she showed me one day how it s done the paulinian way they didn t teach me that in school can you just write my name on my notebook labels inay i pleaded she would usually accede to my request at least until before i went into secondary school when high school came even doing the plastic cover wrapping was suddenly expected of me looking at how i wrote my name usually made me squint in disgust the letters rarely stood on the same line and the angles sizes were undeniably mismatched in addition to that i had to make do using print my cursive was even more appalling it barely improved over time in contrast though my plastic cover wrap started rather shabbily i grew better with it over time so much so that i even looked forward to doing it for my brother something he readily allowed me to claim responsibility for after a few years of bearing with my handwritten l...