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ty to record it for posterity it took me around 2 weeks of training to recapture the mastery i once had over this title but eventually i pulled it off what makes this recording so special to me is that it finally presents irrefutable proof to all who ve ever doubted me that i can defeat the game without my character ryu hayabusa ever dying in fact he barely even gets touched by the demon hordes and enemy ninjas sent to stop him in his quest this is considered one of the toughest old school games around but i tried to make it look like child s play i hope i succeeded see what i mean it s important to let loose and have fun to recapture one s youth from time to time if only to remind yourself of what you once held as the universe s paramount truth that we are here to have fun and hey to look good while doing it no 2 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels 80s nostalgia childhood gaming life musings photography tuesday july 31 2018 why spontaneity pays off sometimes i m a creature of habit everyone who knows me knows this or rather i should say that i m a creature of planning i plan everything out my days my clothes my workouts my expenses my travels everything gets plotted out and charted down to the decimal point in general i hate jumping into a situation completely blind i need to have all my options choreographed first with chances of failure appropriately weighed and with plenty of back up plans or failsafes in place in case failure does occur only then do i act yes i m serious i do this for everything and especially when important decisions need to be made but lately i ve been thinking about the few times in life i have made important decisions out of spontaneity that is without having my course pre routed for me or any measurable back up plans to cover a failure one such time was my first job out of college i hated that job i had been at it for 19 months and really wanted to quit me being me however i couldn t do so until i first had another job lined up to land at when i jumped ship it was tough being able to go on interviews and still do my day job but i managed it for months i went on several interviews in the publishing industry here in new york but to no avail i had no leads then one day my difficult manager was being difficult as per usual she pushed my buttons one too many times on this day however and i decided right then and there that i was done i went to her boss and presented my resignation i announced i would give them two weeks to find my replacement but that i was out after that when asked if i had another job lined up i replied that i did not the director seemed taken aback by this and assured me that i could take all the time i needed to find a new place of employment before i left i resolutely held my ground and replied that whether i found another job or not within that two weeks i would still be leaving at the end of it it was just a feeling i had deep in my core that this was the right step to take and more importantly that things would somehow all work out if i give in to fate so i left the company after 2 weeks with nothing new lined up i then spent the next 2 weeks afterward interviewing at various places and just like that i found myself starting a new job at a new company on the 3rd week this place was better structured than the last my reporting manager was the nicest person i had ever interviewed with and best of all i was getting paid a lot more i remember thinking to myself wow had you not gone for it and quit you might never have had the free time to even go on this interview let alone land the position it was a lesson that taught me not everything needs to be safe before you make a life change sometimes you just need to read the situation and understand that it s time to move on you need to act when you feel that it s time to act yeah lately i ve been feeling this again not just at work but in my personal life as well it s starting to feel like as if it s time to move on which scares the hell out of me because i have no alternatives lined up i do want to switch to another job opportunity though i just don t know exactly what to do right now do i simply look for a change of scenery within the same field or do i reinvent myself entirely and try for a field that is totally different from what i do now but which would make me happier something involving photography perhaps or freelance writing maybe because i m starting to feel the boredom of my current job then too i m wondering should i leave new york city where would i move i would love to move back to vermont where i went to college but i would imagine my chances of finding work there would not be as favorable as they would be in another big city or should i move to texas where my current company has its headquarters in the dallas area my brother lives in houston should i move there perhaps honestly sometimes i wish i could just take that blind leap of faith and simply go leave everything behind in my current life and completely change my situation who knows but on a much less serious yet oddly connected note just recently an acquaintance of mine from years ago contacted me out of the blue i hadn t heard from her since then but she had been an aspiring actress and model at the same time that i had begun exploring photography we had helped each other out back then i taking her headshots and she well posing for em fast forward to earlier this year and this same woman texted me wanting to know if we could meet up again and do another photoshoot i told her sure of course although truth be told i wasn t feeling all that confident in my abilities to take good photos of anyone i didn t want her to think of me as a real photographer you see too much pressure on me because then her expectations would be so high and the end result would not live up to the imagination still she had loved my headshots of her and i did explain that photography is just my hobby and not my actual living trying to downsize her expectations you know but then months went by and i realized i just didn t want to put myself out there like that to set up a meet with this woman go over how i wanted to shoot her and then execute the shoot then one night a couple of weeks ago out of nowhere i sat up on my couch while watching tv and said hey why not do it tomorrow it was a crazy idea and totally spontaneous and on such short notice but i reached out to her and asked her if she would be willing to do the shoot within the next few days she told me she was free in the morning if i wanted to shoot something quick otherwise it would have to wait until she got back from a trip out of town 10 days later i leapt at that and said bet so we set up a quick street shoot outside her building the following morning basically in less than 12 hours from the time we texted until the time we saw each other face to face hey that can be a lifetime in this city anyway i m happy to say the shoot went very well far better than even my best expectations it was a quick affair and we made a quick decision on what she should wear something casual for sure since it was stifling hot and humid this july morning in new york city at first she wanted to wear a summery dress but then thought she d rather wear something she would normally wear and feel more comfortable in i dubbed it her boho chic look and so for an hour that morning while the light was still soft and dappled i shot her on the front steps to her apartment building these were just a few of the photos i made as i said this ended up being a really great shoot for me and best of all my client loved her photos she squealed with delight and high fived and hugged me upon seeing them on the viewscreen it was a great feeling and i was very happy for taking the chance completely out of my comfort zone and simply doing it rather than pre planning and second guessing and talking myself out of it coming as it did while i m in the midst of this current existential funk i have to say it gave me a lot of food for thought concerning the direction to take my life next maybe i really should just go out there and take the plunge make a change and to hell with the possible risks maybe life is all about risks no nothing ventured nothing gained right hmmmm i wonder about that though no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels life musings new york city life observations photography monday july 9 2018 panama trip day 1 here there be balboas earlier this year i embarked on a trip of a lifetime a trip to panama s steamy tropical province bocas del toro now before this year i had never heard of bocas as it s so lovingly referred to by travelers to this jungle paradise but i was searching for someplace exotic to take myself that year and frankly i had plenty of options a cultural exploration of the mountainous region of romania s back country i really wanted to do that or how about a photography tour of western ireland oh man oh man but then i came across this guy s account in condé nast traveler of his 2012 solo trip to bocas del toro in panama and suddenly i knew that this was the place i just had to go to it spoke to me on so many levels this is my account of that 7 day adventure day 1 here there be balboas i was so excited the night before i was to fly out to panama i checked and double checked everything went through my suitcase to make sure everything was still there and most importantly i made sure that my camera equipment was safely stored within my carry on bag this was going to be a big trip for me and a perfect opportunity for which to practice my newfound hobby so with that in mind fair warning from here on out all pic are mine the flight from new york city to panama city there are no direct bookings to the capital of bocas is straight forward and painless that is if you book with the country s premier carrier for international flights copa airlines it s a 5 hour direct flight between the two cities and i had made arrangements to spend a day and a night in the country s capital before boarding a local flight to the province of bocas del toro my ultimate destination luckily the country has a 1 1 monetary exchange with the united states what with its deep historic and economic ties to the u s a and all so this means the us dollar and the panamanian balboa hold identical value there and in fact the usd is accepted as legal tender throughout the country so there was no need for me stop by the currency exchange bureau on my way to the taxi stand outside of the airport i simply grabbed my bags and hailed the first cab that pulled up to the curb and i was off to my first destination just like that which in this case happened to be the historic old town of panama city known as casco viejo aka casco antiguo you ll find both names used for the district although the latter seems to be used more by locals all the cabbies know how to get there however as it s practically tourist central my cabbie spoke almost no english and i speak only a little spanish but between the two of us we managed to cobble together a weird spanglish shorthand for conversation during the 45 mins ride he enjoyed very much that i was wearing my ny yankees baseball cap since after all baseball is the no 1 national sport here and the legendary yankees closer mariano rivera is their native hero no seriously this country is quite obsessed with their local boy turned sports legend mariano could probably run for president there and win handily anyway the drive through panama city that early afternoon was quite a sight the poor areas are extremely poor and rundown it pretty much looks like the back towns of mexico but the more well to do districts where most of the corporations have their offices and the big chain hotels cater exclusively to tourists you would not be out of place thinking that you were driving through downtown miami tourists using downtown panama city as their selfie backdrop this city definitely has a southern fl vibe going on if you stick mainly to the affluent areas so yes the differential between rich and poor in this town is huge to say the least it s quite disconcerting to the outside visitor this stark contrast read more 2 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels bocas del toro panama trip photography survival guide travel vacation panama trip day 2 honor among thieves sorta but no not really earlier this year i embarked on a trip of a lifetime to central america specifically i visited panama s steamy rainforest province of bocas del toro a place i had never heard of before but of which i had read many encouraging accounts but first if you wish to read up on what has transpired before click on the link below day 1 here there be balboas and now for the continuation day 2 honor among thieves sorta but no not really after taking another leisurely stroll around the old town in panama city where i was staying it was time to pack up my things from the day before and commence the second leg of my trip to fly west northwest into the tropical jungles of bocas del toro flea market abutting the sea wall in casco viejo i bid farewell to the hotel staff and ubered my way over to the local airport for domestic flights albrook which is separate from the international airport tocumen and located almost on the opposite side of the city for some reason my cabbie didn t even know where this airport was and so it took a little longer and a few frantic exchanges in broken spanglish than it should have to reach the place but once there i was greeted with one of the smallest airports i ve ever been to not as puny as the landing strip on north eleuthera island in the bahamas when i stayed there a few years back but still pretty tiny and laid back there was hardly any security and people were just walking in and out of the terminal from the street with no luggage or anything there wasn t even a terminal to be honest just a waiting room and an announcement over the pa system alerting you in spanish when a plane was arriving on the tarmac basically it felt more like a train station than an airport when the plane that would take me to bocas did arrive though i noticed a ton of american and european tourists were suddenly joining me it seemed like they came out of nowhere this reveal actually helped to put me at ease because in that moment i knew for sure that i was on the right flight i don t think white people travel from panama city to anywhere else in the country except to bocas del toro i may be wrong but probably not as you would expect the plane was one of those small commuter type deals and we were all crammed tight in there luckily the flight from panama city to bocas town is just under one hour long so it was hardly that big of an ordeal and anyway i just couldn t wait to get there unfortunately i had no idea of what would be in store for me once i reached this tro...