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e fact that he kept these items while at the same time any other man would have destroyed them that was when i started to realize truly that he never fell out of love for me and i guess i never fell out of love for him something my friends noticed even when i was still stating we are only friends nothing more we went to a memorial for a dear friend of ours and a few weeks had passed before announcing our engagement i spoke with a mutual friend who was at this memorial and she told me how she could understand and that she could see it in the way i was looking at him and him at me it was in our eyes and that about sums it up doesn t it there were plenty of reasons to end the marriage but all has been corrected with acknowledgement and time and with that now we can move forward of course there are many who think i m on some pity romance and to them i simply shake my head and state you don t know me and you don t know us those are the haters that say that i know our history and know our present i m perfectly clear of what i can expect doug isn t well he has had a couple of strokes that doesn t make him any less of the man i love we go to brunch at this little place have been since we were first married there is this other man who hangs out there who had a fancy for me he seems to enjoy telling me that doug s only intention is to take advantage of me to never work and states that he has a problem with that and why don t i doug has worked over fifty years over fifty years of backbreaking work working freeway construction and owning a roofing company which included many years of performing his own tear offs which are brutal enough without the triple digit heats we have i do believe he has more than deserved his retirement and if i can give that to him damn it i will it has been over four years since i ve left him and i m finding myself everyday it s a daily trek for all of us don t you think but the journey continues on and i continue to learn oh i ll still continue writing as i ll still be finding ann macgregor who knows perhaps f a m will even get published share this share on facebook opens in new window facebook email a link to a friend opens in new window email share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on x opens in new window x print opens in new window print share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest share on reddit opens in new window reddit like loading 3 comments hot digitty dog guess who came home posted on november 2 2014 by nora l pratt under journal entry journey of the month that s right i m elated with the warm feeling of love and cheer as i get ready for my beloved hour coming back to me it has been too long and so much has changed since we last saw each other i ve gained a bit of weight not that he will notice and i ve grown so much happier since my move up here to the foothills love this little town by the way but alas we will be together again for the time being until spring when we must say good bye once again i just love this time of year the colder days the changing of the leaves and the food oh my goodness the food and of course the decorating can t forget about that this year was the first in many years that i ve felt like decorating for halloween we didn t have many trick or treaters this year but my house looked good i can t remember when i felt like decorating like this i decorated for christmas last year but none of the other holidays just didn t have it in me this year i ve got oodles of energy it s a joy as you know i ve been seeing my ex husband again who knew that we would be at such a happy place he s suffered a couple more strokes that have affected his response time his speech has slowed quite a bit but his humor remains the same and that wonderful man i mentioned turns out he is truly wonderful and our friendship has bloomed into a wonderfully flirty romance so needless to say i m having a fantastic time and enjoying the affections of two glorious gentlemen there is something to be said about being wooed as it can truly get those pheromones pumping and cause a woman to feel deliciously feminine suddenly your walk is a bit peppier and your smile is a bit brighter your holding doors open for people and allowing people to go ahead of you in line the whole world is brighter i know you just threw up a little in your mouth right sorry i just feel so damn happy and truth be told i deserve this am i right it has been way to long for me to feel this damn happy and i m not going to question it oh and to add to the above i ve made up with one of my best friends and will be celebrating my birthday with her this week yep life is good speaking of which i turn the wonderful age of 52 this wednesday and i m not even upset about it i m excited about my new age and the years ahead of me i just know that there is going to be a great adventure coming my way and i intend to enjoy each an d every turn of this ride so hello my dearest hour welcome back you have been missed we have so much to catch up on share this share on facebook opens in new window facebook email a link to a friend opens in new window email share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on x opens in new window x print opens in new window print share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest share on reddit opens in new window reddit like loading leave a comment counting my blessings instead of sheep posted on october 24 2014 by nora l pratt under journal entry journey of the month there are times in our lives when we realize it really does pay off to live with a partner or to at the very least have an emergency partner someone we can rely upon for heavy lifting help with heavy yard work or trips to the hospital the other day i suffered from one of the worst migraines in many many months i probably should have gone to emergency but how do i get there i m no longer in a community that has taxi cab service and really am not justified to call an ambulance so here i am with my dog tula who seemed very worried as she didn t leave my side all day and my cockatiel frank sinatra whose singing by the way i could have lived without then i got to thinking why of all the wonderful times in my life am i getting this doozy of a migraine now i m happy truly happy sleep has been a bit hard and i ve taken the advice of our wonderful bing crosby who sang when i m worried and i can t sleep i count my blessings instead of sheep and i fall asleep counting my blessings when my bankroll is getting small i think of when i had none at all and i fall asleep counting my blessings there is something very soothingly true in those lyrics i find that when i count all that i have as opposed to all that i don t i wake up with a far better view of my life true there is still so much that i want to fulfill in my life and so many dreams i wish to come true many of my dreams have i m singing and performing i ve connected with the local theatre and can t wait to audition or even work on their productions i m writing and researching a series of new novels to work on that will be about my family believe it or not i have a rich and luscious history dating back to 1634 so why these sick head aches perhaps it is the relief i feel as i m embarking on this new life they say that we can be so tense for a time that once we relax the blood vessels release and the migraine hits pow as i continue to count my blessings i m reminded that today marks kimball s birthday another milestone and as i start this day instead of the heavy feeling of grief i feel love and joy over having had this wonderful spirit in my life it warms me to know that that long winter of grief those cold foggy sometimes icy or sleety days months are now a season of the past i ve passed through that winter into spring and am now into the lovely warmth of summer with the wonderful memory of my dear sister warming my face i will be celebrating her life as i make her favorite birthday food this weekend and open her favorite bottle of champagne possibly an odd tradition to many of you but one that i find peace in as i do this to celebrate my mother as well with all the ugly in the world i love to be able to focus on all that is beautiful in life especially my life that is what is important after all i mean the way we can change the world is one thought at a time focusing on our blessings focusing on what we want as opposed to what we don t want the migraines will continue unfortunately however hopefully not quite as severe in future as i continue down this wonderful path of summer and content with the grass on this side of my fence happy birthday kimball i will forever love and remember you with all my heart through those old grounds of memory by emily dickinson through those old grounds of memory the sauntering alone is a divine intemperance a prudent man would shun of liquors that are vended tis easy to beware but statutes do not meddle with the internal bar pernicious as the sunset permitting to pursue but impotent to gather the tranquil perfidy alloys our firmer moments with that severest gold convenient to the longing but otherwise withheld share this share on facebook opens in new window facebook email a link to a friend opens in new window email share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on x opens in new window x print opens in new window print share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest share on reddit opens in new window reddit like loading leave a comment full circle some people are full of surprises wonderful surprises posted on october 19 2014 by nora l pratt under journal entry journey of the month as i sit here on this fine fall day i m elated with the recent event of reuniting with an old dear friend we had a falling out of sorts some time ago it was stupid really and i lost my temper these past few weeks i ve reached out to old lost friends call it age but i m finding that life is too short to hold onto grudges or past hurts and i ve been told by these old friends in no uncertain terms to f off we don t want you here well i guess i can t blame them then again it left me feeling a bit sorry for these individuals i sort of pitied them i mean if i was receiving an email or call from an old friend especially someone i d known since childhood or for over three decades let s say with heartfelt apology asking if we can get past this i would call them and talk forgive and forget let bygones be bygones that is unless they sexually assaulted me or killed my mother however this was not how these individuals decided to treat the situation they chose to clutch their pain grudge and proudly wear it like an armor thereby warding off anyone mostly me like garlic to a vampire being the tenacious person that i am i recently reached to this friend that i heard from today giving her my apologies and asking if there was anyway we could move forward realizing that it had been three years i fully expected the same reaction as with the other lost friends i was working on my computer and sipping my coffee when my cell rang i was actually expecting a male friend who said he would be calling sometime this weekend though i thought it was a bit early as he was to be taking his student for an ocean swim so i answered this unknown number and to my surprise it was her thank you for reaching out she said well thank you for calling usually i just get a f k off and get defriended i replied and the tears started to flow we talked for close to two hours as if no time passed i ve spent a great deal of time dealing with those voices in my head that told me you re a bad person ann you don t deserve to have friends like them you expect them to forgive you you aren t worthy but some strange things came out this week as i ve said good bye so some toxic people who really not only recently decided i was not good enough for whatever reason never felt the love i felt for them for three decades or more i felt cleansed and felt those voices flushed away it was as if suddenly i could see my worth because i do forgive i do keep my word and don t spread gossip hurtful horrid gossip i used to think to never do that which you don t want done to you or on the positive slant treat others as you would like to be treated it doesn t always work that way as people are going to talk no matter what but this i do know and i ve said this before truth always wins out people will show you who they are and these individuals have shown me who they really were i just didn t have enough faith in myself to trust it i knew they didn t love me i could feel it in the way they treat me and the way they treated those friends around them i knew they were ashamed of me and that i didn t make the cut with their other friends who had more money and owned cabins boats vacation homes but again i couldn t allow myself to see the shallowness in them those people are my past they don t define me and no longer have any hold on me from now on i only care for and look forward to all that are in my life now those individuals that lift me up make me laugh and truly care for me as i do them friends and acquaintances will always come and go this is true but it is a certain blessed person that will realize that life is too short people get older we all do and sometimes you just need to let bygones be bygones and realize that there was love and deep friendship there to my friend today if you read this you know who you are i m so very grateful for you and love you with all my heart this is my best birthday present share this share on facebook opens in new window facebook email a link to a friend opens in new window email share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on x opens in new window x print opens in new window print share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest share on reddit opens in new window reddit like loading 1 comment three s company or is it posted on october 16 2014 by nora l pratt under journal entry journey of the month it is october and there is finally a sense of fall in the air i actually turned off the ac so sorry i haven t written since july my apologies life has been wonderful and full my grief has lessened to the point i m smiling happy and have that wonderful peppy bounce back in my step even so however i ve found myself in a precarious place just a few months ago you might remember i was asking myself the question did i make the correct decision of divorcing my husband douglas i so longed for that man who i dated for over a year that man who was so genuinely kind and loved to cook was a champion fisherman and abalone diver there were so many things i loved about that man so many things that i wonder what happened what happened in our marriage that made me this woman his wife say enough i ask this because life has brought me back to this same man well ...