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giant speed bump on the long painful road to parenthood giant speed bump on the long painful road to parenthood if tips who is she posted by giantspeedbump april 12 2010 parenthood we ve arrived in the world of parenthood it has been one heck of a bumpy ride and i m not yet ready to say it s been worth it completely however looking at our beautiful healthy baby girl sure helps soften some of the past hurt for updates please continue to check in here although i m not sure how long i ll maintain either blog leave a comment posted in infertility posted by giantspeedbump march 12 2010 turning tide in case anyone still checks this blog you might be interested in what s going on over at my adoption blog love you already the tide may finally be turning with any luck come monday the giant speed bump may flatten out and become a long winding beautiful road leave a comment posted in adoption posted by giantspeedbump august 19 2009 way to burst my bubble gee thanks today i was pleased to discover an article about a brave canadian couple with enough courage to take on the ontario healthcare system and is fighting for coverage for fertility treatments i am always excited to see these rare examples and usually equally ashamed that i don t have the strength to do the same let s call it 144 on list of things i hate about how infertility changes your life the piece itself is not overly strong it s more an update or brief on the fact that this is happening great best of luck to them but then i started reading the comments boy oh boy talk about a way to get knocked out of the bubble that surrounds you when you are completely immersed in this world call me naive but i honestly think i am guilty of believing society had progressed to the point where it was accepted that infertility is a serious issue affecting millions of people all of whom deserve an equal chance to procreate no no quite the contrary i forgot there are actually human beings on this planet who believe infertility is not a medical condition we are infertile because we re old having children is not a basic human need or desire and my personal fave if we can t conceive we are not fit to be parents don t get me started 2 comments posted in infertility posted by giantspeedbump august 10 2009 i m okay i am feeling okay i haven t had one of those devastated crumpled up in a ball cries from the depths of my heart i haven t cursed a higher power i really haven t reacted much at all to a negative beta it might have something to do with a new development happening on the side our adoption file has moved from a voluntary infant placement facility to the provincial department that deals with adoption this means that we are now being considered for a much broader list of children most of whom are older than infants and some of whom will naturally have extra special needs beyond separation and loss most children who come into provincial care are removed from the home involuntarily due to neglect or abuse this is extremely scary to us but we re told there is a lot of support available and that there are many successful families through this route i would actually love to hear from any adoptive parents who have positive stories to share about adoption via foster or provincial state care i have so many questions 3 comments posted in adoption hope loss posted by giantspeedbump august 4 2009 guess who s not pregnant that would be me once again for the fourth time it s over day 3 of full period you do get used to this each time it gets mildly easier not easy but moderately less painful nonetheless i have discovered bud lime takes the edge off 2 comments posted in infertility posted by giantspeedbump july 25 2009 no signs 5 dp3dt no signs of anything happening i hate this part leave a comment posted in infertility posted by giantspeedbump july 20 2009 i should have bought a lottery ticket normally at this time i would write an update about this morning s transfer but in this case i needn t bother that s because i somehow planned it all out in advance apparently and wrote exactly how it would go in my last post that s pretty much how it went 6 eggs 4 fertilized embryos 3 semi quality embryos at transfer and now they are nesting quietly now i wait if i were of a stronger faith i would pray give me one that s all i ask for in this life one baby and i will never ever wish or want for anything anything ever again as long as i live leave a comment posted in infertility posted by giantspeedbump july 17 2009 buckle up and hold on tight just a quick update retrieval was fine this morning and reletively uneventful the good part is we have 6 eggs now the part i hate the sickening rollercoaster ride beginning with tomorrow s call to report how many have fertilized my bets are on 4 then sunday s call will come and we find out how many have divided i m going to stick on the sunny side of life and pray for 4 and predict only 3 will be in good shape then the decision do we transfer on day 3 likely or wait until day 5 this has never happened and then of course showing up for transfer to learn the condition of our embryos i would be happy with one healthy cellular blob p s loved the drugs today my how i d forgotten how great they are 1 comment posted in infertility ivf posted by giantspeedbump july 15 2009 some people never learn and by people i mean me that s right i am like pavlov s dog drool and all heck if you google the term sucker for punishment you ll likely land on a web site all about moi seriously my update is just to say that the speedbumps are taking part in ivf 4 in fact i just took my trigger shot a few minutes ago in preparation for retrieval on friday this has not been an easy cycle for 15 days i ve injected the maximum legal allowable amount of drugs known to human kind for the first 4 days i didn t respond at all during my first scan there were two piddly half follicles barely registering on the screen my estradiol was 126 that s bad period twice during this cycle it s been suggested we cancel if for nothing else to save our souls money but i had a nagging feeling things would improve based mostly on oh i don t know the fact that i have done this three other times and already know i have ovaries of steel sheesh next e levels 350 still bad really really bad luckily i listened to my inner voice does that sound creepy and made the decision to trudge on and continued to inject 700 day into my belly during the next scan i had 3 or 4 sorta kinda maybe follicles but my estradiol levels were still not stellar only 1900 note for newbies one mature egg 1000 and then just like magic four days later i have a sudden jump in my levels 6220 and the scan revealed 5 lovely looking follicles and 3 piddly ones which brings me to right now as a poor rotten responder i am pretty darn pleased with my nasty ass ovaries this may seem strange to anyone who has harvested 20 eggs in one go but to me it s about as good as it gets i m actually looking forward to finding out how many eggs we ll have in our basket come friday morning wish us luck leave a comment posted in fertility challenged hope ivf posted by giantspeedbump june 28 2009 ivf update i realize i ve all but abandoned this blog and i realize few if any people stop by to read it anymore but while i m not active here i m still here and life continues to whiz by with horrendous speed while i race against time to reach the elusive victory i ve yearned for well for many years now it almost hurts to say it s been seven years anyhow i thought i d post an update to share we ve opted for ivf 4 and today marks day one of injections i m on a flare protocol which honestly means nothing to my stubborn steel clad ovaries but it makes the docs and nurses feel good to suggest this protocol may produce better results and while i have told them i ve done a similar protocol at another clinic they neither seem to listen or care the fact is there is nothing to suggest any protocol will spark my ovaries to respond expectation managed so why am i back at clinic a the one i hated and swore i d never visit again good question for starters we have a new re who is fantastic and seems to get it and while the re we ve used in the past is the director of the clinic we have made our wishes known that we do not want anything to do with her and insisted that she is not present for our retrieval or transfer also i have a bad and i m talking worse than ever bad case of the who cares i am so unenthusiastic about this that i m barely participating in fact if it weren t for the fact that i have to inject the drugs into my own body i doubt i could tell you what i m injecting i m sure there is a sports analogy or cliché about not showing up for the game i ve heard hockey players use it that applies to me i am just going through the motions and truly don t feel nervous or anxious or excited i think with each ivf this syndrome gets worse it is so dangerous to care it is much safer to turn off all emotion and treat the needles the same as brushing my teeth or shaving my legs an annoying but necessary ritual so there you have it i expect retrieval will be around the 14th or so and i think i ll align the transfer should we be so lucky with vacation so i can spend my tww in a hammock to end on a positive note the one glimmer of h pe not ready for that word yet in this scenario is that this ivf follows my surgery for the first time i will have a normal uterus to work with and that is something new it gives me reason not h pe to believe we could have success leave a comment posted in infertility older posts categories adoption child free clomid depression donor technology fertility challenged guilt hope hpt infertility ivf infertility joy loss surrogacy recent posts parenthood turning tide way to burst my bubble gee thanks i m okay guess who s not pregnant archives archives select month april 2010 march 2010 august 2009 july 2009 june 2009 april 2009 january 2009 december 2008 november 2008 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