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be discovered they want to get it over as soon as possible and if they have an audience that person is nervous too and usually serving as a sentry in this case the scene described by dr ford is one of ease kavanaugh had been in this situation before and so had his buddy they were laughing they knew what they were doing and enjoying it i am certain there are other women silenced by kavanaugh s power and privilege if not for dr ford s one piece swimsuit she would have been raped that night most likely by both kavanaugh and his buddy he s guilty at september 29 2018 no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels current events kavanaugh news sex offender social work therapy saturday september 22 2018 tap tap is this thing on well it s been three years eight months and five days 192 weeks 1 344 days since my last post here the popular consensus amongst people in my life is that facebook killed blogs it s so much easier to click like share an article or a picture make an announcement shout at people who are different than you or just passively participate in the online society than to ponder a topic and compose an articulate essay in order to share an experience epiphany or opinion in my absence a number of things have happened in my life and in our world that i would have shared here but i got lazy facebook is just so much easier and that is a bad thing as the results of the easy way out are played out on the national stage you know the big bad thing that happened in washington dc and continues to assault our sensibilities on a daily basis but life is lived with people and are measured in days and moments and accomplishments and changes that we move through every moment of every day since i ve been gone i ve met and married a wonderful man travelled to a number of new places around the us my two youngest children have graduated high school and are attending college i no longer work for a child welfare agency i m now a social worker for a secure treatment facility for people adjudicated guilty except for insanity i m a licensed sex offender therapist i m a soon to be licensed clinical social worker lcsw we have adopted three rescue kitties for a total of four fur babies which includes two mini panthers i ve essentially given up my struggle to lose weight it is what it is that s the major parts of my life over the past 3 years let s see what happens in this space next at september 22 2018 no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels life saturday january 17 2015 saturday 9 zing went the strings of my heart this song is about love at first sight do you believe that immediate attraction lasts i believe in lust at first sight there has to be something carnal that attracts one to another beyond that there must be a deeper connection in order to make the relationship last the lyrics mention a breath of spring and robins singing now that we re deep into winter what do you miss about spring daylight heat green beauty purpose life though the world knew her as judy garland this week s featured artist was born frances gumm and her family called her baby does your family have any pet names for you to the people that matter i m dad the boy calls me old man when he s feeling brave because she was petite just 4 11 it was obvious when garland gained even a few pounds and consequently she battled her weight her whole life now that we re in the new year have you made any resolutions about your own diet over the past two years i ve lost a total of 130 lbs see widget in sidebar i d like to lose another 45 50 lbs whether that happens this year or beyond it s a significant goal the year this song came out 1939 was the year garland s most famous movie the wizard of oz was released which of her three traveling companions is your favorite scarecrow tin man or cowardly lion i loved scarecrow he was intellectually curious and demonstrated critical thinking skills when i was younger i didn t know that was what he was doing but i respected him for it barry manilow enjoyed judy s performance of this song so much he did a dream duet with her and included it in his recent cd what performer who is no longer with us do you wish you could have seen in concert that is a tough one i am really into music so the list is long john lennon johnny cash ray charles i saw stevie ray vaughn the summer before he died but i d love to see him again the one that tops the list though freddie mercury judy had a terrible problem with tardiness are you usually prompt yes during world war ii judy worked tirelessly to entertain the troops tell us about a cause that s near and dear to your heart homeless youth generally they are homeless because they are lgbt and their christianist families are so full of love they have disowned their child fargin bastages the american film institute lists garland as the 8th greatest movie star of all time who is your all time favorite actor or actress john wayne clint eastwood sean connery humphrey bogart lauren bacall maureen o hara denzel washington meryl streep johnny depp helena bonham carter alan rickman tom hanks robin williams matt damon ben affleck gregory peck cary grant doris day james garner shall i go on at january 17 2015 3 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels meme tuesday january 13 2015 2015 goals 2015 is off to a roaring start before it gets too far gone i must make my annual list of goals i m setting for myself i did a lot of driving last week so i had time to really ponder what i wanted to accomplish this year they became rather lofty the longer i drove somewhere around hood river i was thinking i could write a novel considering the gaps in posts to this humble blog i felt that the great american novel may be out of reach in the end i felt the kiss keep it simple stupid method was perhaps the best way to go to lose 45 lbs two years ago i set an arbitrary goal weight 235 lbs i am just 45 lbs away that s just 3 75 lbs per month totally doable purchase and most importantly use a bicycle i used to love riding a bike 30 years ago i see so many people in lycra cruising the county roads and appearing to enjoy it they certainly look fit maybe i ll look hot in lycra take a real vacation i m not sure what that means but i ll know it when i see it i think a real vacation is more than just a long weekend in seattle or boise perform my job duties excellently again not sure what that will look like but i ll know it when i see it the biggest sign will be if i am still in my current job or something better by january 2016 that would be excellent unplug i hear this is the trendy thing to do in the world of expanding television channel offerings and bundled services i currently pay 140 month for dishtv and internet and 7 a month for netflix i could get stand alone internet service with netflix and hulu and amazon prime for half what i m paying for dish my current agreement with dish ends in august i think there you have it five goals here s to a prosperous new year at january 13 2015 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels life sunday january 11 2015 sunday stealing 2014 2015 wantonly stolen from german language rocks what experience would you love to do all over again watching the seahawks win the superbowl wait i may get to do that again what was the best gift you received time with my kids as they transition to being young adults how did your overall outlook on life evolve after years of being who i though others wanted to me to be i embraced the shakespearean mantra to thine own self be true what was the biggest problem you solved i let a smooth talker with a nice body move into my house it took three months to get him out what was the funniest moment of your year one that still makes it hard not to burst out laughing when you think about it the weekend we had in boise in june was a lot of fun what purchase turned out to be the best decision ever my very own washer and dryer no more wasted afternoons at the laundromat what one thing would you do differently and why look at the joy jar post every event is a learning opportunity especially the ones that started off as a good idea at the time what do you deserve a pat on the back for moments of personal growth and accomplishment goals that are met obstacles overcome and those moments when i resisted the urge to smack someone repeatedly with a tackhammer what activities made you lose track of time those glorious moments with family and friends away from the duties of daily life what did you think about more than anything else uncertainty of my ability to be victorious over the challenges before me what topics did you most enjoy learning about the procedures that go with the new responsibilities at work what new habits did you cultivate eating less moving more what advice would you give your early 2014 self if you could listen to you gut pay attention to the red flags be strong did any parts of your self or your life do a complete 180 this year if something isn t working for you change it my weight my career trajectory my relationships if it isn t working why keep banging your head against the wall what or who had the biggest positive impact on your life this year losing weight had a huge personal impact on how i feel about myself my boss had an impact by believing in me for new responsibilities at work what do you want the overarching theme for your 2015 to be to thine own self be true what do you want to see discover explore i m not sure yet i want to continue to explore my ability to participate in physical activities i would love to travel this year but finances are always an issue who do you want to spend more time with in 2015 i always want more time with my kids than i get what skills do you want to learn improve or master i want to learn how to properly lift weights with proper nutrition to achieve the embodiment of beast mode which personal quality do you want to develop or strengthen i want to increase my ability to think and speak rationally in pressure situations what do you want your everyday life to be like less stressful i want to be able to change the things i can not stress the things i can t and the wisdom to know the difference which habits do you want to change cultivate or get rid of i want to increase the commitment and stability of healthy eating what do you want to achieve career wise since i achieved a major shift in my profession in 2014 i want to continue growing in that position and achieve excellence in it how do you want to remember the year 2015 when you look back on it 10 20 50 years from now as with every year i want to be better at the end than i was at the beginning that can mean so many things what is your number one goal for 2015 rather than regretting my mistakes i want to see them not as regrets but as learning opportunities at january 11 2015 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels life meme joy jar 2014 in 2014 i was challenged to make a joy jar i got an interesting jar with plans to decorate it as pictured that didn t happen and put slips of paper with the things that made me happy or brought me joy during the year i also put ticket stubs in there since i like movies and they bring me joy on 01 01 15 i opened the jar and began sorting through the slips of paper i noticed two things the ups out numbered the downs in 2014 and they brought back good memories during the down times there are gaps which means i need to do a better job of seeing the joy in my life even on the stressful days below are the things that brought me joy in 2014 some were short lived others made a tremendous impact some were lessons learned some were a fork in the road they are written just as i wrote them on that day with the same emphasis i thought about adding commentary but i think i ll just leave them as they are and let them speak for themselves january 1 i saw saving mr banks 2 avery learned i was in pendleton and asked me to stop by where she was she gave me a big hug and said i love you she also noticed i have been losing weight 4 avery stopped by and brought me a dutch bros coffee 4 fitting into size 50 pants 5 bohemian rhapsody 9 meaghan advised me not to apply for the job in john day 10 having a chat with andrew about real christianity and genuine spirituality 11 seahawks win 15 buying prescription sunglasses 17 new couch 19 ginger darrell came over to watch the nfc game with me go hawks 20 walking in the mlk peace walk life s most persistent and urgent question is what are you doing for others mlk 27 tom reminding me of great music of our youth loud singing along 30 offered a chance to be a supervisor in boardman february 2 seahawks win 9 i saw august osage county 22 met richard dinner at applebee s ams vs everett march 1 blazer game with bryan 2 breakfast with rosalynda bryan 5 mf asked me to be with him at an appointment for support and advice 6 i met a most wonderful beautiful man 7 i saw need for speed april 4 i saw captain america winter soldier with avery jessica 13 hawks tattoo may 7 being recruited by a social service agency 24 i saw x men days of future past 31 i saw maleficent with avery jess june 2 interview at astoria 12 jess finished the 8th grade 14 spending the day with jess 15 avery took me to lunch fathersday 19 interview for pendleton supervisor 25 i got it the new gig starts 7 1 27 traveling to boise with jess 28 boise music festival with bryan jess 29 touring the old idaho prison with jess bryan july 1 new gig in pendleton 25 i saw hercules august 2 moved to pendleton 3 andrew asked for a key so he could hang since hs is nearby 7 andrew came to watch hawks pre season game 10 jess cake won grand champion at the fair 17 i met t 19 first date at gp 22 first road trip to portland 30 t moved in not many joys coming up september 3 seeing t as a woman wow october 10 i saw gone girl november 1 i saw the judge 10 i saw interstellar 11 a much needed day at home alone 14 amazing event at work 14 coworker told me that they weren t sure i would take to my new job she and other managers have been impressed 27 avery andrew and jess were here for thanksgiving december 4 t is finally gone good riddance 25 andrew avery and jess came over to exchange christmas gifts at january 11 2015 no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels family joy life saturday january 10 2015 saturday 9 dancing with myself saturday 9 dancing with myself 1980 this song is one of billy idol s biggest hits can you name another seriously yes white wedding rock the cradle of love rebel yell mony mony hot in the city eyes without a face got to be a lover when is the last time you danced around your home this morning in this song billy says he dances with his own reflection is there a mirror in the room you re in right now yes but it s on...