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you cannot pick some sins and say i do not murder i do not steal i do not lie etc but you break others like the pharisees did outwardly they looked like they were righteous but jesus could see their hearts and called them a brood of vipers matt 3 7 matt 12 34 matt 23 33 luke 3 7 galatians 4 4 7 nkjv 4 but when the fullness of the time had come god sent forth his son born of a woman born under the law 5 to redeem those who were under the law that we might receive the adoption as sons 6 and because you are sons god has sent forth the spirit of his son into your hearts crying out abba father 7 therefore you are no longer a slave but a son and if a son then an heir of god through christ we have been adopted as sons all of us male and female through jesus who kept the law perfectly and because we are his sons now we can receive the holy spirit and we are now heirs of god through jesus sacrifice galatians 5 4 5 nkjv 4 you have become estranged from christ you who attempt to be justified by law you have fallen from grace 5 for we through the spirit eagerly wait for the hope of righteousness by faith if you try to be justified by the law your own works you alienate yourself from jesus you have fallen away from grace i cannot stress this enough if you try to get saved or stay saved by keeping the law you cannot be saved you cannot go to heaven jesus is the only way and only jesus john 14 6 nkjv jesus said to him i am the way the truth and the life no one comes to the father except through me but those with the spirit are righteous by faith galatians 5 16 18 nkjv walking in the spirit 16 i say then walk in the spirit and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh 17 for the flesh lusts against the spirit and the spirit against the flesh and these are contrary to one another so that you do not do the things that you wish 18 but if you are led by the spirit you are not under the law the holy spirit will tell you what is right and wrong and will guide you if you live through the spirit you will not willfully go and sin if you know someone who says they are saved and have now a license to sin they are not sealed with the holy spirit i can promise you that so that means they are not truly saved posted in uncategorized leave a comment bible prophesies regarding the end times july 29 2017 by marion so many prophesies have come to pass already so i want to share some video s first about the prophesies that have come to pass first and then those that still need to be fulfilled first up is the topic of daniel s 70 weeks in the following video chris patrick explains the 70 weeks of daniel and how the first 69 weeks was fulfilled and the 70th week suspended and kept aside for the final 7 years also called the tribulation next i want to show you how recent prophesies were fulfilled by the coming together of israel as a nation again since 1947 no more prophesies need to be fulfilled before the rapture but there are a few that might be close to the rapture time and it seems from the bible that these will be fulfilled shortly after the rapture first up is the covenant with many as mentioned in daniel daniel 9 27 then he shall confirm a covenant with many for one week but in the middle of the week he shall bring an end to sacrifice and offering and on the wing of abominations shall be one who makes desolate even until the consummation which is determined is poured out on the desolate this covenant with many is considered by most eschatological scholars to be a peace agreement in the middle east and recently efforts has increased again to get this peace agreement in place the rebuilding of the third temple in this video they argue that the temple was never on the temple mount but close to it and if the jews can accept that they can start building their temple immediately i do not think however that they will accept that very easily though there has been speculation that the temple mount will be shared and that the temple will fit in on top even with the current buildings that are already there and that that may be possible after a peace agreement that might include a sharing agreement of the temple mount everything is ready at the temple institute for a third temple they are training priests a red heifer farm is ready all the temple artefacts have been made and the ark of the covenant has even been found and ready for excavation i posted about the ark of the covenant here https keepingmyeyesonjesus wordpress com 2017 06 30 4868 destruction of damascus isaiah 17 1 kjv the burden of damascus behold damascus is taken away from being a city and it shall be a ruinous heap jeremiah 49 23 27 kjv 23 concerning damascus hamath is confounded and arpad for they have heard evil tidings they are fainthearted there is sorrow on the sea it cannot be quiet 24 damascus is waxed feeble and turneth herself to flee and fear hath seized on her anguish and sorrows have taken her as a woman in travail 25 how is the city of praise not left the city of my joy 26 therefore her young men shall fall in her streets and all the men of war shall be cut off in that day saith the lord of hosts 27 and i will kindle a fire in the wall of damascus and it shall consume the palaces of benhadad there are a number of other prophesies that need to be fulfilled too but most are in the final seven years of tribulation and after the rapture for instance there will be the rise of the antichrist and the false prophet the two witnesses the mark of the beast and the abomination of desolation in the 3rd temple in jerusalem just to name a few posted in uncategorized tagged end times middle east peace agreement third temple leave a comment our time is almost up july 19 2017 by marion i can say a lot on this topic but this video explains it all so beautifully so i am just going to post it and let you watch it anything i m going to say will just be a repeat of what is in the video robert breaker is not the only one who teaches about this you can search on youtube most end time preachers and a lot of main stream preachers all preach this concept posted in uncategorized tagged end times leave a comment signs of the times july 11 2017 by marion i don t know if you have noticed it but if you just look at natural disasters and the general state of the world you will notice that there are a lot of disasters at the moment rumours of world war 3 starting and generally things that were always seen as evil is now made out as good and good is now evil i have been aware of this for a few years now and have watched things deteriorate over the last few years so that was what started my research into eschatology the study of the end times in the bible i m going to share some scriptures here pertaining to the end times and you will recognize many things happening today 2 timothy 3 kjv this know also that in the last days perilous times shall come 2 for men shall be lovers of their own selves covetous boasters proud blasphemers disobedient to parents unthankful unholy 3 without natural affection trucebreakers false accusers incontinent fierce despisers of those that are good 4 traitors heady high minded lovers of pleasures more than lovers of god 5 having a form of godliness but denying the power thereof from such turn away 6 for of this sort are they which creep into houses and lead captive silly women laden with sins led away with divers lusts 7 ever learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth 8 now as jannes and jambres withstood moses so do these also resist the truth men of corrupt minds reprobate concerning the faith 9 but they shall proceed no further for their folly shall be manifest unto all men as theirs also was luke 21 7 11 kjv 7 and they asked him saying master but when shall these things be and what sign will there be when these things shall come to pass 8 and he said take heed that ye be not deceived for many shall come in my name saying i am christ and the time draweth near go ye not therefore after them 9 but when ye shall hear of wars and commotions be not terrified for these things must first come to pass but the end is not by and by 10 then said he unto them nation shall rise against nation and kingdom against kingdom 11 and great earthquakes shall be in divers places and famines and pestilences and fearful sights and great signs shall there be from heaven these are not all the scriptures but i am sure you get the idea now have a look at some video s i just picked a few there are so many to choose from posted in uncategorized tagged end times leave a comment archaeological evidence the bible is true june 30 2017 by marion this is amazing this man found so many things and places to prove the bible is true noah s ark sodom and gomorrah the egyptian army on the bottom of the red sea and so much more but the part that blessed me the most was his discovery of the ark of the covenant and the blood on it he first found the place where jesus was crucified and saw there was a crack in the earth because of the earthquake blood from the wound in jesus side seeped through that crack into a chamber below where the ark of the covenant is and dropped right onto the mercy seat in the old testament the priests sprinkled the blood of animals that were sacrificed right there on the mercy seat and jesus actual blood was also sprinkled onto the same mercy seat ron wyatt had the dry blood analyzed and it only has 24 chromosomes 23 x and 1 y proving that it s jesus blood as he had no earthly father the ark of the covenant is still there to this day and ready for when the third temple will be built wow wow wow is all i can say i m busy working on the post for the reasons why i think the rapture will be soon but it turns out to be more than i thought so i might break it up in a few posts that way i can post quicker and the post won t be too long posted in uncategorized leave a comment i am back june 27 2017 by marion i see its more than 3 years since i last wrote a blog post i can t believe how time has flown i doubt any of my regular readers still follow this blog but according to the stats there are still a few people who visit this blog every day so i ll post for whoever comes this way let me first give a short update on us g force is 5 5 years old now and in grade r the last year of crèche but it s at the primary school he will attend next year as his previous crèche does not have the option of grade r some do but not the one he went to he is such a joy to us and the absolute light in our lives i still thank jesus for the absolutely wonderful blessing of being his mommy here are some pictures of g force the first day at the new school in january and the official photo taken at the school in march as you can see he is a big boy already i was pregnant 2 years ago but our little baby s heartbeat stopped somewhere around 10 5 weeks i had the d c evac at 12 weeks on the 15th of september 2015 once again a natural conception with no medical help and i was 44 at that stage i assumed the fs would do genetic tests again on the baby but it turns out they probably didn t as i never got any feedback after like with my first pregnancy a miscarriage is never easy to deal with but this time it wasn t just my feelings and dh s feelings to take into account but also g force s as he still really wants a little brother preferably but he will be happy with a sister too he is asking us often why the baby had to die and why he can t get a little brother or sister and it s absolutely heartbreaking for both dh and me i am 46 now and we have officially given up on trying to get pregnant again the reason is that we believe that jesus is coming to fetch us soon in the rapture and that we will be reunited with our 32 babies in heaven that is actually why i want to start this blog up again i want to share why i think jesus is coming for us soon so stay tuned i hope to explain more very soon posted in uncategorized 1 comment when i m weak i m strong may 19 2014 by marion i ve wanted to blog about this topic for a while now and just when i got ready to sit down and write the post things changed and i felt that i cannot write about it because what do i know after all well things have changed again for the worse and then i got some awesome messages to confirm what i wanted to write about originally so maybe maybe it is the right time and circumstances to write about this in january i was at my wits end the festive season had just ended and g force was totally out of his routine it was so hard to try to stick to any kind of routine when one is constantly either busy entertaining or invited to visit someone else when we have visitors or when we visit other people g force generally does not want to nap in the afternoon and try as we might he will fight and fight until we eventually give up often he also does not want to go to sleep when it s his regular bed time being out of routine also resulted in him not sleeping well during the night and many nights he would wake me up 2 4 times often starting as early as 22h00 or 23h00 by the middle of january i was completely exhausted and felt like i was going to have a breakdown well one night when he was once again struggling to sleep and it was 21h30 or so already i just started crying and said to the lord lord i just cannot do this anymore i am soooo tired i need sleep and i need to sleep right through the night lord i give up i have tried everything and nothing works i don t know what else to do i just cannot do this anymore i now give this over to you lord because i have no idea what to do eventually g force went to sleep and i stumbled to bed and fell asleep immediately much to my surprise dh woke me up the next morning at 6h30 to get g force ready for school for the first time in what felt like forever i had slept straight from about 22h00 to 6h30 immediately i thanked and praised the lord because i knew it was only due to his grace this was not a once off occurrence either from that night g force s sleeping habits changed from waking many times a night most nights and only occasionally sleeping through the night to sleeping through most of the time and only waking up once and then only occasionally that was until the somewhere in the beginning of april slowly but surely he would start to wake around 4 or 5 in the morning and then often he would wake up anytime from about midnight to 2 also once again the nights where he slept through were few and far in between i was at a loss what to do because last time we really did not do anything how to fix this problem i asked the lord to help again because let s face it it was thanks to his doing that things got better there was absolutely no explanation why g force was waking up in the night again we thought that he might be cold because it was getting colder but warming his room did not help eventually a week ago i finally figured it out g force told me that there is something in his mouth that is hurting it sometimes when he 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