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o is skinny no matter what they shove in their gullet what is wrong with naughtiness we all like it it kinda makes the world go round in a way we are all deeply attracted to it except super boring scary people there is not one human left alive over the age of 30 who hasn t at some point uttered that s what she said god help me i m pretty sure i ve said that in the sacristy there does seem to be a line between harmless fun involving distinctly adult foibles and full on sexual harassment and food abuse notice that naughtiness is never about hurting people it s more about hurting yourself you always take a risk in saying something suggestive or bringing a piecaken to a public event what will people think of the mind that knows that joke or conceived of such a dessert the rewards of course are huge if successful we share a tawdry laugh create a shortcut to personal intimacy by engaging in trust you trust me because i trusted you with my bawdy limerick i trust you because you laughed now i know you re safe you think i m fun if you eat the piecaken i made i know that you too would rather sit in front of re runs of kids in the hall eating ice cream than going on a run literally every runner right now um i once shotgunned an entire coscto cheesecake during an lotr marathon because runners can do that sort of thing and it never shows on their runny mcrunnerson bodies man now i want a poke bowl anyhow i don t know the answers i guess concupiscence is a slippery slope i guess i was once described a decade ago by one public figure to another as that saucy naughty girl on twitter so concupiscence was my actual brand for a while there but i m celibate so my concupiscence is for naught maybe two poke bowls fine fine back to prayer update 1 out of 4 priests takes issue with my cavalier use of the term concupiscence he is right to do so never take me for a seminary trained theologian gentle reader i m literally just some chick posted in sharing time tagged concupiscence gluttony human experience naughtiness sin 1 comment may 12 2022 by kelliejane it s our time down here photo the goonies warner bros what is the holy spirit some of you ask especially those who just read my schpeil on the trinity not just the chick in the matrix and then i tell you from experience the holy spirit is that water slide from the goonies i m sorry what you say because you are a very serious person with a very serious question i am a twit inebriated with the blood of christ so i say to you a serious person you know when the kids in the goonies have to escape the fratellis they end up on that wacky water slide they have no idea where they re going it s scary but also kind of fun and they end up being one step closer to freedom it s like that huh you say having never thought of it like that because st athanasius never ever said that even once in his ponderous creed obviously the holy spirit is not a water tunnel dug by a fictional pirate but as wind is only seen by what it does to the trees the los angeles rubbish and my hair sinuses the holy spirit is best seen by effect i mean it originally appeared as tongues of fire what actually do you want from me here when i truly sincerely surrender my will to the will of god not just ploddingly cooperate but deeply let go of the wheel that water slide opens under me suddenly i m moving to another state to become the only christian intuitive at a famous psychic bookstore i m now listening to dailies from argo with the sequel to 300 coming across my desk i m driving the bishop of el salvador to a dodger game i m doing holy week by myself somehow it s all working i m afraid i ll be homeless one month and buying a house the next like you really have to let go and then cling so very tightly to god because only he knows where this crazy thing is taking you if you let go you may fly off the path into darkness you are not as smart as god keep your hands and feet inside the ride at all times i did it again recently surrendered not out of sadness or anger or frustration i just said to god you have now blessed me with tremendous stability surely you want me to have a place from which to do your next thing lay it on me veni sancte spiritus i can already feel it starting to ramp up again what wacky adventure is coming next what thing i do not believe myself capable of doing will be i asked to do how will i be stretched and challenged by my lord i m nearly done with school will it be that will it be gasp a path to marriage will it be cancer i dunno i just invite god to use me then marvel at the wonders i do very much wonder indeed posted in sharing time tagged god god s will goonies holy spirit jesus prayer surrender trinity wind leave a comment may 7 2022 by kelliejane a few minor confessions noto s brill artwork when my site is actually up thanks weird world war hackers i occasionally get hits on this gem so i was compelled to read it again recently a personal relationship i realize now that something i said in it repeatedly is actually partly inaccurate imma set the record straight i had actually seen comic book movies read comic books before the dream in which jesus appeared to me as chris hemsworth thor but no marvel stuff it just dawned on me as i was driving to the church today to do sacristan stuff i love batman i saw a spiderman i saw pretty much every x men up to when jean grey went kind of dark phoenix i even own comic books they re just really weird ones except for a couple of signed nathan edmondson black widow s he has a wildlife fund that you are more than welcome to donate to if you so choose https www ecodefensegroup org so yeah i am not sure where my head was at when i wrote that except literally everything is marvel now i had seen none of it i have since caught up slightly with that universe despite being mostly repetitive it is fun ragnarok being of course the best another confession i m kind of a female chauvinist pig actually kind of is self serving i actually am a female chauvinist pig i know it s terrible i know it s the lens through which i view the world despite intellectually knowing that men are my equal i just think they re cute i have been told that my brain works this way because i m actually afraid of men if i gave them any more power than being cute i would be afraid all the time which is the antithesis of my plucky heroine persona not okay i don t know if that s entirely true i think it s more that i ve never really been able to trust any men in my experience they all say one thing do another i ve been promised a lot it s amounted to lies or changed minds and i don t have any respect for people who don t do what they say blammo chauvinism but i also don t think that women are better than men maybe chauvinism isn t the right word i just don t believe i m slightly in awe of every woman who s believed in some idiot long enough to marry him the chances y all took some of you even seem happy that is amazing as a christian this is of course all wrong but time again i see men completely letting their wives down these are not women with unrealistic expectations fidelity occasional cheerfulness treating the kids like people like these are not big asks i also 100 accept that i am a pain in the ass i am infuriatingly independent and while i can be ordered around if i have any reason to respect your authoritah i can just as easily glare at you behind your back subvert your entire operation if i think you are being a horse s ass i will also bluntly call you out and i am oblivious to subtlety i can t read your damned mind you have to tell me believe that i will tell you someone whom i once loved very much said oh my god you are seven of nine while i laugh a lot more than she does he s not wrong get the thing done shut your gob stop whining let s cut out the bs present solutions or stop talking most human interaction is superfluous i want souls to directly touch this is a lot i ve had to come to grips with my space dominatrix personality in order to become a better spiritual director i have had to stare her in her little borg y face acknowledge how she has protected me also how she s driven people away and how she is not sad about that at all except i am definitely not the smartest being in the universe just the most stubborn if i all i have is jesus i m good i m really good he s the only man i trust but he s also like you could stand to soften a little some of my friends are confused by this because they only see the me that interacts with people who come to the church or how i deal with clients but the 3 people on the planet who know me best would tell you i came to this planet mainly to move mountains to not have anything in my way i am a little scary when i just say what is in my head i may as well have said resistance is futile this is not energy i need to quiet it is energy that is best channeled in service to my lord god is it why i m single yes likely it is will i regret this when i m in so much pain i cannot take care of myself maybe or maybe a man who can handle a cyborg will be part of my life by then and we will read quietly together sometimes cry laughing at stupid crap on youtube other times our home will be spotless until we are too weak to take care of it then we ll pay someone or i ll just pay someone myself pray for me y all i m a stone https www goodreads com author show 15755864 k_j_adan posted in sharing time tagged black widow chauvinism christ comic book movies comic books confession eco defense enneagram 8 independence jesus marvel natasha nathan edmondson ragnarok serving christ seven seven of nine softening soto leave a comment may 7 2022 by kelliejane not just the chick in the matrix a friend recently asked me to explain the trinity which has been the bane of much more learned men than myself for approximately 2000 years my own understanding of the trinity is apparently heresy so i am hesitant to share it but it honestly first clicked for me when i thought of god as water all encompassing flowing raining waving and jesus as ice solid tangible graspable and the holy spirit as steam or vapour something healing something we can inhale make part of us this is apparently horrifying to priests from a layperson s a scientist s perspective as these things are all water just in different states it makes sense but the key component i am missing of course is love priests generally are not good at explaining this which is frustrating when you are trying to help someone new to the whole concept i have looked at probably ten videos from ten different really smart engaging clergy persons nothing is appropriate for the person who s never been to mass i have been steeped in the trinitarian message for years so i feel it in my marrow but how do i convey years of repetition to a person who hasn t gone to mass i mean aside from recommending that someone goes to mass which of course i always do the closest non water explanation i have heard is that god is a substance in 3 persons which you know sounds like water to me this is also unhelpful father michael at my parish who does not record or write down his excellent homilies always cites sister mary elizabeth from when he was a little boy she says it s a mystery well okay that is kind of satisfying in a very catholic it s okay to not understand this because god is so big but this does not satisfy the non catholic questioner ever i suspect it does not satisfy many catholics either considering how many have stopped attending mass so i guess the best way i can hope to explain the trinity to someone is only to invite them to experience it it s a good prayer lord please show me the trinity please help me understand how you are love how that love is expressed in three persons you may as well throw in a prayer to help understand extra human physics too because i believe it has a lot to do with that as well it s possible also that some people feel removed from christ the holy spirit specifically because god is a much easier concept to grasp in some ways as pantheistic as our culture has become even pagans say the universe when they are speaking of something other greater one big overarching power is very ecumenical also economical but jesus was an actual person sometimes we can t wrap our heads around that why would the creator of the universe pour himself into a zygote risk developing in the womb where all manner of things can go wrong and be born where even more things can go wrong and be raised in a roman occupied state where he would never be anything other than a second class citizen and god whose mind is so vastly beyond ours that we cannot comprehend it smiles you need only a cursory understanding of world history to start to grasp when you really think about it why jesus had to be a man in that place at that time why when jesus physically died the holy spirit was given to the remaining apostles even as they hid from the jewish leadership of the time why they eventually came out of hiding emboldened by this spirit and proclaimed the son of god to their very deaths and we are still talking about it even the people who don t want to the trinity is some powerful physics addendum on june 12 2022 it is trinity sunday so every priest bishop with a podcast a youtube is trying to explain the trinity today i don t know if this helps but have a look quantum physics the thing even physicists struggle to discuss you can start at 7 59 but i invite you to watch the whole mass also have tissues on hand posted in sharing time tagged god holy spirit jesus love son of god the trinity trinity 1 comment december 28 2021 by kelliejane an ecstatic love most of us have no concept of how much god loves us i ve heard more often than not that god hates me from people within without the church it is the lie we tell ourselves because it s less painful for a distant other to hate us than to admit we ve taken on negative messages from supposed caregivers from exes from ourselves nothing is more untrue than god hates me mystics heck the actual bible describe god as a lover that we are the beloved pursued over hill dale until we utterly succumb to accept his advances this image does not quite hit right as the kids say for a lot of y all one we get all confused upset about eros two many of you have never felt desired or wanted or may not have had a lover love may have been used as a weapon against you that kind of love just doesn t evoke the profound warmth desire god has to be with you but who is always excited to see you never wants to leave your side wants to protect you laze around with you run around with you has seen you do all kinds of rank nonsense still loves you unconditionally the dog literally any dog nobody greets you like a dog except god who is even more ecstatic to see you if you can imagine that if you haven t walked into a church for a while don t worry you won t burst into flame you re only in danger of being love mauled by an energy screaming 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