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i let her get off the phone with me i asked her a very important question that the boy made sure i asked when they called are we allowed to have sex yet yes blog followers who aren t at this stage yet you ll want to warn your partners after your ivf transfer no sexual intercourse orgasms are allowed she said no this rule continues up until the first ultrasound so i called the boy with the great news and the bad news we chatted for a little bit and made plans on who to call notify at this time i went in the house and told my sister plus confessed my secret poas tests then began the phone calls and texts it s funny how different it is with an ivf pregnancy i think most people really only tell a very limited number of people if any of a positive pregnancy this early but when you have so many close friends and family members that follow your ivf journey you can t not tell them one of my favorite reactions was my mil s she called to say her congrats but then also admitted she was already at nieman marcus to buy some baby clothes it was really great to hear everyone s positive and uplifting responses i should also probably mention that my sister probably cried harder than me to her credit she is pregnant with twins andy got off of work a little early and we had a celebration dinner at cheesecake factory he even told me that he was taking the next day friday off to spend with me so what s next i go in for another beta test on monday and then we will schedule a third one after that they are making sure the numbers grow accordingly then after 3 beta tests we will schedule an ultrasound sonogram such great news you can bet that i ve already downloaded some pregnancy apps on my phone saved some pregnancy websites to my favorites and the boy already bought me what to expect when you re expecting i ve also found out my due date which they calculate using the first day of your last period little aquasquirt long story regarding the boy wanting to name our first boy aquaman i m only half kidding but since we don t know if it s a boy or a girl it s just a squirt p is schedule to arrive april 8 2015 as of today 8 1 i measure my pregnancy as 4w3d 4 weeks and 3 days here goes nothing thanks so much to everyone who is following along and blessing us with their prayers kind thoughts and loving words also a very important thank you thank you god for answered prayers that was my very positive part of my blog now in typical me form i need to be grounded for a little bit i want to take a moment and make note of some fears and reservations we are still very very early in our pregnancy journey lots of things could happen plus with my pcos i have a higher chance of complications miscarriage hopefully being on metformin will decrease these chances so we are not making the information public until we pretty much have to when i start showing even if means going past the 1st trimester it also means that i am constantly in the background on pins and needles and nervous but i m letting myself be positive i m not letting myself do things like google pcos miscarriage ivf or any such search and read horror stories i m letting myself look at baby things i m letting myself discuss with andy baby things i m letting myself be happy but just keeping myself aware beta bfp ivf poas pregnant 11dp5dt less than 24 hours july 30 2014 melissa 4 comments it s less than 24 hours until my beta test nerves are creeping up much to my surprise this 2ww which won t actually be two full weeks hasn t been too bad i m sure part of it is just how busy i ve been i ve been working on my classroom it s almost done i ve had other planning and meeting events for school i ve been planning and prepping for melanie s baby shower it s this sunday in two weekends we are having a birthday party for sophie plus the in laws will be in town then the weekend after that andy is having a beer and diaper shower for andrew melanie s husband which of course means i m planning a lot of it and will be making food for it so i ve just had a lot on my mind lately with all that being said i also started thinking that maybe something was just plain wrong with me i wasn t thinking about the pregnancy test i had no desire to poas aren t all these things that ivf ers have on their mind constantly during their 2ww what was wrong with me did i not care anymore had i lost hope i started worrying myself as i said before there were lots of things going on that could make me think that i was pregnant but i didn t want to put that much weight in because they could also be side effects of the meds i was taking or early signs of a period what kinds of things am i talking about my breasts are super tender and at times sore i ve been waking up in the middle of the night almost every night with a cramping sensation and a need to go to the bathroom however it always ended up in a bout of constipation i ve also been waking up in the middle of the night because i ve been super hot there are points during the day when i feel like i hit a wall and just get super tired i get a bloated full feeling also today i thought i was personally going crazy because i was watching an episode of glee before going to work and a point in the show just made me start crying hard i never cry it wasn t until today that i had a desire to poas and the desire came on pretty strong i texted back and forth with my sister about it but argued my reasons why i didn t want to so tomorrow morning i go to have my blood drawn for the beta test i ve been personally fighting with how to handle this because you don t find out the results right away just like all my other blood tests you go in the morning and they call you with results later in the day most of the time it has been around 2 00pm so i have been nervous that it will be negative and i will be alone when i find out the results this is why my sister thought that i should poas while i am with the boy beforehand i had wrestled with the idea of having them just leave me a message and then the boy and i would just listen to it together later in the day but the boy was worried that they wouldn t leave a message that would give us an answer so we would wait all day and then get nothing conclusive and would have to wait until the next day to call them back so he thought maybe they should just call him but i just had several issues with that one i figured if it was positive he d probably call me right away with the great news but then at that same token if he didn t call me then i would know that it was negative and he was just waiting to come home and be with me so i would know if it was positive or negative either way i was afraid that during the wait of being with me he would tell someone else before me and that is not okay and i just think that i as the could be mom should get to find out first just like every other normal pregnancy so i ve decided that i m just going to receive the call myself if it s positive then great if it s negative then i ll just cry myself into a ball at home until he gets home i ve accepted these two scenarios what i would like to ask particularly to my close family and friends that read my blog is to please let us contact you when we re ready with any results we want to share i just imagined today what it would be like if i find out it is negative and then i get an onslaught of texts and phone calls asking me how are you have you heard anything how d it go what d you find out that would just be too hard thanks so much for respecting this request also thanks so much for all of your encouraging words your love your support and your prayers 2ww beta ivf poas symptoms 4dp5dt july 23 2014 melissa 2 comments 4dp5dt 4 days past 5 day transfer 8 days until the test i can honestly say that i have no desire to take a hpt i just don t feel like taking a test that could unnecessarily make me falsely disappointed or excited the boy has already asked me to take one he said please do it for me i won t even tell you what it says i ll just look at it nope i wouldn t do it however the whole craziness of analyzing every little feeling is in full effect what does that mean it means my whole day goes like this does that cramp mean i m pregnant my body hurts am i pregnant what s that tingling pain am i pregnant my nipples are sore am i pregnant i feel absolutely nothing right now am i not pregnant this goes on in my head all day long every day not to mention the last two days i ve been hit with a tiredness and dizziness at around 3 4pm accompanied with feeling extremely nauseated monday and tuesday late afternoon i spent about 2 3 hours in bed napping laying down and unable to eat dinner unless it was toast and or soup the evil natured part of it is that all of the early signs of pregnancy are also side effects of the progesterone and estradiol meds i m taking they are also early signs of an on coming period why one thing i will say is that i m not letting my whole skeptic negative self completely take over this time i m letting andy and even myself talk like i could be pregnant and letting him handle my belly like there s a baby in there i e he s talking to it kissing it rubbing on it etc oh well did i mention it s 8 more days image friends fans anyone july 22 2014 melissa leave a comment are you in there little fetus in nine months will you come greet us i will buy you some adidas 2ww fetus friends ivf embryos july 20 2014 melissa 1 comment i know two posts in one day must be important it is just fyi today is 1dp5dt 1 day past 5 day transfer the call came at 4 22 pm what was i doing brushing my teeth yep it was that lazy of a day that i hadn t brushed my teeth until 4 22 in the afternoon what they told me to relax i was following dr s orders so i had to spit out my mouth full of toothpaste and talk to them with a foamy mouth it was quite entertaining seeing it in the bathroom mirror occasionally trying to spit without him being able to tell anyways it was dr goering the ivf lab director that assisted dr marsh with the transfer he called with great news and let me just add that he was super nice on the phone i wouldn t normally expect that from a lab person but i guess he s used to making these kinds of calls he said that they are going to freeze all three of the embryos read cryopreservation yay after a mini celebration on the phone i asked if any embryo was better than the others he said that two of them were graded higher but that all three were good he said that as of yesterday they knew two of them were good enough to freeze this is great news because dr marsh said that if she had a preference between embryos being freeze ready on day 5 or day 6 after the retrieval day 5 is better dr goering also said we are very selective on choosing embryos that we will freeze we want to make sure they are strong enough to make it through the process so that tells me that our remaining three embryos are awesome what does this mean if this cycle of ivf doesn t work we can go through the process again with a frozen embryo we don t have to do all the injections we would skip right to the drugs that build up my lining and then do a frozen embryo transfer if this cycle of ivf does work we could do it again same as above to try to have more kids he ended the conversation with well wishes hoping he hears good news from us soon and saying that he hopes we won t even need the extra embryos or at least not anytime soon i would definitely not mind receiving news from him again it was a very pleasant conversation but i may be biased because of the content of the call thanks for all the prayers and positive thoughts it has been a wonderful weekend cryopreservation embryos ivf embryo transfer july 20 2014 melissa 2 comments it s 8 06 am on saturday transfer day morning the phone rings i m abruptly woken up from my sleep i look at my cell phone it s the phone number for my re omigosh what do they want something is wrong something happened to the embryos they re going to cancel i answer the phone and it s turri my dr s ivf coordinator she s calling to ask if we could move the appointment up from 11 00am to 10 00am whew my heart can jump back down and go back to beating normally i tell her that it was perfectly fine the sooner the better i guess she noticed some nervousness in my voice because she immediately followed with don t worry nothing is wrong with the embryos they re perfectly fine yay well there was no going back to bed after that i immediately got of bed and made myself breakfast luckily i was able to eat and drink whatever i wanted before this procedure it was much less invasive unfortunately two directions that i was given were to 1 drink one liter of water and 2 don t go to the bathroom prior to the appointment ugh i dread these kinds of appointments i ve had to do this a couple of times before for different things they are the worst especially because whatever the appointment is it always involves them pressing down on your already over filled bladder plus i m pretty convinced i have a weak bladder anyways well at around 9 10 i took a shower and cheated and went pee a little it s habit when i have to take a shower i figured the appointment wasn t going to start right at 10 00 after my shower began the mission to fill my bladder i didn t have anything to exactly measure one liter so i just filled up my largest cup about 4 times and continued to drink in the car on the way there the clinic was almost completely empty nobody was even behind the reception desk understandably so as it was a saturday shortly after we signed in and sat down turri and dr marsh came out and called us in we were brought back to the hidden hospital in the clinic waiting in the recovery room was the same beautiful garb for me to put on for the procedure hospital gown cap and socks this time there was also and outfit for the boy to wear too he was able to come into the or with me for this procedure the dr said to go ahead and get dressed and when we re ready she has some good news for us what of course i follow directions and pick up my clothes to change as she starts walking away whereas the boy jumps in and says actually we re ready for good news now obviously he couldn t wait which was good because i m not patient either she smiled came back and told us we already have one embryo that s ready for freezing yay yay yay she said she was so excited to tell us she almost said it in the waiting room but was afraid someone might be in there and it could make them feel bad she said that the one they re putting in and the one they re freezing look really good here s our first baby pic here s a diagram of what an embryo should look like at day 5 look familiar so we have 4 embryos total they are going to put one back in me one will be frozen for later use and then two unknowns they said they would call sunday or monday with an update on these this was such great news we were already ecstatic that we even had one to use but we were worried...